Chapter 17: Changes
(SPOV)
I just held Rin in my arms very loosely. I could feel her eyes lock onto my face, but mine were more focused on Sango's. Her eyes ached with pain and there was nothing I could do about that. I wanted to reach out towards her and tell her that Rin was lying, but there was no way I could lie to her, she would know. Getting a better whiff of Rin, her scent did change; she smelt like me. I wanted to kick myself for ever having sex with this girl and impregnating her... I didn't even want to think about that. I would have a child with this bitch and not with the one that I love. Sango's face stayed firm as mine felt like it was on fire. The intensity in the room was really thick and I could feel it weigh down my shoulders. I am sure Naraku felt the same way when Kagome had walked through the door. What those two would do, who knows, but I had a bigger issue to deal with.
"Sango, I –
"So you got this girl pregnant Sesshomaru?"
"I didn't know that she –
"Yes, he did. You cannot have him because he is mine. Sesshomaru is going to be in our child's life and you cannot take part in it!" Rin snapped.
"Rin, hold your tongue or you will be holding your tongue in your hand."
"Sesshomaru, how dare you threaten me. Do you not understand –
"Oh no, I understand fully, I just do not care."
"What? Rin wiggled out from my loose arms and turned to look at me. "What do you mean you do not care?"
"I would never want to have a child with you. Having a child with you, he would be weak, body and mind. For my child, he would need to have a mother that is strong and you are not that Rin. You are a weak minded little girl who throws temper tantrums when she does not get her way or if someone has something better than you. You were an okay girl until that side of you came to the surface, which is why I had left you."
"But –
"Leave Rin. I never want to see you again. You can drop dead for all I care. I just know that I never want to see your face again." I know what I said hit hard and I knew she would start kicking and screaming, but I was not going to give her the attention she desperately wanted.
"That is enough Sesshomaru," said Sango very sternly. "I do not know much of your past with this girl, but she is pregnant with your child. You just cannot abandon her like that just because you no longer like her. You will have to get along with her since she is going to be the mother of your child, whether you like it or not. You chose to have sex with her without protection and now you have to handle the consequences."
"What are you telling me Sango." By her attitude and the tone of her voice, I was not going to like what she was going to say next.
"What I am saying is, I had to almost die in order for you to take me back because I was late in coming to your house. You didn't even give me time to explain why, but I was willing to stay till you let me in and heard what I had to say. But this," She motioned towards Rin, "This is just too much. You clearly made your decision not to be with her or raise the child, but if you truly love me the way you say you do, you will help her raise that child and treat her like she is the mother of your child."
"So are you telling me that either I help her out or you will leave me?"
"No, what I am telling you is that you will help her out. You have no say. If you fail to do so, you will never see or hear from me again Sesshomaru, and I mean that."
"What?! Sango no!" I pushed Rin out the way and landed on my knees in front of Sango, holding her around the waist. Rin fell against Kagome in disbelief. "I can't lose you again Yori. You can't do this to me!"
"I can and I will if you do not help her out."
"I don't want her, I want you."
"And have me you will, but not when you have a baby on the way. You must treat the mother of your child as you would do me if I was the one that was carrying him. Meet her every will."
"I am not going to have sex with her Yori."
"You do not have to touch her sexually, but treat her well. Treat her as if she was me. Is that so much to ask of you?"
"Yes."
"Then either you do as I ask, or lose me for good Sesshomaru. Make your move."
I could not believe she was doing this to me. Either I bent to her rule and I had to kiss Rin's ass for nine months or lose my lover forever. I grit my teeth as I stood back up on my feet, giving Rin the most blank hateful stare I have ever gave anyone. The old Sesshomaru was starting to rise again and this time, I would accept him.
"I will do as Yori has asked of me," I said behind gritted teeth. "But just know this Rin, as soon as all this is done, I want you out." I could feel my marks start to reappear on my face and the old me resurface. My jagged purple streaks cutting across my cheeks, my hair becoming the bright silver that it was before, my nails and my teeth becoming more sharp as my crescent moon formed in the middle of my forehead. I felt all my power rush back and I enjoyed it; embraced it. I could feel the fear build in the room as I took a deep breath. I looked at Rin and she looked terrified. Good.
"W-what are you?!"
