Sometimes
The heart sees
What is invisible to the eye
~H. Jackson Brown Jr.
~June~
I leaned against the front door, basically smacking myself for hugging him AND kissing his cheek.
I probably looked desperate.
I sighed and stood there for a few moments. I looked into the hall mirror.
I looked like crap. I'd been up since god knows what hour in the morning and it was close to midnight.
I ran my fingers through my hair which was acting wavy and thick right now. I took in a deep breath and walked up the stairs to my room. I passed Jake's room on the way.
His door was open; I stopped in my tracks to look at the perfect scene in front of me.
Jake was lying in his bed with Nessie. They were both on their sides and Nessie's back was pressed up against his chest. It basically emphasized how tiny Nessie really was. They were both out cold; Jake's arm was wound tightly around Nessie's waist, holding her up against him.
It looked as if Nessie was made for Jake, the way she so perfectly fit against him.
I looked at them for a few more moments, mesmerized by the way Nessie's tiny red gold ringlets were splayed along the pillow. They were definitely asleep, but I saw Nessie's hand move, and her fingers lock with Jake's.
So there was something going on between them.
Nessie could've only been sixteen, and Jacob was at least twenty. That's a little bit creepy.
I shrugged it off, reminding myself that it wasn't my place to judge. I walked into my room and stretched out my back, yawning along the way.
I fell onto my bed and sleep overpowered me.
My eyes jolted open, I wasn't in my bed. I was lying on the soft, green earth. I looked around; I was surrounded by flowers and trees.
A meadow.
I have been here before, I could tell but I just couldn't place when. The beauty and serenity of the meadow was breath taking, and I couldn't help but get up and look around.
My fingers grazed against the bark off a tree as I walked past it.
There was a rustle of leaves, and the small bubbling sound of a creek nearby.
"Who is there?" I gasped at my words.
It was like I could see them; they floated in front of me, shrouded in a blue sapphire mist. I giggled and a wave of sapphire burst in front of me.
I put my hand over my mouth. I looked down.
I was wearing a very tiny grey dress; it seemed to be made of crocodile skin. It exposed most of my legs and was cut dangerously low.
My hand automatically ran through my hair, brushing it out of my face.
"Where am I?" I asked to myself, my words appearing in their sapphire form.
"Nirvana," A familiar voice replied. I'd learn to know that voice within the last week.
"Jesse?" I wondered aloud, feeling the confused expression come over my face.
"No." Was the response, and there was the sound of footsteps on the mossy earth. I turned to see the man I'd seen in my dream three days ago.
He looked the same, but different at the same time. His clothing was cleaned up, and his handsome features more noticeable than ever.
His pale blonde hair and putrid red eyes were enhanced by the moonlight.
"W-who are you?" My voice quivered, my instinct was telling me he wasn't a good guy.
"That's not important, June," He responded, a smirk forming on his red lips.
"How do you know my name?" I felt my eyes go wide.
"I know all about you, June. And soon enough, you'll know about me too, but you can't stop me." He grinned and then he disappeared into the woods, leaving me standing there, alone.
I felt a hot hand on my shoulder, and I turned to see the worried golden eyes.
"June, stay away from him," Jesse whispered, his fingers gripping my shoulder tighter.
"How does he know me?" I replied, my voice small and scared.
Right now, I was terrified.
"He knows all of us, June. He wants us gone because we killed someone important to him. He wants us to feel the pain we put him through. He…" Jesse stuttered, his eyes closing, his voice sounding fainter, "He wants to kill you."
I hugged myself to Jesse, as if holding on would save me.
Someone wanted me to die, and they wanted everyone to suffer.
I felt Jesse's lips on my hair and he murmured something.
I rolled out of bed.
Literally.
I landed on the hardwood floor with a dull thud.
I cursed lightly and stood up, rubbing my head where I'd hit it on the brush laying on the floor.
I stood up and looked at my clock, 6:48.
The dream suddenly rushed back to my mind and I looked down, relieved to see that I was wearing the same shorts and tank top I'd thrown on yesterday.
Alice would be here soon for my final appearance here at Forks High School.
Speak of the Devil and the Devil shall appear.
