Oh my goodness, thank you soooooo much for the reviews. I had to do another chapter for you guys. You definitely deserve it! So here it goes…
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It had been a week since Jacob's world had fallen a part. It had been a week since he told me he loved me and I didn't say it back. It had been a week since he had stopped talking to me.
I felt horrible for not saying I love you back to him, I just couldn't. I really did love him and it felt so weird even to think that. Getting over Sam has been the hardest thing that I could do in my life; I still wasn't over him completely. It still hurt to look at him and Emily, even though I had Jacob. Why do our minds seem to give out when we need them the most? I mean, if I had Jacob why was it so hard to get over what Sam did to me? If only I would have said I love you back to him, I would not feel so guilty right now.
Emily and Sam's wedding was in a day and my mother kind of insisted that I go with her. I simply agreed just because I could not chance fighting with my mother again. Billy's death had opened my eyes to what I cherished most in life. My mom and brother. The pack even dickhead Sam and his muffin chick. And I cherished…Jacob Black. I cherished him, but yet I don't let him know I do. I have a really fucked up mind. Even though Jacob had stopped talking to me, I was still going to do patrols. Since this new pack was in town we had to be on the lookout. No one had crossed our path yet, but we could not be too sure that the Cherokee tribe was not dangerous. As I phased I made sure no one else was in my mind. Although everyone knew about me and Jake, I hated for everyone to hear my thoughts. If people knew I loved Jacob, well they might find it odd and ridicule me for it. At least Paul would, since the packs are joined for the time being.
I ran through the woods keeping my nose close to the ground. So far I had not smelled any weird off the wall scent. As I got closer to the Cullen's I began to smell a unrecognizable scent. I figured that it had to be the Cherokee pack, or at least I hoped. This is what I get for coming out here by myself, now if something jumped out I was going to have to take it on my own. I quickly phased out and put on my shirt and shorts. I don't know what led me to the Cullen's territory, but I just had the feeling that I needed to check some stuff out.
" Hey who are you," I heard a deep voice call out from behind a tree. The male walked out slowly and looked me up and down. He had no shirt on and had some basketball shorts on. Good lord was he sexy… wait did I just think that.
" I am Leah and who might you be," I asked with a sassy attitude. I had to let him no I was not some prissy little airhead wandering through the woods alone.
" I'm Adahy, Alpha of the Cherokee pack. You have a strange scent to you, you aren't fully human are you," Adahy walked a little closer to me. He was about 6'8 and had shoulder length hair. He was built almost like Jacob but was not as muscular. He had a chiseled chest and his bone structure was almost perfect.
" Oh so you are Renesmee's baby daddy," I said laughing at my sarcastic sense of humor. Adahy seemed amused with the nick name I had given him because he laughed too.
" You never did answer my question. What are you exactly?"
" Well let's see I am a woman and no I am not fully human. I belong to the Quileute wolf pack. Anything else you need to know," I asked putting my hands on my hips.
" Nope," he said popping the 'p'.
"What the hell is this," Jacob asked stepping out into the clearing. He walked to my side and literally hovered over me like he was protecting me.
" Jacob this is nothing. We were just talking. This must be your mate," Adahy nodded toward me. He seemed much calmer than Jacob which didn't surprise me. When Jacob got mad he turned into the Hulk.
" What the hell are you talking to my Alpha female for? Don't you need to be with Nessie right about now," Jacob asked raising an eyebrow in question. Adahy smirked and stepped away from me a little.
" She is busy with the baby right now if you needed to know that. She told me to get out for a bit, and plus I was patrolling the area," Adahy's smirk disappeared and he frowned. Jacob put an arm around my shoulder and pulled me close to him. Wait, he hasn't talked to me for a week and he had the nerve to throw a protective arm around me? I was going to give him the benefit of the doubt since he was going through some hard times. I understood his mood changes right about now.
" Well don't hit on my Alpha female fucktard and go back to your baby," Jacob said releasing me from his hold. Adahy let out a evil laugh and threw his head back. Jacob did not like that at all because he sent a jaw cracking punch to Adahy's jaw.
" Whoa we don't need another battle here," I said stepping in between the two werewolves that were on the brink of phasing.
"Babe what's going on," Nessie asked stepping into the clearing. She was holding the bundled baby close to her chest. She glanced over at Jacob and then back to Adahy.
" This son of a bitch is tripping out about his Alpha female," Adahy pointed at me. It really irritated me that Adahy pointed at me like I was just some kind of animal.
" What it Adahy," Jacob warned taking a look at Nessie.
"Oh hey Jake. Leah," she said in her chippery tone, but when she said my name her tone went nonchalant.
I rolled my eyes at her and turned my attention back to the fight that was brewing.
Adahy smirked and went over the Nessie and took her free hand. The blanket slightly fell revealing the tan baby. He was sucking his thumb and his eyes were wide open. He seemed very alert for a new born and he could focus his eyes directly on objects and people. When my eyes made contact with his, I felt this pull. I wanted to walk over to him and hold him and keep him close. Oh no, did I just imprint? My heart beat sped up and Jacob noticed the look in my eyes. Nessie glared at me and Adahy wore the same expression as Jacob.
