Weeping Willows
By Dragonessclaw
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters in this story. They are the product of the wonderful Rumiko Takahashi. Only the story is mine.
Chapter 27 I'm Too What?
"O.k. Wish me luck," Kagome said to the person on the phone as she walked down the street, "I'll call you as soon as I get home and tell you how
things go. I know, I will."
As Kagome approached Sesshomaru's house she stopped, "I'm here so I have to go. You too and give Miroku a hug for me."
Taking a deep breath Kagome walked up and knocked on the door. Today was another mini date and Kagome was feeling a little nervous. After
their talk Kagome had suggested they have mini-dates twice a week to see if they could rebuild on what they originally had. She had no intention
of going through what they went through before and this way they both could express any worries or reservations they might have beforehand.
It was decided that on the first date of the week they would go out somewhere just to have fun and enjoy each other's company. The second
date would be at either his or her place to discuss one of the issues that had arisen with them.
So far things were going very smoothly but today Kagome had one question in mind. She had been trying to ease into things bringing up smaller
things first but Kagome couldn't hold off this question any longer. It had been driving her crazy but so far she had controlled her curiosity. Kagome
had actually hoped Sesshomaru would bring it up first but since he hadn't Kagome decided today would be the day.
Sesshomaru answered the door in a pair of boot cut jeans and a button down shirt looking quite relaxed. Smiling he stepped back to let her step
in before shutting the door. "Kagome, please come in."
As Kagome mad her way into the sitting room she took the time to look around. She had been here before but some things Kagome had never
noticed. Hovering in the hall Kagome took in the different pieces of art Sesshomaru had adorning his house but when she ran out of hallway she
started to bit her lip nervously as she could no longer stall.
Going into the sitting room Kagome took a seat and waited for Sesshomaru. A few minutes later he appeared with a tray containing tea and
vegetable wontons and placed them on the table. Sesshomaru handed Kagome a cup and took a seat on the couch opposite to Kagome's.
Sitting back Sesshomaru asked, "Did you want to get started right away or just relax for a while." At Kagome's surprised look Sesshomaru
continued, "I am not rushing you Kagome; however you look as though there is something you want to say."
Nodding, Kagome looked at her hands for a moment. She was so sure before but now for some reason she couldn't understand Kagome wasn't
ready. Finally she took a deep breath and held Sesshomaru's gaze.
"That day, when we were in the park and we argued. You said something that you never explained. We cannot go forward with anything until this
is discussed." Seeing that she had Sesshomaru's full attention Kagome continued, "You were saying that it wouldn't work and that I was too…
but then you didn't continue. What were you going to say Sesshomaru? I am too what?" Kagome asked.
"It doesn't matter now Kagome," Sesshomaru said with a sigh. "There are many things that I just had to come to terms with that did not
necessarily deal only with you."
"Ok," Kagome answered, "but I need to know what you were going to say or else I will always wonder. We said we would get out everything and
be completely honest with one another. I want to know."
Sesshomaru broke eye contact looking at the window for a minute before he said something, but it was spoken so softly Kagome didn't catch it.
"Come on Sesshomaru, you know I couldn't hear that," Kagome admonished. Making eye contact once again Sesshomaru said in a louder voice,
"unpredictable."
Kagome sat there staring at Sesshomaru as if he had suddenly grown two heads. "What? What do you mean unpredictable?"
Shaking his head Sesshomaru tried to explain, "Maybe that was the wrong word. Ambiguous."
What? Are you saying I can't make up my mind? I don't understand what you are saying to me Sesshomaru."
Sighing again for what seemed like the hundredth time Sesshomaru tried again. "Yes and no. You do seem to know what you want and how to
achieve it but you change your mind about other less serious things quite a lot and it is sometimes disconcerting."
"O.k.," Kagome said trying to figure out exactly what he was saying and how it fit into the context of that argument. "Give me an example of what
you are talking about so that I can better understand."
Clearing his throat Sesshomaru said, "We planned to go to the park. I had picked the perfect day when there would not be too many people. It
was also a time where there would be no children running about and then the day before we were to go you called and said you saw a preview
for a new movie and wanted to go there instead."
"O.k., first of all that is called a change of plans. And second if you really wanted to go to the park you should have said something. Had I known
you felt it was such a big deal I wouldn't have said we should go to the movies instead. That still isn't being ambiguous."
"I ended up with soda being spilled on my shoe." Sesshomaru stated as if that answered everything.
"You know, you could have gotten something spilled on your shoe in the park too," Kagome Countered
"Kagome, that is not the point. We had plans. I carefully laid out plans and calculated the best time to be there and you decided not to go at the
last minute," Sesshomaru explained.
Kagome was getting irritated now, she still couldn't figure out why that was such a big deal. "Sesshomaru, the day before is not last minute. Also,
we planned an outing at the park; I truly did not know it meant so much to you. I could understand if we planned a cruise or a weekend
getaway. You really need to chill out. Things come up, plans change. It wasn't the end of the world and what do you mean calculate? I know you
like numbers and order but you cannot expect life to be like that. You cannot expect ME to be like that. That is not who I am and I don't think there
is anything wrong with that."
