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Bella~
I spent most of Sunday in a hung over stooper just waiting for the time to come when I could close down for the day and go back to bed. As if coming home drunk on Saturday night weren't enough now I would have to deal with my Dad dating Sue Clearwater. I didn't mind him dating I just never really thought he would. Alice and Edward went to Seattle for the day on Sunday. It shouldn't of bothered me but it did. Monday morning came to quickly for my liking. I was standing in the bathroom doing Lilly's hair. Usually I could do simple things to it like pony tails or a braid but today I was to distracted to do anything with it. She looked up at me in the mirror, her arms crossed over her chest. She looked irritated about something but I didn't know what I had done to make her make that sour face.
"What's wrong honey? I thought you wanted a ponytail." I said to her. She looked down at her shoes and shrugged,
"It's fine. I don't really care." she said sullenly. For my daughter not to care about her hair something major had to be wrong. I laid the brush and pony tail holder on the sink. I sat down on the closed toilet lid and pulled her to me. I stroked her hair and looked in her eyes,
"What's wrong?" I asked. She turned her face from me and closed her eyes,
"Nothing. It's just something dumb at school." she bit her lip like I always did when I was about to cry.
"What's going on at school?" I wondered. I was sure it was nothing other than the usual little brats picking on my kid. Lilly took one big step back and looked me dead in the eyes, "It's career day at school. Everyone else is having their Dad's come in and speak. I don't know who my daddy is. No one will tell me and it's not fair! I want to know!" she stomped her foot and balled her tiny hands into stubborn fists.
"Your my baby, remember?" this discussion was nothing new to us. We had been having it at least once a year since she was three. I often thought how easy it would be for me to pawn the question off on her father but until recently that was possible.
"I need a daddy." she said simply. Her bronze hair fell across the shoulders of her bright orange sweater. I looked into her bright green eyes and for the first time I wanted to tell her the truth. My mouth opened but nothing came out. I stuttered for a moment trying to find the right words to tell her Edward, Prince Edward was her father. Luckily, my dad saved me. "Breakfast time! Come on down." he called. Internally I sighed with relief. Lilly stood her ground in front of me, "I want to know." she said. I shook my head, "Baby, let's go have breakfast. It's to early for a stand off." I got up and took her hand bringing her down the steps with me. I could tell she was still mad but neither of us were prepared for what we saw when we came down the last set of stairs. My dad was standing in the living room with his arm around Sue Clearwater. My eyes bugged out of my head for a moment until I remembered my manners.
"Lilly. I want you to meet my friend Sue. She was nice enough to come make breakfast for us so Mom could have a break." Dad informed her. Lilly tentatively let go of my hand and walked over to them. Sue knelt down to Lilly's eye level offering her a hand to shake. "Hello Lilly." she said sweetly. My eyes moved from them over to my Dad. Our eyes met. His expression asked me if this was okay but it didn't matter now. It was done. "Hello." Lilly said just as quiet. Sue smiled wider.
"Sue you know my daughter Bella." He said formally. I walked to them doing my best to look Sue in the eyes after Saturday night.
"It's nice to see you again." I muttered. Sue shook my hand and smiled, her cheeks tinting pink just a little bit. I smiled a little to make her more comfortable. It must of all been to much for Dad. He announced it was time to eat and ushered us all into the kitchen.
Lilly wouldn't speak to me the entire ride to drop her off at school. She slammed the back door to the jeep as she got out. I didn't blame her for being angry. It was like this every time and by the end of the day she would of forgotten all about it. I drove to the coffee house and noticed the lights weren't on. Alice's side was totally closed down and so was mine. Usually Alice was up bright and early ready to work. She was so annoying in the morning sometimes. I got out of the car and turned in a circle, looking all around me for her car. I didn't see it. I walked up to the back door and let myself in. something was wrong. Something felt so off. I couldn't put my finger on it. I walked through flipping on lights as I unlocked the front door for the day. It only took a minute before Rose let herself in.
"Hey. What brings you in so early?" I said with little interest. Rose sat down on a stool at the counter.
