CHAPTER 3

I showed Edward around the school. We joked and laughed the whole time. He likes to tease me, and I just tease him right back. I believe that it is the start of a great relationship. We took our time going through the whole school. It is a fairly small school, so it didn't take too long for us to go through the whole school. After I was done showing him around, we sat down on one of the picnic benches outside. We sat there talking about random stuff for about a half-hour before people started arriving.

"Well, I guess we better head to class, we don't want to be late." I said.

"Is it that time already?" Edward asked, "It didn't feel that long at all."

"I know what you mean. I feel like we only just got here, but people are getting here now so we better get going."

"I guess. Will you have lunch with me?" Edward asked.

"S-sure," I stuttered.

"Great," Edward stated.

We both stood up and Edward walked me to my class. Once we got there, we stopped and he kissed my hand. It was so old fashioned that it was the sweetest thing he could have possibly done. He is such a gentleman. After that he left and went to his class and I sat down in my seat and tried to control my breathing.

'Wait a minute,' I thought, 'what am I doing going crazy over a boy? Bella, snap out of it, you have to focus on your schoolwork and you don't need a boy distracting you. You have to pull yourself away from him.'

The thought saddened me but I knew it was the right thing to do, for me and my future. I wasn't the smartest person in the world and so for that reason I really needed to work to get good grades. If I have anything in the way, I just know my grades are going to show it.

After classes it was time for lunch. I spent the last 2 periods thinking about how I would tell Edward that I can't sit with him at lunch. When I got into the cafeteria I saw Edward, but didn't go to sit with him. Instead, I went to sit with Alice and the rest of the family. When I sat down I could tell that Alice was wondering why I wasn't sitting with Edward.

I finished my lunch and got up. I looked at the table that Edward was sitting at, and he wasn't there. I threw out my lunch and went to the bathroom. I sat on the ground and started to cry. Hurting him like that was just killing me and I hated it, but I knew I had to do it.

Next thing I know, Alice is walking into the bathroom. I could tell she was looking for something and it must have been me, because when she saw me she came running.

"What were you thinking?" She asked, "Why did you just leave him there? He really likes you and you're one of his only friends right now. Do you know how much you have hurt him?"

"Yes Alice, I do, but I did it because I had to. I can't have a distraction right now. I have to do well in school, and I have to get into university. I can't do that when I'm dating someone. I thought it would be better to break it off early so that we didn't get too attached to each other." I told her.

"You know, you could at least try to make it work! Tell him everything you just told me and see if you can do it!"

"I can't Alice! I need to do this for myself. I just can't."

I got up and walked out of the bathroom. I could hear Alice calling after me but I didn't turn around. By now I was balling and I decided not to go back to class. I got to my truck and went home.

Once I got home I sat on my bed and thought about what I was doing. At about 4 o'clock there was a knock at the door. I went downstairs and opened the door. There, in front of me, was Edward.

"What are you doing here?" I asked.

"I want to know why. Why did you leave me sitting there alone and humiliated? I thought you were someone different, not one of those other girls!" He exclaimed.

"I just can't. I have to work on my school work and being involved with someone right now just can't happen." I told him.

'Being involved with someone? Is that what you call it? Because I'd call it a relationship. I really thought you were different, but now i know you're just like the rest of them. Snotty and don't care if you break someone's heart." He turned around and walked back to his car.

"Edward! Edward, come back!" I tried, but he didn't even look back.

I went back to my room feeling different. I felt empty somehow. I didn't know what had happened, but as soon as Edward left, I felt the need to break down crying, and I am not the crying type. I sat down on my bed and stared at the wall, thinking about how rude I've been to Edward (this is where I started crying). He needs a friend, and I just totally told him off. Why couldn't we just be friends? There's no harm in being friends!

I went to go call Edward's house. I dialled the number and after almost hanging up because nobody was answering, Alice finally answered it.

"Hello?" She asked.

"Hi, it's Bella, is Edward there?" I asked.

"Actually, he's not."

"Oh, do you know when he will be back?"

"Nope, no clue in the world." She told me somewhat rudely.

"Alice, is everything OK?"

"Yup, I'll see you tomorrow," she told me and hung up.

Well, I didn't get to talk to Edward, but I'll talk to him tomorrow and make everything better.

Sorry I haven't updated in a while. I have been crazy busy with school and cadets and stuff. I will tell you right now that there will be a 6-8 week period in which I will not be updating because I will be away from home and will not have acess to a computer. Don't ask me how I'm going to do it, but I will have to manage somehow.

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