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Chapter 29
Nessie's POV
"So where are we going now?"
After spending the morning just relaxing by the beach on Shipwreck Bay, we were now back on the sailboat and headed toward our next location. I remembered reading something about some caves and turtles in Aunt Alice's schedule but wasn't entirely sure.
"Now I'm taking you to the National Marine Park of Zakynthos, which is a protected area in Lagans Bay. It was established for the protection of certain sea life, specifically the Caretta-Caretta turtle, under danger of extinction."
"So, what are we doing there exactly?" – Jacob was lying back on the side of the boat, with me sitting on his lap.
"You'll get to actually meet the turtles, see where they live and get to know the area."
"Sounds awesome." – Sarcasm was palpable in every syllable of Jake's words.
I turned to give him a reproachful look, which somehow changed to a smile when I laid eyes on him.
"It's turtles Ness… turtles! I mean, they're not even fast like dolphins or cool like sharks."
"But they're cute!"
"Cute isn't exactly synonymous to exciting. I mean, a baby is cute but you don't see me rushing to spend an entire afternoon with one."
"Wait, you used to spend entire days with me?" – I immediately regretted having said this out loud, because the boat guy was steering the boat just a few feet away from us. I turned to look at him and saw he was not paying attention to our conversation, so I relaxed enough to continue.
"That was different and you know it." – Jake was whispering now, obviously also concerned with the guy catching on to our conversation. – "You were extremely interesting."
"Well, I'm sure the turtles will be too."
"Fine, I'm not complaining… as long as I get to be with you, my mouth is shut."
"Good boy."
Jake stuck his tongue out like a dog and began panting like one, leaning in closer and liking the side of my face playfully. I giggled but pushed him away.
"You're so gross! I have to teach my doggy some manners."
"As long as I get treats when I behave." – He wiggled his eyebrows and continued to act like a dog, tickling me by pressing his nose to my neck and pretending to smell me.
"What kind of treats?"
"You know what kind." – He whispered to my neck; the sensation of his warm breath and the slight grace of his lips making me shiver.
"Hmm… well, then you'll have to behave."
"I plan to."
We both laughed as the boat began to make its way toward a bay.
"Welcome to the National Marine Park of Zakynthos." – A beautiful Greek woman was waiting for us at the museum and offices situated high on the mountain, overlooking the bay. She had long flowing wavy brown hair and despite the fact that she was wearing a not so stylish gray uniform, she still seemed to me like a Greek goddess of some sort. I turned to see Jacob's reaction to her, since she was so breathtakingly beautiful, for a human; and was pleased to see nothing but indifference in his eyes.
We introduced ourselves and began to walk outside and down toward the bay.
"We can begin with a short tour of the protected area. Then we can head back to the museum where you can get a glimpse of all the flora and fauna we're protecting. And finally we have a special treat for you."
Jacob nudged me when the word "museum" came up.
"Um, I think we'll skip the museum, if you don't mind."
"Oh, of course."
Jacob smiled at me and kissed the top of my head before continuing the walk down.
We walked all around the area as she explained to us everything about the site; about how the park was established to protect the nesting beaches of the Caretta-Caretta, a turtle whose habitat is the Mediterranean Sea and lays her eggs during the summer on these very beaches. She explained that these turtles are in danger of extinction due to the growth in tourism to the island, telling us that even an airport was built near this beach of Laganas where many female turtles used to lay their eggs.
I was completely interested in the guide's story, which extended far beyond the turtles and into the other wildlife they protect as well as all the ecosystems that can be found in Zakynthos. Jacob on the other hand seemed bored; for someone who comes from a culture of respect and love of nature, for someone who basically prefers the forest to the city and for someone who, let's face it, turns into an "animal" every other day, he really wasn't enjoying this walk through nature.
"Are you bored?" – I whispered far too low for any human to hear.
"No."
"Jacob…"
"Ok, ok… I am, but I'm behaving so I can get my treat." – He gave me a teasing smile and I couldn't help but laugh out loud, causing the guide to turn around surprised, considering she hadn't said anything funny. Jake kept smiling in amusement as my face turned beet red from embarrassment.
"Well, that's all I can tell you about the work we do here… so, would you like to meet them?"
We made it all the way down to the beach and were led to an area that was surrounded by a fence. There was a man there taking notes and surveying the sand.
"This is one of the beaches where the turtles lay their eggs… my partner here is counting how many nests have already been created here."
"So, where are the turtles?"
