Disclaimer: Twilight belongs to Stephenie Meyer. She messed up the story when she made Jake imprint on Nessie. Fortunately for us there's always the world of fanfictions.

Author/Note: This is a Leah/Jacob story with all the normal pairings and the events in Breaking Dawn never happened, because just like my cousin said, Breaking Dawn shouldn't even be considered a book.

Translation to English of O Nosso Amanhecer 2. This version was subjected to a few changes from the original in Portuguese.

This translation was a request by FantasyLover74.

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Alert: the characters in this story curse a lot.

Our Dawn

Part II

Leah Clearwater

15. Arguments

As soon as she realised that Jacob was back, Bella left to go see her sparkling husband. My mother left too because she had to go back home to Charlie, and Seth, who had forgotten all about his previous argument with Jacob started to shower him with questions, not giving him time to answer.

"Are you going somewhere again?" I inquired watching his backpack.

"No…Actually I was going to ask if I can stay here for a while..." He said calmly.

"What? Why?"

He smiled weakly.

"I need to study and let's just say that I need your help…There's a lot of money involved in my bet and I have to pass the exams."

Seth and I exchanged a look.

"He can stay, can't he?" Seth almost begged.

Well, I had allowed three other wolves to stay at our place before, so I guess Jacob knew I wouldn't say no.

"Fine. But you two will have to share your food." I grinned.

They looked at me shocked and scared. There are only a couple of things that wolves find sacred: imprints and food. Anyone who messes with that is dead meat.

"What?" They both asked at the same time.

"I was kidding." I told them and they sighed in relief.

Jacob walked in and we sat on the living room.

"I've spoken to Sam already and he's going to take charge while I study." He announced. I guess he was actually interested in winning the bet.

"What about patrols?" I asked.

"You and I will have a week off. Consider it your reward for your job well done."

"Tells us about the trip, Jake." Seth asked with excitement.

"It was boring." He started. "To track vampires down is actually difficult when they're not in our lands. Vampires hide their own tracks and they don't usually travel in groups."

"Where are the ones that came with you? Are they staying at the Cullens?" I asked.

"No. They're staying at the Canadian border. They won't come to our lands unless we call them."

"What do they look like?" Seth questioned.

"Their smell is even worse than the Cullens and they're just…weird. Except for Peter and Charlotte. They're old friends of Jasper and they look like the Cullens although they feed on human blood. I mean we can actually see they have feelings. The others, such as Randall and Garrett, are just cold creatures with red eyes."

Seth and I started to shake a bit. To know that a group of non-vegetarian vampires were just around the corner wasn't good. We were fighting the urge to go to Canada and kill them all.

"Calm down." Jacob said. "The first few days I spent with them I had to be two miles away in order to focus and don't attack them. Jasper's powers were quite handy too."

"That's why you were always in a bad mood." I said.

Jacob looked at me surprised.

"Bella told us. She spent the last weeks coming here. One more week and I would've killed her myself. She was driving me insane." I complained.

"Will they help us?" Seth asked suddenly. That was actually a very important question.

"Peter and Charlotte will fight with us if they have to. They said they owe Jasper…Whatever that means." Jacob said. "They all hate the Volturi but Randall and Garrett don't want to risk their asses for us."

Everyone was expecting that already.

"But the group Carlisle recruited is still thinking about fighting on our side." He added.

"Nine vampires…Do they really think that's enough to beat the Italian leeches?" I asked.

Jacob shrugged.

After dinner Seth had to go out on patrol and I helped Jacob with Geography and Maths. I could see how tired he was but he never gave in to the sleep.

"You didn't have to come here to study today…" I said hours later.

"I know…I just…"

"Let me guess…Paul and Rachel are at your place." I cut him off.

"It looks like he fucking moved in and my dad doesn't even care."

"Billy's just too happy to have Rachel back. You have to respect that."

"I get that but…come on…we're talking about Paul." He whined like a little kid. "Why didn't you kill him while I was away?" He joked.

"You didn't ask."

"Damn it. I should've alpha commanded you."

"Just say the words and it's done."

We both laughed for about five minutes.

"My dad told me about the leech and how you organised the pack and didn't let Bella get hurt." Jacob said quietly.

"Well…I was doing my job besides Bella won't get hurt that easily."

"I believe Edward wants to thank you for saving his wife."

"I didn't save her. Paul did."

"You ordered him to."

