And do you ever feel like you're alone?

And do you ever wish you'd be uknown?

I could say that I have, I could say that I have.

And do you ever feel things here aren't right?

And do you ever feel the time slip by?

I can say that I have, I can say I have.

So hear this please and watch as your heart speeds up endlessly.

And look for the stars as the sun goes down.

Each breath that you take has a thunderous sound.

Everything, everything is magic.

Everything's Magic by Angels and Airwaves

Chapter numero tres (BPOV)

It was quiet for a moment. Everyone still surprised at Edward's very quiet, but very effective little outburst.

"Bella, I'm-" Alice began to say in a whisper. I held up my hand to stop her. I was trying so very hard not to cry. It's been so long since I have cried, so why should I give in now? I stood up after a moment, picked up myself, bid my goodbyes to everyone else and left. And I didn't look back at them.

I walked swiftly to the girls restroom. When I got in there I slammed the door shut and just stood there for a moment. I was just so…tired. I missed the way things once were. When I kept to myself, when I didn't have any problems. When I was content. It's not our wants or desires that hurt us, it's our urges to pursue them. It's what we do to get them. And my silly little urge to get to know Edward better had hurt me.

And then I realized all this had started when I'd broken out of my routine. And no, not my weekend routine, but the routine in which I handled my life. When I had allowed myself to notice someone.

I walked over to the mirror. I looked up at my face and sighed. My eyes were red, and kind of pudgy. It looked like I had been crying and like I had been punched in the eyes.

Lovely.

I turned on the faucet, waiting for the water to heat up. I cupped my hand under the running water and splashed a little into my face. I reveled in the heat of the water.

After I cleaned my face up and I left the bathroom. Lunch had not ended yet, we had an hour lunch, but I still walked towards my fifth period class. There was no way I was going back into the cafeteria.

I was almost to my class when I heard them.

"Edward you are such a fucking jerk! Do you not have any manners?" Alice was yelling. Little tiny, Alice, yelling. If they weren't talking about what had just happened, I'd probably would've been laughing at the sight of it all.

"Alice," Edward's voice was harsh and edgy. "You should not have done that. Especially without at least giving me some kind of warning." He paused for a moment, running his hand through his hair. "You know what? Forget it. It's my fault anyways for telling you. You can't even keep your own fucking secrets, much less anyone else's."

I can only imagine how that hurt Alice. The comment wasn't even directed towards me, and I still flinched from the harshness of it. I stayed hidden behind a corner and listened.

"I was only trying to help you," Alice's voice was bitter and threatening. "But you're so full of yourself you didn't even consider that was me being nice. I didn't do it to hurt you. I did it to help you. And the sooner you realize people help people the sooner you'll find someone that truly cares for you." She paused for a moment. "It's fine if you're mad, whatever, you're mad every day. But don't take it out on Bella. She's never done anything to you. I'm pretty sure I saw her crying just a little bit after your little fit. Haven't you heard what people have said about her?"

Haven't you heard what people have said about her?

It was like a slap in the face. I knew people talked about me, but when Alice said that it was like in a completely different context. It was like I was a charity case to her.

"Don't believe everything you hear, Alice." Edward muttered before I heard his footsteps walking away.

It took me a minute to realize he was coming this way but I didn't really care to move. I was just standing there. Staring at nothing, really..

He rounded the corner and stopped when he saw me standing there. I just looked at him. His eyes had dark circles under them and his face was so pale. He opened his mouth as if to say something but he didn't. His eyes showed his apology but his mouth didn't speak it. He ran his hand through his hair one more time before he just walked away.

I just stood there for a moment. I was now more confused than ever after what I'd just heard.

Did Edward hate me that much he needed a warning? But if he hated me, why had he stopped? I was honestly sick of this shit Edward was causing…or was it me too? Well I was sick of the shit both of us were causing.

So I decided to go back to the way things were. Ignore everyone. Especially a boy with bronze hair and a bad attitude.

For the rest of the day I made good on my promise. I sometimes saw Alice on my way to sixth period and I had a feeling she would come find me today. But when I did see her, I walked right past her. I felt like a complete bitch but I really didn't care anymore.

It was the walk to my last class that I was really concerned about. Edward and I always crossed paths. Everyday we would walk beside each other, each going in the opposite direction. What would it be like today?

I kept my eyes down as I walked. I didn't look up either. I let out a relieved sigh when I got to class. Now the day would be like a walk in a park.

I was walking to my car after school when I saw someone was standing by my car. I wasn't worried about it until I saw the hair.

My day was now not like a walk in a nice, safe park. It was like a walk in Central Park. Horrible.

What do I say to him? I didn't really have anything to say him. But I couldn't ignore him now. He'd made sure of that.

When I got up to my truck I stood there for a moment, staring at my shoes. Finally I mustered up some courage and said excuse me and went to get into my truck. But Edward didn't move.

"What did you hear?" He asked, not looking at me, but at everyone else.

"Enough," my voice came out a little more harsh than I intended.

He looked at me then. He had green eyes. I'd never noticed that before but now I as I looked at Edward I saw a lot of things I didn't notice before. He had naturally pale skin, and his nose was very nice. Not to big and not to small. But his eyes were the best part. It was like looking at a jewel.

"I'm not angry with you," he said simply.

"And you shouldn't be. I've never met you before. You probably didn't even know my name until Alice told you." I put my hands on my hips which was something I did when I was agitated.

His eyes narrowed just a little bit and his mouth went into a thin line. Now he looked a little mad. "I knew your name." That's all he said before he walked away.

I rolled my eyes and got into my truck. I hate boys.

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