"I am not cut out for this house wife bullshit. The minute Emmett leaves for Edwards I am bored out of my mind. I was wondering if maybe you needed some help around here. It cant be much different then tendin bar." she rambled. I reached over patting her shoulder gently.
"Rose if you wanna help out that's fine. I can't afford to pay you though." my mind ran over my finances again.
"That's okay. Turns out my big strong husband is opening his own business." Rose glowed with pride. I gasped, "What! How?" I said. She moved off her stool and came around the counter. She dug around for an apron and put it on as she explained, "Turns out Edward wants a partner. Emmett's gonna be the muscle and Edwards gonna be the brains." Rose said. I stood there for a moment with my jaw hanging open. "Honey are you alright?" she asked. I smiled tightly, "Yep. Today is just full of surprises. Already this morning I had a woman in my kitchen cookin me breakfast and my Dad is dating! Did you know that? DATING!" I threw my hands up. Rose laughed, "The chief? No way. His only steady relationship is with the lake on a Sunday."
"Turns out no. he's all in love with Sue Clearwater. Selfish jackass!" I said. Rose leaned against the counter and grinned, "Harry's widow?" she whistled, "this town will live off that for weeks honey." I put my palms on the counter and moved myself on to it, "Don't I know it. Oh and Lilly is the only little girl without a dad and it turns out as a parent I'm chopped liver. She needs a dad all of a sudden like he's an accessory. She's to little to understand this stuff. And here I sit in the middle of my life and Alice doesn't show up for work. Guess she had so much fun shopping with Edward she couldn't come in today." I said bitterly. I folded my arms over my chest. I felt my lips fall down into a frown. I didn't even try to stop it. I didn't care if the whole town saw me being less then happy.
"So let me understand this. First Lilly wants a Dad. Second your Dad has a girlfriend and she came over this morning. Third you are jealous Edward took Alice shopping in Seattle. Does that cover it?" she asked earnestly.
"Yeah pretty much." I mumbled. Rose smiled, "All these problems are solvable. First, honey let the Lilly Edward thing go. You are both smart capable adults. You can both figure out a way to explain this to the seven year old. Second, your dad dating is awesome. He deserves to be happy. You should be happy for him. And last but not least, the only way for you to not be jealous of Alice and Edward is to tell Edward how you feel. You can't blame him for sharing his time with someone else if you haven't told him you want him to be spending it with you. Now we are gonna put on our big girl panties and do all the above mentioned things, right?" she said sweetly.
"yes to the first two. No to the last one. I can't do that." I slid off the counter and stomped to the kitchen. I was going to do what I did best, bake myself stupid.
"You're a fool Bella!" Rose called after me. I pulled out the flour effectively ending our conversation.
Alice~
I opened my swollen eyes early the next day. All I saw was the hardwood floor beneath me. My shoulder was stiff. My ribs ached but it wasn't from sleeping on the hardwood floor, it was from the sobs that racked my body after Edwards news. A father. I had a father my entire life and no one told me. How many times had I sat in the Masen's kitchen after school doing home work and raiding their fridge? How many times had I gone to there house to take pictures before a school dance? How could I have not known? Why didn't something inside me scream "Him! He's your dad stupid!!" I always thought my Dad left before I was born. I never hated him for it. I just hoped he was happy and had found a place in the world. I pushed myself up off the floor bringing my knees to my chest. I laid my arms across my knees and sighed. I was a ball of mixed emotions. I didn't hate him but I wanted answers and I needed to get them by myself. Edward would offer to go with me if I told him what I wanted to do but that wouldn't solve anything. This was something I needed to do for myself, alone.
I showered and dressed. I did my hair and make up. I wanted to look flawless when I stood toe to toe with the woman that held all the answers. I didn't know if she would even speak to me but I had to try. I walked out the side door to get in my car. I stopped when I noticed Edward sitting up against my front door sound asleep. He had been there all night. It hit me then that I had a brother. A brother who had a daughter. I smiled gently to myself. I had always been Lilly's god mother, her "Aunt" for all intents and purposes but now I really was her aunt. Deep inside that tiny bit of knowledge eased my heart a little. I put my hand out to wake him than drew it back. I had to do this alone and if I woke him I would never get the chance. I continued down the drive way on foot and walked slowly to the Masen's house.
