Missing by BellaAlice4E!

Chapter Three

Disclaimer: I DO NOT own Twilight or any of its characters. Those belong to Stephenie Meyer. I only use them to entertain myself and those who read my fanfic.

Bella hopes for the day when either the pain stops or she comes back. Alice finally comes home.

BPOV

I cried myself to sleep once again. I heard the front door shut and realized that Charlie was home and I hadn't started dinner for him. I sat up and noticed how soaked my pillow actually was. I have to stop doing this. I have to stop crying for her. She's gone. Why can't I just let it go?

I run downstairs and find Charlie in the kitchen.

"Bella, are you ok?" he asked me when he saw me.

"Edward showed up today." I answered.

He grumbled under his breath and sat down in the living room. He turned on the TV looking for a game involving one of his teams, whoever they were. Then he muted it.

"Do you need to talk about it Bells? I mean…umm…is there anything I can do?" he actually sounded concerned. How was I going to tell him it wasn't seeing Edward that upset me?

"Nah, I will be ok. He just surprised me and then gave me some bad news." I said as I thought about how much he actually liked Alice. "I guess the Cullen's can't find Alice. She just up and left one day. He came here to see if she came back here to Forks." I said trying not to show how much it hurt.

"Alice is missing? Did they file a missing persons report?" he jumped up and came into the kitchen. He actually looked alarmed. Of course they didn't though. Alice may look seventeen but she was much older and could take care of herself. Of course he didn't know all of that.

"No. Edward said he came here to see if she came here first. He was going to let Esme and Carlisle know what he found out." Boy this was really hard to talk about. I wanted to tell him everything. I wanted to tell him that she was depressed about having to leave me. I guess according to Edward, she missed me more than just as my best friend. Though I didn't know how much to believe. She was in love with Jasper. They were married even.

"Oh." He said. He opened the refrigerator and pulled out a can of beer. He went back to the living room and sat back down. I finished fixing dinner and made him a plate up. I carried it to the living room and handed it to him. He took it and ate quietly watching his game. I went back into the kitchen and started cleaning up the mess. When I had it all cleaned up I went back up to my room. Before I opened my door I knew someone was in there waiting. I hurried only to find it was Edward again.

"What do you want now? Want to take anything else away from me?"

"Read this." Was all he said as he handed me a neatly folded piece of paper. Right away I recognized the handwriting.

Jasper, I know that this is going to hurt you but I have to be honest with you and myself. I love you. But I don't love you the way I loved you before. I never meant for this to happen. I don't know what to do about it. For some reason this I never saw coming. I am hopelessly in love with someone else. I don't know how they feel about me but I know how I feel about them. It isn't fair to you to love you less than you deserve. I truly hope you find the one who does. I have to go. I can't be here anymore. I am hurting in ways that I can't hide from you anymore. I try to keep Edward out of my head but I think he's figuring it out. If not then I better leave before he does. Jasper, I will always love you and no matter what happens you will always be my first true love. You're just not my soul mate. I was actually wrong about that. You have to understand that this is actually painful for me to write but I know it will be more painful for you to read. That is why I am leaving. Well its part of it. I can't stay here anymore. I need to figure out what I am going to do and I will be honest, I am scared. Me, the one that can see the future is scared. Who would have thought? Well, I am sorry to cut this short but I must leave. You all will be home soon and I want to be far enough away that you can't track me. Tell Esme and Carlisle that they are the best 'parents' anyone could ever ask for and I am eternally grateful to them for opening their home and heart to me when I needed someone to. Jasper, I am eternally grateful to you also. You loved me, the insane freak vampire. For that I will always love you. If our paths should cross then I will see you then. Goodbye my sweet Jasper. ~Alice

After I read it I looked up at him. Why did he keep torturing me?

"She loves you too Bella. I think she has from the first moment you two met. I think I actually screwed things up for both you and her. But I love you too. Don't you see? I never meant to keep you from her. I actually love you. But the look in your eyes right now tells me you don't love me the same way I love you. Am I right?"

