Author's Notes: sorry it's taken a while that's the hazard of starting so many stories at once. This is short but better than nothing I hope.

Disclaimer: As usual I don't own Twilight or the characters so please don't sue.

Bella POV

The truth was, my happy ever after with Jacob was gone. My first two years in Folks, meeting the Cullen's and hanging out with Jacob at La Push seemed like a lifetime ago now. Like a distant memory or dream.

How could Jacob and I even try to salvage our relationship if he wasn't even here?

I had been staying at the Cullen house for a month now. How would they feel about me not only stopping by here but pretty much living here? I knew it was sad and pathetic. I was clinging to a memory of them, losing myself in daydreams of happier times, with Edward in the meadow, with Jacob on the beach.

I knew I was being childish. Almost wishing that the past year could just rewind and I could do it again differently. Emily had had her gorgeous little bundle of joy and I hadn't even gone to see her. I couldn't face what I had lost.

"This could have been so different." I murmured to myself. I thought of all the different scenarios. The 'what ifs' and 'could haves'. I could have chosen Edward...I may have been a vampire by now. If Edward had let the venom from the time James bit me spread I would have turned then and prevented this whole messed up scenario. If I hadn't lost the twins, would Jacob and I be a happy family by now?

Alice POV

Images began to flash through my mind. I tried to focus, knowing I was getting a vision. Then I saw her. Bella. I could see her clearly as ever. Then her future went blank again. Moments later it was back.

She was deciding... She was weighing up her options...

"What is it?" Jasper asked. Everyone's eyes were on me.

"Bella." I whispered. I was glad Edward wasn't here to read my mind. He would have gone back to Folks in a heartbeat.

"Bella?" Esme asked me. "Is she in trouble?"

"She's confused...and hurting..." I replied. Then I smiled slightly. "She's in our house."

"Poor dear...we should go visit." Esme said sadly. "Explain our horrid behaviour and apologise."

"No." I told her. "Not yet."

Jacob POV

I had started to head home. I had been heading that way for a little while now but now I was intentionally heading home.

I needed a rather solid slap to the face. I was acting like a ten year old running off like that.

How would Bella feel now? I made a promise when I took her as my wife and now I had abandoned her when she needed me the most.

Hold on Bella...I'm coming home.

Bella POV

I locked up the house and headed back to La Push. I had only been back to the house that Jacob built a handful of times since I found Esme and Carlisle's note and started staying at the Cullen's.

La Push just didn't have the same homely feel it used to.

I sat down in the kitchen with a glass of water, looking out of the front window into the rain. It looked as miserable as I felt.

I turned sat the glass back down and turned to go upstairs. I ran right into something hot and hard.

Jacob.

I looked up to find that he was indeed real. He hugged me to him. I looked up at him awkwardly. His hair was long again and he even had a chin of stubble now, from all that time as a wolf.

"God Bella I'm sorry." He said, squeezing me tightly. "I've missed you so much."

"You could've come back at any time. I was the one with no clue where you were." I replied.

"I know, I'm sorry. I didn't mean things to happen quite like that...I-"

"Like what? The babies or running off? Not saying goodbye? A few days turned into four months Jake!" I snapped. "What the hell Jake? I'm your wife and I haven't seen you in months!"

"Bella I'm sorry just let me explain!" he protested, as I started pushing away from him but four months of frustration were working their way out and I wasn't going to listen to him.

"Explain what? That you were upset? Because guess what so was I! I was the one in hospital! Did you even know if I was ok before you vanished?"

Jake held me against him his eyes locked on mine as silence fell and the tension built around us. His hand lifted to my cheek.

"Bella I'll never be able to tell you how sorry I am." He whispered. "I can just hope you'll forgive me."

In that moment I was Jake's Bella again and he was my Jacob. I pressed my face against his warm chest and wrapped my arms around his waist and we just stood there together for the first time in four months.

Author's Notes: hope it's not too depressing and awful for you. xx