"I am the Great Demon Dog, Lord Sesshomaru. I am not too pleased that I will have my first child be a weak half breed like my brother Inuyasha, but I am willing to make that sacrifice to have Yori by my side forever."
"But she is human too," said Kagome, her voice cracking a bit. I guess my flow of power was too strong for her.
"She maybe human, but creating a half breed with her would not be a regret. Rin," she jumped at the sound of her name. "I will help you, but push me too far and I will make sure to make your time also a living hell. Do you understand me." She nodded her head slowly. "Good. Now leave. I will deal with you tomorrow." Rin took no time to scurry onto her feet with Kagome trailing behind her.
"Kagome," Naraku said with deep hatred. She stopped in her tracks and faced him. "I expect to talk to you later on."
"We'll see Naraku."
"We'll see?!" Naraku bit his lip as he balled his hands into fist. "If you know what is good for you Kagome, we will talk tomorrow."
"Are you threatening me Naraku –
"No, it's a promise." Kagome narrowed her eyes at Naraku. If only she knew what was stirring inside him and what has happened in the past week. "I will meet you at your place tomorrow Kagome and you better be there." Kagome just turned on her heels and out the door with out saying anything else to him. The door closed behind them and we all heard the car drive off.
"As for you two," I said directing towards Naraku and Onigumo. "I need you two to leave. I want to be able to have a wonderful time with Yori before I have to waste my time with Rin," I said as I grabbed her around the waist and pulled her close.
"Alright Sesshomaru, we will talk later."
"Night."
"Oh, Naraku."
"Yeah?"
"Good luck with Kagome."
"Yeah, I am going to need that." As soon as the two walked out of my door I scooped Yori into my arms and walked back to my bedroom, throwing her onto the bed.
"Sesshomaru –
"Ssshhh," I said as I placed a finger on her lips. "Let me love you as much as I can Yori. I want to, need to." She nodded her head slowly as she gave me a soft look. I started to calm myself down so the old me could go away but feeling her hands on my cheek stopped me. She was caressing them, softly. "What are you –
"Don't change. I want to have sex with the real Sesshomaru."
"But, I don't want a replay of what happened..."
"It is okay Sesshomaru. I told you to forget about that. I forgave you so long ago. It is time that you forgave yourself. Now," she said as she laid back in the ruffled sheets. "Make love to me as you are." A smirk came across my lips as I leaned over her body and kissed her deeply, my fangs scraping across her lips as I lowered my body against hers.
(END SPOV)
(NPOV)
So many thoughts were going through my mind. I didn't know what to do about Kagome when I did see her again. How could she come back and not tell me that she was here? Was it a secret? Was she going to surprise me at my door the next day? No, that last part could not be possible since she told me, 'We'll see,' when I told her that I wanted to talk to her tomorrow. Driving pissed was not the best idea since I started to go eighty down a forty-five mile road, but the rush felt nice.
Forget about Kagome for now Naraku. You need to focus on the road and make it back safely.
"I say screw making it back home safely Ongiumo. I am going to have some fun tonight."
What. Are you going to go find some girl and screw her tonight?
"No, but that sounds like a good idea actually."
Don't do it Naraku. I can understand that you are upset with Kagome, but that is no reason for you to go out and have sex with someone else.
"Yeah, I know, but you don't have the girlfriend who kind of screwed you over when you needed her the most. The only girl that was there for me was..." I let my thought trace back to Kikyo. Though we had a rough break up, for some reason, we had became really good friends. With her back in my life as much as she is now, I really do not know how I would react if she just dropped out of it. Probably not too badly, but just thinking about her missing did not sit well in my stomach. And not too long ago I wish she was dead. I chuckled.
Thinking about Kikyo?
"Yeah."
Why don't you go back and swing by her place?
"Because of the dream that I had last night. I rather just stay away from her for tonight so that dream does not actually become a reality."
What will you do about her? It seems like you are becoming closer to Kikyo then you thought you would. Do you plan on taking her back if things between you and Kagome do not work out?
I hadn't really thought about it, but hearing Onigumo say it, I think I would take Kikyo back, but something in my head did not like that idea. I shook it out and said, "I do not know Onigumo. Honestly, whatever happens, happens. I just hope the outcome is good and does not end in a disaster."
Let's hope for the best of us that it does not end that way, but I will talk to you later brother.
