My Throbbing Heart

Chapter 22: Confused

(KagPOV)

I was flying among the clouds. I hadn't had a dream like this since I was a little girl. I spread my arms out as if they were wings and glided side to side. I did a loop de loop before I dived down into the river that was below me. The feel of the water tickled across my skin. I stayed under a bit before I shot back up and flew with the birds once again. The blue sky started to become dim as I saw a thunder storm forming. I tried to avoid it but only flew faster into it. The thunder racked against my ear drums. I tried to avoid the lightning, scared I was not going to make it out alive. Thinking I avoided everything that cloud had to throw at me, I was hit by something hard, causing me to spiral down. I tried to get airborne again but couldn't manage. The ground started to get closer. "Wake up, wake up," I whispered. I didn't want to die like this. People said that if you fell and hit the bottom, you were dead. I was not ready to die. I wanted to live. "Wake up, wake up!" I said louder. The ground was inches away from my face before I saw a light. "Naraku!"

"Naraku!" I shot myself away, screaming Naraku's name, having him fumble next to me. He turned his attention to me, eyes wide awake and sweat glistening his body. Did he have a bad dream as well? I ran my hand over my face and hair. I took in deep breaths to calm my beating heart.

"Are you okay Kagome?" He asked breathing hard himself.

"Y-Yeah. Just had a bad dream, that's all."

"The way you screamed my name scared me. What did you dream about?"

"I was flying. I ran into a thunder storm and managed to clear it, but something hit me hard and I spun out of control. I couldn't get airborne again. I was getting closer to the ground before I woke up."

"It was just a dream Kagome. You're alive and that is all that matters."

"Yeah, but I am scared to go back to sleep. What time is it?" Naraku looked over at the clock and told me it was six forty-five. Only three hours had passed and I had to wake up from a bad dream. Naraku just stared at me, not sure what to do. I gave him a weak smile and said, "Why don't you go back to sleep. I don't want you to be tired in the morning on my account."

"I rather be tired in the morning as long as I know that you are okay." Why was he being so sweet to me? It bothered me a lot that he was trying so hard to have me fall in love with him. But, then again, I liked the fact that he was trying hard. I started to giggle. "What?"

"Nothing, nothing. Just had a thought, that's all."

"Tell me." I shook my head and he growled. I felt him slump back into the bed, throwing the covers over him. Now why was he acting like a child?

"Oh come on now Naraku, I was only teasing." He made a noise underneath his breath. "Naraku." He didn't say anything back to me. Now I was getting angry. "Fine, be that way." I dove back under the covers and yanked on them as hard as I can. They barely moved but I made myself comfortable. After a few minutes I sat up and laid my hand on his shoulder. "Naraku..."

"What," he snarled. I didn't know what I did to make him upset with me but I didn't deserve this attitude.

"What are you mad at me for?"

"You were laughing at me."

"No, I was not. I was laughing at myself." He can be such a big baby sometimes. I noticed his shoulders had let go of the anger he had and he relaxed. "I'm sorry if it seemed I was laughing at you."

"I should be saying sorry."

"Apology accepted." Naraku turned in the sheets and looked at me with a short smile. "Um, do you mind, spooning me?" That got his full attention. He turned fully towards me, an elbow propping him up. His eyes were filled with lust. Just the way he was looking at me was making me wet. I looked away from him. Naraku grabbed my chin lightly, making me look at him. He knew I wanted him, just by the look in his eyes. He smiled softly and said:

"I won't force myself on you Kagome, though I want to badly." I just wanted to scream for him to fuck me now, but had to resist. "I won't touch you inappropriately. I will be a gentleman." I just nodded but froze when he laid a gentle kiss on my cheek. He kept that soft smile as he let my chin go and lifted the covers for me to snuggle against him. I laid my back against his warm skin and felt sudden relief. Why was it that I felt safe with Naraku. He wrapped one arm around my waist and snuggled against the nape of my neck before falling back into his slumber. I smiled, placing my hand on top of his as I went back to sleep.

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(NPOV)

I turned in my sleep as I felt myself wake up. I could still feel Kagome's sleeping body against mine. I hugged her tightly, only to feel that I was hugging myself. Opening my eyes, I sat up and looked around the room and noticed that I was alone in bed. I slumped back onto the pillows, running my hand down my face. Why did she leave so early? She couldn't have waited till I woke up to leave? First Kikyo, now her? I banged my head on my pillow and grumbled. My phone started to ring and I grabbed it without looking at the caller id. "Hello?"

"I'm sorry I left before you woke up Naraku." It was Kagome. "Hojo had called me so I just up and left."

"Do you always jump when he says so."

"I have to," she mumbled.

"What?"