"In there, in the water… I see you have your swimsuits on, why don't you get in and I'll introduce you properly."
I was so excited I stripped in a hurry and dove into the water, finding that Jacob dove just a few seconds behind me. The lady laughed at our urgency to get in and took a bucket full of fish and gave it to us, walking in to where the water reached her calves.
"Here you go, just offer it to them and they will come."
We swam deeper into the ocean and sure enough, a minute later, several huge turtles appeared. When I say they were huge, it's because they were enormous, about 2 meters long. Jake and I both got underwater so we could fully see them.
It was amazing to actually feed them and get a chance to caress them and have them swim around us. Jacob was smiling the entire time, playfully feeding them by tempting them with the fish before letting go and letting them have it.
We swam underwater for the longest time, coming up for air from time to time and then returning to the turtles. After some time the turtles began to retreat farther into the ocean and there were no more fish to lure them back, so we reluctantly resurfaced and came back to the beach.
"That was fun! I didn't think they'd be so big!" – Jacob was shaking his head like a puppy, spraying water all over me.
"Good, I'm glad you enjoyed that."
"When do they lay their eggs, can we see them do it?"
"They do it at night time, but I'm afraid we really don't encourage coming down to see them, because they can get scared by our presence and not do it properly. Now, for the egg hatching, that's a whole other story; we get a lot of volunteers who come and help the little ones make it to the ocean. You could take a trip back here, around October, and see it for yourselves."
"Yeah, we'll do that."
"We will?" – The prospect of coming back here was crazy good, and since Jacob seemed confident in his response, I had to make sure if he was serious. He turned and nodded, making my insides dance with happiness.
"Good, very good… then we will be expecting you. Well, I'm afraid I have some work to do, so you may take another look around if you like and when you're ready to leave, I'll get a taxi to take you to where you're going next. The man who brought you on the boat gave me instructions."
Aunt Alice had really gone all out, planning this thing with perfection and miles away. It was all so elaborate and mysterious, different people giving us clues to our next locations, that it almost seemed something out of a mystery novel.
We decided to go ahead and ask for the taxi right away, so after we got dried off our ride arrived. This time the trip took a little longer as we took a lonely road headed west, practically going through the entire Zakynthos Island. Jacob and I both slept in the car, still somewhat tired from our "extracurricular nighttime activities". Apparently we were headed toward the West Coast of the island, a far less transited and wilder area.
After an hour and a half drive and nap, we got to the dropping point. The sun was already coming down, making me wonder if we'd have time to head back to the villa considering we were mere hours away from it getting dark out.
We paid the taxi and found a man with a sign that had our name on it. He looked a lot like the guy that had taken us on boat earlier, so I imagined they were related and this boat thing was a family business.
"Hello, hello… come now, we have to hurry before they close the dock and don't allow us to navigate."
"Where are we going?"
"The famous Blue Caves, I'll tell you about them on the boat, let's hurry."
We practically ran to his boat, which was more of a yacht, far bigger than the one earlier, and without much delay, took off. Once we were several yards away from the dock, he turned to us and lowered the speed.
"Ok, so… the Blue Caves… they are one of Zakythos' most amazing natural attractions. They're basically arches created in the mountain due to the erosion of the water, so you can go inside them swimming or diving. The unique element of the blue caves is that they reflect the blue color of the waters in them and at the same time mirror the shine of the sky reflected on their surface. This series of bright reflection creates an effect that many people call "magical", the atmosphere that is created inside is surreal, believe me. And the good thing is this amazing effect is best appreciated at sunrise or sunset, so we're just in time."
We got closer and closer to the mountain until the cave was visible.
"This is Kianoun, the biggest of the Blue Caves."
"So, what now?" – Jacob was standing up now, looking into the mysterious and yet entrancing cave.
"Now you go into the water… you do know how to swim, yes?"
Jacob rolled his eyes at me and sarcastically answered - "I think we'll manage". So the man steered closer until his boat was nearly touching the mountain wall.
"Ok, since it's pretty deep I always give the tourists this." – The man handed us two donut shaped lifesavers. – "You can hold on to them or get on top and ride them; I've seen people enjoy it much better than swimming the entire time; so there you go. I'll go around sail around a bit to give you some privacy and I'll come back in two hours, sound good?"
