Chapter Rating: M (does not include explicit content)

Disclaimer: Twilight belongs to Stephenie Meyer. She messed up the story when she made Jake imprint on Nessie. Fortunately for us there's always the world of fanfictions.

Author/Note: This is a Leah/Jacob story with all the normal pairings and the events in Breaking Dawn never happened, because just like my cousin said, Breaking Dawn shouldn't even be considered a book.

Translation to English of O Nosso Amanhecer 2. This version was subjected to a few changes from the original in Portuguese.

This translation was a request by FantasyLover74.

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Alert: the characters in this story curse a lot.

Our Dawn

Part II

Leah Clearwater

28. Weakness

"What the hell do you think you're doing, Black?" I asked infuriated. I hated when I was trapped.

"You didn't open the door…I used plan B."

"Go to sleep and leave me alone."

"We don't see each other in four months…" He said softly.

That was actually the point.

"So what?" I asked harshly.

"We need to talk."

"No, we don't."

He walked forward and I took a step back. I didn't want to be that near him.

"Fine…" I said to make him stop coming in my direction. "I know what you're going to say so there's no need to make a big deal out of it, alright?"

"You know?"

"Yes. Look, Jacob…I want us to be friends again…So we can just forget what happened and move on…"

"Why did you leave?" He cut me off.

"You know why…"

"No, I don't. I didn't want you to leave…And I wanted to tell you that I'm sorry that…"

"It's fine." This time I cut him off. "You don't need to apologise. I know you only see me as your friend. It was a moment of weakness…You don't need to feel guilty."

"I don't feel guilty. I just wanted you to know that I never meant it to happen that way. I never meant to take advantage on you."

"I'm older than you Jacob…it actually feels the other way around."

"I wanted to tell you something…I should've told you that night." He whispered.

"It's alright. I know it was a mistake. Let's just forget about it and you can go back to think about wonderful Bella and live happily ever after…"

"It wasn't a mistake." He said suddenly. My heart started racing.

"What?" I asked stupidly.

"It's not a mistake when you want to be with that person. It's not a mistake when it's the right one."

I was frozen. What the hell was he saying?

"I have feelings for you Leah and I'm sure you have feelings for me too or you would never let me touch you the way I did."

He walked over to me and cupped my face with his large hands.

"Jacob…don't make this harder than already is." I begged him.

"Do you still love him?"

He was talking about Sam. If I told him I loved Sam he would probably let me go.

"No…" I couldn't lie to him.

A grin spread on his beautiful face.

"It wasn't a mistake for you either, was it?" He questioned me. His hands travelled through my body and rested on my waist.

"I'm not the right girl Jacob." I whispered.

"That's my decision." He pulled my body to meet his and I felt instantly on fire. He planted a sweet kiss on my lips and my mind was completely numb.

"Jacob…we can't…" I tried to reason with him. I should know by now that Jacob Black didn't hear anyone.

"I want you Leah. I've been waiting for four months…" He pushed me softly towards the bed and I knew I would surrender to him again because I wasn't strong enough when it came down to be with Jacob.

He would always be able to destroy all my defences. The walls I had built around my heart were crumbling down because despite everything I had gone through I wanted to give myself to him again. My hands found their way to his neck, wanting to touch every inch of his heated body placed firmly over mine.

He took off his brown t-shirt which granted me a better access to his chiselled chest. Jacob seemed to take his time touching me under my clothes before getting rid of my night dress. I noticed that his heart was beating faster than mine.

"This is not a mistake…" He whispered in my ear with a husky voice that sent electricity jolts all over my already heated body.

"I'm going to ruin your life…I always ruin everything."

"Not if I ruin your life first…" He grinned into my neck while kissing me.

"You're an idiot."

"I can live with that."

"You're going to regret this."

He lifted his head and faced me. I could see his eyes filled with lust, passion and love?

"I doubted it."

