Chapter 2
Rosalie was sitting in a chair staring out the window at the world passing by. She had no makeup on, hair undone, she gave new meaning to the term dead on your feet. She startled me whispering,
"I know what you are thinking and I don't blame you. I am a complete mess." "Rose, I'm not here to critisize you. I'm here to be your sister and help you through this." "You shouldn't have to be here.
I mean I really appreciate you coming and Bella I really do love you but Emmett should be here. He is my husband and he should be here consoling me and helping me through this not siding against
me." I nelt beside her, "Rose, he's hurting too. He knows how much you want this baby he wants one just as much but for him just the thought of what could happen to you scares him. It would kill him
to lose you, Rose. In his eyes he would rather live an eterninty without children than live one minutes without you." "Bella, I see what he is saying but that doesn't matter to me. I know that sounds
really selfish but now that I know this is possible I have to have it no matter what the risks." "Rose, I never told anyone this Edward doesn't even know but when I found out I was pregnant with
Renessmee I was elated until I caught onto what Edward had planned. He wanted carlisle to take the baby becuase he knew it was going to kill me. It was like my whole world came crashing down
I was willing to run away or do anything to keep them from taking her. I knew she was going to kill me but none of that mattered I instantly loved her so much. I guess what I am trying to say is that I
no exactly how you feel and I want you to know I am willing to do anything I can to help you do this." She snapped her head toward me shock spread across her face, "You would really do that for
me?" "Of course. You are my sister and I am going to stand by you no matter what. I know what you are going through and it kills me to see you like this." "Thank you, Bella." she said hugging me
tightly. "You always welcome, Rose. Now get yourself together and I am going to go talk to Emmett." "Ok." I walked out of her room and outside to go find Emmett he had left a while earlier to go
hunting by himself for a while. It didnt take me long to find him even though it was very dark outside. He was sitting on a boulder with his head in his head sobbing until he heard me coming.
"Emmett are you ok?" He rolled his eyes at me, "What do you think?" "Emmett, I know you are hurting but I need you to listen to me. Rose, still loves you I know you think she doesn't anymore but
she does very muh so but she wants this more than anything-" He cut me off, "Bella, why did you come here? To guilt me into saying yes? I know she wants this I do to but I will not risk her life like
this for anything. So you can stop trying to play arbiter for us." "Emmett, I'm not here to try and solve your marrital problems I am here for my sister who is sitting in that room killing herself over this.
Emmett, you are going to lose her if you don't try to talk to her." His face was contorted in pain at what I was saying, "I know but Bella you know what it is like to lose someone you loved. The
difference is I want get her back she will be gone forever." "You're right I do know how it feels but I am going to tell you something that not even Edward knows yet. When I found out I was
pregnant I was overjoyed with the thougth of having a child even though I had never really wanted one. When Edward told me that he was going to take it away from me my whole world came
crashing down around me. I knew that there was no way he or anyone for that matter was taking my baby away and I was prepared to do anything I could to stop them even though I knew that
she was going to kill me in the end." He stared at me for a long time before saying anything else, "I know and if Edward hadn't have been able to change you, you would have died too. You have
no idea what Edward went through seeing you like that slowly dying right before his eyes. Honestly Bella, I could never live through that even if I knew she was going to live in the end." I dropped
my head I knew what he had gone through and I would never forgive myself for putting him through that but I could not let them take my baby girl. "All I'm saying is that you need to talk to her. Go
home and talk it out with her, Em. She needs you now more than ever right now." "Your right. Thank's lil sis." he said tousling my hair. I watched him run off back home. I sat up on the boulder
thinking about what Emmett had said about Edward when I was pregnant. I felt horrible for putting him throught that and causing him pain. I have no idea how long I sat there completly absorbed in
my thoughts before I felt a familiar set of hands surround me pulling me down fromt he boulder. He studdied my face seeing the amount of pain and angziety scaring him. "Love, what's wrong?"
It took me a moment to collect myself so I could answer without fear of my voice breaking, "I had been talking to Emmett about Rose and he agreed with me." I stopped and noticed Edward
staring at me befuddled so I continued, "He also said that no matter how much he wanted this he could never survive going through what you went through when I was pregnant." my voice was
barly even a whisper now but I knew he heard me. I could feel him stiffen as the memories resurfaced and a growl escaped his lips. "He had no right to make you go through that." "No, its ok. I am
just so sorry for all of the pain I caused you." I buried my face into his chest sobbing. "Bella, Love, why are you crying? I hated all of the pain you were going through and it nearly killed me seeing you
that way but look what we have now. A beautiful daughter that brings joy and laughter and so much happiness into our lives every day." He lifted my chin up to kiss me. "I wouldn't change a single
thing about our lives right now. Everything is perfect I have the love of my existence and a daughter that I love and adore." I smiled as images of Renessmee played in my head, "I know and neither
would I but I just wished it would have been easier for you somehow." "My life is exactly the way I want it. Now come on we need to get back to Renessmee she willl be up in a few minutes and
Jacob is home watching her. He plans on taking her to the reservation today while we hunt.
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