We nodded, took the lifesavers and took our clothes off again, leaving only our swimsuits on. You would think that by now I'd be bored with the water, that by now the prospect of getting in yet another time would be uninteresting, but for some reason, it wasn't. I was glad, even relieved to get back into the warm soothing Mediterranean water and I could tell Jake was too. So we dove in and swam toward the entry, using the lifesavers as floaters.
I don't think anything could have prepared me for what I saw once we got inside. "Magical" doesn't even begin to describe it, not one bit. It was as if Greek gods really did exist and decided to create a sanctuary for themselves; a place filled with beauty and mystery and enchantment, where mere mortals would not have the honor to enter. That is what it looked like, a place of worship and reverence.
I immediately felt a surge of happiness overtake me and an immense feeling of gratefulness for being so blessed to be witnessing the most beautiful place on Earth with the man I adore.
"Wow." – Jacob was looking around just as stunned as me.
"I know… how is it possible that I'd never heard of this place?"
"I have no idea, but I am truly falling in love with Pixie."
We both laughed, still very much focused on taking it all in. Everything inside was vibrating with reflections of light in all different shades of blue and turquoise. The rocky surface looked striking, with the swirls of light moving to the rhythm of the water and igniting from time to time when the Sun's direct rays would penetrate the space. Even my and Jacob's skin seemed to be glowing because of the shimmering effect. The whole atmosphere inside was otherworldly, to say the least.
"Isn't this the most wonderful thing you've ever seen?"
"No."
I turned to look at Jacob with incredibility, because I was sure that in my entire lifetime I would never encounter a more amazing place; and considering Jacob has never traveled farther than North America, there was no way he'd ever seen something better.
"What?"
"No."
"That's not possible Jake, what on Earth could be more wonderful than this?"
He swam closer to me so that our lifesavers where touching, one in front of the other just like us. We where face to face and I couldn't help but stare at Jacob's beauty as the light kept reflecting on his skin and made his eyes look like they were blazing.
"I'm looking at it."
I just stood there spellbound by his words, not able to speak or react in any way. I couldn't handle so much happiness all at once and definitely couldn't handle the overwhelming beauty of the space mixed with the way Jacob was looking at me.
"Did you hear me?"
I blinked once, still unable to respond and still held captive by his blazing eyes.
"Nothing will ever compare to you."
For some reason my brain was experiencing malfunction, because it started playing the Sinead O'Connor song "Nothing compares to you" over and over again, annoying the hell out of me. Jacob half smiled at me, unaware of the demented song in my head.
"You're everything. You're the air I breathe, the Sun that shines above me, the wet leaves I walk over, the blood that runs though my veins and everything else in between. Without you there's nothing and I'm nothing."
I just kept looking at him. For some reason, even though he'd already said things like this to me before, this time it was somehow more intense and real and honest. It felt as if it were the first time he was declaring his love.
"Renesmee are you listening to me?"
Hearing my complete name come out of Jacob mouth, something I'd never heard before, brought me back from my muteness. I reacted, doing a double take and making Jake smile wider.
"Renesmee?" – I lifted my brows in surprise. Jacob smiled and sheepishly looked up at me through his eyelashes.
"Thought that might get your attention…"
"I was paying attention; I just didn't know what to say."
"You don't have to say anything… you could show me." – He shyly asked, taking my hand and leading it to his face. – "I love when you show me things."
So I showed him how surprised I was to hear him say my name, because showing him what all the other things he'd said before had meant to me felt like an overload of emotions he might not understand.
"I'd never said your name out loud like that before; felt good."
"Sounded good… say it again."- I projected.
"Renesmee."
"Again." – I pushed my lifesaver aside and held on to Jacob's, closing the distance between us. He took in my face before speaking again.
"Renesmee?"
"Yes?"
"Do you love me?"
For some reason I pulled my hand from his face, making him frown slightly and search my face for the reason. This time I needed to answer him out loud.
"No."
"No?" – Jacob pulled himself closer to me and started caressing my arms as I held on to the lifesaver. "You don't?"
He seemed half amused and half worried, which was absolutely cute.
"No… I love my parents, I love my grandparents and aunts and uncles and Quil and Embry and Seth and Amanda… but I wouldn't die if they did. Without you there's nothing for me either."
His face lit up and he leaned forward to kiss my cheek, the way he used to when I was a kid, but lingering a little longer. He then pulled back enough to look at my face but remaining so close our noses were almost touching and the lifesaver between us was in danger of bursting.
After a few minutes of just floating there, staring at each other, I broke the silence.