I couldn't resist him much longer. After getting rid of the last pieces of fabric covering us he intertwined our fingers and kissed me passionately leaving me breathless. I let him set the pace and again he didn't disappoint me. Our hearts were synchronised and, intoxicated by his scent, the only word that left my mouth for a while was his name.

I wished that feeling never ended. The promises I had made to myself about never submitting to love, never thinking about Jacob again, were reduced to ashes now. I wanted him with all my heart and he seemed to want me too. Realising that made me start crying and he got immediately worried when he noticed my tears.

Resting his forehead against mine Jacob slowed the pace and tried to catch his breath again.

"Leah…What's wrong? Am I hurting you?"

His words of concern made me cry even more.

"No…" I whispered. I didn't want him to think I was like a fucking damsel in distress. I didn't want to tell him I was crying because he was making love to me. How lame would that sound?

I put my legs around his waist and he picked up the message quite well, fastening his movements. My vision got blurred and we remained connected in a beautiful embrace even after all the fire consuming us was finally extinct.

His warmth made me drift off quickly and feeling completely safe I allowed myself to sleep. When I woke up a couple of hours later, Jacob was sleeping soundly next to me. We were still naked and I took a few moments to admire his beauty. He was perfect but he wasn't mine.

I was playing a dangerous game. The fact that he might love me too didn't change anything. He wasn't jail-bait anymore but he was still a non imprinted wolf. An alpha. His genes would have to be passed on to a younger generation. Sooner or later he would find his soul mate.

Everything he felt about me would disappear completely once he met his imprint. She would be his world after that and I would be a distant memory. I didn't want to suffer more and I also didn't want him to become Sam, stuck between his imprint and an ex-girlfriend. Jacob deserved more. He could still have his happy ending, unlike me.

I knew what I had to do in order to save him from the feeling of guilt. I had to leave again. I knew I was rejecting my last chance to be happy but I couldn't risk it. I mean, how much time did we have left together before he met his imprint? A week, a month, a year? I couldn't live with the constant fear of losing him every minute.

I got up slowly and dressed up quickly. I knew he would never forgive me for leaving this time but I was doing this for him. To allow him to be happy one day.

It had started to snow again. I walked over to my car and put my bag inside. I thought about going to see if Seth was awake but I couldn't face my brother. I knew he would be disappointed with me and my mother would be upset too but I had already made my choice.

I was about to get in the car when I felt two strong arms holding me from behind.

"Where are you going Leah?" Jacob asked me.

"I'm sorry…I can't stay."

"I let you run away from me once…I won't let you go again."

"Please Jacob. Things will never work out between us."

"Since when do you predict the future?"

He forced me to face him.

"Jacob…I don't deserve you. You need someone who can…"

"I'm not going to imprint!" He cut me off raising his voice.

"You're the alpha, Jacob. Of course you'll imprint." I told him matter-of-factly.

"I don't need a magic bond tying me down to someone I don't even know. I need something real. I need you."

"I'm not good enough for you."

"Why not?"

"You know why."

"Fine. Then tell me tonight didn't mean anything to you and I'll let you go."

He knew how to play those games.

"Listen to me Jacob. I want you to be happy. One day you'll thank me for this."

"Thank you? Are you crazy? I'm in love with you Leah. I don't want you to go."

"That's now…what about in two months or a year? When you meet your soul mate? You'll break my heart and leave me just like Sam did."

"I'm not Sam." He stated angrily. "Sam has nothing to do with this. It wasn't his name you moaned back there, it was mine."

"You're not him but you won't be able to resist the imprint pull. We both know that. I've seen it in Sam, Jared, Paul and Quil's minds. It's impossible."

"Not if I have you by my side."

"I can't be with you."

"Yes, you can. You're mine, you want me…I know you do. You just need to admit that you love me."

"So what if I'm in love with you? That doesn't change anything. You're still too young and you still haven't imprinted."

"Too young? Now my age is a problem? You didn't complain the first time, did you?"

