Disclaimer: Twilight belongs to Stephenie Meyer. She messed up the story when she made Jake imprint on Nessie. Fortunately for us there's always the world of fanfictions.

Author/Note: This is a Leah/Jacob story with all the normal pairings and the events in Breaking Dawn never happened, because just like my cousin said, Breaking Dawn shouldn't even be considered a book.

Translation to English of O Nosso Amanhecer 2. This version was subjected to a few changes from the original in Portuguese.

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Alert: the characters in this story curse a lot.

Our Dawn

Part II

Leah Clearwater

26. Gold Beach

Gold Beach. Curry County. Oregon. That was the place I chose to start my new life. I had spent two weeks in Seattle but then I picked up his scent really close from the place I was staying and I had to move out or he would've found me.

I missed La Push a lot more than I expected and that was probably the reason why I was in Gold Beach. The city was quite similar to Forks. There were about two thousands inhabitants and even the weather was pretty much the same, only a little bit sunnier.

People were nice and the older population worked mostly in jobs related with the port and the sea. I had rented a small apartment in the city center and I worked on a book's shop although sometimes I also worked as a babysitter. I didn't want to spend the rest of my life in Gold Beach; I wanted to save money to travel around the world.

Today was my day off. I had breakfast and I refused to look to the calendar on the wall. I knew that it had been four months since I left La Push. Four months since I had last seen him.

I turned my laptop on and I checked my e-mail. Just like I was expecting there was an e-mail from Seth. When I left home that day, after telling Jacob I didn't want him or need him, I didn't really thought about the consequences of my departure.

Seth and my mother were worried sick about me when three days later I decided to call them. After that call, which I would never forget because I actually made my brother cry over the phone begging me to return, I decided to get rid of my cell phone and cut all the ties I had with my previous life: my hair was longer now, I didn't wear tops and shorts anymore, and I didn't phase in three months although I could still do it if I wanted to.

Because I cared about my family, I told Seth I would keep my e-mail account. I blocked Jacob's contact though because I didn't want to hear from him. I knew what he had to tell me and even though it had been four months and I should've forgotten everything by now, I still felt attached to him. Maybe it was still that stupid alpha/beta bond or something, but it was definitely there.

A month after I got settled in Gold Beach I also received an e-mail from my cousin Emily. I was expecting her e-mail to be just like the others I had read from my mum, Seth, other members of the pack and even Bella. They all wanted to know where I was and why I had left. But Emily didn't. I guess she did know me after all. She just asked if I was alright and told me about everything that was going on with the pack and the wonderful Cullens. Alice was already working on Rachel's wedding's preparations. Bella had sent me an e-mail saying that Rachel wanted me to be a bride maid. No one could take my place, not even Emily because her baby would be born in March and Rachel's wedding was set to the last week of February.

The Cullens had anticipated their departure from Forks and left in August to Canada. Jacob went with them leaving Sam as the alpha in La Push. Jared was his beta. Since Irina probably wouldn't come back, Sam had reduced the patrols and the younger ones didn't have to phase anymore.

But Jacob wasn't the only wolf who had left La Push. My brother had decided to go too. That was a surprise. I never thought my mother would let him go. I knew Jacob was Seth's idol so i guess he was just trying to follow his steps.

Seth had written me several e-mails after going to live with the Cullens. He described me the city of Dawson and then he told me about School and how great it was to be out of the Reservation for a while.

To live with the vampires didn't seem to disturb him but Seth was special. He had always liked the Cullens a lot and never complained about the smell. But things weren't that easy for Jacob. Seth told me about his mood swings, his lack of interest in things except for cars and games, his constant arguments with the mind rapist and the Blondie. I had no idea what was wrong with him but I knew it wasn't serious. Jacob was strong and Bella would certainly be able to help him, after all she was still the one he wanted.

It hurt thinking that way. It hurt every time I thought about me and him in his room. I still loved him and I still remembered every kiss and every touch between us. I guess four months weren't anything near enough to forget about Jacob but I was trying my best.

I tried to occupy my mind with work and random things and I succeeded for the first few weeks because I had to adapt myself to a new reality, a new place, a new job and new friends. Not that I had a lot of friends actually. There weren't many people my age in Gold Beach. I had met Elizabeth, Johanna and her boyfriend Robert, Callie, Maria and her brother Christian and his girlfriend Allison.

They were nice but they couldn't be compared to my pack. Even though I didn't have a solid friendship with all of the members of my pack, I missed them more than I thought I would. I even missed Paul's stupid jokes and Quil's constant whining. I also missed the pups.

Sometimes I wondered what they were doing and I wondered if they would accept me if I went back home again. The truth was I could never replace the bonds with my pack with anything else. Sure we hadn't been the best of friends in the past but we did share thoughts together and they were, in a way, more than my friends, they were my brothers.

I looked through the window of my small bedroom. It would rain soon. I read my brother's latest e-mail for the third time.

Leah, I miss you. Mum and Charlie are coming to Dawson in two weeks to spend Thanks Giving with us. Mum and I would be really happy if you could come too. Esme is going to cook. Jake's going to visit Billy and Rachel so it's going to be just our family. Please Leah…just come and see us. I miss you so much.

Love Seth.

The kid hadn't lost his touch yet. He could make my heart melt in seconds. He was the most innocent person I had ever met. He even considered the Cullens our family. How weird was that? I was still getting used to the idea of Charlie Swan becoming my stepfather and Seth had already accepted Bella and the other leeches in the family. God blessed him.