"What did it feel like? ... When you imprinted?" – I always wondered about that moment, but up until now hadn't found the right time to ask. Jacob's face lit up again as he searched my eyes, as if the memory were embedded in them.
"It was… amazing. It's like you're holding on to all these balloons by their strings, each one representing an area or person in your life, each one tying you down with worries and obligations and wants… and then… suddenly… they all get cut and released, each one no longer attached to you, each one drifting into the abyss and becoming discarded as they get farther and farther away, until you can't even remember why they mattered in the first place. And then… you realize you're not left alone or empty, because all these balloons are replaced by a new one, a better one, the only one you would ever want to be tied down to."
"And you were ok with that? With letting go of everything?" – It seemed like an awfully radical change in a matter of seconds, something I still couldn't really wrap my head around.
"Yes, because my life started making sense the moment I saw you."
"I wish I could remember… what it felt like for me."
"Blondie was holding you up in the air and… you looked at me. I don't know if you felt anything back then, but we just looked at each other for the longest time."
"Did anyone notice? Right away I mean."
"No, I wasn't in wolf form so my pack wasn't connected to me at the time… Rosalie was so happy to have you that she barely noticed I was behind her… and Edward was upstairs, with Bells."
"Is that when he thought mom would die?"
"She was dead."
"Why weren't you upstairs too? Mom told me you were there when she gave birth to me, why didn't you stay with her?"
"She was… dying and I… I thought I was in love with her… I couldn't take it, so I went downstairs, drenched in her blood and knowing I'd lost her. You see, when she was dying and you were taken away, I… I couldn't feel it anymore, that thing I used to feel for her, that pull… I thought it was gone because she was dead, because she was no longer in her body… but the truth is, it was gone because you were."
I imagined dad and what it must have been like to think mom was dead… and because of me. The image was horrible. So many times they'd told me the story but made it seem like not a big deal, but hearing Jacob describe how he thought mom was dead, well, it was clear it had been a big deal.
"Did he… did he blame me? Did you blame me?" – Something about my question made Jacob brake eye contact and look down… unwilling.
"You did?" – His face was all the answer I needed, but I still wanted to hear it from him.
"Yes… but I didn't know, I was confused and lost… I couldn't see the big picture." – His eyes were pleading, as if begging me not to get offended or mad at him, but the truth is, I couldn't get mad at him, because in a way they were right, I'd almost killed her.
"Nessie? I'm sorry… you have to understand, when she was pregnant with you, I… I loved her even more and I thought I'd lose her. As if someone were trying to take you away from me now, I would hate them… but it was all wrong, I had it all wrong… "
"You don't have to explain… I understand."
"Do you really?"
"Yes."
"Don't just say yes… do you really… do you realize I was already in love with you?"
"Jacob, for once… I'm not jealous of mom… and I'm not mad that you hated me for almost killing her… not when I'm here, this happy, with you. Whatever happened before means nothing, I know that now."
Jacob's expression went from mortified to slightly more relaxed and happy.
"Really?"
I nodded, making his face spread out into a huge grin.
"Wow… I was afraid when that whole thing would come up, I was sure you'd stop talking to me for at least a couple of days."
"Well, that's just how nice I am."
Jacob chuckled pulled my face to kiss me.
"You have no idea how relieved I am… I mean… I've been feeling guilty all this time! I know I had no way of knowing, but just to remember how I used to blame you and not want you… I was so stupid."
"You should have told me sooner… I would have understood."
Jacob's face was in danger of bursting from happiness, with his Jacob grin spreading wider and wider. He leaned in again and kissed me again, with a smile still on his lips; his taste was so delicious that I never wanted to let him go. He pulled back again leaving me wanting him.
"So… any other confessions? You should get them out of the way now that I'm in such a good mood."
"Mmm… I followed you on your date with Tyler."
"What?!" – I busted out laughing, not at all expecting the words that came out of his mouth and finding them hilarious.
"When you went out with that kid… I… I followed you." – He was sheepishly smiling; even though it was obvious he didn't regret it or really feel ashamed.
"That wasn't a date Jacob."
"I know… but it still drove me crazy."
"You were jealous?" – Up until now, I hadn't really made sense out of his behavior that time. The thought of Jacob jealous was surprisingly completely pleasing; now I understood why he liked it so much when he did it to me.
"Insanely."
I kept giggling with delight as he just smiled amused at my response.
"You know… I kept sensing your scent that whole day, but I just thought I was going crazy! I wish I'd known!"