"Alright, night." My brother and I cut off our telepathic bind and I continued onto drive home. Arriving at the parking lot of my condominium, I just sat in the car for a minute. I wanted to know more then anything why Kagome was acting the way she was, but I had a feeling that she was not going to have a very good reason as into why she was treating me the way that she was. I got out, locked my car and headed up to my place. Walking up the stairs, I felt like I was being watched. I looked around until my eyes locked onto Kagome's. She was leaning on the rail in some sweats and a clingy shirt. What was she still doing out this late. We just stared at each other which was seconds but felt like minutes. The look that was in her eyes, she seemed lost and afraid. Taking a step towards her, she straightened up, her eyes never leaving mine as she started to walk back to her door.
"Kagome wait –
I reached out towards her, picking up my pace into a sprint, only to have a door slam in my face. What the hell?! I started to bang on the door with my fist. "Kagome come out here so we can talk!" Pound after pound I kept yelling for her name, but she never answered the door. "God Fuckin' Dammit!" I kicked the bottom of her door and screamed out my frustration, once again. "What the fuck did I do to deserve this type of treatment!" I heard locks of the door shift and the door crack just a bit. "Kagome?"
"No, it's Rin. Do you know what time it is?"
"Don't fuckin' play with me Rin," I said in a threatening tone. I could feel my anger start to seize my whole body and something just did not feel right. I felt something snap in my chest and everything just became blank.
"Pfft, you think you can scare me Naraku, but you can't. Now, don't come knocking on this door again. If you do, I will call the cops." Before the door closed, I placed my foot in the crack and forced it open with one hand.
"You won't do no such thing," I said in a creepy tone. Whatever look I gave Rin, it scared her now. She stumbled back and fell on the floor, her body shaking. "Where is Kagome?"
"N-Naraku... your eyes –
"Where is Kagome?" I got on the floor and brought my face closer to hers, my demand more forceful then before. "If Kagome does not come out, wherever she is," I brought my hand tight around Rin's neck and squeezed tightly. "I will kill you here and now before Sesshomaru gets the chance." Rin tried to pull my fingers apart but failed to do so.
"Naraku stop!" I looked up and saw Kagome looking at me, terrified. I let go of Rin and growled as I stood up, facing Kagome, Rin gasping for air. "Naraku –
"Why did you run from me Kagome?" Taking a step towards her, she took a step back. I stood where I was, not wanting her to run again. "Answer me Kagome."
"What is wrong with you Naraku? Why would you attack Rin, knowing that she is pregnant."
"I do not care for her. She does not matter to me; you do. Now, answer my question: why have you been avoiding my phone calls and acting so cold to me lately? What did I do for you to act that way to me?"
"Naraku, I..." she wrapped her arms around her body, rubbing them as if she was cold. "I... I..."
"You what?"
She closed her eyes as she sighed deeply. She looked me square in the eye and said, "I found someone else." Whatever hold that was on me disappeared for a moment. What did this woman just tell me? "I'm sorry Naraku, but when I went back with Rin, an old spark had rekindled between me and an old ex of mine who I had not seen in years."
"And when were you going to tell me this?" My hands balled tightly into fists. I wanted to hit something badly and whatever monster was lurking inside me was close to getting what he wanted, total control and I did not care if he won.
"I was going to tell you when I knew exactly what to say."
"And that would be how long? A few days? A week? A month? Didn't seem like you were in no rush to tell me."
"I was going to tell you when I had saw you –
"I would have preferred if you had just told me over the phone that way I could have gotten over you when you were gone."
"I'm sorry –
"Is he here?"
"N-no, but he will be tomorrow." Kagome adverted her eyes from me. If she knew what was good for her, she wouldn't look at me.
"This is really fucked up Kagome. I needed you more then anything for the past week! And you go and fuck me over?! Why?!"
"Naraku –
"And I thought what Kikyo did was below the belt, but what you did tops it. I was actually starting to trust you and you broke that. I had not been able to trust a woman in awhile, and you pull this on me. I'm glad I did not get close to you so quickly."
"Naraku –
"You're lucky I do not fire you ass." She looked at me then, surprised. "Oh, so surprised," I said in a sarcastic tone. "I can't fire you because we had a relationship. I am not that low of a person, but I do know I will make you work hard to the bone."