Alice bounded into my room, with Bella and Rose in tow.
I muttered something groggily to her and she responded with a big grin.
"A happy hello to you too." She beamed, pushing me into the bathroom.
"June?" I heard Rose ask.
"Hmm?" I hummed, I couldn't turn to look at her, and Alice was fussing over my hair and telling me to stay still.
"I'm sorry about lunch the other day, Emmett gets ahead of himself, he's being punished don't worry." She told me, a smile sewn on her face. I could see her in the mirror reflection.
"Oh, No worries, it's cool. Emmett seemed like someone I'd totally hang with, he reminds me of my friend Ryan back at home," I laughed, remembering Wednesday afternoon at lunch when I got to meet "the boys."
~Flashback~
I walked into the cafeteria with Nessie, after changing back into my regular clothing. Sitting at our normal table where six people instead of three. We stopped in line to get some food, and while waiting, I surveyed the others.
They were all pretty tall, one of them was huge, like he spent all his time in a gym or was on steroids. Hey, I don't judge.
He had curly black hair and topaz eyes, just like Alice, Rose, and Bella.
Another one was blonde; he was about as tall as the big one, but maybe an inch shorter. He looked pretty buff, but not nearly as big as the other one. He had the same eyes as the rest of them.
The final one was about as tall as me. He was laughing at something Bella had said, his arm draped casually over her shoulder. He wasn't as muscled as the other too, a bit lanky. He had messy bronze hair, the same color as Nessie's. Some to think of it, he looked a lot like her too.
Nessie tapped my arm to get my attention and I grabbed a salad and a coke, payed for it and walked with Nessie over to the table.
The big one looked at me, "Did I ever tell you guys I'm allergic to Roses?"
I looked at him weirdly and then he was slapped by Rose, who gave him a menacing glare. I noticed everyone was cracking up.
Rose was his girl friend! I get it!
"Guys, this is June." Bella smiled at me and they all nodded.
I laughed lightly and they went around introducing themselves.
"I'm Jasper," The blonde one said, nodding curtly.
"Edward," The Nessie Look-Alike told me.
"Nacho," The big one said, which caused everyone to crack up at how serious he was.
"What?" He looked around, his eyes wide with curiosity.
"It's name is Emmett." Alice giggled, and Emmett looked offended.
"Alice, I thought we were friends! Now I'm just an it? That's not what you said last night!" He whined in a high voice. Rose glared at him some more and Alice gave him a weird look, Jasper, Edward, Bella, and Ness were cracking up.
I just watched, interested. Emmett and I would get along well.
"Say, Emmett, do you like chili wars?" I asked him casually and his eyes lit up.
"I like her," He said to Alice who was staring at him horrified. The way he was grinning only meant one thing; I'd asked him a question that would cut all hell loose.
"Sorry, I was just thinking how well Emmett and I would get along." I smiled innocently.
Rose rolled her eyes and picked at her bagel.
"Why do you look so much like Nessie, Edward?" I asked out loud.
"She's my sister." Edward replied instantly.
"Oh."
I sipped my coke and then the bell rang. We all got up and went our separate ways.
~ End Flashback~
I was so spaced on remembering that Alice was poking my cheek, and repeating my name. She was straining to reach my face. She was really tiny.
Rose threw some clothes at me then they slammed the bathroom door shut, leaving me in peace so I could change.
I glanced in my mirror. They had straightened my hair, it looked as if my hair was naturally straight, and I can tell you right now, it was far from that.
I pulled on the very short black shorts and navy blue top. I put on some pretty sweet black and white converse and some jewelry that had been just recently thrown at me.
My favorite accessory was the solid gold ring that said, "Fuck You" on it.
I was so keeping this ring.
I stepped out of the bathroom and got my applause from the girls.
It was a little early, but we headed out, the clouds were dense. We were riding in Rose's car today; it was an eye popping red. I loved this car. It was so sweet.
We arrived at school about ten minutes early and ducked into the empty cafeteria, waiting for the bell to ring.
We basically just chilled and talked about the boys.
Nessie didn't say a word about Jake, which surprised me. What I saw last night was so adorable, maybe there is something going on there instead of just friends. I never did fully understand why Nessie basically lived there. She did sleep over a lot.