"Nothing. I am going to return your shirt in a bit –

"Just keep it. I have plenty of enough shirts. I am not going to miss that one."

"Oh, well thank you." Kagome and I stayed quiet on the phone until she made an abrupt cough. "Well, I will see you at work –

"What are you doing tomorrow?"

"Possibly nothing, why?"

"Go on a date with me."

"I can't, if –

"Just tell him that you are coming with Onigumo and I to pick out some new designs for the restaurant."

"But –

"No buts. I need a yes or a no." Kagome was quiet on the phone before she gave me her answer, which was a no. "Please Kagome."

"Just, not now Naraku, some other time. Hojo is really upset with me right now. When things are better I will –

"Why the fuck is he mad at you? He was the one that left your place leaving you locked out. Shouldn't you be mad?"

"I don't have time. I will talk to you later."

"Kagome –" She hung up on me. I didn't like the situation that Kagome was in. Hojo seemed that he was off, but if he put one hand on Kagome, he was going to be dead. I didn't know what to do with myself. I didn't have to be at the restaurant till later and Kagome said no to a date today. I could call Sesshomaru to hang out, but I am pretty sure his plate was full with Rin around. On cue, my phone rang and it was Sesshomaru. Speak of the devil. "Hey Sesshomaru, I was just about to call you –

"Get me out of this house, now," he growled. Something was definitely up. "I can't stand being around Rin any longer. She is barking up the wrong tree and I am five seconds away from snapping her neck off."

"Okay, calm down Sesshomaru." I heard him take a deep breath, but his anger was still there. "I will get you soon, but are you sure it's a good idea to leave Yori there with Rin...alone?"

"Yori can take care of herself. If anything, Rin will have to survive." He was right about that one. "Just pick me up from Starbucks. The sooner I get out of here the better."

"I'll be there." We said our good-byes and hung up. I searched for some clothes till I settled down with a tight white shirt and some boot cut jeans. I decided to leave my hair down. I wanted to dazzle any girls that were on the street. I slipped my shoes on, grabbed my keys and locked up my place. Heading towards the stairs, I saw Kagome leaning on the rail, Hojo behind her, nuzzling her neck. Funny thing, she was smiling when he was doing it. I guess they made up. They both looked my way. I just looked at them as I headed down the stairs, being the first one to break the eye contact. I knew what I was getting into when I asked Kagome to be with me for the three months, but seeing her happy with that jackass was pissing me off. I would have to try harder to get her away from him before I did something drastic. Walking to my car, I saw a piece of paper under the windshield wiper. I pulled it out and opened it to see writing.

I enjoyed last night. Maybe you can teach me driving some more so I can get my license. Also, I would like to go on a date with you tomorrow, say around 7? I get off of my shift that time and you can just leave whenever. I hope you will agree.

She wrote me a letter? Heh. I folded the paper as small as I could and placed it in my back pocket before I hopped in my car and drove off to Starbucks.

Pulling up into the parking lot, I saw Sesshomaru sitting at one of outside tables sipping on a drink. He was in a very bad mood cause the girls who were sitting across from him were cowering in their seats. They must have been too scared to move. I came up next to them and softly whispered, "He is just in a bad mood. You two can leave, he won't harm you." They nodded their heads and left, running to their car. I just chuckled, shaking my head as I took a seat across from Sesshomaru. Sitting down, I felt something tingle up my spine. Sesshomaru's aurora was dark, darker then it ever was. I wondered what happened at his place. Sesshomaru gulped down the rest of his drink before he shifted those amber eyes to me. "What's going on man?"

"I am going to kill Rin."

"I knew that ever since she came back, but what is she doing now. I thought she would have calmed down once she started living with you."

"Last night, when she slept in bed with me, she tried to have sex with me." I just cocked an eyebrow. "She tried so hard to get me to fuck her. She even started to stroke my dick."

"Let me guess, you couldn't get hard and she got upset." He nodded his head. "So what happened next?"

"I just flipped over and went to sleep. She started to cry, asking me why I didn't love her and all that bullshit. I managed to sleep like a baby through all that." We both chuckled. "This morning, Rin demanded that I give her a kiss because I gave Yori one. It just escalated from that. Rin started to get into Yori's face and those two started to argue. Yori put Rin in her place and she just stormed off to her room and destroyed it."

"Wait. You're telling me she destroyed the room you are letting her stay in?" He nodded. "Then why the fuck have you not kicked her out?"

"I want to, but Yori says that she needs to learn her lesson. I don't know what she has planned, but I know Rin won't like it. But besides my issue, what have you been up to?"

"Not much, just trying to get Kagome back. She stayed the night with me."

"Oh did she now. What happened?" I told Sesshomaru what happened and he just smiled. "She still wants you."

