I'd better rest my eyes 'cause I'm growing weary of
This point you've been trying to make
So rather than imply why don't you just verbalize
All the things that you're trying to say
Thought things would turn out so well
But I'm beginning to see that instead it's trouble
into a patter we fell of prolonging the inevitable
Why don't you just come right out and say it?
Come Right Out and Say it by Relient K
Chapter numero sies (is that Spanish for six…? "Baxter, you know I don't speak Spanish!" Heh.. On with the chapter!)
I was nervous, very nervous. I kept fidgeting with my jacket, my hair, my bags, anything that was around. I probably looked like a crackhead to everyone around me.
I glanced over at Edward and he had his eyebrows raised. So he noticed how nervous I was. I really hope it didn't inflate his ego.
As I glanced around the restaurant I saw almost every girl's eye on him. And for some reason, I became territorial. I mean it's not like Edward was mine, but they didn't know that. They could at least have some respect. But they were girls after all, what else could you expect?
The hostess led us to a table on the side and said our waiter would be right with us. Good.The last thing we needed was a waitress to openly stare at Edward. Every other girl here was already doing that.
The waiter arrived and took our orders. Edward seemed to really dislike this waiter because I could just tell by his voice he was irked.
"What are you thinking about?" Edward asked after the waiter left.
I typed a quick a message on my phone. How do you stand it? All the girls staring at you like a piece of meat?
I handed him the phone and he laughed. "I really don't notice it." He looked around the restaurant and almost every girl's head quickly turned away, embarrassed to have been caught.
He handed me back the phone and typed another message. It would drive me insane.
He read my message and an expression washed across his face that I couldn't recognize. "Want me to tell the waiter to stop staring then?"
My face must have looked puzzled because Edward went on. "You didn't notice when he took our orders?" I shook my head. "Just watch when he brings out our drinks."
I nodded slowly not sure what the point of all this was.
We didn't have to wait long. I slyly paid attention to the waiter and saw that he was staring at me. Did I have a snot bubble on my face? Was my shirt on backwards?
Since I couldn't speak I just pointed out what I wanted to Edward and tried to not look at the waiter.
When the waiter walked away I looked at Edward who had a smug smile on his face and eyes that just gleamed 'I told you so.'
I shrugged my shoulders trying to play it off but deep down I secretly wished Edward would be bothered by it. I wanted him to be jealous. Because if he was jealous… didn't that mean something?
"How did you get sick?" Edward asked sipping on his water.
I typed a quick message and gave it to him. I have no idea. I went to bed perfectly fine last night and woke up sounding like I've been smoking for forty years.
"I think it's fate." Edward said looking straight at me.
My eyes widened in confusion as I stared at Edward. What the hell was he talking about? I moved my hands in a please explain fashion.
Edward did not deter his stare as he spoke. "I think it was fate you getting sick and I think it was fate me seeing you in town today for one reason. So I could explain what has been going on and the reasons for my weird behavior without you interrupting me."
I slowly nodded my head at Edward unsure of what else to do. I felt my heart sink as I realized he only asked me to lunch to clear the air with me, not because he actually enjoyed my company.
We were quiet for a moment. I was just lost in my thoughts about the 'what ifs.' What if Edward liked me? What if Alice and I were still friends? What if I wasn't so shy? What if my mom was still here?
There were to many questions going through my mind. To many questions I didn't have the answers to. But Edward said he invited me here to explain everything, which is always better than not knowing.
I typed a message on my phone and handed it to him. Pleas explain why you've been rude and malicious to me for no reason at all it seems.
Edward winced as he read my words. I knew they were harsh but whatever. He shouldn't have been such a prick.
"I'm sure you've heard the rumors. But I'm also sure that you know not to believe the rumors." Edward paused and looked at my face. I nodded to him and he began to speak again. "Before I moved here I lived in a small Alaskan town. Much like this one. Everyone knew everyone's business and so on. We lived there for about three years before I started doing stupid things. Hanging out with the wrong people, breaking curfew, drinking, you know teenager stuff. Like all phases, I got over it and grew up, but everyone in that town had already formed their opinions and wouldn't see past my screw ups. So Carlisle and I decided that the best option was to move. I wanted to move to a big town where I could just blend in and get lost, but Carlisle chose this one. When I got here I was guarded. I was used to people assuming the worst about me so I was ready for the rumors. I kept to myself and only hung around my sister and her friends. Until…until I saw you. It was about a week after I moved here. I'd been oblivious to the people around me so I hadn't really noticed anyone. Until I was walking to my third period and I saw you trip." I blushed like a fool, embarrassed that Edward only noticed me because of my lack of balance. Edward saw my blush and quickly said, "Don't worry, I didn't laugh. I actually wanted to go over and help. But you just had this look on your face. It wasn't mean it just quietly said stay away. I felt as if I was looking into a mirror. So after that day I kept a watch out for you. I'm surprised you didn't notice, I didn't really try to hide it. For some reason I felt drawn to you. Yeah, that sounds creepy but it's true."
