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The silence was killing me and so was Jacob's stare. Why did Sam have to blurt that out, it was my job to tell Jacob I was pregnant. The shaking in Jacob's body had stopped and his anger turned into confusion. His expression gave me a questioning look, that I had no desire to answer.
" Um I should get going, Claire wants me to help her bake in her Easy Bake oven," Quil said heading for the door.
" Who the hell uses those anymore," Embry asked. Quil gave him a warning look and nodded his head in the direction of the door. " Oh." Embry got Quil's drift and followed him out the door.
" Well I should go check on mom, see ya sis," Seth kissed my cheek and left. So much for protecting me Seth. Jared shook his head and looked between me and Jacob. Sam was still standing between us with his arms held out, blocking us from tearing each others heads off.
" Everybody out," Jacob said in almost a whisper. No one moved, they still looked between all three of us, waiting on someone to explode at any minute. " Out!" Jacob used alpha command and that's when everyone got to moving. Sam lingered at the front door and turned back around to face us.
" Call me if you need me," he said looking at me. He glared at Jacob and proceeded to walk out the door. Reminder: Kick Sam's ass. I couldn't even make eye contact with Jacob, eye contact was becoming something difficult for me to do.
" Is it true," Jacob broke the silence. I could feel his warm presence hover over me and I knew he was upset with me, once again. I slowly turned to face him and gained the courage to look him in the eye.
" I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner," I apologized. I never really said sorry, even if the person deserved an apology. It was something about Jacob that made my hard exterior diminish and a softer side of me came out. Of course I would still kick his ass if he jumped stupid ( ie: just a minute a go).
" Why would you lie to me about it?" Jacob's face was still hard and his jaw was clenching and unclenching. Any other time I would have wanted to just jump his bones, but now was not the time to think about sex. It was what got me in this predicament right?
" You said you didn't want kids right now and I just freaked out." I put on a sad face hoping to soften up his face. Obviously he was not moved by my fake pout because his jaw was still locked. " I know I should have told you, but you have to understand my side in this. A baby is not a toy Jacob, it's a human life that we are responsible for. Neither one of us is ready for this, I know I'm not."
" You lied to me Leah," Jacob replied. His jaw was no longer clenched, but he looked hurt and betrayed. Maybe Sam had done the right thing and busted me out. If Jacob went on not knowing, this could have turned into a huge fight. Judging by the expression on his face, this might not be all peaches and cream. This just made things even more complicating.
" And I apologize for that. I thought you would leave if you found out I was pregnant, you did say you didn't want a kid right now. You have to think about it from my position Jacob," I said. Hopefully he would understand my reasons for not telling him, but Jacob was really hard headed. Hell I was hard headed too, which made this conversation almost impossible to have.
" When did you plan on telling me? You have been lying to me for the last few days Lee, this is getting us no where close to a real relationship. And if I were in your shoes I would have told me that I was pregnant," Jacob said his voice escalating with each word. Now he was bringing up this whole relationship thing again, ugh. It's not that I didn't like him or that I didn't want to turn this into a real relationship. We already acted like a couple so what was my problem? Well here is my problem: I am afraid that if I commit, then he will leave. Something is bound to go wrong right?
" You said you would be patient and wait for me Jake. You know how I feel about a committed relationship at this point. Be patient. I was patient with you when you were with Nessie." Jacob was completely tied to Nessie, his whole life basically devoted to her. Even though we only flirted back then, I had to face reality; he had an imprint and our little extravaganza would go no further. If he had been tied to Nessie now, having this baby would be utterly painful. The baby wouldn't have a real father, only someone who was a step in because he had an imprint. I couldn't pretend that him re-imprinting was not impossible. I didn't even know I could get pregnant, so anything was possible at this point.
" I know what I said, you don't have to remind me. But Leah how much longer are you going to take? What is the problem anyway," Jacob asked throwing his hands up in frustration.
" I just need time Jacob." I replied.
" What is it Leah? I love you and you say you love me. But I'm really beginning to question that. I don't how much longer or how much more I can take. Imprinting is less stressful than this," Jacob moved his hand back and forth between us. I instantly got pissed off. My fist clenched together tightly, digging deep ridges into my hands.
" So in other words you would rather be with Nessie," I asked between clenched teeth.
" Sometimes I do, it wasn't as painful. I am somewhat human, I do have some feelings. Do you understand what you're doing to me Leah? I seriously don't think you do. Bella toyed with my heart, I won't let you do the same thing," Jacob exclaimed.
" I'm not toying with your heart. I'm just asking for some time," I said. It was so hard to explain to him how afraid I was of commitment.
" You know what? I think we need some time a part; you need to go back home for right now. When you figure out what you want then tell me. Until then we should only see each other on patrols," Jacob said with a look of defeat. " Pack your stuff up, I will take you home."
My hands hung loosely at my sides and my face fell. I really had some thinking to do. I went into the bedroom and began gathering my clothes.
Jacob pulled up in front of my house, I got out and slammed the door. I didn't look back at him, nor did I say goodbye.