"Well, you know now."
"That makes me happy… thanks for telling me." – I was feeling so giddy it was crazy.
"Now you… tell me something I don't know."
"Mmm… like what?"
"Like how you knew you loved me."
"I showed you, when we first kissed, the first time I noticed you differently."
"That was just the first time you were attracted to me… I want to know how you knew you were in love with me." – Jacob's eyes were sparkling with anticipation. I broke eye contact to take in our supernatural and glorious surrounding and tried to remember the precise moment.
"Do you remember Quil's surprise birthday party?"
"More like birthday disaster! That's a pretty hard one to forget." – He chuckled by the memory.
"Do you remember how Leah got a fight with Rachel and how Paul phased and almost killed Seth because he was defending Leah against Rache… and then they banged a whole in the wall and knocked over the ice cream cake and we had to run all the way to town to get a replacement… and how Clair decided to throw a fit in the middle of everything and almost spoiled the surprise?"
"My favorite part was when the police stopped us for speeding on our way back from picking up the cake, and I didn't have my driver's license with me… and you had to call Edward who got hysterical when he had to come get us at the station…"
"And the cake had already melted once we were able to reach the party."
We both laughed, remembering what a crazy and accident prone day that had been; by the end of it everyone having pledged they would never ever organize a surprise party again.
"Yeah, I remember… but what does that have to do with what I asked you?"
"It has everything to do with it, because even though it was a horrible day and everyone was mad at everyone and Clair was crying and dad yelled at you and the cake and living room wall were murdered… it was still the most fun I'd ever had, because I was with you. You kept making jokes the entire time and were able to calm everyone down… I just watched you, as you remained positive and cool and worked everything out; the way you held Clair and promised she'd see Quil soon and even the way you took my dad's reprimand for being irresponsible with humor… and I knew, I knew I was in love with you… because everything you did seemed perfect to me, every smile, every joke, even every harsh word you threw at Leah for causing trouble."
Jacob was looking at me, not smiling, just looking; with his eyes full of happiness. He took my hands and kissed my knuckles, still lovingly gazing at me.
"And then, when you dropped me off at the cottage and I watched you leave… I… I felt like I couldn't breathe, like something was constricting my chest, like the air around me got heavy without you… so I sneaked out of the cottage and went to your house." – That wasn't something I ever planned on telling him; I hadn't even told Amanda who knew all about the angst I went through and all the embarrassing things I did.
"You did? How come I never knew this?"
"Because I didn't knock. I wanted to be near you but I knew that if a came closer you'd sense me… so I slept on the forest ground, close enough to see your window."
"God Ness… why didn't you wake me? Why didn't you come nearer? You slept outside the entire time? You should have said something to me." – Jacob looked frustrated, as if it were happening right now.
"I thought you looked at me like a little sister and I didn't want to make a fool of myself by knocking on your window and telling you I couldn't stay away from you."
"I can't believe it… I can't believe you slept outside like some dog while I lay there clueless in my bed… dammit Nessie, you should have said something."
"Jake, relax… this is supposed to be a good story, remember?"
He laughed when he realized he was slightly overreacting.
"Just don't ever keep your feelings from me again, ok?"
"Promise."
"And certainly never ever sleep outside unless you have me to keep you warm."
I giggled.
"Promise."
"Wow, Quil's birthday was a long time ago… all that time and I didn't realize you're feelings."
"I didn't realize yours either."
"Yeah well… it took me a while to figure them out myself… it was hard to tell if I was in love with you or just loved you the way I always did; until your birthday came along, then it was pretty obvious."
I glanced down at my engagement ring, imagining Jacob leaving my birthday party to go buy it.
"I wish you would have told me that day… would have been a pretty good birthday present."
"Yeah, that and the sight of Edward clobbering me."
We both broke out in laughter. To think that we both loved each other but kept it from one another because we were clueless about the other's feelings. All the times I thought Jacob was being indifferent or saw me like a kid, he was really dying to tell me about imprinting, but waiting for me to make the first move. How silly.
After we were done laughing, he leaned in and kissed me for the millionth time. The lifesaver was sort of in the way, but since it was the only thing keeping us afloat, I continued to hold on to it but tilted farther so I could be closer to his lips. After an eternity of just savoring each other, I was the one to pull back a bit, wanting to see his face and the way the cave shimmer and light adorned his skin. He smiled and traced kisses all over my face; soft sweet kissed that covered my eyes, nose, forehead and chin.
