"It doesn't matter how many times i fix myself if i still see the wound in my reflection."
Cold Reflection
As I look through the window I feel uneasy… Should I take the first step… What if she doesn't want it…? This is ridiculous… I should be a man and step forward. But… the reflection in the window shows only a child. How could I ever try to become a man in these circumstances…? How long will it take for me to grow into someone I can rely on…? I can't rely in this, as I tell her how I really feel. Shit… I have to let her go… I have to.
- Shiro-chan?
- Hum…? Oh it's you… And stop calling me Shiro-chan! it's Hitsugaya taichou…
- What are you doing near the window? You should be getting ready for the farewell party.
- I'm not going.
- What? Don't be ridiculous. Of course you'll go.
Hinamori's arm starts pushing mine, as my will to attend the party is decreasing rapidly. Since we came back, Hinamori's been living in the 10th squad building… so that I could protect her whenever necessary… so that she wouldn't feel lonely and sad… because I simply can't bear to see her miserable. Against my will, she throws the clothes into my hands, asks me to change, then leaves the room… that bluish kimono stares back at me, as if telling me to not wear it. On a whim, I start undressing, hoping I could simply fall asleep and wake up when she's already gone.