Chapter 8: Getting There
Scotty's POV
Crap I'd stuffed up again, I promised her I wouldn't do anything stupid and then I go and threaten Peter. I would of punched the crap outta him if we were alone and I know that threatening him right there in the LAPD was the dumbest thing I could of done cause now she's just mad at me...again.
Something happened when I touched her hand; I felt something that I haven't felt since I was a kid. I felt like I had butterflies in my stomach as I held onto her soft, delicate hand, even thought it was only for a short time.
Could it be that...nah that can't be it, I have feelings for her. Crap that's just wonderful, I sigh and as Lilly comes back to the table and when I find I can't take my eyes off her I realise that it's true I am in love with her.
"What?" she asks
"Nothin, let's just eat and get outta here"
We eat our burgers and fries in silence and I ponder my recent discovery of the feelings I have for my partner. Why is it that I always fall for the girl with the problems, like Elisa although her getting sick wasn't her fault. Chris, enough said about her really and now Lil who seemed to be hiding more form me then just a crappy childhood complete with alcoholic mother and absent father.
Getting back in the car we agree that we'll drive for a few more hours and then find somewhere to stay the night. So back on the interstate we go and we drive in silence yet again, twice I've tried to get her to speak to me but she just shrugs or grunts her one word answers and continues to stare out the window. After a few more hours we reach the Grand Canyon national park. I ask Lil if she wanted to get out and have a look and again she just shrugs so I keep driving.
Before too long I realise we gonna need to stop for gas and finding a gas station I pull over.
"I am just gonna pay for the gas and get some food for the road, you want anything?" I ask and she shakes her head
Now I am getting mad, how many times do I gotta say I am sorry? Sorry for Chris, sorry for wantin to kick the arse of the guy that tried to rape her. What the hell does she want from me?
When I slip back into the car I try one more time to apologise.
"Lil, I am sorry. I am sorry that I lost my temper, I am sorry that I wasn't there to protect you in the first place and most of all I sorry I am such a lousy partner" I say
"You're not a lousy partner Scotty" She says
"Yes I am, I went behind your back with Chris and I was an idiot comming into work drunk and drinking on the job. I know there's was no excuse for what I did and I know that you'll probably never forgive me for the whole Chris thing and if you requested a different partner from Boss...I wouldn't blame you" I say "But I don't wanna lose you as a friend Lil, that's...that's really important to me so can you just say that you at least forgive me for being a complete idiot?"
She looked across at me and smiled slightly "I can forgive you for being an idiot" she said and I breathe a sigh of relief.
"Thanks...are we...are we friends" she takes a deep breath
"I don't know Scotty, you don't know how much I want to say yes but you really hurt me Scotty, you betrayed my trust and lied to my face and I am not sure I am ready to forgive you just yet" She replies and I feel as though my heart is being ripped out.
"I can understand that" I say "Can we still be partners" I ask tentatively praying that her answer would be yes.
After a pause that seems like an eternity she smiles at me "Of course, you may be an idiot but you're still the best partner I've ever had"
"You're the best partner I have ever had Lil" I reach over and place my hand on hers and when she doesn't pull back I smile "Now let's get the hell outta here and get back to Philly" I say
"Definitely "she replies and I gun the motor and drive away from the gas station.