"What do you mean?" I asked.
He pulled away from me and said "I meant what I said. I can't do this."
"Why?"
"It's too soon. We've only been together a little over a month and... it's too soon for this."
"Evan-"
He got off the bed and pulled off the condom, throwing it into the trash bin near the window. He looked at me and said "I'm sorry. It's not right. Not yet."
I sat and said "But it feels right. I want this and so do you."
"I know," he said, sitting down next to me "But it's too soon."
"No it's not. We're adults and this is right."
"I know Avary, but..."
"But what?"
He looked at me and said "We may love each other and we may be very happy together, but it's too soon for you to make that kind of commitment to me and I wouldn't feel right about us having sex this soon."
"Then why didn't you stop earlier?"
"I was caught up in the moment and in the sounds you were making and the way you felt... I told you I was losing control."
"But I want to make that commitment to you. I want you to be my first."
He looked at me and smiled and said "Avary I want that too, I just really think we should wait."
I bit my lip and tears filled my eyes. "This is all my fault" I said tearfully.
"What?"
"If I wasn't a virgin we'd be making love right now, but because I'm a virgin you won't and-"
I broke off cause I began to cry. Evan pulled to me and stroked my hair. "Avary it's not your fault for being a virgin" he told me.
"Yes it is," I sobbed "If I would've spent more time worrying about love and less time worrying about my future-"
"You'd be unhappy, unmotivated and possibly pregnant by someone you don't love," Evan said "And you wouldn't be the amazing and strong woman you are today."
I looked at him and asked "You really believe me being a virgin isn't my fault?"
"I do," he told me gently "I respect you so much for being a virgin, that's why I want to wait. Also I want the first time we make love to be special and romantic and meaningful for both of us, not just quick hot sex because we were horny. That'll come after our perfect first time."
I let out a laugh and hugged him. "I love you so much," I told him "You make me so happy and you always say the right things."
"I love you too," he told me "And you mean so much to me, I want to make everything special and perfect for you because you deserve it."
I blushed again and he wiped away my tears.
"Do you regret what just happened?" I asked him.
"Do you?" he asked.
"Not one bit."
"Then I don't either because if you would've regretted it I would've felt so awful and horrible. I'd be kicking myself in the ass."
I laughed and said "Well you are flexible that you could kick yourself in the ass."
He laughed and hugged me tighter to him.
We cleaned up the bedroom a bit and I changed into my PJ's, throwing the nightie back into my bag. I went back into the bedroom to find Evan laying in bed, staring at the ceiling. I laid down next to him and put my head on his shoulder and an arm around him. He wrapped an arm around me and put his other arm right next to mine.
"Avary" he said softly.
"Yeah Evan?" I asked.
"I want to be with you forever."
"I want to be with you forever too."
He rolled over onto his side and looked into my eyes, stroking my hair.
You will never know how happy I am that Randy and John set us up" he whispered.
You will never know how happy I am that Randy and John set us up" I whispered back.
He smiled and kissed my hand, staring into my eyes.
Hey Evan" I said softly.
Yeah Avary?" he asked.
Can we do what we did earlier again sometime?"
Yes, but lets not make it something that happens everytime we're together."
Sounds good to me. I wasn't planning on letting that happen."
I wasn't either."
I smiled and he smiled back before sitting up a bit and grabbing the blanket, pulling it over us. Once we were comfortable we cuddled close and stared into each others until we fell fast asleep.
Well everything worked out... I guess lol!
Well they didn't fight and they're still happy together, so it seems like things worked out lol!
Next chapter is Avary telling John everything that happened between her and Evan.
What do you think John will say?
Review and let me know.