"I was vulnerable and…" I tried to lie to him but Jacob could see right through me.

"I was afraid you'd think I had taken advantage on you…I was afraid that you were still in love with Sam…Do you actually think it was easy for me to see you walk out of the door? Do you think it was easy to be here for four months constantly thinking about you and why you didn't answer my e-mails…?"

"I should've never let my guard down. I never meant to fall in love again…" The tears were going to surface soon.

Jacob pulled me into his arms and we stayed like that, in silence for a while.

"Give me a chance." He asked me.

I cupped his face and I kissed him tenderly. I think I loved him more than I thought. That was why it was so hard to say goodbye.

"You made me love again. You fixed me and I can never thank you enough for that. I wasn't expecting you to feel the same for me. You have my heart Jacob, but you're not meant to be with me."

"You don't know that. Imprinting is rare."

"You're the rightful alpha, Jacob."

"You're the only female wolf…"

"Because I'm a freak…"

"Carlisle is studying the pack…there might be a reason for you to have the wolf gene."

"It doesn't matter."

I inhaled his scent one last time and then I pushed him away softly but he didn't let go.

"Thank you for being there for me. Thank you for making me feel loved again. I wish things were different."

"I wanted to tell you I was in love with you after the battle with the Volturi but I was too scared." He confessed.

"I wanted to tell you before the fight because I was afraid we wouldn't survive."

Jacob held my waist and kissed me again.

"Don't go." He begged.

"I'm sorry. I love you but I can't be with you."

I took a step back and got in the car as fast as I could because if he touched me again I would give in and I needed to leave.

"Leah…Please…I love you."

"Hopefully it won't be for too long." I said. Maybe he would imprint soon and the we would forget all about us.

"You're wrong."

I started the car and left. Things were easier when I left La Push after our first time. I really thought my feelings were one-sided. Knowing that he didn't love or care about me made me believe I had no chance with Jacob whatsoever. I had thought until tonight that he was still in love with Bella. But he had shown me otherwise. He had feelings for me and I had finally told him I was in love with him and that was why everything was so complicated now.

I was almost leaving Dawson when I saw someone standing in the middle of the road. I hit the brakes and thought about running him over but then again he was immortal and he could read my mind.

I stopped the car and waited for him to join me. There was no way I could avoid Edward Cullen.

He sat down on the passenger's seat and looked at me intensively. I was glad I wasn't crying. I really didn't need a vampire to watch me cry over Jacob Black.

"I know you want to cry Leah." He said.

"Fuck you Edward."

"Look, what you're doing is wrong."

"Cut the crap, leech. What do you want from me?"

"You just slept with Jacob for the second time Leah…and by reading your thoughts I know it was one of the best nights of your life so I'm just trying to understand why the hell you're leaving like a coward."

I wanted to phase and rip his head off.

"It's none of your business, Edward."

"Jacob loves you." He stated.

"So?"

"And you love him too."

"It was a mistake. It won't happen again."

"I doubt that. It wasn't a mistake and it might happen again."

"Jacob will forget about me and I'll forget about him too. I'm leaving so we can put this behind us and maybe one day we can be friends."

"You do know that I read minds, right?" Edward asked grinning. "You're afraid because you think he'll imprint."

"So what? I've been there before and it hurts like fucking hell."

"Jacob is not Sam."

"The pain will feel exactly the same."

"He loves you for quite a while now. Do you remember when you were at the beach on my wedding's night? When he asked you to be his beta although Sam was already beta? That was when he realised he had feelings for you. But you were both too broken and stubborn to see that."

"It doesn't matter."

"It matters to him. He fought against it…just like you did. He tried to keep his head on other things but it was hard. He even had to go with Jasper and me to recruit vampires because he couldn't stop thinking about you and was afraid that he couldn't hide his thoughts from the pack."

I always thought Jacob had gone with them because he wanted to test me.

"It wasn't a test." Edward said reading my mind. "And you were wrong…it looks like it happens quite a lot these days."