"I don't know. At times I feel like I have her, but then it flips on me. When I was on my way here, her and Hojo were all cuddly on the rail. I wanted to puke. Seeing her with him makes me want to rip him to pieces."

"Calm down Naraku. You have nothing to worry about. That guy is weak. I have seen him before and you can take him down no problem."

"I know, but I don't want to have to fight him in order to get Kagome back." I leaned back in the chair and sighed. "On a good note, we're going on a date tomorrow. I don't know where to take here though."

"Why don't you take her to that new restaurant up the street. I think it's called Le Mu."

"A fancy French restaurant...maybe. Actually, I think I will just make her dinner at my house. I will take her out to that place when we are actually together, that way I can spoil her and not have to worry about her getting caught by Hojo."

"Makes sense." I grabbed my phone when I heard it beep. I flipped it opened and saw that it was a text from a 707 number. I clicked to read the message and said, "Oh my God."

"What?"

"Rin just texted me."

"Are you serious?"

"She asked me where you are."

"That bitch."

"I will take care of it. Most likely she asked Kagome for my number."

"I left my phone at home so that is probably why she texted you." I sent Rin back a message and labeled her number as 'Psychotic Bitch,' just so I know the next time she sent me a message or called me. Just like that, she did call me. I handed my phone to Sesshomaru and he shook his head. I let it go to voicemail and we both just chuckled. She kept blowing up my phone until the point I just shut my phone off. I would have to talk to Kagome about her giving my number out. If it kept going like this, I would change my number.

"I think you should get back home Sesshomaru, before Rin manages to break out of her room."

"I guess." We both got up from our seats, heading in our separate directions. "Oh, and Naraku." I turned. "If worse comes to worse, get ready to tell Kagome that her friend is dead." I just gave him a smile and continued to my car to get ready to go back home. Slipping into my car, my phone started to ring again.

"Hello?"

"Hey Naraku, I need you to head down to the restaurant now. There are a few people here asking for you to make their drinks," Onigumo said in a huff.

"When did I become such a huge hit? But are you okay?"

"Just overworked."

"When I get there, take a break or go home. You don't need to work so hard."

"Thanks brother and I don't know why you became such a big hit, but you are. I will see you in a bit." I hung up the phone and headed towards The Sting Dragon to help out my brother.

The place was more busy then usual. I didn't have any time to go back and change so I looked like a regular customer. I found Onigumo and told him to take the rest of the day off and that I would handle everything on my own. He left with a smile as I went behind the bar and prepared the waiting people their drinks.

"What do you put in those drinks Naraku?" Kagura asked as she filled up a glass with beer.

"My own little secret."

"You have to share this secret with me one day."

"That will never happen." She giggled. "So what have you been up to Kagura?"

"Same ol' same ol'. Nothing really new."

"No new man yet?"

"Well, I am talking to this one guy, but it's nothing serious."

"Not too bright?"

"No, he is very smart, just... he's perfect." I just looked at her. "He is everything I want and need in a man to be happy. It's just too good to be true." I pinched her arm and she screamed. "What the fuck Naraku!" She swatted at me and I laughed.

"Well, you're not dreaming." She gave me a heated look but just laughed as well. I looked around the bar and saw Kagome turn the corner with her tray of food. She made eye contact with me but looked away very quickly. Why was she avoiding me? She said she wanted to go on a date with me tomorrow, but she refused to look at me. Maybe she was embarrassed about last night? I would have to catch her when she was alone, again.

The rest of the evening went well. Customers were happy as usual and carefree. It was time for lock up and everyone went on their way when I handed them their paychecks for the week. As they all left, Kagome stayed behind. I was going to talk to her, but the way she was acting, I didn't want to deal with her. "Hey Naraku."

"Hi."

"Did you get my letter?" I nodded my head. "So where do you want to go?"

"I am thinking we should have dinner at my house. I don't wanna take you out and have someone see you and report it back to Hojo. Last time I checked, you were trying to avoid that situation" Kagome nodded her head. "So you and Hojo doing better?"

"Uh yeah, we're doing very well."

"Yeah, I saw when I was heading to my car earlier. You know, if you and Hojo are going to be all lovey dovey in public, don't make eye contact with me. It really pisses me off when I see you guys together."

"I'm sorry Naraku, but I can't help it if you see us."

"You can actually. It's bad enough that I have to share you with that, ass, but to see you guys like that –

"Don't call Hojo an ass. He didn't do anything to you."

"He has already disrespected me several times, and need I remind you that if he keeps it up your job is on the line?"

"If you fire me I will just get another job."