I thought about Seth's invitation. I missed my mother and Seth too and Jacob wouldn't be there. Even if the mind rapist could read my thoughts I just had to ignore him or kill him, it would work for me both ways.

I wrote back to my brother saying that maybe I would go there to have a quiet dinner but I was still thinking about it. Seth would probably understand that my answer was a "yes", it was just typical of me not giving up that easily.

There was only one thing I had given up easily and that was Jacob. I did regret not telling him that I was in love with him but who would believe me? Everyone thought I was still pinning over Sam Uley. Jacob thought I was acting weird because Emily had announced she was pregnant. Never in his weirdest dreams he would've think of me as more than a friend or a beta.

My eyes met the calendar even though I had tried not to pay attention to this day. It was November 11, Jacob's eighteenth birthday.

I wasn't the same since that night and my pain had just subsided although I could camouflage it with my only memory of us. My loneliness was dormant inside my heart because I had closed it and I had thrown away the key. My numb state didn't allow me to cry and whine about my life anymore. I was just trying to hold down to a promise I had made myself to hope for a better future.

I would have to forget about Jacob eventually. I would have to overcome my fears of rejection and let all the sorrow from my past go. One day I would go back to La Push and I new perfectly well what I was going to find. The Reservation would be filled with imprinted couples and my pack brother's families. I didn't want to go back to be the bitter and lonely bitch.

I wanted to be able to be happy for everyone else. I wanted to be able to look at Jacob and don't feel pain like I had felt when Sam imprinted on my cousin. I used to think that I would hurt even more once Jacob imprinted, but now I had the feeling that once he imprinted it would be alright. He could follow his own path and I would have to finally accept that he wasn't meant to be with me.

The sooner he imprinted the better.

I watched as it started to pour and I decided to take a shower. After that I dressed up and left to meet Elizabeth, Callie, Maria and Allison. We were going shopping. A few hours later we were all having lunch in the mall.

"So your brother finally managed to convince you to go back?" Maria asked.

"Sort of. I'm just going to visit some…friends to Canada. I'm not staying there."

"Are you sure you're not just leaving us to meet your boyfriend?" Callie asked winking.

"Seth is not my boyfriend. He's my brother…I told you."

"Ok, ok…fine. It's just that you hardly speak about your other friends…you just mention Seth." She insisted.

"Because he's my brother."

"You're coming back after Thanks Giving, right?" Elizabeth asked.

"Sure." I lied. I wasn't so sure if it was safe to come back to Gold Beach because Edward could tell the others where I had been staying.

"So these friends of yours are they close friends?" Callie asked. She was always trying to know more about my life. For some reason she thought I had something to hide.

Well, after a few weeks, when I started to hang out with them more often, I had told them the short version of my story, not mentioning the fact that I could morph into a giant wolf or that I had left La Push because I had slept with my alpha. So I guess Callie's sixth sense was right about me.

"I guess we can say that. It's just my stepfather's daughter, her husband and his family." I said.

"You don't like them." Maria said noticing a bit of coldness in my voice.

That wasn't exactly true. I was a wolf and they were leeches so it was somehow natural that I felt uncomfortable around them, but I had accepted that they were different. I even liked them a bit. Carlisle and Esme were pretty decent actually. The doctor was the most human of them all and his wife was nice and caring even for a vampire.

Alice and Jasper were weird. Period. What else can you tell from a vampire who can see the future and her husband who can control other people's emotions as he pleases?

Rosalie, the Ice Queen of the Cullen's family, was just too beautiful to be considered an ordinary human. No matter what she tried, Rosalie would never be able to pass as a common mortal. As for Emmett, he was…well Emmett was kind of funny to be around but he always found a way to annoy the hell out of me.

The mind rapist and his perfect wife were actually the only ones who really displeased me in a way. I guess if I weren't a wolf I would look at the other Cullens and see three nice couples, but Bella and Edward would never look like that to me.

"They're fine…most of them." I lied again. "Anyways I'm just going because I miss my mother and my brother."

"Are you sure you don't miss anyone else?" Callie asked with a grin. "Because I'm pretty much sure you're hiding here from an old love or maybe a hurtful break up with an ex?" Callie wasn't giving up. Sometimes I even thought she knew my whole story. She had some sort of intuition about people. It was creepy.

"I'm not hiding from anything." I tried to convince myself. "Where the hell is Allison?" I changed the subject.

"Right here." Allison replied joining us at the table with her arms full of toys from the claw machine. She was a sucker for toys, even at the age of twenty-four.

"God, Ally…What the hell…Do you really need more toys?" Maria asked. "My brother is right…you're a maniac."

"I want to complete my collection." She answered pouting. "Look…I managed to get the blue spider, the yellow frog and a beautiful pink kitty."

"What about the rest of them?" Callie asked.

"Those ones I already have. Here...pick one Callie."

Callie took a brown weasel and Maria took a blue dolphin.

"I guess this one is for you Leah." Allison gave me a russet wolf. I couldn't help to laugh at the irony.

From all the fucking toys she had given me a russet wolf. Was that some kind of a sign?

"You don't like it?" Allison asked worried.

"No…It's just I…" What could I say? I was in love with a guy who happened to phase into a giant russet wolf?

"You don't like wolves?" She tried.

I laughed harder. Sure I liked wolves. My old friends were wolves, my ex-boyfriend was a wolf, my brother was a wolf, and even I was one myself.

"Are you alright Leah?" Callie asked worried that I had lost my mind.

"Fine." I answered holding the russet wolf. It was cute. I guess no matter where I'd run to, Jacob Black's memories would always hunt me.