You're The Reason I'm Alive……

Tom's p.o.v:

After the long drive we made it to Magdeburg, we were tired, but that wasn't important, when we got home I saw mom, her eyes were swollen and she looked so sad and guilty………….

-Can I see Bill?

-Actually, he doesn't want to see you, he just wants to be with Tom at the moment, Tommi honey, your brother is in his room, you can go see him.

I nodded, and made my way up the stairs, and reached to the door, I hesitated a bit as I bit my lip, then I opened the door, to see Bill he was sleeping with only his boxers on, and I could easily see the scars all over his body, he looked so weak, so lonely, I quietly took another step toward him, to see better. Scars, bruises, cuts, why does shit only happen to my twin?

I couldn't look anymore; I felt the bile rising from my stomach, how could anyone hurt Bill so savagely?

I stretched my hand, and gently ran a finger over his bruised shoulder, I saw him flinch and open his eyes, his tormented yet so beautiful eyes.

He looked at me and smiled; he pulled my hand toward him, and held it close to his chest.

-You're here…..it feels like forever since I saw you.

I smiled at him as I sat beside him, placing his head on my lap, and stroking his hair.

-Yeah, I missed you……Bill I'm so sorry you were raped, I'm sorry I wasn't here for you, and….

-Can we not talk about this now? It's over, and you're here now, so let me look at you, you look so tired.

I looked away, trying to ignore his observant eyes

-I couldn't sleep, not since I left, not without you.

I mumbled the last part quietly.

-Tommi? Are you going to leave again to Hamburg?

I didn't want to answer, and I was saved by a knock on the door…..

-Boys? Can I come in?

-Go away mom, leave us alone!

-I brought lunch!

Bill gave me a look, that I easily translated into words, I walked to the door, got the lunch tray, and shut it….and locked it.

We sat on Bill's bed eating, thank god he didn't mention me leaving again to Hamburg, and I don't want to crush his heart again.

-Tomi?

-What?

-When you left, you were mad at me…are you still angry?

I dropped my spoon and hugged him close rubbing his back.

-No! I love you Billa, I'm not angry with you, I never was.

I saw him grin and take a big bite of his sandwich.

I just smiled, and went back to my meal.

-Bill? Would you like to go out?

-NO!

I looked at him and sighed, sitting closer to him and I felt him putting both his arms around my neck.

-Did he hurt you Billa?

-Can we….not talk about it? Please Tomi?

I looked at him angrily, I didn't want to ignore it, I want to know what happened, he's my twin and I had the right to know!

-No Bill, I want to know what did he do, I want toknow everything, so sit down and tell me what happened, I need to know what happened to you, or I'll go crazy.

He looked hurt a bit, but he nodded with sad eyes.

-It hurts like hell okay? He was savage, and sadistic. And it hurt, I was afraid, and I felt so lonely, at that moment, I would've gave anything so you could show up. It's over now, mom called the school, they expelled Mike, and that's the end of it.

I looked at him, and my stomach flipped inside my belly.

-Would you like some gummies?

-We ran out of them.

-Would you like me to go get some?

-Okay, but don't take long.

I smiled and went to a supermarket close to our house, I went in and took one of the huge shopping carts, stuffing it with all kinds of candy, and before paying, I went to a small section on the right, and got Bill a big pink teddy bear.

-Tom! It's nice to see you're back!

-Ah I don't think I'm going to stay, I just came to visit my brother.

-Bill? Yeah he's been acting very weird lately, I think he's crazy!

I shot her a glare; no one is allowed to talk like that about my brother, not even the hot sixteen years old cashier that I banged so many times.

Walking home I was glancing around, same old ugly ass Magdeburg, nothing has changed….nothing ever changes.

Then something snapped me back into reality, it was a "for sale" sign on the Wentz's house, they're probably moving to Berlin, so the rumors were true, and then, a brilliant idea came to my mind, as I thought of it, it would be a way better option to buy this house, than live in an apartment in Hamburg, all I need to do is to convince Dad….that won't be so hard! I smirked to myself thinking I'm a fucking genius.

I got home, and went upstairs, opened the door and saw Bill frowning at me.

-What's the matter?

-You're late, it took you forever!

-Yes, but I got you candy, a teddy bear, and a brilliant idea!

Bill's frown turned into a wide grin as soon as he heard the word "candy" he snapped the bag from my hand, and went on chewing everything he could see.

-Do you like your teddy?

He gave me a wide grin hugging it, after a while of "intimate time with fluffy" (yeah I can't believe he named the bear fluffy either) he looked back at me

-So what's the brilliant idea you said you have?

I smirked and sat down next to him explaining what's going to happen and what we need to do, and I saw Bill grin devilishly, innocently!

-I hope this is going to work!

-It will, we have the most convincing poppy eyes in this shithole of a city.

After a moment of silence, I heard Bill chuckle…

-What?

-You'd rather live in Magdeburg than Hamburg! Wow you're an idiot!

I laughed as I slapped the back of his neck playfully.

-Well I didn't leave because I like this fugly ass town; I left it because I like what's in this fugly ass town.

-What's that?

-You.