" Hey long time no see," my mother greeted me with a hug. Seth came from the kitchen with a bowl of cereal in hand.
" Hi," I whispered and slightly smiled.
" What happened," Seth asked, putting his cereal down. Wow, he must really love me if he abandoned his cereal to see if I was okay.
" We had another fight and he told me I should come home," I said nonchalantly. " I'm tired I'm going to bed." I made my way up to my room. I could hear Seth and my mother talking from downstairs.
" Just leave her alone Seth, she needs rest," I heard my mother say.
" I don't like to see her like that," Seth replied.
" I know sweetie, but we have to stay out of it. It is between her and Jacob," my mother stated. I laid on my bed and curled up with my body pillow. Sleeping alone would be odd, only because I wasn't in Jacob's undeniable warmth. I sighed and rolled onto my back and stared at the white ceiling. I watched the glow in the dark stars that I had stuck on my ceiling when I was a kid. My dad always told me that the stars were a good luck, I could use luck right about now. My hands traveled to my stomach where a mini-me or mini-Jacob was growing. The news of a baby still was unreal and I could not imagine myself being a mother. I couldn't even decide if I wanted a committed relationship with the baby's father, how could I possibly raise this child. Tears formed in the corner of my eyes and my mind tried to wrap around the idea of a baby. My phone vibrating interrupted my reverie.
" Hello," I said not even looking at the caller id.
" Hey Lee, Sam told me the news. I just wanted to say congrats," Emily's voice was extra happy. Ugh, I wasn't in the mood for this right now. I was going to fuck Sam up, how many people was he going to tell?
" Thanks," I replied rolling my eyes.
" Oh we can have our baby shower together and go shopping. This is going to be a blast," Emily shrieked. Oh no, this was getting nipped in the bud right now.
" Don't take this the wrong way, but I don't plan on doing any of that stuff with you. I will not pretend like everything is ok and smile all in your face." I could tell that Emily's excitement had faded because she didn't reply. " Let me speak to Sam." Emily called Sam to the phone.
" Is everything ok," he asked frantically.
" I don't know what you problem is, but could you stop acting like you actually care about me. And could you stop telling everyone my fucking business." I could hear Sam sigh on the other side.
" I don't agree with you being with Jacob Lee-"
" Leah. Leah is my name to you Uley," I stated.
" Ok Le-ah. Like I was saying, I don't agree with you being with him, but if that's what makes you happy."
" Since when is it about my happiness? What, are you bitching down or something?" Rude and crude, but I had to set him straight.
" When will you stop this Leah? Stop trying to be so tough all the damn time. Would you rather I nag you two about your relationship or just butt out?"
" Butt out of course, and butt out for good. I don't need you to take up for me I can handle my own battles," I replied.
" Ok whatever Leah. You take care," Sam hung up. I pressed the 'end' button and sat my phone on the bedside table. I rolled over on my side and drifted off to sleep.
An hour later I woke up with sharp pains shooting through my chest and stomach. I tried to stay silent so I wouldn't wake my mother and Seth up. The pain was excruciating and only got worse when I tried to get up. I screamed out in pain and held my sheets tightly. The pain shot through my body and vile formed in my throat. I sat up and vomited on my floor. I guess that was payback for throwing up on Rosalie's floor.
" Leah, Leah baby what's wrong," my mother rushed into my room and to my side. Tears ran down my face and the pain shot through my chest again. I clutched my chest and bent over hoping the pain would go away.
" What's going on," Seth said in my doorway.
" Call Jacob Seth. We need to get her to Carlisle," my mother said grabbing my arm. "Come on Lee let's get you out to the car."
" I can't move," I cried out. The pain was just too much and I could feel my body temperature going up. I could hear Seth talking to Jacob on the phone.
" He is on his way. Just hang in there Leah," Seth came to my side and rubbed my back.
Jacob was there in five minutes. " Leah come on let's get you to Carlisle." He grabbed my arm and pulled me up.
" Ahh," I screamed out as the pain shot back through my chest.
" Come on baby," Jacob scooped me up and carried me out of the room. He put me in the backseat with Seth and my mother got in the front with him.
" My chest hurts," I cried out. I had never been in this much pain and I hope labor was 100 times less painful.
" It's the imprint,' Jacob said as we sped off.
" What?" my mother asked.
" She is having imprint withdrawal. I know exactly what it feels like," Jacob replied.
I cried out as pain went through me again.
" Just calm down Lee," Seth rubbed my hair and pulled me closer to him.
" I think it's something wrong with the baby," I exclaimed.
" Just hold on for me, ok," Jacob said looking at me in the rearview mirror. He gave me an apologetic look, I assumed it was for what happened earlier. I laid in Seth's lap and held my stomach. This pain was like a huge knife sinking into my body.
There is chapter 23 for you all. I didn't want to make it seem like Leah was completely unaffected about her imprint disappearing. Oh and can you guys take the poll on my profile, it deals with this story. Reviews are great and I appreciate them. Next chapter will not be as angsty, I will let up on that some. Thanks and much love!