"So, June, how's Jess doing?" Alice asked me, a chorus of giggled escaping her lips. I gave her a weird look and then responded faintly.
"He's good, I guess." I shrugged.
We left it at that, moments later the bell rang.
The day flew by, and there were no signs of Jesse what so ever.
He wasn't at gym; no spotting at lunch, he wasn't at Biology so I was forced to do the plant assignment by myself. I left all the notes with it. He could work on it from there.
I wondered if I'd get to see him again before I left.
At the end of the day me and Ness got dropped off at home and lounged in the living room for a little bit.
After a while of watching aimless cartoons, Nessie jolted out of the room and came back, fixing her hair and putting on earrings. She'd changed into a really nice dress.
"June, I totally forgot, I'm going to my friend's birthday dinner tonight. I need you to run down to the shop and tell Jake that he has to get home ASAP if he wants to make it. And he does because there is real food. I have to go over to Bella's to help her get ready, I'm so sorry for rushing this." She said fast as lightning, but I caught all of it.
I nodded obediently and decided to bring Shad with me, I usually let him out in the backyard to do his business, but today I decided to walk him. I snagged the blue leash Ness had left him; she was pulling out of the driveway by the time I'd gotten out the front door.
I knew where the shop was because Jake had pointed it out so many times.
The walk only took a decent ten minutes, and Shad enjoyed the nice stretch.
When I got there Jake was talking to a customer. I walked through the garage after he nodded at me, recognizing my presence.
Someone was underneath a beat up old Honda. I could hear the wrenches grinding away as he tried to fix whatever it was he was fixing.
I waited for Jake to finish so I walked back into the waiting area and sat down in one of the nice leather chairs.
I was stroking Shad's head, as Jake continued to talk to the man.
Finally, the man parted and Jake looked at me.
"Yes?" He said eventually.
"Nessie says you're late for the birthday dinner?" I made it sound like a question, and realization struck him.
"Ah, shit." He muttered, he went behind the desk and started pulling a bunch of papers together. I sat there with Shad, feeling a bit too lazy to get up just yet.
The door that led to the garage opened and out stepped the one and only, Jesse Thomas. He didn't seem to notice me at first, he had gone right over to Jake.
"The motor is in bad shape, and there wasn't much I could do, if I worked on it a little longer, I could fix it up. I'll close up for you." He told Jake. He had a rag in his hands and was wiping off the monkey wrench that had been covered in oil.
I took in his appearance. He wasn't wearing a shirt, and his muscled chest was streaked with black oil. His shorts clung low at his hips and there was more grease swiped on his fore head. It matched the color of his hair.
Jesse looked unbearably sexy.
"I really gotta go; stay as long as you need if you seriously want to try and fix that piece of shit, just put the closed sign on the door so no customers come in." Jake hadn't even looked up at him.
That's when Jesse saw me.
"Hey, June," He nodded casually, and I nodded back, Shad trying to jump out of my arms and run over to Jesse, his soon to be owner.
Jake then left, throwing the keys to Jess, who looked at me.
"So, what brings you here?" He asked me casually as he wiped his hands off with the rag.
"Ness told me to tell Jake she needed him to get his ass home to get ready for a party, a dinner really. So, while she was getting dressed I took Shad out for a little stretch and came to tell him." I smiled and on cue Shad hopped out of my arms and scrambled to Jesse, clawing at his basketball sneakers.
"Oh, do you know anything about cars?" He questioned, looking up from his hands.
"Hun, I grew up with four brothers, I know tons." I laughed and he chuckled with me.
"I'm trying to fix up this old car I found, just a little project to keep me distracted from reality, Jake lets me use his garage for stuff like this, you can come help if you'd like," He offered with a small smile.
"Sure, anything to do other then sit around bored on a Friday night is fine with me." I stood up and picked Shad up, following Jesse into the garage part. I tied Shad's leash to a sturdy looking pipe, at least two feet in width. Thank god I had his long leash with me.
"So, what do you think is wrong with the car mainly?" I checked the car out; it was the old Honda I'd seen the guy working under. It must've been him.