"What are you talking about?"

"You were wrong about that, you were wrong about Jacob pinning over Bella, you were wrong when you thought your feelings for him would go away, you were wrong thinking that your brother is here to follow Jacob around when in reality it was Jacob's idea…he knew you would miss Seth and this was the only way he would be able to see you again, and you can be wrong about him and the imprint."

"There are a lot of things you don't understand leech."

"Try me."

"Even if he doesn't imprint, I will never be the right one…"

"Jacob is not worried about children right now. He kept holding on to the memory of you together that night and was tormented daily by the cold words you spoke to him when you left. He thought you were still in love with Sam and regretted sleeping with him."

"I couldn't tell him I was in love with him, could I?"

"Because you were afraid that he would reject you." Edward said.

I nodded.

"Again…you were wrong."

"I can't go through the same again…I can't."

"I know how it feels. I dealt with the same myself and you know how it ended. I hurt Bella so much she had to find someone to ease her suffering."

"Whatever..." I really wasn't in the mood to recall Bella and Jacob's beautiful love story.

"I know why she chose him though. Jacob is a good guy…I'm probably more handsome but he's definitely a fair opponent."

I rolled my eyes. Edward was attractive but Jacob was real.

"The thing is I was the one who put all of us in this mess. I tried to leave Bella because I loved her too much and everything backfired. She almost died…I almost died…and your pack had to deal with all the consequences."

"This is different. Jacob and I don't have a future. The Council won't allow it nor Sam and his pack, besides I'm pretty sure there's someone out there who's perfect for Jacob."

"Sam doesn't know anything yet and the Council...I'm sure you'd manage to convince them."

I was surprised. Sam had told Jacob to stay away from me.

"He picked up your scent in Jacob's bedroom but he didn't ask what happened. I believe he thinks you only kissed."

"Sam's in the past. I just want to go and forget about this mess."

"You're just like Jacob. Always lying to yourselves…It was amusing to see him going crazy about Garrett…He was jealous but he never admitted it."

"Have you finished?" I asked impatiently.

"Don't make the same mistake I did."

"I have to go."

"He won't give up. He'll be waiting for you."

"For his own sake…tell him to forget about me." A single tear came rolling down my face. "And tell mum and Seth I loved them and that I'm sorry for not being there tomorrow."

Edward nodded.

"I hope you don't regret this."

Those were Edward's last words before he got out of my car and left home. After realising that he was far away I started crying compulsively. My heart was breaking piece by piece but it was too late now. I had to leave. I wasn't meant to be happy. I started the car and I left Dawson knowing that my heart would never heal again.

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I went back to Gold Beach but I didn't stay more than a week. My new friends knew something had happened. They had tried to convince me to stay and I found it quite hard to lie to them. I couldn't tell them the truth though so I said I had to leave because my family needed me. Callie, Maria and Elizabeth organised me a party and we promised we would keep in touch. I kept the small and cute russet wolf that Allison had given me. I would miss them all but maybe one day our paths would cross again. Callie was sure that would happen.

I sold my laptop and decided to travel for a while. Going from town to town was better than to live in an empty apartment, recalling the last time I had seen Jacob. It was obvious that I would never have a normal life.

It had been a month since I had left Gold Beach and I hadn't heard from anyone since then. I was staying in a cheap motel in Idaho. People were starting to get ready for Christmas. I dragged my feet and left my stinky room to search for a restaurant. I was sick of fast food and wanted to have a decent meal.

When I entered the small restaurant I ordered some food and waited. A couple of guys winked at me and I flipped them the finger, resting my case. I wasn't interested. I didn't care about love anymore. Two times I had been in love and two times I had been screwed over. That was it. No more love.

I was waiting for the waitress to bring me my lunch when I smelled them. Vampires. What the hell. Why were there vampires in Idaho? Couldn't they wait until I had my lunch?