"How did I get to be so lucky? I'm just a poor sucker who got pulled into this whole supernatural world… I never thought it would bring me you… all those times I thought I didn't deserve this life because it was something bad, when really I didn't deserve it because I don't deserve you… and I don't think I ever will." – He whispered.
"That's not true… I was born for you Jacob, every little bit of me is for you. I somehow knew it when I was a kid and now I know it completely. I'm yours… just don't get tired of me."
He chuckled and pulled me closer by my arms, squishing even more the lifesaver between us but still using it to float.
"I think it's easier for you to get tired of me."
"No, not possible."
"You sure? Cuz we're talking about an endless lifetime here."
"We'll that's what I'm counting on; I wouldn't be able to get my fill of Jacob with a normal length human life."
"Your fill of Jacob?" – He lifted one brow up and gave me a sexy ass smile. He leaned in and passionately kissed me, making the butterflies in my stomach go crazy. We'd had very little physical contact since the night before, having spent the entire day surrounded by people, so I was really starting to miss him… physically. I leaned in closer myself and took in his delicious scent, his alluring hot breath and luscious taste.
He pulled back much too soon and I could still see the burning in his eyes, maybe from the effect of the cave or maybe because he missed me like I missed him.
"What are we going to do Ness? I don't think I can go back to my everyday life when I want to spend every waking hour with you… I just can't imagine leaving you to go to work."
"I know, I know… but we don't need to worry about that now… not when we're here, in the Gods' Lair."
"What?" – Jacob was smiling amused at my depiction of the cave.
"It just seems like this place was magically created by Greek gods or something." – I answered shyly, thinking Jacob might think I was being silly, but he just took his eyes off me and looked up at the glimmering cave surface.
"You think they're watching us right now?"
I giggled, because I wasn't sure if he was joking or being serious. He looked back at me and half smiled.
"Why don't we give them a show?" – He pushed the lifesaver out of the way and pushed me to the cave wall, holding on to me with one hand and keeping us afloat by grabbing on to a rock with the other.
We began to kiss as I too held on to the rocks that stuck out of the cave walls, supporting my own weight above the water.
"You think they'll be jealous?" – He whispered.
"Who?"
"The gods… you think they'll be jealous that I can make love to such a beautiful creature?"
I had to laugh, because Jake was taking this too far.
"Are you laughing at me?"
"Just a little… but enough fooling around, let's get down to making them jealous."
Jacob took a breath and submerged under water, but before I could ask what he was doing, I felt him run his hands down my tummy and pull my bikini bottoms down. He emerged and put his arm through one of the bikini wholes, keeping it securely hanging from his arm.
"We wouldn't want to lose that and have to explain your nakedness to the boat guy."
"Good thinking." – I giggled.
Jake smiled but then got suddenly serious, running his free hand over my hair and breaking eye contact.
"What?" – I asked.
"I'm nervous, I always get nervous." – He shyly smiled, still running his hand through my hair and tucking it behind my ear.
"You don't have to be." – I whispered.
"But I am… every time; I just feel my heart coming out of my throat."
"Do I make you nervous?" – The last thing I wanted was to make him feel insecure or anything, not when he was so amazing at this.
"Yes." – He pressed closer, putting his forehead to mine. –"But I don't really mind."
"I don't want you to be nervous… what can I do?"
"Just kiss me."
So I did, I kissed him and began to pull his swim trunks down only half way.
"Is this working?" – I whispered into his mouth, as I felt his lips smile against mine.
"Not yet."
So we kept kissing with far more passion, until I could hear him breathing hard.
"Now?"
"Almost." – He breathed, now pressing closer to me so that I could feel his bare skin glued to mine.
I kept holding on to the rock with on hand as I slipped the other under water and, feeling more than a little apprehensive, took hold of his "boy part" and guided it toward me. Jacob opened his eyes to look at me as I did this, his face reflecting surprise at my bold move.
"You belong inside me Jacob." – I was able to breathe out, stunning myself with my own words. What has gotten into me?
"And you say you don't want to make me nervous." – Jake teasingly blurted out in a whisper.
And then, like the sweetest most amazing sensation, it happened. Jake pressed me harder to the cave wall and took hold of my butt with his free hand, moving my pelvis to the rhythm he wanted. Our movement was causing small waves in the water, making the rays and swirls of light reflected in the cave dance and move in more magical patterns. I kept my eyes opened, as to be able to admire the cave's beauty as well as Jacob's.
