I know that you want to kill me.

Believe me, I seriously do love Brady.

But this will all work out, I promise.

Back, would you please bring it back?
My whole life is at a wack.
I crack under pressure, measure the facts.
My world is upside-down, when you're not around.
I'm down, low down, come back now.

Skye Sweetnam - Bring It Back

Jasper Point of Veiw

I was on my way to Port Angeles to buy Bella a stupid new cell phone because I broke hers. I mean, I love Brady like a son. Fuck it's like he i my son. He's the closest I'll ever get to a son. But the boy would show me no mercey.

I guess I shouldn't have taught him that.

I laughed at that. I had no regrets when it came to meeting him or doing anything for him. The second my Bells accepted him as her own, more like claimed him as her own, I did too. It was a package deal. There was no way he was ever going to miss a thing with the both of us around. He would have the best life.

Looking back on my life at this moment, I can honestly say I was content right now. When I was human I had nothing to offer to anyone. Thats wy I joined the army. To go to war and ultimately die.

Harsh? I knew it was. But I had nothing to live for. Didn't believe in soul mates. Well, I did. But I never got mine.

When Maria changed me, I was angry. Furious. I wanted to die and she made me live forever.

I was her soldier after that. Did as she said and whatever she wanted. Turned hundreds of people into vampires and gave them this horrible lifestyle. I killed even more people than turning them. Then again, I killed even more newborns because they were no longer any use.

How horrible. I killed because those soldiers. Those vampires, that didn't even want this life, had it forced upon them. I killed them because they were no longer up to standard.

When I met the Cullen's, Alice found me in Philidelphia. She was so young, a newborn herself, claiming she saw the two of us goin to meet a vegeterian coven of vampires and sharing their lifestyle. She told me that she would find her mate there. And I would find my family.

Year after year, I strived on thinking maybe one day I would meet my mate.

They say your strongest human traits carry over into your vampiric life. I guess one of my strongest traits was never finding that person to share my life with.

That all changed when Bella walked into that school along with Rose. I guess it changed for Emmett, too.

I remember first looking at Bella. She was so small. Standing next to Rose she looked even smaller. She was petite. Her hair was straight and browny on top and pitch black underneath, how it is now. I loved it when she wore it down, which was most of the time.

They both had gold eyes which shocked me. I had a future seeing pixie tell me there was another way to live, not just off humans. I never knew that there was another way. But they just.. knew.

My perfect memory didn't serve her well enough. She wore that tight grey hoody that clung to her small, petite waist perfectly. Perfect figure hugging black skinny jeans and black converse.

Fuck! I sounded like a pansy. Going on about how my life was so hard. But Bella did make everything so much better. Brady was an added bonus. I never thought I'd be that happy. This happy.

Oh well. I was where I needed to be to go buy that stupid cell phone. Thank fuck for vampire memory, I knew exactly what it looked like.

I trudged into the mobile phone shop and went looking for the one I needed. Not that one, not that one, not that one.. This carried on for 10 fucking minutes.

"Can I help you?" A male voice said. I looked at him. He was short, Bella's height maybe and fat.. And old. He smelt soo wrong.

"No." I told him coldly. I knew I didn't need to be harsh, but he was throwing off annoyed vibes which was making me annoyed in turn.

"Are you sure-"

"I said no. Okay?"

"Yes, sir." He begrudginly said and stomped away like a scolded child.

Aha! This one! A black nokia 6600i. Why did Bella like this thing? It was so small. My fingers would press two buttons at the same time. I sighed and called out to the old man. He was at my side instantly.

"Yes, sir?" He repeated his departing words. I almost laughed. Almost.

"This is the one." He said.

"Are you sure? Thats more of a womans mobile." He told me.

"Yes, It's for my girlfriend." I told him.

"Oh, you're Jasper?" He said. I was shocked. "Bella is you're girlfriend. Damn. Uh, I mean-"

"How do you know Bella?" I hissed.

"Uhh.. She - she knows me." He lied. I pushed a large dose of trust onto him. "She came in here to buy a mobile like that. Her and the blonde.. Rosalie. They're babes, huh?" Lust was rolling off of him. It was disgusting.

"Never. Ever. Come near them." I threatened pushing another large dose of fear on him. He nodded shakily. I paid for the stupid phone and left.

My cell started ringing.

"Hello?" I asked not bothering to see who it was on the caller ID.

"Jasper? It's Emmett."

"Dude, I know it's you." I laughed. But he didn't laugh back. "Whats wrong?" Something was eriously wrong. Fuck, was It Bella?

"Is Bella okay? Em, what happened?" I yelled. Well, more like demanded.

"Bella's fine.. Physically." Physically? What happened? "Brady got jumped by a vamp. It bit him."

Fuck no. "You're joking, right?" I told him.

"I wouldn't fucking joke about this!" He yelled back. Very un- Emmett like. Fuck.

"Is he okay?" I whispered. I heard him sigh.

"Bella's with him. But, his heart started to stop. Last I heard Bella but him. Pushed more venom in. He won't suffer now. She just sped it up." If vampires could cry I would be. I couldn't even imagine what Bella was feeling like right now.

I hung up the phone, dry sobbing and pushed the fucking porshe as fast as it would go, cutting in and out of the lines.

I was fucking on a mission.

You must REALLY hate me now. But theres going to be a twist. You'll find out next chapter!

Thats two chapters in one night.

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