AN: ok, chapter Eight? I believe this is my eighth chapter….? I don't really know how this chapter is going to work out… it may just be a lot of Sarah thinking or something. Or, something exciting may happen, I don't really know, I just write what I think, an im not really thinking much right now. But nevertheless, its gunna be good.

OH an I may change part of it to Sarah's point of view, just for this chapter ok? Just so I can show her emotion better, and cause its gunna be a lot of her thinking, JUST for this chapter, and it may not be the whole chapter, it will be her point of view.

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Chapter Eight:

The funeral was terrible. I had to run out of the cemetery half way through the service. The last five weeks have been a great hassle, talking to the police, my aunt moving in, and living in the same house where I lived all my life with my family, who are now deceased.

My memory haunts me, I wake up every night crying out for the people I loved and lost. I miss my father so much, but I mostly miss my brother Toby. I will never see him grow up, I'm afraid he died in pain, and the last memory he had of me, was of me not being there. I crossed the Labyrinth for him, I saved him from my estranged husband Jareth the Goblin King. I should be calling him my divorced husband, or were we ever legally married?

The pain of losing everything, is nothing I could ever explain. I cannot explain how I feel, just that I no longer feel. I do not care anymore. If I were to die right now, I would not fight. I wish a stranger would come up to me and shoot me between the eyes. I can not commit suicide, I am not strong enough to harm my own self.

I lay in bed all day, watching TV and eating food I can not taste. I cry when I go to bed and when I wake up. My aunt tried to get me to see a therapist, but I refused. I tell her I will get over it, but I know I won't. I tell her I'm getting better, but really I am getting worse. My body and mind are dying, but never will they truly stop to leave me in eternal peace. Forever I shall haunt the shadows, a smile will never cross my lips, I shall never love again.

I feel as if I have nothing left, but I know there is something left in this universe, that still leaves me with hope. If I were to go back to the Underground, it would not be so unpleasant. I may complain, and cry out that I hate it, but I can not lie to myself anymore.

Even though I claim to hate him, try to loathe him. Before he took me away, I said he haunted me, yes, he did. He haunted me, forever being in my dreams, and forever outside of my grasp. I thought the power he had over me was because he scared the shit out of me. The power was because I loved him unconditionally.

I did not know at the time I had such strong feelings for Jareth. But over the short time I spent with him, I finally realized what was hiding deep inside of my being.

I claimed to hate him, tried to loathe him. Forever the feeling of lust filled my mind. I was good at hiding it. When he took me into his bed that night, I yelled out 'No!", but inside I was shouting "Yes!".

I did not realize the first time we met that he had feelings for me. I did not understand. With the process of aging, I went through the incident over and over in my mind, and I finally knew what Jareth felt. And what I must have felt for a long time, but did not know how to show.

Even though I would hate to go back to the Underground, I fear that if I don't, I may forever be wondering what my life could have been. There is nothing for me in this world, but there is something in the other world. There is Jareth, and even though I forbid myself to be with him. I may just have to break my own rule, and take one last chance.

I have to find out if he is okay. What could the elves have done to him? I have to find him, but first I must get back to the Goblin City, I fear it may be much harder this time.

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Sarah sat at her vanity table, staring at her tired, worn face. Her hair was stringy and her eyes blood shot. She knew what she had to do.

"Hoggle, I need you." Sarah chanted clearly while looking at her bed through the mirror. Before her eyes the small dwarf appeared on her bed, sitting cross legged. She turned around, but only through the mirror could she see Hoggle.

"Yes, Sarah? You called." He beamed at her, finally the girl he secretly loved had called upon him.

"Hoggle, how am I to get back to the Goblin City?" She asked him with apparent strain in her voice. It was hard for her to ask him, but she knew she must get back to the land she was once trying to run from.

"My lady! Why would you want to go back there?" Hoggle stared at her with worry in his eyes.

"I can not explain Hoggle, but… I do not belong in this world anymore."

"If you go back, it may hurt Jareth very much. What he did to take you, was against the law. If he does anything more, there will be serious consequences." He said.

"I… I have to go Hoggle. Even if I have to reason with this ruler that no one speaks of by name. I have to… I. How is Jareth?" She struggles with her words.

"He is alright, but he is on a short leash right now."

"If I said the magic words, would he come for me?" Sarah asks.

"Sarah! You mustn't say them! He is not supposed to, but he will come if you call him. Or instead of him, the almighty ruler will pull you back to the Underground himself." He tries to persuade Sarah to stay.

"Then I must say the words."

"Sarah! No! If you do this with no important reason, He may kill you and Jareth both!" Hoggle shouts.

Sarah turns away and thinks for a moment. She looks again at him through the mirror. "Goodbye Hoggle." And he disappears.

Sarah was determined to do what she thought over for many days. She began to say the magic words. "I wish the Goblins would come take me away… Right now!"

Nothing happened in the few seconds after she shouted the magical words. Only the ticking of the clock was to be heard in the empty house. Sarah wondered how her grandparents were going to take her disappearance again. They should not worry, Sarah was not planning to ever come back. She thought of writing them a letter, but as she reached for a pen, soft fog filled her vision. She once again fainted onto the rug in a loud thud.

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Duh duh duh duh… yes, I am SO SORRY that my chapters are getting shorter and shorter. Meaning I am getting lazier and lazier? Well, I hope next chapter will be better.

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