"S… s… still nerv… nervous?"
"No… no…"
"I… I don't want this to ever end… promise me… promise we'll… we'll always have each other."
"I promise Ness… I'll never leave you… ever."
We continued to make love underneath the gods' gleaming sanctuary. Being this close to Jacob was always more than overwhelming, like my heart and everything else would simply crumble under the enormous pressure of my adoration and devotion for him. The pleasure was insane, sure, but knowing we were as close as we'd ever get, that was even better.
I reluctantly closed my eyes, unable to keep them open for any longer and wanting to shut everything else out and just feel him. I imagined a lifetime of this, a lifetime together being this 'n sync, and couldn't even catch my breath.
"Ness… look at me."
I opened my eyes to find him ardently looking back at me, smiling when I obeyed his plea. I smiled back and took his face in both my hands, projecting the loving words my lips wanted to speak but couldn't due to the rapture overtaking my body.
"God Ness…" – Jake was the first to break eye contact, leaning his forehead on my shoulder and moaning loudly. I continued to show him things, what I was feeling, how much I loved him, how afraid I was to lose him… everything just pouring out of my hands and on to his face.
He pulled me closer and wrapped my legs securely around him, looking back at me again. He was now the one holding on to a rock with one hand to keep us both above water, because mine were busy projecting. Even though trying to keep afloat while making love was tricky and uncomfortable, it was still the most amazing out of all the previous experiences.
The Sun was already coming down, making the water sparkle with hues of red and orange and making the cave grow darker by the minute. Pretty soon the radiant effect would end completely and we'd be left in the dark, but I didn't care. I could still see Jacob's blazing eyes through the dark and could still feel him under the water, his heat radiating on to me from the outside and inside. Everything within me was burning and even though I hungered for more, I knew very well there wasn't anything more; this was the highest height.
"I want to give you more, so much more." – Jake panted, probably still receiving through my hands my entire thoughts and responding to them. By this point it was impossible to answer him, not by speaking or even projecting. My mind was in complete chaos as my body began to reach its climax.
As always, we both peaked at the same time, relaxing our bodies but keeping them in the same strong embrace. Jacob was smiling, looking in to my eyes as if searching for something, as I continued to caress his cheeks with my hands.
We stayed like that for the longest time, until we both heard in the distance the yacht approaching.
"I don't want to leave this place." – I whispered, sounding more like a plea than anything else. I felt my eyes sting with tears, because I was serious, I really didn't want to go.
"Baby, I doubt the gods will let us stay for any longer… not after we just desecrated their "lair"." – He teasingly smiled at me, leaning in to kiss both my tear filled eyes.
"I'm serious."
"I know you are… but this place isn't sacred or special in itself… it's magical because we are in it, because we're here together in it… the magic is here baby, in us."
I nodded and pulled myself closer, searching for his lips which I willingly found. He softly kissed me until we hear the yacht already far too close. Jacob stopped kissing me and dove into the water, slowly pulling my bikini bottom back on and pulling his trunks up.
He resurfaced with a grin on his face.
"There, no harm done."
Just then, the yacht appeared from behind the mountain, shining its head lights on us. We both reached for the lifesavers and swam to the boat, as the man lowered a set of steps. Once we were inside he offered us a pair of robes and some towels.
"Amazing yes?"
"More than you know… the gods definitely got a good show."
I elbowed Jacob, who just playfully smiled at me. The man, thank god, didn't get Jacob's joke and simply turned around to steer the yacht away and back towards the dock.
When we made it to land, it was already pitch black. There was another taxi waiting for us and I suddenly dreaded the idea of having to take the long trip back to Mykonos. But thankfully, that was not the case. The taxi driver told us he was instructed to take us to a nearby hotel, right there on the West Coast of the island; so Jake and I snuggled in the back seat as we made our way there.
The hotel was really nice and intimate, with only a few chalets available directly on the beach. Since it was dark out we really couldn't appreciate the beauty of the location, but it seemed like the kind of place that would be a surfer's paradise. The chalets where more like small shacks that seemed to be rustically made out of wooden logs and palm roofs. There was no electricity, so the area surrounding the shacks was lit up by bamboo oil lanterns buried in the sand, lighting up the way toward each unit as well as toward the reception.
They were already expecting us, giving us a key to our chalet and handing us a box of long stem matches. Jacob turned to look at me with a mocking face, because the whole match thing seemed like a joke, even though it wasn't. So we headed toward our shack and once inside, lit up all the lanterns and candles spread across the rooms.