"Heh, yeah. What place will hire a girl who's boyfriend won't keep his nose out of her work business and disrespects her boss?" Kagome just stared at me with fire in her eyes. "Yeah, suck on that."

"Okay, whatever. You might have a point but I told you I would take care of that."

"You better, or I will take matters into my own hands." I brushed passed her and opened the door. "Now if you do not mind, I am pretty sure Hojo is waiting for you around the corner. I need to lock up."

"Actually," she said as she walked towards me, her face down. "I was wondering if we could go driving again."

"Are you serious?" She nodded her head. "No."

"Why?" She looked up into my eyes as she stood in front of me.

"I will only take you driving if..."

"I'm not going to have sex with you Naraku."

"Damn, someone thinks too highly of themselves. Not everyone wants to fuck you Kagome." She bit her lip. "All I'm asking is for a kiss."

"Alright." Kagome stood on her tiptoes, leaning on me, puckering up her lips before I stopped her.

"A real kiss. I want to kiss you like how we used to." Kagome growled at me. "Okay, I guess no driving for her." I moved Kagome out the way as I locked the doors. I headed for my car before I heard her say:

"Wait. I'll kiss you, but what happened to me calling the shots."

"When you put yourself in these type of positions, the tables will turn."

"I will have to remember that."

"Speaking of which, why did you give Rin my phone number?"

"I didn't. She called you?"

"Yeah. She was looking for Sesshomaru, but that is a story for a different time, continue on with giving me my kiss."I leaned against my car, folding my arms across my chest. Kagome stepped up to me, repeating the same gesture. She smoothed her hands up my chest and around my neck, lacing her fingers in my hair, My fingers snaked around her hips, pulling her lower body closer to mine just to let her know how much I enjoyed feeling her fingers in my hair. Her cheeks flushed and I just smiled.

"Getting shy?"

"N-No."

"You're lying. Why are you blushing then?" I asked softly as I tucked a piece of hair behind her ear.

"I'm not." Kagome's eyes drifted down. I grabbed her chin, causing her to look into mine. Her cheeks looked rosy and her lips luscious. I brushed my thumb across her lips as I leaned down and pressed mine against hers. The kiss was nice and tender till I lightly touched my tongue against her lips. Kagome froze but soon opened her mouth to let me in. Our tongues danced together. It felt so nice to feel the slick roughness of hers against mine. I held her tighter against me causing the kiss to become more rough. I switched positions with Kagome; her back against the car. I picked her up and lifted her legs around my hips. Kagome pressed her lips harder on mine as I started to lift her top out of her shorts. She started to grind against me, nipping on my bottom lip. I tore away from the kiss, pushing her shirt above her bra as I nuzzled my kisses into the nape of her neck. I tugged on her bra, causing one of her breast to pop out, tugging and teasing her nipple. It caused a moan to escape her lips. I felt something move inside me, something strong. I bit her neck, causing her to moan for me again, ripping her bra away from her body, massaging her breast and pinching her nipples.

I could feel people who were still roaming the streets stop to look. I didn't care, I wanted them to watch. I wanted to tear Kagome's shorts off and fuck her in front of everybody. "Aha, Naraku," she cooed. Just hearing her moan my name made me ten times harder. I kissed the side of her neck as I lowered my kisses down to her breast, taking one nipple into my mouth and suckling on it like a starving pup. Kagome threw her head back as a sharp moan racked her body. I lowered one hand down over her stomach, caressing it lightly with my claws. Wait...claws? I just brushed the thought off as I snapped the button of her shorts off and lowered my hand between her legs, teasing her clit. I felt her tense against my touch; it just made me want her more. "N-Naraku, stop." I didn't want to stop, I wanted to make her mine. I knew she wanted me as well since I could smell how wet she was. I lowered my hand till I was rubbing her opening. "Naraku stop!" Kagome started to push against me. I growled deeply in my throat. "Please, Naraku stop! There are people watching."

"Let them watch," I said deeply.

"Stop Naraku." I plucked her nipple out of my mouth and glared at her. Kagome held her breath as she looked terrified. I didn't understand why she was scared. "Y-You're eyes..."

"My eyes?" It soon hit me. I let Kagome down as she fixed herself. I backed away from her, looking down at my hands. They had changed into claws. I touched my head and felt tiny horns. Why was I changing into Xiohu. I looked up at Kagome with fear in my own eyes.

"Naraku?" She took a step near me before I yelled.

"Don't come near me!" She stopped in her tracks. The people that were around staring at our previous engagement looked at me with fright. "Kagome...I'm sorry." I shook my head lightly as I took off running in the direction my feet would take me.

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I wonder what is going on with Naraku. Why did he start to change? And what is up with Kagome? I hope you all liked this chapter. The next one will be up soon. Leave comments.