"T-Thank you –
"Do not thank me because when it comes down to it, you will quit before I actually fire you." I turned my back on her as I started to leave her place. Rin scurried out of my way, scared for me to touch her again. Leaving out of her living room, I felt Kagome wrap her arms around mine. Without thinking, I swung my arm forward away from her grip and back, hitting her across the face. She held her cheek with a stunned expression. I made a 'pfft' sound and said, "You're lucky that is all I did to you. Touch me again and I will be sure to hurt you just as much as you hurt me." I exited out of her place, slamming the door behind me. I pulled my phone from my pocket and dialed a number.
"Hello?" said a sweet yet sleepy voice that I wanted to hear.
"Kikyo, can you come to my place?"
"Um, sure. But why?"
"I just want some company tonight."
"Isn't Kagome back?" I was quiet. There was no reason to take my anger out on her; she didn't do anything. I took in some air and recollected myself. "Kagome left me."
"What?!" That got her wide awake. "Why?"
"She ran into an old flame of hers and they hooked up. Simple as that."
"I am sorry Naraku."
"It's whatever. Not like I was in love with her, but can you come?"
"... Yeah, I'll be there in a few."
"Alright." I hung up and unlocked the door to my place, closing the door behind me. I leaned against the door and felt my anger dissipate, only to feel sadness. I slowly fell down to the floor, gripping my hair as I fought off to scream. It hurt so much that Kagome had left me and decided to take so long to tell me, if she would. I tried to think what I had done in order for her to leave me. I treated her right. What didn't I do? I don't know how long I was on the floor but hearing a knock on my door, I knew I was down there for more then thirty minutes. I stood up and opened the door to see an out of breath Kikyo. I tried to crack a smile, but couldn't manage. Kikyo flung her arms around my neck and held me close.
"Everything will be okay Naraku. Don't worry about it. She will soon realize that she lost the greatest man in her life. I know." She pulled away from me and cupped my face, rubbing my cheeks with her hands, giving me the warmest smile. "Kagome will want you back. Who wouldn't?"
"Heh, thanks Kikyo. But it just hurts. I haven't been able to trust women because of what you did to me. She comes around and I gave her a hard time, but ended up liking her anyways. I thought I would be with her for a long time, but she pulls this on me." I lowered my eyes and walked away from Kikyo, heading towards my bedroom. "Sure, what you did is still on the fucked up meter, but what Kagome did, I feel surpasses that. You and Inuyasha, you say you did it to 'get back at me,' knowing that Inuyasha had feelings for you, you used that, but she got back with an ex. Someone she was probably in love with before." I started to strip out of my clothes, sitting on the left side of the bed as I grabbed a rubber-band from the dresser and tied my hair back. "I can't think of anything as into why she would leave me and on top of that, not tell me when it occurred; when she stopped having feelings for me."
"Even though what she did was wrong, you can't say that you were the most loyal either."
"I know, but at least I did not go off and have sex with anyone. I still cared about her, but I was frustrated when she cut me off like that, when I needed her more then anything." I felt Kikyo come up from behind me and lace her arms over my shoulders, hugging me from the back, her head nuzzled against my neck. I sighed and closed my eyes. "I want to make her suffer."
"Two wrongs don't make a right."
"But three rights make a left." Kikyo chuckled and I joined in with her laughter. "Don't ask where that came from."
"Oh, I won't." she chuckled. "But we should get to bed. It's late."
"Yeah. Hey, what are you doing tomorrow?"
"Um, nothing really. Why?"
"We might be a little shorthanded tomorrow at the restaurant, so if you have the time, do you think you can come in and help."
"Yeah, I can do that." Kikyo slid away from me and started to settle into bed. I snuggled against Kikyo like a sick puppy wanting to be kept warm.
"Kikyo, thanks for being here."
"You're welcome Naraku. Now, get some sleep, okay?" I nodded and closed my eyes, afraid to see what my dream would be.