"Why are you doing this? Why did you bring me this to read? Do you like hurting me? For someone who claims to love me you sure love hurting me." I said.

"Bella, my sweet Bella, I am not here to hurt you. I hadn't read the letter until after you left me in the meadow. Jasper gave it to me but I hadn't read it. He told me that he knew who she was in love with and that I didn't want to know."

Why is this happening now? I was starting to be ok with all of them gone. Now he comes back into my life and once again turns it all upside down.

"Go. Please Edward, just go." I say as I shove the note into his chest. "I can't keep doing this. You all tore my life apart and now you are doing it again. Just go away. I am not strong enough for all this. Just leave!" I start to cry as I get the last word out. I turn away from him and when he touches my shoulder I pull away. I hear him breathe deep and then I hear his feet shuffle on the floor as he turns to go. I turn and he's gone. I sit on the edge of my bed and let the tears fall. Here I am crying again. I lie down on my bed and curl up in the fetal position and cry myself back to sleep for the second time that day. As I slept, I dreamt.

I am running down a dark tunnel trying to find my way out and I can't seem to. There's someone else in the tunnel with me but I don't know who it is. I don't feel threatened just not alone. I finally find the end and see daylight. I cross over the imaginary line and I see her standing there. She is magnificent. I love looking at her. Her beautiful golden eyes full of happiness and love. Her amazing smile. Her wild black spiky hair doing what it does best. Her arms open for me. I run to her and just as I get within a foot of her she's gone. I look around and can't find her. I feel a pain more real than anything I've ever felt before coming from my heart. I drop to the ground. I start to cry. I sit there crying for hours or days. I don't know which. Then I feel a hand on my shoulder.

"Bella. Bella I'm here." I hear her say. Her voice is so melodic that it makes me cry more. I will never hear her again. I feel her hand on my shoulder again.

I sat up with a start. It felt so real. I can still feel her hand on my shoulder. I can still hear her voice in my ear.

"Bella." An angelic voice says in the dark of the night.

My heart starts racing. I reach for my shoulder and her hand is still there. The heat and electricity travels up my arm from where I have touched her cool skin.

"Alice?"

"Of course silly, who did you think it was?"

I grab her hand and pull her arm and the rest of her body to me. She lands with a plop on my mattress in front of me. I wrap my arms around her so tightly that if she needed to breathe I'd be squeezing it out of her. I am too afraid to let go. Am I dreaming?

"Bella, I'm real. I'm really here. I am not going anywhere. I can't do that again. I can't bear to see you cry. I can't bear to leave you again. Isabella Marie Swan, I am truly, madly, deeply in love with you." She whispered into my ear.

"I love you too Mary Alice Branden. I have from the first moment I laid eyes on you!" I whispered back in her ear.

"I'm sorry I left. I never should have done what Edward asked. I knew it would hurt you, I just didn't know exactly how badly."

I didn't say anything. I just held her. After what seemed like long enough I broke the embrace. Though I only did this so that I could take her face in my hands and pull her toward me. Then I felt her amazing and cool lips touch mine. It felt like lightning. Her lips were so different from Edward's. Hers were soft and gentle where his were fierce. I couldn't hold back the passion though. I kissed her with a ferocity that I never kissed Edward with. She answered mine with a passion of equal intensity. Though I kissed her fiercely, the kiss was still so sweet and gentle. Her lips met my hunger with the same desire. I wrapped my arms around her neck and she wrapped hers around my waist. By now Edward would be pushing me away but she didn't. She held me closer. After an amazing kiss like this I had to stop her for a breather. I held her in my arms while I caught my breath. She just looked into my eyes.

"I've dreamt about that for months now. I always wondered what it would feel like. It was a thousand times better than I could ever have imagined." She smiled that wonderful smile of hers.

My Alice was back. I love the way that sounds…my Alice.

I know no sexual gratification. I am sorry for that. It's not always about the sexual relationship with these two. The intense attraction between them is amazing. Who knows, there may be more to this one…I'm not calling it done yet. I hope you at least enjoyed it a little.

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