Disclaimer: Twilight belongs to Stephenie Meyer. She messed up the story when she made Jake imprint on Nessie. Fortunately for us there's always the world of fanfictions.

Disclaimer(2): The expression "mini-alpha" belongs to Anne Sullivan.

Author/Note: This is a Leah/Jacob story with all the normal pairings and the events in Breaking Dawn never happened, because just like my cousin said, Breaking Dawn shouldn't even be considered a book.

Translation to English of O Nosso Amanhecer 2. This version was subjected to a few changes from the original in Portuguese.

This translation was a request by FantasyLover74.

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Alert: the characters in this story curse a lot.

Our Dawn

Part II

Leah Clearwater

34. Lies and Sorrows

I waited patiently for the day Rachel would finally get married. The Cullens were invited and therefore Edward would be able to read Jacob's thoughts and then tell me how he was doing. Bella had tried to talk to me and convince me to go to the wedding but how could I go to La Push being almost five months pregnant? I could even cause someone to have a fucking heart attack…again.

"Are you sure you'll be alright on your own?" Esme asked for the third time.

"For crying out loud, I'm going to be fine." I half yelled. They would only be gone for a few hours and quite frankly I was dying to have some time alone.

"Take care of our mini alpha, alright?" Emmett said waving from his car with Rosalie by his side.

"See you later." I waved back.

"Call me if anything happens." Carlisle said.

I made my way to my bedroom again and started to read a book that Alice had advised me to read. I had no idea what gave her the impression I enjoyed Science-Fiction's books. I was a damn werewolf living with eight freaking vampires in Canada. My life was Science-Fiction itself.

A few hours later I felt Harry's movements. We were hungry so I went to the small kitchen to prepare something to eat.

I watched TV for a while, trying not to think that Bella would meet Jacob at the wedding. She wanted to tell him everything, including that I was staying with them in Canada but she would think twice after almost causing me to have a miscarriage not too long ago. Edward was sure she wouldn't dare to breathe a word to Jacob or the others.

I had never thought I would feel bored without the leeches around. I watched the time pass and when it was already dark the four cars arrived to the mansion almost at the same time.

I got up from my bed immediately and waited for them to come and see me. To my surprise only Edward and Carlisle walked in.

"What's wrong?" I asked studying their faces.

"Rachel and Paul went on their honeymoon to the Dominican Republic. The wedding was very beautiful." Carlisle started. "Sue sends her love."

I nodded. I guess those were the good news. Edward would surely deliver the bad ones.

"He doesn't know." He stated. "He didn't see the sonogram's picture because he smashed his bedroom when you left and he did try to find you. He thinks you're having regrets about what happened between you two."

"What?" Was he stupid? How could he think something like that?

"You left him Leah. Without saying a word." Edward kept talking. "He's convinced that you still love Sam."

"I don't love Sam!"

"You don't have to tell me. You need to tell him."

"Fine…I will."

"When?"

"I don't know."

"He attacked Sam once and I believe he'll do it again. He forced Seth to give him the letter you wrote, he doesn't allow his pack brothers to phase when he's in wolf form and he almost hurt your mother when he found out she's covering for you. Luckily Seth and Quil were with him. He's loosing control."

Those weren't bad news, were terrible news. I had made a big mess for everyone. I felt the tears threatening to roll down my face. This was all my fault.

"I know you don't agree with Bella, but this time, I think you should listen to her. Jacob needs to know the truth. Please Leah…no more lies." Edward said leaving and Carlisle followed him.

I guess it was time for me to make my final decision.

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I had called the leeches to my room to tell them my decision. I even allowed Bella to be there. I thanked them for what they had done for me and my baby so far and I announced I was going to leave the next day. I had to go back home, talk to Jacob and tell him the truth.

The Cullens understood and I promised Carlisle I would be careful and I would still come to his appointments. After all he was the only doctor I could actually see.

Edward, Alice, Jasper and Bella left to go to School. Esme and Carlisle went to work and Rosalie and Emmett stayed with me for a while until she decided to go to town. She wanted to go shopping and I knew she was going to buy more stuff for the baby.

I was feeling much better now that I had finally decided what to do. It was now absolutely sure I was going to do the right thing. Jacob would freak out at first but I would still give him a choice. I wasn't going to force him to stay with me if he didn't want to.

I took off my clothes and went to have a shower. When I finished I went back to my bedroom and then a familiar scent hit me. My heart started to race and I felt myself trembling.

