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I woke up in a cold sweat and Jacob's arms were still around me. My face was streaked with tears and my body was twisted uncomfortably. I am surprised Jacob was still sleep, go figure he slept through anything. I gently moved his arms from around me and got up to go the bathroom. Taking a look at myself in the mirror just brought my dream back to me. I had never had a dream that was so vivid and yet so weird. What did Billy mean by take care of the little fish? They say you dream things for a reason, but what was the reason behind my dreams.
" Are you ok," Jacob asked standing in the doorway. I walked up to him and laid my head on his chest. He heart beat was rapid like he had been running or something.
" I had a nightmare, that's all. Billy and my dad were in it and so were some little fish," I explained as Jacob put his arms around me.
" Well I don't get why you would dream about fish, are you hungry?"
" Kind of but I am always hungry so what's new. That dream just really has my mind messed up. It was the most bizarre thing ever, especially the fish thing. Billy told me take care of the little fish," I replied looking up at Jacob. He released me and held me at arms length.
" I dream about him too, mostly about all the good times we had. It kind of makes me feel like he is still here. The difference between your dreams and mine is that I don't dream about fish," he smiled weakly and kissed my forehead. " Come on let's try to get you back to sleep." He took my hand and led me to the bed.
" I'm not really that sleepy anymore Jake," I said as he pulled me in and put the covers on me.
" Well you are going to go back to sleep. How about I sing you a song," he said before starting to sing an old Quileute lullaby.
"Your singing alone will give me nightmares," I covered my ears with my hands.
" You hurt my feelings,' Jacob poked his lip out and turned away from me.
" Is there a way I can make it up to you," I massaged his back and whispered in his ear.
" Nope, my body is off limits as of right now," Jacob said with his eyes closed. I smiled and laid back in my spot.
" I forgot this was my idea." I looked up at the white ceiling.
'" Yep the no sex thing was totally your idea. Not mine," Jacob replied. I could tell he was smiling.
" Do you have dreams every night," I asked out of no where.
" Leah I love you and everything, but I will love you more if you let me sleep," Jacob exclaimed.
" Ok fine. I will just lay here wide awake all alone," I said with a fake sniff. Jacob turned to face me again with a smirk on his face. He pulled me into him again and ruffled my hair. Soon I drifted off into slumber again….
"Mom," a girl yelled out. She came into the room with a short skirt and tight tank top.
" Summer where are your clothes," I asked her. I assumed that I was in some relation to this girl since she called me mom and looked like me. Summer put her hands on her hips and cocked them to the side. She looked just like me when she did that.
" I'm going out and I am trying to impress this guy," she said in a whiny teen voice. Jacob walked into the room and eyed Summer's skirt.
" You going to change right," he asked but I knew it was a demand.
I jumped up in my sleep and wiped my wet forehead. What was up with the dreams tonight? Jacob sat up and grabbed my shoulders.
" Are you ok," he asked feeling my forehead. His hand felt almost cold compared to my boiling skin.
" Um yea. I'm fine, just another nightmare. Damn it's burning up in here," I wiped my forehead again and threw the covers off.
" No you are the one burning up Lee. You feel hotter than usual."
I did feel a little warmer than normal, I could just sit in a pool of ice right about now. I got out of the bed and headed for the kitchen. I opened the freezer and stuck my head inside, enjoying the chill that overcame my body.
" Lee maybe we should go to Carlisle. You feel too warm," Jacob said grabbing my hand. He attempted to pull me out of the freezer but I didn't budge. I finally pulled my head out and closed the door. I sat at the kitchen table and began tapping my nails on the hard wood. My mind began to turn around the dreams I had tonight. First I dreamt of fish and then about a girl named Summer, and she called me mom.
" What's on your mind," Jacob interrupted my thoughts. He handed me a bag off ice and I put it on my forehead.
" The weird dreams I had tonight, they freaked me out a bit." I removed the ice from my forehead and opened the bag to eat some of it.
Jacob laughed. " Why didn't you just say you were hungry?" He got up and went to the cupboard. " Want some pancakes?"