" What is she looking at my baby like that for," Nessie asked Adahy. He swallowed hard and put his hand up to his forehead.
" Um I think Leah just imprinted," Adahy replied covering the baby back up. I shook my head trying to shake away the trance I was in. Nessie held the newborn closer to her and stared at me. Jacob looked at me with sad eyes and walked away. I attempted to grab his arm but he yanked away from me.
" Jake no wait," I called after him but he had phased and ran off. I averted my attention back to Adahy and Nessie. She shook her head in disbelief.
" We will be seeing you soon," Adahy said putting his arm around Nessie. I ran out of the woods trying to rid myself of the pull. I never ran from anything, but imprinting would be the first thing that I would run from. I ran until I reached Jacob's house. I knew he was here because his bedroom light was on. I walked through the front door which was conveniently left unlocked.
" Jake," I said closing the door behind me. He walked out of the kitchen with a beer in his hand. His eyes were black and squinted at me. " Oh there you are." I walked over to him and he stepped back.
" Jake you are not being fair at all. Like you said, you can't control imprint. You are being such a hypocrite right now," I said getting pissed off because he was clearly upset about me imprinting.
" Humph," Jacob took a swing of the beer.
" Stop it," I snatched the beer from him and sat it on the table. " I don't like that I imprinted on that bitch's baby, but it's in fate's hands. I didn't ask for this Jacob."
" I think you should leave Leah," Jacob said taking the beer from the table.
" No I won't leave! I might run away from imprint, but I am not going to run away from you Jacob! I won't be like Sam and run away," I yelled my face turning red. Jacob just stared back at me blankly. " Dammit Jake why are we doing this to each other? It doesn't have to be like this! Why must we be so complicated," I asked not expecting an answer. Jacob just shrugged his shoulders and avoided eye contact.
" I can't do this Leah. I refuse to be second," Jacob replied.
" Who says you have to be?"
" You can't break an imprint. The only reason mine broke was because Nessie accepted another Alpha's imprint," Jacob said before gulping down the last of the contents. He threw the bottle against the wall. " Do you see why we can't do this anymore Leah! I will always be second to him! Fate has taken away my father and now you! Just leave, get out of my life Lee," Jacob spat at me. His words had brought tears to my eyes. I was normally able to spit back something hurtful but I just couldn't now. His words had actually broken me.
" No Jacob! No, I will not give up! I won't give up because I… I love you! Love is all I need, fuck imprint," I was shaking by the end of my rant. Jacob stared back at me in disbelief. " Yes I said it Jacob Black. I love you." I said with confidence this time. Jacob took two big steps toward me and cupped my face.
" You mean that Clearwater?"
"Yes. Yes I do mean it," I replied. He smiled warmly and let his lips gently touch mine. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he pulled my legs up to wrap around his waist. He cleared the kitchen table laid me down on it. The kiss became needy and rough. He kissed me so hard it hurt. The kiss let me know that I could not let this boy go and he was willing not to let me go either.
" Jake," I whispered in his ear as he kissed my shoulder blade.
" Hmm," he asked stopping to look at me.
" Not now. Can we just wait to have sex again please? I want it to be special and mean something," I asked sweetly. Yes I can be sweet when I want to be.
" Ok," Jacob simply said get off of me. He didn't look disappointed or anything; most guys would freak out. He grabbed my hand and pulled me from the table.
" Can you stay tonight," he asked leading us to his bedroom. " I just don't want to be alone." I nodded my head as he opened his bedroom door. He took his shirt off and moved towards the bed. I slipped off my shoes and laid down on the bed that was almost too small for the both of us. I snuggled into Jacob's arms when he climbed into the bed.
" I don't know what I would do if you weren't here Lee. Losing my dad was like losing a limb. It's so hard to function without him here. I try to look at the bright side. My dad and mom finally are together again. But what about me, I am still here," Jacob sighed causing his chest to rise and fall. I raised my chin to look at him. Jacob had large tears running down his cheeks.
"Aww Jake don't cry. I am still here, you have me. Your dad and mom want you to be happy Jake. Even though they are up there, they are still here with you. They are in here," I said patting his chest referring to his heart.
" I know but it just hurts so bad. I never thought my dad would be the first to go. I wanted to die before him Lee. Why couldn't I have gotten killed in that battle against the newborns. I-"
" Don't say that! Don't wish that stuff upon yourself Jacob. You know why you didn't die in that battle? You didn't die because you have a deed to fulfill on this Earth," I exclaimed tears running from my own eyes.
Jacob kissed my forehead and rubbed my back in a soothing way. " I love you Lee."
" I love you too," I replied. It felt good to let that out, to let him know I loved him. Maybe there are good fishes in the sea.
That night me and Jacob did not have sex. We just laid there and cried with each other. Each other was all we needed at this moment.
There it is, I hope you all liked it. I wanted to create a softer Leah in this chapter because I know she has it deep inside. Don't worry the rest of the Cherokee pack will appear soon. Next chapter will be Sam and Emily's wedding. You know that won't be cotton candy and rainbows ( if you know what I mean wink). R&R please. And thanks again for reading and reviewing previous chapters, it means a lot to me.