Holding the white towel around my body I turned around and saw him standing there. Jacob was wearing only a pair of cut-offs and tennis shoes. I was completely frozen. It was as if a hurricane had washed over all of my body. The intensity of my feelings was making me feel almost sick.

"So you've been here all this time?" He asked walking forward. I didn't know what to say. "You left me for the Cullens? I never thought I would see this day…"

I could sense the sarcasm in his voice and a bit of anger as well.

"I'm sorry Jacob."

"Sorry? Is that the best you can do? Do you have any idea what I went through?"

"I never meant this to happen this way."

"You never meant to do a lot of things Leah, but you did. You told me you loved me and you didn't regret being with me and then you left. You left without a fucking word!" He raised his voice.

He was really pissed off and I understood his reasons. I should've been waiting for this reaction. He had all the motives to be angry at me.

"How did you find me?"

I had to keep him talking so I could think of a way to tell him the truth.

"Yesterday in Rachel's wedding they had your scent. Even Rosalie…I thought I was imagining things but I decided to check it out anyways…and here you are…in Canada with the Cullens."

More sarcasm. I recoiled, feeling a bit scared of what he would do once I told him the reason why I left.

"I didn't want to come." I confessed and it was true.

"But you're here. You left me…I gave you time, I gave you my heart and you threw it away."

"I gave you my heart too."

"No! You didn't! You still love Sam! That's why you left…because I can never be him!"

"That's not true. I don't love Sam anymore."

"Then why did you leave me?" He asked coming closer and holding me in his arms.

"Everything changed Jacob…and I got really scared." I whispered.

"It hurt so bad to be without you." He said. "It hurt more than when I read Sam's thoughts and saw you and him kissing when he returned from his honeymoon."

I looked at him surprised. I didn't know he knew about that.

"Jacob…That kiss didn't mean anything."

"Then prove it…"

He crashed his lips against mine and I felt the sudden heat consuming me. For crying out loud I was almost five months pregnant and he still had that effect on me. I was completely wrapped in his warmth when I felt my baby move.

"Jacob…I can't do this now." I whispered against his mouth.

He pulled away and looked into my eyes. I don't know what he thought he saw but whatever it was it made him cup my face and kiss me passionately again.

"I thought about you day and night…I even tried to imprint to ease the pain…"

"I'm so sorry…I messed up again."

"Please, just tell me why you did it. Tell me you still want me."

My heart was racing because of his desperate words. I couldn't stand his sadness and his pain. All I wanted to do was wash that away and make him smile again.

I buried my head in his embrace and Jacob's hands travelled along my sides and rested on my waist and that's when I realised I should have never let him come this close.

"What the…?" He pulled away and watched by bump in complete shock.

"Jacob…I was going to tell you."

"What the fuck is going on? You're…pregnant? How is that possible?"

He backed off but his eyes were still focused on my belly.

"I couldn't believe myself."

"So this is the reason you left me…" It wasn't a question.

He stood there in silence trying to absorb what he was seeing. I admit it was pretty disturbing. Everyone thought I couldn't have children.

"It's not mine, is it? That's why you left. That's why you couldn't face me."

I was too stunned to even react to his words. He thought I had been sleeping with someone else.

"It's Sam's isn't it? Shit…I can't believe I actually fell for you…I thought you loved me. When it comes to love it's all about that son of a bitch, Samuel fucking Uley…"

He turned around and left quickly. I ran after him to try to explain myself and tell him that he was wrong.

"Jacob…Stop. It's not what you think! Jacob! Come back!"

"Leave me alone Leah!"

His body was already changing when I got to the garden and I noticed that all of my body was also shaking violently. I saw a huge russet wolf running into the forest and my voice failed me. I felt suddenly weak and I fell down on the grass with just the white towel wrapped around me. Jacob was gone and I couldn't get up. I lost track of the time, I just lay there crying until I felt someone calling my name.

"Leah. Leah. Leah."

"Do you think we should take her to the Hospital?"

"I don't know."

"Maybe we should call Carlisle."

I recognised the voices. I opened my eyes slowly and saw Rosalie, Emmett, Alice and Jasper.

"Em, take her to the bedroom." Rosalie said.

Emmett lifted me easily from the grass. A few seconds later I saw Edward and Bella coming over to meet us.

"Are you alright?" Edward asked me when Emmett was putting me in my bed.

"We already called Carlisle." Bella announced. "You'll be alright soon."

"Are you feeling any pain?" Rosalie asked me.

Did the pain in my heart counted?

"No. I'm fine."

"You blacked out on the garden, Leah. Are you sure you're feeling alright?" She insisted.

I nodded affirmatively.