Sensing Kagome's extreme displeasure Sesshomaru decided to cut her off before things got worse. Putting his hands up in surrender Sesshomaru
spoke in a gentle non-defensive voice. "Kagome, I know I cannot change you, nor do I wish to. That is why I said it doesn't matter now. I have
had much time to think and work out many other things. I can accept you how you are. Now, I know that I am a stickler for order and I am working
on it however, this is me. Can you accept me as I am?"
"Yes," Kagome said smiling, "I can do that."
Now that she asked her question and he he had finally explained what he had meant Kagome felt much better. Apparently it had more to do with
what Kagome could only refer to as his compulsive need of order than to do with her. They continued to talk for hours, each expressing their
points of view and feelings. Eventually the conversation turned toward more mundane things but when Sesshomaru went to get more tea and
snacks Kagome looked at the clock and finally realized what time it was.
As Sesshomaru came back and sat everything down Kagome said, "Sesshomaru thank you. This has been great but I didn't realize it was this late
I really need to go."
Taking a seat Sesshomaru took a sip of his tea as he silently observed Kagome. Putting his teacup down Sesshomaru asked, "Why?"
Tilting her head to the side Kagome tried to understand the question. Why what? She was about to ask Sesshomaru what he meant when he
continued.
"Why do you have to leave?" He asked suddenly looking very tense.
Kagome was surprised, to say the least, by his question. Was he asking her to stay for a while? Or was there an underlying connotation to his
question? "Um… because it is getting late. Even though I don't have to work tomorrow I still need to sleep."
Looking at her very intently Sesshomaru asked, "Why can't you sleep here?"
Feeling a bit uneasy Kagome asked, "And where would I sleep?" as she tried to figure out the best way to answer him. For a split second
Kagome saw something in Sesshomaru's eyes that made the hairs on the back of her neck stand on end. But before she could try to understand
what she had just seen it was gone and he was once again talking to her. "I'm sorry Sesshomaru, what did you say?" Kagome asked still a little
distracted.
"While we are laying all our cards on the table," Sesshomaru stated, "I should tell you that I abhor repeating myself."
Smirking Kagome said, "I can understand that, however sometimes it's necessary."
A flash of the club where they danced ran across Sesshomaru's mind. Remembering his fascination with Kagome's lips and his own need to have
her repeat her earlier statement kept Sesshomaru from saying the smart retort that was on the tip of his tongue. "Hn, I was saying that since it
was late why you don't stay here. We can finish talking and then have breakfast in the morning."
"And where would I sleep if I stayed?" Kagome asked.
"In the guest bedroom of course. I would just like to continue our conversation. It has been….informative." Sesshomaru stated. "But… if that
doesn't suit you then I will escort you home," he added as he saw Kagome's hesitation.
"No, that's fine. It's not like we haven't spent the night under the same roof before." Kagome answered trying to sound nonplussed.
Sesshomaru nodded and disappeared in the direction of the bedroom. When he returned he had a blanket and pillow that he offered to Kagome.
"I thought I was getting the guest bedroom, what did I do something wrong and get bumped to the couch?" Kagome asked facetiously.
Sesshomaru just looked at her for a moment and then continued. He still didn't get her sense of humor in some things.
"I thought while we continued talking you might like a blanket to curl up under." Sesshomaru stated as he returned to his seat.
Kagome made herself more comfortable and they continued talking into the early hours of the morning neither one making it to either bedroom.
/ The Next Day/
Kagome's first thought when she woke was that her room looked very strange. Blinking her eyes repeatedly she tried to get her eyes to focus.
That worked but she still couldn't figure out what had been done to her room. One thing was that it was brighter. Someone must have added an
extra window. Sitting up she looked around and realized this was not in fact her room or house. As she looked around her eyes landed on a face
half obscured by a curtain of long silver hair reminding her of exactly where she was.
Looking at him Kagome couldn't help but smile. Usually Sesshomaru was always the first to get up so Kagome never got to see Sesshomaru
without his guards up. His expression was so peaceful and calm it made him look even more handsome than usual. As if he knew that he was the
center of her thoughts Sesshomaru opened his eyes and looked directly at her, his previously open face now guarded.
"Good morning," Sesshomaru greeted as he sat up. "Are you ready to get started?"
"Good morning to you," Kagome answered as she straightened out her clothes. "I am ready when you are.
Nodding Sesshomaru disappeared into his room. Once Kagome heard the shower she headed to the other bathroom to make sure she was
presentable. By the time Kagome came back Sesshomaru was waiting for her. "I am ready. I will take you to your house so that you may freshen
up and then we will go to breakfast."
"Sounds great to me," Kagome replied as they headed out the door. Kagome felt very content at that moment. They had discussed a lot and it
was like a weight being lifted. She also felt they had gotten to know much more about what made the other tick. Smiling to herself Kagome
thought I can't wait to tell Sango as they headed out the door.
/Until next time guys/
Sorry if I confused some with using fin before. We still have at least four more chapters before I'm done.