It was painted a baby blue and had spider webs all over the windshield. There was a long crack in the glass and the paint was pretty badly chipped. It was a piece of work.
"The motor is in bad shape, I just can't figure out what it is." He stated, his hands on his hips.
I laughed and motioned to the dolly, "May I?"
"By all means," He shrugged.
I lay down on the dolly and slid under the car, peering up at the massive jumble of wires.
I spotted one of the main problems, one of the main caps that held the oil in was missing and a few important wires were disconnected. There was a large dent in the main part and holes that weren't supposed to be there. Nothing complicated.
I rolled out.
"You have really long legs," Jesse blurted, covering his mouth in embarrassment after doing so.
"Why, thank you." I laughed.
I hopped up and open the hood, looking down at the ancient car's engine.
I leaned over, reaching down, after spotting something pink.
Gross, someone plugged it with gum!
I shivered in disgust and walked over to one of the well organized shelves. I picked the appropriate sized cap, about two centimeters in diameter.
I looked over at Jesse, he had his arms crossed and he was watching me intensely, concentrating on my every move.
I got a rubber glove and pulled the gum out, discarding the glove along with it. I screwed the cap on the small opening. It was a perfect fit.
"Jess?" I looked up at him.
"Hmm?" He responded, breaking from his staring.
"I need a pair of pliers, and some metal wire about this thick," I held my index finger and thumb about a millimeter apart.
"Okay," He nodded and disappeared through the door, leading to a room behind the garage.
I sighed and laid back down, rolling under the car once more. I stared up at the engine and waited for him to return.
I heard him stumble back into the room.
I held my hand out from under the car and he placed the pliers and wire in my hand.
I mumbled a thank you and went to work.
Soon enough, all the wires were attached again.
I rolled back out, coughing. Some of the oil had landed on me, soiling my tank top and getting on my fore head and in my hair.
"There are some holes in the side, a few pieces of metal will patch them up and this thing will run good as new, you did change the oil, right?" I asked, standing up and reaching for a rag, wiping my own hands off.
He smiled, "Yeah, thanks. You can stick around if you want; I know Shad is enjoying his nap." He nodded to the tiny black fur ball that'd curled up and fell asleep.
I laughed and rolled my eyes.
"I'll stay if it will make you happy." I smirked and he chuckled.
"It'll make my week." He grinned before walking back into the back room and appearing with some masking tape and a roll of thick aluminum.
He went underneath the car on the dolly.
I could hear him ripping the tape and tearing the aluminum.
After about ten minutes he rode back out, a big grin on his face.
"Let's see if this baby can run," He remarked, running his fingers through his hair and walking over to a small table. He picked up a set of keys and walked over to the passenger side, opening the door.
"Get in," He laughed and I shrugged hopping in.
"Thanks," I said to him as he slid in the drivers seat.
"Cross your fingers," He told me, and I did so. He put the key in the ignition and turned it, after a few grumbles the car started to run, with a load roar of course, which settled down after a moment.
"It runs!" He shouted happily and grinned at me, "Thanks to you, I didn't even see those holes!"
"What managed to get holes into solid metal, beats me," I shrugged, laughing lightly.
I was hyper sensitive to the fact I was sitting barely inches from him. He got out of the car, and I got out as well. He walked over to where I was standing and crouched down, looking at my door. He was analyzing the paint, I think.
He muttered something to himself then disappeared, reappearing with a paint can and a couple of brushes.
"Wanna help?" He smirked, and I laughed nodding. It was only like six o'clock, right?
He opened it and the strong scent of paint hit me, I recoiled, backing into a pole by accident.
"Ow," I muttered, rubbing the spot on my head that I'd hit.
He rushed over to me.
"You alright?" His hands were on my shoulders, he looked at me with a steady gaze.
I blinked, unable to speak. I was captivated by his eyes. I nodded weakly and he chuckled, ignoring the perfect opportunity to kiss me.
I sighed and followed him, he poured some of the paint in a paint thing and dipped a brush in it, and crouched again, painting along the side.
I rolled my eyes.
"Jess," I started, putting my hand on my hip.