" Sure why not," I replied eating more ice. Not only was this ice my personal air conditioner, it was appetizing for some reason.
" It's to cool you down, not to eat Leah," Jacob grabbed the bag of ice and sealed it back up placing it back on my head.
" Well hurry up and get those pancakes ready. I am starving here," I said. Of course a shape-shifter was always hungry, but my hungry had increased a few days a go. The other day I found my self eating two full boxes of Fruit Loops. I didn't really think anything of it, maybe I was growing some more ( hopefully not).
" Ok be patient there she wolf," Jacob stirred the pancake mix and poured onto the hot skillet. I got up from the table and went over to Jacob, wrapping my arms around his waist. " Hmm you kind of touchy feely." He said over his shoulder. I was getting use to Jacob, I was not so afraid to touch him if I felt like it.
" Does it bother you," I asked curiously.
" No, it's just weird that's all," he replied turning around to face me. He put his hands on my hips and pulled me closer. " I've got a question."
" Well get to asking."
" What exactly are we?" For some reason I had not thought of what we were; at least not for the past few days. I do recall saying that we should take our relationship slow and not define ourselves as anything. After telling him I loved him, I didn't think of what we were at that point. It scared the hell out of me that he asked that question.
" I don't know. I haven't really thought about it recently," I said looking down. Jacob lifted my face back up to look at him.
" I've thought about it but I didn't want to ask you. We can't run from it though Leah. What do I introduce you as?"
" Well you easily say my name is Leah. I don't think you will have to introduce me to anyone, we pretty much know the same people," I said sarcastically. Jacob smirked and turned back to the cooking pancakes.
" Are you going to answer my question Leah," Jacob asked me after a minute of silence. There was no way I could keep avoiding this question. When I answered it there was no turning back, I couldn't take back whatever I was about to say.
" I guess we go together now."
" You don't sound too sure," he said flipping the pancakes. I was glad his back was to me and I didn't have to look him in the face. Looking him in the face would make it even harder to answer the question. What the hell was my problem? I had told him I loved him, had sex with him ( only once), and I slept in the same bed as him. I let him hold my hand, I let him kiss me, and I let him hug me. In anybody else's eyes, these acts would be seen as 'couple things'. Why was it so hard to answer this simple question? The first problem was it was not simply a simple question. It wasn't like he asked me what kind of syrup I wanted, we were talking about a relationship. Jacob had already imprinted and the imprint broke, but could he reimprint on someone else? This question had crossed my mind many times and I tried my hardest to ignore it.
" Leah," Jacob had finished cooking the pancakes and had them on plates. He put the plates on the table and grabbed my hands. " I know this scares you to death. But I want you to feel secure, so you don't have to rush to answer me. I won't be mad." He kissed my forehead as I nodded. I hated doing this to him, I just wish my mind would let me follow my heart. I knew that Jacob would try hard to never hurt me, but my mind was still settling on what Sam did to me. I grabbed the maple syrup from the middle of the table and poured it on my pancakes.
" I'm sorry," I simply said. Jacob looked up from his food and smiled weakly at me.
" What are you sorry for?"
I sighed. " You can have any girl in La Push but yet you are wasting your time with me. I am making your question seem like rocket science when any other girl would surely say yes. You don't have to stay with me, I will understand," I replied.
" Those other girls aren't you, I don't want them. Just take your time, I will wait," Jacob grabbed my hand and held it in his.
" Thank you. I just want to be sure this is real and you aren't bluffing with me. If you are be prepared to die in your sleep," I stated dryly.
" Wow, I will sleep with one eye open. But just know I'm not bluffing with you, I would never do that."
" Ok, don't let me catch you in a lie," I shook my fork at him.
" There's my girl," Jacob said smiling. We finished our early morning breakfast and Jacob led me back to the room.
" Let's try this thing called sleep one more time," he tucked me in under the covers.
" I don't think I will be needing these, I am still burning up," I said kicking the covers off.
