Is it getting better, or do you feel the same, will it make it easier on you now, you've got someone to blame. -One

Nessie POV

"You are the most amazing girl I have ever met." Jake told me and I felt my heart flutter I wanted to spit it out, that I loved him, that I wanted to be with him but I couldn't I knew that I didn't deserve the man in front of me and I could never be with him. I said this and my eyes began to droop and sleep took me.

I woke up drowsy, in my own bed to the rough sound of Jacob snoring. I slowly came to the realization that Jacob was actually in my bed and his hand was over mine. He was on his back and I was on my stomach. My back seemed stiff but surprisingly better than the excruciating pain of yesterday.

Suddenly and unexpectedly I had a vision, it was of me attacking TJ and then being struck in the back by one of his two sidekicks as I frequently had called them and I felt like a monster, like a full blooded vampire. Indestructible. Then I got a blow to the head by the second boy and the whole memory came back to me. What had I done?

I let out a little yelp and then regretted it because Jacob's eyes flew open in was wide awake and he looked at me questioningly and I had nothing to lose so I showed him everything that happened, using my special gift, I didn't know how he could keep a straight face through all of this. I mean I was a monster even if the boys I killed where vile scums. I still didn't know I was capable of such a thing. This only brought back the memory of the rape I thought this very hesitantly because I still had emotions lingering there like guilt, blame and unworthiness. I just felt so... dirty.

"That's what they did to you Ness? They hurt you that bad? I wish they were still alive so that I could kill them with my own hands." Jacob growled, I still had my hand in his, showing him what I thought. I didn't answer him though I guessed they were rhetorical questions. Jacob calmed himself right down. we were still on the bed though both siting on the side I had my legs crossed but Jacobs were sprawled over the side. His face turned from anger to concern.

"Ness, how are you coping with everything? I mean I know now that they are dead but I know you and well..." He drifted off and I knew how to answer him which was unusual because normally I would be stuck for words but before I could he started speaking again this time he looked a but nervous which caught my attention.

"Look Ness, please, please don't get angry at me but... I told your family about you being raped... and I am sorry that I didn't tell you earlier it was just that well then the TJ thing happened and... well I just I needed to tell someone and you were gone and... I am sorry... so sorry. Jacob was speaking really fast and he was so worried about my reaction but as I took my time to process the fact that my whole family new my emotions flared. Jacob could feel all I was feeling as his toasty hand was still in mine. At first I felt betrayed and that angry, I was totally and utterly grieving and then finally I fell relieved and Jacob sighed a big breathe of relief too.

"Thank-you Jake... you told them what I never could do. You truly are the best friend in the whole wide world. We were standing up now, in a large embrace and my head was on Jacobs chest and I could feel his heart, it was going faster the usual but I guess that was because he had to fess up to me. I was a little put back by the term friend but as I have countlessly told my self the reasons why it couldn't be something more I just couldn't which again made a stream of sadness consume me. I heard Jacob make a polite cough and realized that I was still touching Jacob allowing my critical thinking to spill right throughout to Jacob. I quickly jumped away, flushing brought red and gathered my thoughts.

"I think a talk with my family is well over due but, you will come with me right?" I asked this truly curious of what his answer would be because of what happened.

"I will always be there Ness you know that." I did it was true I don't remember an important part of my childhood when he wasn't there. Jacob took my hand and I lead him downstairs to the dinning room.

"Everyone, I would really appreciate it if we could talk." No one was in the dinning room of course but I knew they would all here me and before I knew it they were all sitting in there usually spots all contently giving me there undivided concentration. jake and I took a seats at the head of the table.

"Renesmee how is you back are you having any trouble with pain or movement? Carlisle asked in a very professional way though everyone gave him forceful looks. "We can speech about it later, if there are any major problems than be sure to tell me immediately but just make sure you come seem me later on today." Carlisle lapsed back into silence and once again gave me his concentration I just nodded at him.

"So I am sure that Jake has told you the main details" I started slowly taking deep breaths. "But I am going to show you the rest... if you don't mind." I found out that, with my talent as long as everybody was touching I could show them all my vision, So just lightly every body was touching. I showed them everything, I didn't want to hold back anything because that had done me no good. I started by showing them the night I got raped, to telling Jake, to when I got beaten and kidnapped to killing the three boys. My eyes where closed through this I didn't really want to see there reactions. I finished up and opened my eyes but no one said a word. So I waited...