"What?" He looked up at me.
"You're doing it wrong. You have to paint along the grain." I walked up behind him, ducking under his arm, so it was over my shoulder and put my hand over his, making it go up and down.
He chuckled and tilted my face up to face his, "Thanks," He smiled; he rearranged our hands so that his was on top of mine.
He didn't stop looking at me; I could tell he was looking at my lips. Everything went still and I dropped the brush, he didn't care.
His fingers twisted with mine, I loved the feeling of his hand holding mine. His other arm wrapped around my waist, pulling me to face him. He pulled me closer, not even blinking.
His lips pressed against mine, and it felt amazing. The static shock surged through me, making me want more.
Kissing Jesse was ten million times better than kissing James. James's kisses were always sweet, but I never felt this fire and electricity.
Our lips still hadn't parted, but he pulled us up, so we were standing, just to make everything easier. I leaned against the car, my hands grabbing at his shoulders. His hands were placed on my hips, his body pressed very close against mine.
His tongue brushed across my lip, as if asking permission. Without thinking, I parted my lips, and he smiled against them.
Our tongues moved in synchronization, his hands sliding against my back, as if massaging me.
A moan escaped me, and I pulled him closer, not wanting to ever stop.
I didn't know what it was, most girls would find making out in a hot, sweaty garage, against an old beat up car disgusting.
I found it romantic, and original, face it,and I'm not much like other girls. My fingers ran through his hair, knotting in it.
"June…" He moaned slash whispered. His lips grazed across my jaw and down my neck.
"Mmm." I responded, my fingers sliding back down to his shoulders, digging into his tan skin.
I could hear the rain pouring outside, but I didn't open my eyes.
A while later, I forced myself to open my eyes; I glanced at the clock on the wall and the alarming result of the time.
10:48
"Jess," I regretfully pulled away, almost hating myself for it. His eyes looked confused.
"It's almost eleven at night," I gasped for air. His eyes went huge in shock.
"Whoa." His eyes flashed to the window, seeing the torrential downpour.
"Do you need a ride?" He asked, cleaning stuff up and putting the paint and stuff away. I watched him rush around, taking the time to wake Shad up and unity him. He yawned, doing this adorable stretch thing.
Jesse sauntered back into the room.
"I don't have an umbrella, it wasn't raining earlier." He smiled sheepishly.
"S'okay," I smiled, "You know, you make one sexy grease monkey," I whispered after we'd started locking the place up.
He smirked at me, "You just made my ego go from confident to conceited."
"Should I consider that an accomplishment?" I grinned back, and he reached over, brushing my loose bangs out of my eyes and kissing me gently.
I grinned and hugged him tight, kissing him back.
I never thought I'd be even near him again, but I had to forgive, I was such a push over.
And this was strictly a onetime thing. And would remain that way, I wasn't getting into a relationship now, the worst possible time ever. We were just hanging out and…
He pulled me into the rain and Shad pulled me back, sniffing something at the door. He seemed pretty interested, and wouldn't budge, so we had to wait for him.
In the pouring rain.
My eyes glazed over Jesse and his perfect body, his sculpted chest, his tall frame, his golden eyes.
He caught me staring at him and I looked away, blushing.
He came up and hugged me from behind, his lips at my throat. He turned me around a kissed me. Smack in the pouring rain.
It was basically every girl's fantasy to be kissed by the hottest guy ever, Jesse, in the rain.
There was just something about being in the rain, and having someone hold you close that made everything seem right.
Shad finally seemed content and Jesse locked the front door, and then pulled me and Shad to his car.
Jess opened the passenger door for me and then closed it after I slid in. He started walking around the car, getting something from the trunk.
I surveyed to car. It had beautiful black leather interior and it wasn't that messy minus a few Wendy's bags scattered around the back seat. Shad had taken the back seat and curled up again. Jess climbed into the driver's seat holding two towels.
"Here, I usually keep some in my trunk, I get wet when I'm outside in the rain," He explained easily towel drying his hair with one towel; I dried myself off with the one he'd given me. He looked at me after a moment and laughed. I looked at him confused and he leaned over, brushing what I'd guessed was a strip of oil on my forehead that I hadn't gotten before.