I faced Jacob and immediately regretted it. To look into his eyes was always too intense for me to bear. It confused me and made me feel lost because things between us had always been about arguing and reaching out for some sort of understanding afterwards. No more feelings involved. But now, for some reason, I felt strangely attached to him.

I wanted to say that what I was feeling was gratitude and friendship but I would be lying to myself. It shouldn't be more but it was.

"So…are you going to tell me why you had to go with the Cullens?" I tried to change the subject.

"I needed to be sure about something." His eyes left mine.

"You wanted to make sure I wasn't going to mess things up…" I said. "You wanted to see if you could actually trust me."

He didn't answer. So that was it. He went with the leeches because he needed to know if he really had made the right choice by leaving me in charge.

"So, do you trust me now?" I inquired.

"I always trusted you."

"Right…" I said sarcastically.

"Ok…so I chose you to be the second beta because you conned me into it and I thought I could handle you that way…but it's not like that anymore. Sam has some qualities but so do you."

"Yeah…he has the strength and experience and I have what? Oh, yeah a nice ass and great breasts. Thanks a lot Jacob."

"You know it's not like that." He insisted.

"It's fine. I always knew you would rather choose Sam than me."

"You have no idea how wrong you are."

"Let's just have some sleep, alright?"

That was actually the best way to end the night. Two hot headed wolves having an argument indoors wasn't a good idea at all.

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To tutor Jacob was the same thing as paddling against the tide. We knew this wasn't actually the best time to be studying. By the end of the next month we would have to be prepared to fight for our lives and although Sam and Jared were already teaching the pups, we were still worried about it, plus we still had to worry about a group of bloodsuckers in the Canadian border.

I tried to make him pay attention but sometimes it was useless. By the end of the day he would just curse and throw his books away yelling that he didn't care about that shit anymore. But every single morning, after breakfast, he would beg me for another try. And I always gave in.

To spend time with Jacob was like a rollercoaster to me especially since I realised he wasn't a little kid anymore. I've held so many grudges for so long that I thought I would never feel anything else ever again. But now I knew that pain, suffering and grudges weren't the only feelings I had left to feel. There was something more and that was why it was so damn difficult to be with him.

My relationship with my brother hadn't changed much after we both turned into wolves. Actually it got even stronger. The bond between us was enhanced by the pack bonding. That's probably why I had sensed that Seth was in danger after Irina's attack the day Bella and Edward got married, even when we weren't phased.

The others just saw me as a bitter bitch. Most of them hated me for no reason; others had a few plausible motives, such as Embry, Quil, Jared and Paul. The pups saw me as a distraction, like I was this girl whose only purpose was to give them a free striptease show, they were even too scared to actually see me as a pack brother. They all thought I didn't have a heart and I knew that some of them even compared me to the Cullen's ice queen Rosalie Hale. Since I was a heartless bitch, they didn't make an effort to understand my feelings and I just got used to be the punching bag.

But Jacob was different. The way he looked at me was different from all the others. He understood and he didn't give up. I guess that was one of the qualities I most admired in him. He still thought I was a real pain in the ass but to him I wasn't a heartless bitch. He saw beneath the mask. He didn't ignore me like the others and he actually made me feel useful by putting me in charge for a while. When I was with him I didn't have to pretend to be someone I wasn't, which was rare because I always tried to put on a façade so no one could see how vulnerable I was.

I was afraid to admit…I was even afraid to think that I was having feelings that I shouldn't. About him of all people. It was wrong in so many ways but at least I knew that my heart was still intact. The damages that Sam caused when he left me for my own cousin were healing and that feeling alone was amazing.

But since I was scared to admit my feelings and since it was much easier to run away from the truth I had promised myself that after the exams, I would distance myself from Jacob. He had to follow his own path and I had to keep on healing. It would be stupid to keep feeling attached to him. It was better to think that he was just a friend who had helped me when I most needed.

I was pretty sure I would be able to conceal my thoughts from the pack and from Jacob, but the mind rapist…that was a challenge I was about to lose.

"So all of them are going to Forks?" Bella asked surprised.

"Yeah. Except for me, Jared and Sam." I pointed out simply.

"Does Billy know?" She insisted.

"What do you think?" I retorted.

Of course Billy didn't know his son was going to take the whole pack, minus me, Jared and dumbass Sam Uley, to Forks to celebrate the end of their school's exams. I was pretty much sure that no one else knew except from me and now the Cullens.