Jacob's POV

I looked at my watch in the silence. No one was saying a word. I just grasped Nessie's hand a little tighter. Telling them must of been a bit hard on her and I guess her family was just taking it in like she had taken months to do.

"I am sorry everyone and Ness but I have missed all of my patrols lately but I promised that I would got tonight and from now on." I stood up and so did Ness I am braced and and whispered in her ear. "I will be back as soon as I can, promise." I than gave her a little peck on the cheek and walked out of the door.

I jogged towards the woods, slowly speeding up, I quickly took of my shorts and phased. Quil was the only one who was phased.

"Hey Jake, I haven't seen you in a while, Sorry I can't talk I really have to go and you late. I have baby sitting duddies, Claire just got back from holidays and I really need to see her, so cya Jake!" Quil said this in a rush not being able to cotton on to my thoughts which I was glad of I didn't really feel like explaining today. I was supposed to be running patrol for the rest of the day and all night because I had neglected it and I felt guilty about Leah taking all my shifts so I took her though she barely let me. I was glad she understood and I knew I ought to have a talk to her, after all she was the closest thing to a human girl that I knew and I thought she could give me some advise about talking to Ness, but right now I just wanted to think of nothing. To have a break. Go wolf.

I did this for a couple of hours but I could only do it for so long. I began to think of when Ness had last showed me her thoughts, not with her family but when she had showed me everything, she wanted to be more then friends but couldn't? I was very curious about this. I did feel guilty about listening to Ness's thought's even if it was by accident, which is why I stopped her but, still the small insight into Nessie's mind worried me.

I was caught in my thoughts running in circles, when suddenly I saw movement in the woods these woods looked familiar even though I couldn't put my finger on it. I followed the movement it seemed to fast to be any average animal and didn't make any distinct sounds I though it could be a vampire, so I chased after it reaching my full speed capacity I followed the smell, but it was nothing like a vampire's smell it was worse, it was so vile .

I caught up to the creature and it turned to face me. I was shocked! It was TJ, well part of TJ .This creature was black as pitch with green glowing eyes. He hissed at me I recognized the mouth, nose and jaw shape as TJ's I had only seen him in Nessie's distinct mental images but it was him alright, well a demon form of him I guessed as I thought that Ness had killed him he speed off. He was faster than me and I knew where he was heading. To Nessie.

I ran full speed my muscles burning, I had to stop him, what possibly could he be. How could he still be allowed. But the most worrying question of all, what was he going to do to Nessie? My emotions fueled me. I hoped that the Cullen family would know if something was attacking Nessie, I hoped they haven't gone out to hunt because I knew that what ever TJ had become, I could not take him on alone and I doubt that if only one of the Cullen's had stayed to watch Nessie, that they could take on The demon, animal that was TJ.

I arrived at the house and could smell the demon vile smell everywhere I climbed up to Nessie's window and into the room. His smell was all over the room and from what I could here the family was in the lounge room discussing many things relating to Nessie but I was to focused on Nessie herself sound asleep in her bed safe I took a big breathe in and out relieved and I could hear Edward and Bella coming upstairs they could hear me and were probably wondering what I was doing in Nessie's room. As soon as they entered I explained what I had saw and all about TJ they called all the Cullen's upstairs and and we discussed everything just outside Nessie's room.

We all had a long conversation, I new that TJ was long gone as Edward had sent Emmett and Jasper to evaluate the area. We decided that with what ever TJ was roaming around Portland there would always be a Vampire and Werewolf patrolling.

The Cullen's went off to to there and thing and advised that I phase to update my pack on what is happening I told Embry everything he needed to know and he said he would pass it on to Sam's pack. I got back to Ness as soon as I could she was still sleeping and with the stress of the day I laid next to Ness under the covers of her large bed and felt though stressed with the new found monster and threat to Nessie at ease with being next to her something that I could get very used too. I knew what I wanted to do. I wanted to tell Ness that I was in love with her, and that she was worth it. I just had to figure out how to tell and show her...

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