I got up from my seat to go hunt the leeches down when I noticed the black Mercedes pulling over. The Cullens. Why them? Were they stalking me?

I paid for my meal leaving the food on the table and left by the back door. Unfortunately Jasper and Alice were already there.

"Hi Leah, how are you?" The pixie greeted.

"Starving actually. I was about to have lunch. Do you want to join me? Oh…wait you don't eat…"

"The same old Leah. It's good to see you're ok." Alice said. "Jasper go get something for Leah to eat on the way."

Alice grabbed my arm and took me to the Mercedes. Bella was there waiting for us and pulled me inside.

"It's good to see you." She told me. I rolled my eyes. I wasn't that happy to see them.

"How did you find me?"

"We have…I mean Alice has…" Bella hesitated.

"Connections." Alice said in a whisper. What were they? Fucking CIA agents?

"What the hell are you doing here?" I asked.

"We came to take you home."

I laughed.

"Not going to happen. Sorry."

Jasper joined us that moment and gave me a package. I could smell the food inside.

"We better go now." He said.

"I'm not going anywhere. Besides my car is right over there and I can't…"

"We'll pick it up later." Alice announced closing the doors.

Bella never took her eyes off of me and I crossed my arms in annoyance.

"Leah…something happened." Bella told me.

That was when I realised why Jasper was in the car with us. Something bad happened and they couldn't risk me phasing.

"What's wrong?" I asked with my heart racing. "Is it Seth? Is he alright?"

"Seth is fine." Alice explained and I sighed in relief.

"Sue is ill." Bella said suddenly.

"My mum?"

"Yes. She was diagnosed a brain tumour two weeks ago."

I felt dizzy. My mother had a brain tumour. She had needed me and I wasn't there.

"Carlisle is taking care of everything, she's in good hands. Sue is at the Hospital right now. She'll be in surgery after tomorrow and the doctors said she has good chances to live." Bella continued. "Seth has been with her but he needs you…and Sue wants to see you before the operation."

"Ok…" I mumbled. I guess there was a good thing that Jasper was there because right now I would be crying my eyes out if he wasn't there.

"She'll be fine. Sue is really strong, you know?" Bella whispered.

I nodded again. I should've been there for my mother. I was selfish to think only about my problems.

When we arrived to Forks Jasper took us to the Hospital.

"Charlie and Seth are upstairs." Bella said.

"Thanks." I mumbled.

Charlie smiled when he saw me. I thought he would scold me or look disappointed but he hugged me instead and told me he was glad to see me.

"I'm sorry for not being here Charlie." I said.

"You didn't know."

"How is she?"

"Tired. She's taking a lot of meds but the doctor said she'll be better after the operation. Why don't you go see her? Seth's there too…"

I took a deep breath and went inside my mother's room. Seth was sitting down next to the bed. He came to hug me as soon as he saw me.

"Leah…You came back." He whispered. I would rather have him screaming at me than crying like he was doing right now.

"Seth…I'm so sorry."

"Will you stay with me while mum gets better?" He asked.

I hugged him back.

"Of course I will."

He let me go and smiled.

"She's sleeping." He said. "I was going home now. We can come over tomorrow morning."

"Alright."

We left the Hospital with Charlie. Seth was staying with him. We had dinner together and Charlie told me everything about my mother's illness and how Carlisle had convinced her to see a doctor after Thanks Giving because he suspected something was wrong with her.

It was already dark when I decided to go home to have some sleep. Charlie took me in his car and then he got back to Forks. When I got home my car was already parked on the garage and then I smelled him.

I opened the door and Jacob was sitting down on the stairs waiting for me just like Edward had told me. I didn't even ask him how he got in. I couldn't stop the tears. I closed the door and then I ran into his warm arms. I buried my head on his chest and he just held me tightly.

A feeling of déjà vu filled me up when Jacob took me to my bedroom and we just lay in my bed. I kept on crying and he kept comforting me, reassuring me that everything would be alright. He kissed my forehead and then I fell asleep.