Chapter 9

The week snailed past and soon enough Mac was getting much better, she still had to stay for another week but it was getting easier and Harm came every day.

"Hey" he said walking into her room after work

"How's JAG?"

"Fine, we miss you though" he looked over to her bedside table were there were flowers and cards everywhere from JAG personnel. Unfortunately the doctor said no chocolate, which annoyed Mac but she was coping without it

"I miss you too"

"Have you called Sam lately? I got a call from her last night and told her what was going on, she seemed worked up about it although I told her not to worry"

"Oh my! I haven't called her since I have been here, no wonder she is worried, I'll do that tonight"

"I don't mind if you call her now" he said

"No really, it's fine, they probably won't be home now anyway"

"True, how are you feeling?"

"Much better, I can't wait to get home"

"Dr. Caldwell called too, I cancelled our appointment and said we'd call when you were out" Mac nodded and patted the bed next to her, Harm sat on the side of the bed and gave her a hug, she held him close

"I know I've said this before but I really miss you" she laid her head on his chest

"I know and you'll be out in another week"

"I can't wait"

"You know you still won't be able to go to work for another week after that?"

"Yes but at least I will have a change from white walls and uncomfortable beds"

"True" the nurse came in and set Mac's Dinner on the table and wheeled it over to her

"Thank you" she said taking the lids off the food and picking up the cutlery, she had soup and a roll with what was supposed to be apple pie for dessert, she picked up the spoon and dipped it into the soup

"I should get going baby, I'll see you tomorrow" he kissed her forehead and picked up his cover

"I love you"

"Me too baby" he picked up his briefcase and left

When Mac had finished her food she decided to call Sam, she picked up the phone and dialled

"Hello?"

"Sam, It's Mac"

"Mac! How are you, are you all right? What's wrong?"

"Sam, everything is fine, just calm down a bit, I had a lung and chest infection, but I'm much better now, I've been in hospital for a little over a week and I've been told I'm healing nicely"

"Oh, that's good, when Harm sad you were in the hospital I was so worried"

"How is everything going? How are you feeling?"

"Great actually, it'll be three months in about 5 days, it's really exciting, and Janet sends her love, she looks great by the way, she'll be seven months soon and little Kim is so excited, it's going to be another girl. How's Harriet?"

"She's doing fine, same really, seven months soon but it is another boy this time"

"That's great, Jack is going to take me out to dinner so I have to go and get ready, I'll talk to you soon okay?"

"Okay, bye"

"See ya" They both hung up their respective lines and Sam went to get changed. Mac lay in her bed and thought of what they had just spoken about, happy families, women who were having babies, a tear escaped from her eye, why was it so hard for them, whey couldn't it be that easy? She began to think of her treatment and their next step…

Mac decided that since she was being discharged tomorrow she would go for a walk, her drip was gone and she was even allowed to wear her own pyjamas at the hospital now, she decided to go for a walk around. She told the lady at the nurses' desk she was going for a walk, as she was getting to the garden on the bottom floor she walked past the nursery and looked into the room with all the bassinets and tiny babies, a tear fell from her eye and she quickly wiped it away. She went to turn around but before she did a man spoke

"Which one is yours?"

"Huh?"

"I saw you looking in I just assumed that you were a mother"

"Well, you assumed wrong, I can't have kids, it doesn't stop us trying but I can't"

"I'm sorry, really"

"It's not your fault"

"Look, I'm about to get my daughter, would you like to hold her?"

"Thanks but it's ok, wouldn't your wife be upset about that?"

"No, she died having her"

"Oh, I'm so sorry"

"You didn't know, it's not your fault" Mac smiled

"Well, Maybe I could see her, for a little while" He went in and brought a tiny child wrapped in pink out of the nursery

"Her name is Sarah," he said handing her to Mac

"She's beautiful, my name is Mac by the way"

"Mac?"

"My maiden name was Mackenzie, the guys called me Mac when I was training and it just stuck" (A/N: yes this is true I know it was wrong in the other chapter) Mac smiled at the baby in her arms who looked back at Mac with big blue eyes

"I'm David"

"Nice to meet you, Thank you" she passed baby Sarah back to her dad and left, tears in her eyes. She heard the baby crying and her dad trying to soothe her, she wanted to go back to her but continued to walk away, tears now streaming down her face.

The next day Harm came and took her home, she had to spend a week of work then the following week had to be 2 days at work, the week after 3 days then back to a five day week, Mac didn't mind this so much because at least she was able to be somewhere else than the hospital. On Tuesday Mac brought up the prospect of IVF treatment, she initially had decided against it but changed her mind when she was up in the nursery at the hospital.

"Really? I thought you were totally against that, because of mess ups and stuff"

"I changed my mind, I ran into a man, while I was walking and he had a baby girl, I held her Harm, she was so precious, I realised IVF may be the only way we're gonna get that"

"Mac, don't you want to wait to go to IVF though?"

"I'm done with waiting Harm, all those disappointments, I spoke to Sam and all se spoke about was babies, hers, Janet's, Harriet's and the reason I was in Hospital was far from having a baby"

"Aww Mac, if that's what you want, we can book an appointment when you go back to work full time"

"OK" Mac knew that She wouldn't be able to get an appointment any earlier because of what the doctor had said at the hospital so she agreed and hoped that soon she and Harm would have their Miracle

A/N: sorry it has been so late but I am getting ahead again and have the whole of the next chapter planned I promise it won't be so long again, Dad was in hospital, I went on camp, busy chrissy and new year and now I have these back thingos anyway, I hope to get another one up before I go back to school for year 11 in a few weeks

CharmedAli