His face was inches from mine again.
"Jesse," I mumbled, but he silenced my lips with his. I was quite thankful he did, I didn't want to have to tell him what I needed to.
"Jesse," I pushed him away for a moment, determined to tell him.
"I can't…" I started, but his hurt expression from me pushing away almost broke my heart.
"I…You know, I can't start anything with you now. I just don't want to have to leave with things left unsaid, undone. I never intended to do this, or to meet someone as amazing as you, but I can't get into something like this." I whispered; I could feel a tear sliding down my cheek.
He looked at me, his eyes sincere, "I know, June. I don't want to have to deal with the pain of this once you leave, I just was hoping this could be a small escape of reality. It's Just a onetime thing, because you've made it clear that your life is back in Arizona. You know I love you, and I want you, but I can't stop you from making your own decisions. I don't own you, much to my dismay." He grinned at the last part, and I giggled lightly.
"June, I'm supposed to tell you this, and I want to, but it's going to kill you. I know it will." He murmured, his hand finding mine in the darkness, our fingers lacing together.
Perfect fit.
"What?" My voice laced with worry.
"I'm a wolf. And, The Cullen's, they're all vampires. And what you saw yesterday, me getting basically killed, it was all real. There are things here that go far beyond a human's imagination. And I was stupid enough to get you sucked right into the middle of it. It's all might fault June." He had a pained expression about his face.
I was certainly…confused.
"I know what I saw was real, Jess. But my mom taught me enough to know that you don't ask questions about stuff that isn't your business. I still do that, but what I saw, I just was trying my best to convince myself It wasn't real." I winced.
"June, you don't understand, If we'd never met, if I'd never even laid my eyes on you, none of this would be happening." He looked…guilty?
"What do you mean?"
"I, Uhm, I imprinted on you, June," His eyes locked with me, and that wave of bliss I'd constantly felt when I was near him kicked in.
"What is imprinting?" I sounded like a stupid five year old.
"It's basically when a wolf, like me, finds their soul mate." He replied faintly.
"But, how does it work? How do you know?" I pestered him.
"June, I'm going to give you the exact quote of what you're brother, Mr. Jacob Black, said to me when I told him about it." He cleared his throat. "It's when it feels like gravity isn't holding you to the earth anymore. She is. When you get that feeling in your gut, when you're sure nothing could be more perfect than her. It's the feeling she completes you, or you her. That's what imprinting is."
I took in a deep breath, closed my eyes, and leaned against the seat.
"Did Jacob imprint on Nessie?" Was the first thing I asked and Jesse laughed.
"You're really bad at getting off main subject, but yes, he did."
"Oh, because last night, I saw them sleeping in the same bed, and I mean literally asleep, and I just thought it was a bit creepy, because she's so young and he's so…not."
He laughed pretty hard for a moment and then ended it with a sigh.
"Jess, when you told me you loved me, did you really mean it?" I asked him, my voice squeaking.
"June, when I said I loved you, I meant it with all my heart. Sure I was about as drowsy as a drunk man, but when I say something that important, I mean it." He smiled at me, and jumped at him, wrapping my arms around his neck.
I knew I should be asking millions of questions right now, about wolves, and vampires, and imprinting. But all I really wanted was to hold onto him right now.
His lips found mine.
Let's just say I didn't get home until very late that night.
But when I did walk into the house, Jake, Nessie, Seth, a girl I'd never seen before with short brown hair like Alice's, and all the Cullen's were in my dining room, deathly serious expressions on their faces.
"What's going on?" Jesse's tone was worried as hell. Yes, he'd walked me in.
"He was in her room, he stole her shirt. He's moving faster than we'd expected. She's got to get out of here now." Jake whispered, but I could hear everything.
Someone had been here?
Jake said a few other things and then all of a sudden, Jesse and Seth grabbed me and carried me outside. I didn't fight them off, I was too tired and confused to do so. They got me in Jesse's car, and Seth sat with me in the back seat.
"What's happening?" I asked, my voice sounding like crap, "Where are we going?"
"Far, far away." Jesse told me, his eyes meeting mine in the rear view mirror.