I woke up with a start, rising in my bed. My body was soaked with sweat, my hair sticking on my body. I took heavy deep breaths as I tried to calm my heart. I had a dream that turned into a nightmare. I looked at the clock and read three fifteen A.M. I looked over to my right and saw Kikyo sleeping peacefully. The moonlight was glittering across her milky skin and I wanted to taste her. The shirt that she was wearing hung loosely about her chest, along with the shorts that hugged her waist. The images from my nightmare flashed before my eyes. Not only did Kagome leave me, but Kikyo did as well. With the both of them gone, the monster inside me was able to free himself and take control, my soul gone. I had already lost Kagome, I did not want to lose Kikyo again since she came back. I do not know what I would do if she left me again or if this... thing had full control. My head started to throb from the memory and I could feel my scar start to burn. I stumbled out of the bed and into the bathroom, holding onto my head until I collapsed into the shower, turning the knob so I could feel the water hit my body. I didn't want to be left alone. I had my brother, but knowing that one day what was inside us would appear, the thought was not a happy one. He had his true love and I did not. Would I ever find her, or would I just be alone for the rest of my life? I fell into a deep thought before falling asleep on the shower floor, the sound of water fading into the background.
(END NPOV)
(KiPOV)
I awoke to hearing running water. Sounds like it was coming from the shower. I looked over to my left and saw that Naraku was gone. My eyes drifted to the clock and read four twenty A.M. What was he doing taking a shower so early? I didn't think much of it, but decided to check up on him. "Naraku? Are you in here?" I saw his dark figure behind the shower door, but why was he on the floor? "Naraku?" I pulled back the door and saw him in fetal position in a corner, his body soaked and burning. "Naraku!" I shut the water off and climbed in the shower, grabbing a hold of his face. "Naraku, wake up!" I started to shake him, even slapped him across the face several times to get a reaction out of him. "Naraku!"
"Ngh," he groaned.
"Oh thank God. Naraku, can you stand?" His eyes started to flutter open. He looked confused, unsure of where he was. He blinked several times before resting his eyes on mine. I gasped. Whoever was here with me, it was not Naraku. "Naraku... you're eyes are... lilac." He just stared at me, not saying a word. I didn't feel like he was looking at me, but looking through me, into my soul. I shook the thought away and grabbed his arms. "Come on, let's get you out of these wet clothes." He never took his eyes off of me and I was starting to feel uncomfortable. As I started to peel his wet clothes from his body, he started to chuckle. I froze for a minute. That chuckle did not sound right. I put it aside and grabbed a towel and started to dry him off, starting with his hair. I managed to untangle his hair from the rubber-band that it was in and pat it dry. "Ow." I grazed something sharp on his head. I pulled some of his hair away near his forehead and saw two small sharp brown horns. I froze, unsure of what to say or do. He told me about the demon that was inside him, but was this the demon that was in front of me? It still looked like Naraku, but was he? Determined, I didn't let the horns bother me. Naraku was still Naraku to me and I would not let a few changes bother me. I dried the rest of his body off, avoiding the erection that he had from me drying him. I grabbed some boxers and pajama pants for him to throw on and he did that with ease.
The scar on his chest was still visible, but not as visible as it was. I started to get worried but hid it well. Naraku tucked his hair behind his ear and turned his eyes on me. We made eye contact before my eyes darted to his ears. They developed a point to them. They looked cute, but who was this person in the room with me? He chuckled again. His laugh was deeper, kind of scary but sexy at the same time. "Are you afraid of me?" He asked in the dark and deep voice. I shook my head slowly before I croaked out a 'No.' Smooth on my part. He laughed again, more heartedly than before. "I think your voice says otherwise." He sat down on the bed, gracefully like a cat before motioning me to sit next to him. I did not know what was up with him. His eyes moved with every step that I took until I climbed into bed with him. I gave him a tiny smile receiving one from him, but all his teeth were sharp and rounded to the point. "So tell me, who are you?"
"Excuse me?" Hearing him ask me that placed some weight on my heart. "You do not know who I am?" He shook his head. I bit my lower lip. Without thinking, I placed my forehead against his to feel his temperature. He had a normal body temperature. He stared at me while I did this, my eyes looking at the sheets. "You feel normal." Pulling away, he grabbed my chin, forcing me to look into his eyes. His eyes were gorgeous, but there was some type of energy coming from them. "N-Naraku –
"What is your name?" He said softly but demeaning.
"K-Kikyo." The look in his eyes caused my cheeks to turn red. He smiled and leaned his face closer to mine, his tongue falling out between his lips like a snake and licking my lips softly.
"You taste good; I want you." Naraku placed his lips upon me, kissing me tenderly before laying me back on the pillows.
"W-wait, N-Naraku."
He growled and pulled away from me, looking down with anger. "Why do you keep calling me Naraku?"
"That is your name."
"No, it is not. My name is Xiohu."
(END KiPOV)