"What happened?" Alice asked. "Why were you outside?"

"Jacob was here." Edward answered for me. "He didn't react very well to the news."

"You told him?" Bella questioned.

"He didn't listen to me." I whispered. "He thinks I'm a slut. He thinks the baby is Sam's."

"Stupid mutt." Rosalie spat. "Maybe you should forget about him."

"Let's just wait for Carlisle to see if Leah's ok." Alice said and Rosalie agreed.

"I'm fine." I insisted.

"No, you're not. You're hurt because it never crossed his mind that he could be the father of your baby." Edward said and I glared at him.

"Do you know where he went? We could go after him…" Bella suggested.

"That's not necessary. Jacob made his choice. He doesn't care about me…You were right. I guess there aren't true feelings involved. You won."

Bella looked at me without saying a word.

"I don't need your pity Bella." I added. "I just need to be alone."

Everyone left but Jasper. He stayed outside my bedroom door until Carlisle arrived to check on me. Even though they tried to cheer me up I felt undoubtedly alone.

I refused to eat for the rest of the day. My actions seemed to infuriate Rosalie. She was, of course, worried about the baby.

"Are you kidding me? You're starving your baby because that stupid mutt is an irresponsible and ungrateful bastard?"

I glared at her. It wasn't Jacob's fault. It was mine.

"You need to eat." Esme supported Rosalie's words.

"I'm not hungry."

"Leah…I know you don't like me much but…please let us help you."

I faced Bella directly.

"How do you think you can help me?" I questioned.

"Now that you want to tell Jake the truth we can go get him. I'm sure we'll be able to find him and then you two can talk properly."

"She's right." Edward stated. "This time he'll listen and then you can decide what to do about the baby."

"I believe Edward and Bella have a point." Carlisle said suddenly. "You're putting you and your baby at risk if you get depressed. The sooner you speak to Jacob, the better."

"What if he doesn't believe me?"

"The mutt will believe you, don't worry." Rosalie said clenching her fists.

"Carlisle can also do a paternity test to prove he's the father." Alice suggested.

"I don't think that will be necessary. We just need to tell him he's the father. Jacob will surely come back after that." Edward assured.

"Don't forget you're in a crucial state of your pregnancy, alright?" Carlisle informed.

I nodded.

"So, can we go search for Jake and bring him here?" Bella asked.

"Yes." I replied.

"Great…" She pulled Edward along with her and they went upstairs.

"We're going too." Alice announced and pulled Jasper with her.

"What about School?" I asked.

"I'll talk to their teachers." Carlisle informed.

"Do you think they'll be able to find him?" I asked.

"Of course." The doctor replied.

When Alice, Jasper, Edward and Bella arrived to the kitchen they were all carrying their camping's bags.

"We need to be careful in the forest. We might find a patrol or turists…" Edward explained and I nodded.

"We'll be back before you notice it." Alice announced smiling.

Before I could thank them or wish them good luck a strong and familiar scent his us all and a large figure walked in without a warning.

"Hey guys…have you seen Jake? I've been tracking down his scent and it keeps leading me here." My brother said.

No one replied and that was when he noticed me.

"Leah? What the hell are you doing here?" He pushed Edward and Jasper out of his way and faced me.

"Seth I…" I honestly didn't know what to say to him.

Seth opened his arms and hugged me full force. I could hardly breathe.

"Seth!" The Cullens yelled at him. They were afraid he could hurt me or the baby.

He let go of me and his eyes went to my belly. I couldn't hide my pregnancy anymore.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner…" I said.

Seth didn't answer. Instead he did what I thought it was impossible for a wolf to do: he just fell on the floor leaving a small hole where his body hit first.

"Oh please…" Rosalie threw her arms in the air. "Did he just pass out because Leah's pregnant?"

"That's so gay."

I glared at Emmett and he hid himself behind his wife.

"It's not manly…" He corrected.

"Emmett, take him to the couch." Carlisle ordered.

"Is he alright? I never thought Seth would faint." Bella said.

"He fought against Riley on his own. I'm sure he's fine." Edward declared laughing. "He was just caught off guard."

As soon as Emmett dropped him on the couch, Seth started to open his eyes.

"I want to talk to my brother alone." I said firmly. It was now or never. I wouldn't lie anymore. I didn't want to feel guilty and hide things from my family. Seth deserved to know.

A/Note (2): Leah wants to make amends. Jacob got everything wrong and Seth is about to know he's going to be an uncle. And don't worry "kick-ass" Leah Clearwater will be back in chp 36 and Jake will be back in the next chapter.

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Karisan