" You are going to Carlisle as soon as we wake up." I sighed and shook my head. " You are going and that's the end of it." Jacob kissed my forehead and pulled me down to the pillow. This time I slept nightmare free.
Five hours later we were awake and Jacob was literally dragging me out the house to see Carlisle. Of course I yearned to see my imprint but I didn't want to see Dr. Fang.
"Just do it for me," Jacob begged as I held on to the doorframe. I let go of the frame and Jacob set me back on the ground. I thought about bailing again, let's face it, I am faster than Jacob. " Don't even think about it, come on." Jacob grabbed my hand and held it tightly.
" Break my fingers why don't you," I said sarcastically. Jacob did not loosen his grip and opened the car door for me. I slowly got in and Jacob closed the door. I sat with my arms crossed and wore a frown on my face.
" It would be easier if you smiled," Jacob said starting the car.
" I feel fine. I don't want Daddy Popsicle putting his hands on me." Jacob sighed in annoyance and drove toward the Cullen's.
We didn't talk the whole way there. I knew I was pissing Jacob off by acting stubborn, but that is Leah Clearwater for you. We pulled up to the Cullen's and Edward was already standing with the door open. Hmm how could I annoy him today? Well let me just call his wife a bitch and him a-
" Leah not today," Edward looked at me sideways as I got out of the car. Jacob grabbed my hand and put his lips to my ear.
" Just cooperate baby," he kissed my cheek and we walked up to the house.
" Lwah," Dakota staggered toward me with his arms out. When the hell did he start walking and wait, how old was he? I picked him up and Nessie walked into the room.
" He's growing fast, I guess he gets that part from me," she said smiling weakly. Something was wrong with her today, she barely showed any emotion on her face.
" Well hi there," Adahy replied coming to Nessie's side. He put a protective arm around her and she flinched slightly. Jacob nodded in his direction and turned his attention back to Edward.
"We need to see Carlilse," Jacob said glancing down at a smiling Dakota in my arms.
" He had to run to the hospital but he should be back shortly," Edward said. Bella came gliding down the steps and was immediately by Edward's side.
" What brings you two here," she asked. Why the hell was she so chippery today? She must have gotten her some last night. Edward hissed and walked away with a scowl on his face. I always knew how to get him out of my face, his stench was worse than everyone else's; he tried to cover it up with cologne.
" Do you guys want anything to eat or drink," Esme asked peeking out from the kitchen. I was hungry as hell but there was no way that I was eating anything in this house. Not unless it was boiled, bleached and saturated with hand sanitizer.
" No thanks," Jacob replied, probably answering for me too.
" Baby," Dakota patted my stomach. I grabbed his hand and gently massaged it.
" What did you say Kota," Bella asked getting closer to him. Her bleachy scent filled my nose making me nauseas. I handed Dakota to her and ran to what I thought was the nearest bathroom. Turns out it was a bedroom that I happened to make a bathroom. Jacob came in the room after me.
"Are you ok," he asked feeling my forehead.
" Yea I'm fine now, Bella just made me sick," I said wiping my mouth.
" What the hell," Rosalie came into the room and looked down at the throw up on the floor. "Does this look like a bathroom? This is my room!"
" Well I couldn't find one so this did the job," I smirked at her and walked out of the room. I heard her mutter something about me being a mutty bitch or something. " Sorry I am multi-talented Rosalie. I can talk and piss you off at the same time." I exaggerated a laugh.
"Baby," Dakota walked back up to me and put his hand on my stomach.
" No Kota you are a baby," Nessie said picking him up. Her face looked distressed as she tried to force a smile.
" Baby in there," Dakota pointed at my stomach. Everyone was silent as they stared at me…
Dun, dun, dun!!! Sorry for the slight wait, I had a lot of homework to catch up on and plus I had dance rehearsal. I wanted to thank everyone for the wonderful reviews and for adding this story to your favorites or alerts!
So what is up with Nessie, she seems a little bothered by something? And doesn't it seem weird how the Cherokee pack is rarely around, thought I would bring that to your attention if you already didn't notice. Things are started to get a little fishy… Reviews make my day loves.