"Go to sleep girls, it's late. You need your rest." My mom called from the front of the bus where he bunk was located. Demi and Mandy were already asleep so I was the only one up after a great show, I was exhausted. Of course I was awake thinking of Nick. It's been a couple of days since Demi caught me thinking about Nick. That still hasn't stopped me. He still is on my mind most of the time. It's really frustrating. I try and I try to get over him but nothing works. Well, at least this will get good songs out of me, always a plus. I still can't help but think that Nick hates me for 7 Things. I really hope he doesn't think that I'm a bitch. The thing is I'm not going to apologize for writing the song. I'm not going to apologize for my music. It's how I express myself and he as an artist should see that.
My eyelids felt heavy as I continued to think about Nick. I knew I'd be seeing him soon at the big Disney Channel party they always planned for us in a couple of weeks. I wasn't ready to face him. I wasn't at all. It scared me to think about the outcome and that's something I didn't want to end badly. Suddenly, Demi woke up. It was about 45 minutes after my mom had told us to go to sleep. She looked at me strangely. I asked, "What's wrong Demi? Something's bothering you. Don't try and lie to me because you're a shitty liar." Demi chuckled and said, "No, I'm fine. I just really want to tell you something that's been on my mind, lately." "Shoot." I replied. Demi took a deep breath and said, "Okay, Miles. I don't want you to be mad at me or anything but I like Trace." "What?" I said. "You know, like-like." I rolled my eyes and said, "We're not in second grade, Dems. I know what you mean. Its okay, I guess. I noticed the ways you guys are around each other. I'm honestly not surprised. I say go for it." I gave her an encouraging smile. "Do you think he'll like me the same way I liked him?" "He better! He'd be crazy not to like you. But Dems, I have to warn you. Trace isn't the nicest guy on the planet. He can be a real dick sometimes. I'm only saying this because I love you. But don't worry; if he hurts you I will personally kick his ass. Hard."Demi laughed. "I'm sure it'll be fine, Miley. Thanks." Demi smiled. After that Demi and I quickly fell asleep.
A couple days later after conversation with Demi, I found out from Mandy later that Trace had liked her back & had asked her out. I'm not sure why I didn't hear this directly from Demi but I guess she didn't want me to feel weird about it. I guess I understand that. I'd make sure to talk about it later with her. I'm still pretty nervous about the party, though. I don't know what can happen. I don't want to think about it. I don't want to see Nick; I know he'll be there with his brothers. Prepare for extreme awkwardness. That equals no bueno. At least I'll have Demi and Mandy by my side. They'll always be there for me no matter what. I know Nick will be there with Selena. And that bothers the hell out of me. I don't have anything against her, she's a sweet girl and she's really talented. Her being with Nick just makes things complicated. And like I said before, I feel bad for putting Demi in the position she is now. I think it's interesting when fans think that we're all a big Disney family. It's not exactly like that. It's probably more like a Disney Version of the reality TV show, "The Hills" with Lauren Conrad and Audrina Patridge. I think for Demi, it's hard to be best friends with two girls who've dated the same guy and have drama. It just doesn't fit together. But I guess if Nick's happy, I'm happy, which is probably complete bull shit. I'm just tired of moping around and not doing anything about wanting him back because I know deep down he still loves me, whether he chooses to admit or not. He knows it.
A couple hours later we arrived at the hotel in the next city. I had complete forgot that I'd be playing in the venue me and Nick broke up in tonight. That's just so great, not. It's quite frustrating. It really is. Trying to get over him and you end up in the same venue where you broke up. Fabulous. I think I'm finally accepting the fact that I still have feelings for him. I've been thinking about this a lot. I have, trust me. He's all I think about before I fall asleep. Which is corny, but still. I think I'll tell him this weekend at the Disney even party thing. Or whatever is. I'm just afraid of his reaction. I think I'll talk to Kevin about it, he's always been my older brother and I love him. Even if we haven't talked since the break up. I still love him and miss him a lot. He's always been my rock. I know I could always come to him or Joe. Or even Danielle. I love her as well. I'll have to wait after the show tonight, though. I don't have any time now as my mom called me for sound check. I don't think that tonight, I'll make any changes to 7 things. I've done it a lot, lately. I think that's what my fans are expecting. I think tonight, they'll understand that I'm not angry with him anymore. That I've finally gotten over it, which isn't true because I'm still completely and utterly in love with him. Oh, boy. This is going to be a long night.