"Don't you think Billy should know?" Edward inquired.

"I'm not going to rat them out." I said.

"But you think he's being irresponsible." The mind rapist observed.

"Yes, but I can't blame them. I mean…next month we can all be dead besides they are…"

"Teenagers." Esme finished for me with a motherly smile.

I nodded. That was the reason why I had been forced to go to the Cullens that night. Because our alpha decided to take a break from all the responsibilities and be the reckless teenager he was for that night, dragging along his most loyal fans.

"I'll do the first shift with you then…" Edward said.

I didn't want to patrol with the mind rapist but if I actually declined the offer it would sound suspicious.

"Fine." I agreed and went to the forest to phase and wait for him.

He didn't take too long to join me.

"I never thought you'd let Seth go too." He said.

I sped up trying to leave him behind.

'Here we go…' I sadly thought. I had the feeling this wasn't such a good idea after all. 'I trust Seth.'

"Why didn't you go too?"

'Why would I want to go out with a bunch of kids?'

"They're not so young anymore…I mean…A few of them aren't."

'I'm trying to be responsible.'

"No, you're just trying to cover for him."

Great now he thought I was just trying to impress Jacob.

"Are you?" He asked reading my mind.

'No!'

"You know…you should talk to someone…open up more."

'Who the fuck are you? Dr. Phil?'

"No…But I do have a Psychology degree."

'Awesome.'

"There was a time I saw my power as a curse. To listen to other people's thoughts all the time can be tiring and confusing. Sometimes I heard things I didn't like much…but since I met your pack…I must say that you put to shame all the soap operas I've watched. And my power became much more interesting."

The dumbass was actually making fun of me.

"I'm not making fun of you. I'm telling you Leah…Your lives are so…exciting and your thoughts are so vivid."

'Fuck off, leech.'

"I know what I'm talking about…I mean by listening to your thoughts I know you're confused about your feelings."

Shit. I couldn't believe he had picked that up.

'I'm not confused.'

"I travelled a few weeks with a very troubled wolf, so I know pretty well what's going on with you."

'Of course Jacob is confused. He's in love with a leech and he's worried about the Volturi coming here.'

"Jacob still cares about Bella but I don't think he loves her that way anymore."

'Then you're not such a great mind reader.'

"You and Jacob have more in common than you think. You're both quite good at trying to deny things."

'Can you please just thank me for saving your wife's ass and just patrol in silence?' I tried to shut him up.

"Fine. Things would be much easier for you if you'd just accept what's right in front of you."

'I fucking hate you Edward Cullen.'

"Not as much as you should." He smiled and we just kept running.

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It was about four in the morning when Seth got home. I wasn't worried about him…I mean Seth would be sixteen years old soon and he had always been responsible. That was probably the reason I was absolutely shocked when I saw Jacob carrying my brother to the bathroom.

They were both completely drunk. Jacob crashed on the couch and blacked out immediately. I didn't even have time to ask if the others were alright.

Our metabolism was different from normal people. We could eat as much as we wanted without getting fat or sick. We could also drink a lot without getting drunk. Watching my brother's condition I had to wonder what and how much they had been drinking but I knew I wouldn't like the answer.

When Seth finally stopped throwing up, I helped him to take off his clothes and I took him to his room. I called Rachel to tell her that Jacob was staying at our place and then I went to stay by my brother's side the whole night. Although I would never be a mother, I still had some motherly instincts when it came to baby brother.

Jared called me at eight in the morning telling me that Embry and Caleb hadn't showed up to cover him and I told Jared about Seth's condition. He said we would talk to Sam and I knew this little adventure was going to bring us a lot of troubles.

I had to call the Cullens again to ask them to do our patrols. Carlisle accepted gladly and even offered his help to take care off my brother if he didn't feel well. I didn't know how much time we had until the Council called us all so I decided it would be better to wake Jacob up.

Watching him sleep changed my mind though. I could see the black marks under his eyes and I ended up letting him rest for a few more hours.

I was making coffee when Jacob woke up. It was almost ten o'clock in the morning.

"I feel sick." He whined sitting down on a chair.

"If you bring my brother home in this state again, I swear I'll kill you." I said giving him a cup of hot coffee.

"Seth's a big boy now."

"How the hell did you get in the bar…you're not even old enough."

Stupid question.

Jacob got up and grinned. He walked over to me.

"Would you say I'm underage?" He asked.