Our food arrived then and we ate quietly. I sat there trying to comprehend what Edward had just told me. We hadn't gotten to the stuff that really mattered but after hearing that I felt I understood Edward a little better. That I understood just a little bit more of him.
After I was done eating I typed a message on my phone, is there anymore?
Edward nodded. "That's only half of what I need and have to say to would you like to walk around the town or stay here while we talk? It's actually very nice out."
I pointed outside and Edward nodded. He paid the bill and we walked out. I blushed when Edward held the door for me. We started toward the pier and Edward began again.
"So I watched you for a couple of months. I watched how you shied away from contact and I wanted to know why. You just interested me. I even got a little jealous when I caught Mike staring at you too. He's such a creep." I glanced at him hoping he'd know what I was implying. He did. "Yes, I know, but it's just creepy when he was doing it. He was doing it for a completely different reason." My heart fell off the cloud it'd been resting on since we'd started this conversation. This conversation made me think that Edward liked me. But that one little phrase had destroyed all hope. But Edward continued. "Alice noticed something different about me. I just told her I may have been interested in someone at a school." Cue the butterflies in the stomach. "I didn't tell her who because I didn't want her to do anything stupid or rash. Famous last words, right? But I accidently slipped your name out and she found you in a grocery store. I told her to keep out of it but I knew I was just speaking to a wall." Edward stopped and turned to me then. "That Monday that you sat with Alice, I wasn't upset with you. Not at all. I was mad at Alice for putting me into a situation I wasn't ready for. You see, I don't adjust well to change. I have to take everything in at my own pace and Alice just doesn't get that sometime. I had yet to get the nerve to talk to you straight up and you being so close made me nervous. So I ran. And that conversation you heard with Alice…god, that was awful."
Edward paused. I had turned my head to the water because I could feel myself reliving that horribly embarrassing moment. I felt Edward's fingers go under my chin and he gently pulled my face to his.
"I never did believe the rumors I'd heard. Alice didn't either. But after what you heard I felt horrible. I felt as if I'd betrayed you. I just wanted you to know that I'm sorry."
I grabbed my phone and typed a message. You know, I did the same thing to you. Watched you, I mean. You also interested me. And about those rumors… I'll tell you my secrets eventually. I promise.
Edward read my message and smiled. "You don't ever have to tell me." He reached down and gave me a hug and I melted. He smelled so…fresh. He didn't weart that obnoxious colognes most dudes wore and I loved that.
He pulled away after a moment and smiled down at me. But then after a minute his gaze changed and his eyes darted towards my lips and my heart fluttered. Was he going to kiss me? Please, please, please, please, please, please kiss me.
He leaned in a little before he was suddenly far away from me. My heart sank once again as I realized he probably didn't want to kiss me. My heart was getting a little tired of this rollercoaster it's been on all day.
I looked down at my shoes and fixed my hair. I didn't know what to say. I didn't know what to do.
But then I remembered something. Edward never did tell me how he got that black eye. So I walked over towards him and typed a message.
How did you get that black eye?
Edward's eyes narrowed. "Promise you won't laugh?" I nodded slowly, anxious to hear what he had to say. "Well I was down here in Port Angeles looking for a music store when I walked down here to the pier to look at the view. But what I didn't realize is that I had been standing in a goose nest and the mother goose saw. Well she sort of attacked me."
I tried very hard, so very hard not to laugh. I gave it all I could. But one giggle did escape.
Edward rolled his eyes and stuffed his hands in his pockets.
I mouthed I'm sorry and Edward nodded a smile slowly forming on his face.
I turned towards the water and looked at the view.
I know something changed, it had to. But the question was… what the hell did just change?
AN: AHHHHHHH. Sorry this took so long! Marching Band got hectic and took over my life! But I like it that way ;) so this chapter should clear up some things and we're just one step closer to the inevitable! I'm not even going to give an estimate on how long the next chapter will take, sorry guys. But it will be before September for sure.
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