An: Hey, I no it took me like a LONG time to write. I'm rly rly sry. U probably thought i was ending the story. I'm not. I'm hope i can actully write a little faster this time. Anyways, heres a longer chapter. Once again im so sry. Btw to all those to reviewed and sent me a message i appreciate it. Espesally thanks to all those who favorited me. I would put down all your names but i hav no idea how to find it so review and tell me if u no. Anyways i'm sorry i didn't respond my computer had problems.

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"Rose, have you lost your touch?" Victor's voice shattered restless sleep. He didn't look any worse then when Lissa healed him. "I never knew you to stop fighting." His voice teased me.

"I am fighting, and one day I will win." In dreams, I was always so much more collected. I actually felt like I could pull through this.

"Dimtri's gone and you're worried about Justin." Victor scoffed. "Justin couldn't hurt a fly, you know that."

My coolness wavered, "How do you know about Justin?"

"I'm in your dreams. I am you. We aren't so different, you know."

"No! I'm not like you! I don't hurt innocent people."

"Maybe your right. The Rose I know wouldn't wait to see if Dimitri would pull out on his own though." Victor arched his eyebrow.

"Dimitri made it clear how he felt about me."

"So in a way you are hurting innocent people. Leaving Dimitri to die because of your pride.." Victor sneered, "That doesn't sound so different from me."

"No. It's not like that." My voice wavered.

"Really?" He stared at me with his jade eyes for a second before turning away, "I have to leave now. I have some business to attend with or rather you have some business to attend to"

Right before he disappeared, I heard a voice that hurt to think about. To dream about.

"Rose, help me."

"Dimitri!" My voice shattered the silence. "Wait!"

My eyes popped open and I rolled over on my side. My cut burned from the tears that had fallen on it. I sat up slowly and tried to remember my dream. This one had Dimitri. Of course almost every night a dream with him in it appeared. The one place I couldn't run from him, in my dreams. This one seemed real though, like he was there. I missed him so much. I had a huge gaping hole where my heart use to be. I didn't understand how he could leave me.

I punched my pillow. Before I knew I was tearing, my pillow in to shreds. Just like Dimitri had done with my heart. I twisted and pulled it, until feathers flew around me like snow. Just like when we sat on the balcony. The sun was shining somewhere but it wasn't here. It was like a huge cloud sat right in front of the sun.

It scared me that Victor might be right. Maybe I was being selfish. Maybe I should be fighting for Dimitri.

I got up and got dressed in a plain t-shirt and jeans. I saw the black dress hanging up. The one I wore when Dimitri and me were under Victor's Lust spell almost made me start tearing up another pillow. I had to get myself together. This wasn't me. I had to talk to someone. But the only person I needed to talk to wasn't here. He was in trouble and I wasn't helping him because he didn't want me.

I walked over to the Moroi dorms before turning around suddenly. Lissa couldn't know about this. She wouldn't let me go, or worse she would want to come. I couldn't put her in danger like that as her guardian, but as her friend, I had no choice but to bring her along.

"Going somewhere?" I jumped and got ready to attack the voice.

"Shit, Justin, you scared me." When I saw who it was I relaxed. "What are you doing at the Moroi dorms?"

He looked sheepish, "I went over to see if you were at you dorm. When you weren't I had a feeling you were with Lissa. I wanted to make sure you were okay."

"Oh. Um. Well, I am."

"Okay. I guess I'm not needed then." He turned around to go before he stopped. "Rose, I know about Dimitri and....I'm sorry."

That froze me. I didn't move or twitch. I'm pretty sure I didn't even blink. He turned and ran off. He was already way out of earshot when I gained control again.

"How?" I said quietly to myself. Then it hit me. Adrian. He was in for an ass kicking. Now.

He answered on the first knock.

"What the hell?" I did the scary voice I did so well.

"Rose?" Adrian's voice looked worried "I'm Adrian. I'm not any ghost or anything."

"Good, I can do this then." I raised my arm to punch him.

"Rose, stop. You don't want to blame me." His voice became shining and his eyes looked straight at me. I agreed with him completely. Just as I put my fist down, a knock sounded. It distracted him enough to break his spell over me. He had tried to compel me! I quickly took my opening and punched him. Hard. Really hard. He fell to the ground. I figured he didn't need more then that. I didn't want to hurt him that bad.

The knocking became more insistent and I opened the door. It was Justin. He immediately became embarrassed.

"Oh I'm sorry. I didn't know—I mean I—"

"We aren't. Not anywhere close."

"Oh well, um..So.." He cleared his throat. "Rose—"

"Justin," I smiled sweetly, "Shut up."

He looked so flustered I almost laughed. Almost.

"You are going to forget what Adrian told you, or I will make you." My voice turned menacing, "Understand?"

He had regained his composure. "What are you going to do? Compel me?"

"If you want to know check out Adrian, except I won't be so nice with someone who can fight back." With that, I walked away. I heard him calling something stupid behind me but I ignored it. Just like everything else in my life ignored.

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