The shack was small, consisting only of one bedroom, a bathroom, a small living room, kitchenette and a porch directly on top of the water with a table and two chairs. There were basically no divisions in between the different rooms, the only thing separating them where these long mosquito net looking curtains. The whole place seemed crazy romantic, maybe because it was candlelit or because it was so rustic and wild or because you could listen to the waves crashing softly underneath the wooden floors or maybe, and probably more accurate, because Jacob's scent was filling up the small space.
He was standing there, under the candle light, in all his magnificent glory. So tall and muscular and dark, so intimidating and vulnerable at the same time, so regal and noble and yet humble; all the qualities I adore in him, all the things that make him who he is, coming out of him and becoming even more obvious tonight.
He had his hands inside his pockets, the shirt he was wearing still damp from having put it back on without drying after the cave. I smiled at him and walked to where he was standing, wrapping my arms around his narrow waist and looking up at his adoring eyes.
"You like it here?"
"Yeah, I never thought Pixie of all people would reserve a place like this… I mean, Pixie, who gets furious when we walk around shoeless."
We both laughed and kept hugging. After a few minutes I heard him exhale and break the silence.
"Dammit Ness… I want to make love to you again… this is crazy."
I had to giggle, because Jake really looked troubled by this, as if he couldn't stop drinking or smoking or something harmful like that.
"I'm like an addict, I'm afraid you'll get fed up with me… I don't want that."
"I won't… I've already told you."
"It's just that I don't want our married life to be some sort of never ending porno." – We both laughed when he said this, because somehow he made it sound comical. At least he wasn't beating himself up or feeling guilty.
"Jake, it's not… you're exaggerating."
"Am I? I mean, we just had the most Earth shattering sex like half an hour ago and I already want more… tell me that's not exaggerating."
"Ok, ok… maybe… but I'm guessing it's because it's new and…" – I couldn't keep rationalizing, because I knew deep down inside that decades of decades could go by and I would still want him this way. So I tried a different rationalization. – "Maybe there's nothing wrong with it… look at all the couples in my family… they never sleep! I mean, eight hours a day, that we know of, of uninterrupted love making!"
"Yeah, well… I thought that was a leech thing."
"You forget I'm half leech."
"No baby, please don't call yourself that." – He shook his head and leaned down, pressing his forehead to mine.
"Well I am! And you're half animal, no offense… just pure instinct and impulse."
He let out a loud bark laugh when I said he was "half animal", pulling me closer and squeezing me to his chest.
"You got that wrong Ness, I'm all animal." – He softly growled in my ear, giving me Goosebumps at the feeling of the reverberation of his throat against mine.
"So… does that mean I'm getting some?" – All this sexual talk and innuendos sounded stupid coming out of my mouth. "Getting some"? That was probably something I'd heard in a movie or something, so I made a mental note to get more material or come up with less embarrassing and cliché stuff of my own. Thankfully, Jacob didn't seem to notice the tackiness in my line, he simply chuckled in my ear.
"Do you want "some"?"
"No, not "some"… I want it all."
"You don't think it's wrong; that maybe we're overdoing it?"
"Jacob, you worry too much. For once, can you just be reckless like you were with mom with me?"
He smiled and leaned down to kiss me, pulling away only slightly so he could speak.
"Just for the record… I never did anything like this with Bella." – I giggled as he started walking backwards toward the bedroom, holding my hand and pulling me with him. His eyes were so intense and seductive I thought my knees would just buckle under me.
He was right, this was crazy. I wondered if we'd ever be able to go back to just cuddling and fondling without taking it all the way, if once we got back our desires would subside enough so that making love wouldn't be on our minds every five minutes. It was hard to imagine it ever happening, not when Jacob kept looking better and better to me and certainly not when my body ached for him the way my lungs yearn for air or my stomach yearns for food.
We entered the candle lit room and all I could think was "I hope this never ends."
So very sorry for the tardy update, just couldn't find the time to write. The Blue Caves is my idea of the "meadow scene" for Nessie and Jacob, or at least that's what came to mind when I was writing it (not that I'm comparing myself to the amazing Stephenie Meyer or saying that my scene is anywhere near the splendor of the Bella/Edward meadow). For those who get bored with fluff… we got some action coming up!
Thanks for sticking with this story and remember… the more reviews I get the faster I write jajajaja