Of course I wouldn't say he was underage besides no one would be crazy enough to forbid Jacob and the others to go inside a bar.

I pushed him away from me because I was feeling completely intoxicated by his smell and I did not trust myself if he touched me.

"You're in deep troubles Jacob." I said hiding my flushed face away.

"I'm hungry…" He whined again.

"Who do you think I am? Your maid?"

What was wrong with me? Why couldn't I just send him home? Why was I cooking his breakfast when I should be scolding him and taking care of my brother?

I put his food on a plate and he ate it in a few minutes.

"How many drinks did you have?" I asked curiously.

"I lost track at thirty."

I rolled my eyes.

"And the others?"

He shrugged.

"The Council won't let you go easily this time."

"You're going to back me up, right?"

"How can I? Did you actually see Seth's state?"

"Do not drag my daughter into this mess." My mother's voice almost gave Jacob a heart attack.

"Hi Sue…" He greeted.

My mum glared at him and Jacob recoiled. I actually thought he was going to throw up.

"Where's Seth?" She asked.

"Sleeping…" I replied.

"I'm going to check on your brother and after that we'll head over to Old Quil's place to have a private chat." She announced.

"Shit." Jacob mumbled.

A half an hour later the Council was actually deciding on Jacob's punishment although I had the feeling they wouldn't reach an agreement.

"Maybe we should just make Sam the alpha again." My mother suggested. "My son spent hours throwing up and he's completely out…"

She was clearly pissed off. Seth was her baby and he was sick because of Jacob. She would never forgive him for that.

"Shane had to go to the Hospital." She continued. "When the doctors realised the amount of alcohol he'd been drinking they were perplexed to see he wasn't in a coma."

"Is he alright?" Old Quil asked.

"Yes, his parents probably just freaked out. I wouldn't send the kid home if he wasn't alright." Jacob said and felt my mother's glares again.

"An alpha doesn't act like this." Old Quil said. His eyes were piercing through Jacob's body. "The Vampire's Mafia is coming here and you decided to play the irresponsible teenager."

"Your little adventure could've given away our secret." Billy added.

"We've been too stressed with the idea of a war, vampires and School's exams. We needed a break. It was just for one night and I asked Leah, Sam and Jared to call the Cullens and run patrols." Jacob tried.

"You are an irresponsible idiot, Jacob Black! I can't even accept you're Ephraim's descendent!" Old Quil yelled startling everyone in the small room.

"We are not made of stone! Our lives changed dramatically since we became wolves! We just needed to feel our old lives back! Why is that wrong?" Jacob retorted, his voice getting higher and deeper.

"Billy…he's your son…tell him what his job really is." Old Quil said.

"Jake…We know you're all too young and we've been pressuring you too much but you need to understand. Your actions reflect in each one of your pack brothers. You're their leader…a model for them to follow…"

"Dad…The Reservation was protected. I left Leah and Sam in charge. Nothing happened!"

"What if it happened? What if the leeches attacked?" My mother asked.

"The alcohol burns quickly in our metabolism." I tried to help Jacob and I received a strange look from Sam.

"Jacob is young and he's tired…but he didn't force anyone to go out last night. This is their fault too…and ours because we didn't stop them." Sam said. I knew now why the Council always listened to him. Sam knew how to use words.

"I guess Sam's right." Billy confessed.

Old Quil nodded and my mother crossed her arms in disapproval. She wanted to punish Jacob. She wanted blood.

"Jacob only needs to set his priorities straight." Sam said.

"You need to focus on the battle with the Volturi, boy…" Old Quil stated. "And don't forget that you need to set a good example for the kids. I'm looking forward to the day you imprint because you need to pass the alpha genes…understood?"

Jacob clenched his fists. He didn't want to imprint, we all knew that. Actually, I also didn't want him to imprint. But he would. Someday he would find his soul mate because he had to have children. That's when reality hit me hard.

Whatever I'd been starting to feel for Jacob had to stop. I would never be his soul mate. I couldn't have children. I had to put myself together and ignore my new feelings about him. Why couldn't I accept just his friendship? Why did I have to feel more? Why was I shooting myself in the back again? I was healing, wasn't I? I had so many options. So why did I feel that way about Jacob Black?

"I don't give a fuck about imprinting. It doesn't take an imprint to be in love with someone. I'll focus on protecting our people and killing the Volturi. After that I'm going to live my life my way." Jacob declared leaving the house suddenly.

And that was why I had fallen in love with Jacob Black.