Standing on the door step my knees shook. I wanted to run. I wanted to go away from this house as fast as my legs would carry me but I couldn't. I wouldn't do that. I wanted to be the ball buster my mother had raised all alone. I wanted to stand here and face her. I wanted the truth. I raised my hand and knocked on the door. It was early. Long before nine in the morning when most of the town would be up and about starting the day. No one answered. I knocked again, this time harder. After what felt like an eternity the door opened. The look on Mrs. Masen's face said it all.
"I know everything." I said looking her straight in the eye. That was a lie. I knew nothing. My letter from him was still unopened on the floor in my foyer.
"I knew this day would come but not so soon." she whispered. Her body shook as she fought back tears.
"May I come in or are we going to do this on the porch for the world to see?" my words shocked me. It wasn't like me to be rude. She moved out of the way and I walked into my fathers house.
"What do you want?" she asked curtly. She wrapped her robe tight around herself and walked into the kitchen. I followed slowly behind her.
"I want the truth. My mother is dead. I can't ask her. Edward Senior is gone. You are the only one left to tell the tale." I crossed my arms over my chest. She didn't offer me a place to sit so I stood in her kitchen and waited.
"What is it you want to know?" she asked me, her teeth clenched her body stiff.
"Is it true? Is Edward Senior my biological father?" "We don't know. Your mother was also sleeping with her husband." she said. Her frail thin fingers held on to the counter to keep herself up right.
"So you're saying no one really knows?" I asked. Her eyes shot up open, she stared at me incredulously.
"Yes. You weren't told because he didn't want you to know. He didn't want you. He made his choice. He chose his true family. Edward and I. Your mother was fling. She was a passing fancy. I was the love of his life. Not her." her words pierced me but I didn't let it show.
"I think you're wrong. I think they meant something to each other and that's what galls you. Not that I was born. Not that I exists, it galls that he loved her but spent his life with you." my words shocked me. I clamped my mouth shut tight.
"What don't you understand? He didn't want you. Dress it up however lets you sleep through the night but he didn't love you. He didn't love your mother. He loved me." she pointed to herself as she shouted. I simply shook my head,
"You've been telling yourself that lie so long you've forgotten what the truth is." I shouted back.
"How dare you!" she screamed.
"How dare I? I grew up in this house! Edward and Bella were my best friends and everyone kept this from me. I've walked around thinking I was alone in the world and then I find out I've got a brother." I wanted to sit down and cry some more but this wasn't the moment. I would say my peace and leave her alone.
"You don't have a brother. I have a son. Edward had a son. You have nothing." her tongue was like venom in my ears.
"He's my brother." I said softly. I knew it was true.
"You have no proof." she said. I smiled softly,
"I don't need any. He knows it and I know it." a look of sudden awareness came across her face,
"Edward knows?" she said quietly. Her hand came up over her mouth to stiffle the sob. "Oh god how does he know? We were so careful!" she shrieked.
"He knows everything. We have copies of the will. We have letters written in Edward Sr. own hand. No court would deny that as proof." I said. Mrs. Masen stared off into space like a deer caught in headlights.
"I have one more question and then I'll leave you alone. I won't ask you for anything, ever." I told her.
"What is it? What more can you possibly want to know?" her voice was a harsh whisper.
"Was Lilly the reason you kept Edward away for so long?" I asked. She shook her head,
"we kept him away because of you. He came to close to finding out so we convinced him to go away. Once he was gone. I told him she moved on." she admitted it. It was true. I was angry with her for so many things but this escpially. I turned and walked away from her.
"No one will believe you. Your mother was trash. You are trash too! No one will ever believe it." she yelled after me. I closed my eyes and walked out her front door for the last time.
A/n-Okay just a little bit more of Liz being herself and then we wash our hands of her. I am so ready to do it lol. Okay you guys show me so much love with your reviews. Thank you! Question, if I had a twitter would anyone subscribe? I would post progress reports for my stories....let me know!
