Chapter 6

Mac sat down in her office after a nice lunch with Harm, she looked at the phone, wondering about the test, it had taken a week already and she was desperate. She knew it was nothing but the curiosity was getting the better of her, what if by some slim chance she was? She sat there staring at the phone for 10 minutes when she shook it off and went back to her work. Later on that day the phone rang and she picked it up, although she tried to quell her anticipation and hope it rose with her heart in her throat she said a tentative

"Hello?"

"Hello it is Amelia from Dr Caldwell's office with your test results"

"And?" Mac said trying to stop the excitement

"Sorry, again nothing" Mac's heart fell

"Thank you Amelia"

"Dr Caldwell said get back onto the pills and to get an appointment in two weeks" Mac booked an appointment and sighed as she put down the phone, although she knew before the phone had rang that there would be nothing as usual the tiny glimmer of hope always seemed to get the better of her when the time came for her results to be said. Just then Tiner knocked on her door

"The Admiral would like to see you in his office ma'am"

"Thanks Tiner" to no surprise as she walked out of her office she met Harm and they walked together into the Admirals office. They also came across Bud and Sturgis in his office, and Mac knew they had to report on their respective cases.

By the end of the day Mac was glad to be home, she hadn't been able to talk to Harm yet and she was close to crying in the admiral's office and he had noticed but she had managed to avoid the topic until now, she decided to tell him, she walked into the bedroom where Harm had just finished changing.

"I got a call from Dr. Caldwell's office today"

"And"

"Nothing"

"Oh Mac" he said softly, he walked over to her and wrapped her in his embrace, she rested her cheek against his chest and fought the tears "It's OK to cry"

"I should be used to this by now" she said loosing her battle as one tear made it's way down her cheek

"Used to being denied one thing you want the most, I don't think so" After a pause he said "let it all out Sarah" that was enough for Mac, more tears began to fall like the last and they stood there for awhile, Harm comforting her as she cried. As the tears subsided Mac apologised once again

"You shouldn't have to put up with this"

"For you I'd do anything" and in an effort to cheer her up a bit he said "Aren't you supposed to talk to Sam tonight?"

"Yes" said Mac with a smile, quickly pecking her husband on the cheek and going to the phone and dialling her friend's number Harm sighed and smiled as he left her to talk to Sam.

After a few rings Sam answered.

"Hello?"

"Sam?"

"Mac! How are you?"

"Okay"

"Only Okay?"

"Yeah, I'll be all right though"

"What is it? Tell me"

"Just another no from the fertility clinic"

"Oh Mac, how are you dealing?"

"I spoke to Harm about it this afternoon and he's been looking after me, I'm feeling better. How's your treatment going?" Sam was silent for a while, she didn't know how to tell Mac she was pregnant when she had just said that hers was negative "Sam?"

"I'm Pregnant," she said meekly

"Wow Sam that's great!"

"I'm sorry Mac"

"What are you sorry about?"

"Well telling you about my luck when you just got a negative result"

"Don't worry Sam, it's okay, you deserve it"

"Thanks, how is Harriet going?" said Sam trying to change the subject from pregnancy difficulties

"She's great, very happy you know?"

"Yeah same with Janet"

"You know I gotta go but I'll talk to you next week okay?"

"Yeah, hope you get your miracle"

"Thanks" they both hung up and Mac sighed, talking to Sam didn't seem to have the effect on her mood that she'd hoped for, now Sam and Jack had got their miracle and she and Harm were still childless. Mac walked into her room and sat on her bed, curled up into a ball and rested her head on her knees, she refused to let herself cry but she thought hard about their problems. A little bit later Harm entered the room and put an arm around her

"What's wrong babe?"

"Sam's pregnant," she said not moving her head

"Wow," he said, he thought about what his wife had just said, the very thing he was trying to get her mind off she was now thinking about more "Oh honey" she let out a dry sob "it's okay to cry" but she didn't think she cold cry any more, the grief was still there though.

A/N: sorry it's taken awhile but I have now sped up my procedures, my beta has been really busy and so has my life so I'll get the next ones up asap I've been writing diligently at the moment 