AN: I'm sorry for the delay!!!

I haven't written in a reallllllyyyy long time. I've kinda been writing little half page things

that i don't end up typing or anything, this is a couple of them that are combined together. In an organized way..

Victor,

I can't do this any more. I think I'm falling for her. I can't hurt her, even if it means

betraying you. You have been so good to me and I thank you for that but I don't know

how I can hurt her. You may think I'm crazy for giving up your dream, and maybe I am but love does crazy things to you.

Sincerely,

His hand paused. He couldn't do this. He then turned, ripped the letter up and threw it in the trash, he couldn't betray Victor. Not after everything Victor had done for him. Not when they were so close to the final result. He had too much at stake. He just needed one minute alone with Lissa….

RPOV

"You what?!"Lissa's voice rang out, "You and Dimitri?!?"

People turned their heads and stared at us.

"Shh..Let's go to your dorm and I'll explain."

On the way from the clearing I met Lissa in the lounge and had blurted out my secret.

She, as expected, was hurt and shocked.

"I can't believe you didn't tell me, I'm your best friend."

"I'm sorry Lissa! Okay?! It's not really the best conversation starter." Sarcasm filled my voice. "Hey, I'm in love with my mentor, who also happens to be like a foot taller than me and is seven years older than me."

Lissa chewed on her lip for a second. She took a minute but the she understood.

"Fine I forgive you. But you have to tell me EVERYTHING!"

We went into her dorm and I told her. I stopped only once to get a drink of water. Lissa sat there nodding and listened. She interrupted only for clarifying questions and didn't make judging remarks. I could feel her urge to ask millions of questions but she kept quiet and got me a Kleenex when I started to cry. Her shock was equal in the fact that I was in love with Dimitri and that I was crying.

I tried not to let the tears spill over. Me, the invincible Rose, the one who never cried, was doing more crying in this past week than I think I had done in my life.

Lissa hugged me and whispered, "It will be okay I promise."

AN: Review!!!!! oh and read the next chapter even though its a author's note.