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Chapter 4 He ain't worth missing

If you need someone to hold you

Someone to ease your pain

Well I'll be holding steady

Girl when you get ready

I'm gonna show you

Love is a good thing

He ain't worth missing, Toby Keith

Whatever it was that happened Sunday night with Edward, I wanted it to happen again. Dancing with him, feeling his body pressed to mine. My body tingled from head to toe, I wanted to feel his hands run all over me, I wanted to feel his lips on mine, and I never wanted our dance to end. I could not wait for Edward to come home. One thing I found amazing Sunday night, I went to bed and I did not think of James once, in fact I did not think about James once all week. I could only think about Edward. I'm thinking I'm finally over James and moved right on to Edward. I got an E-mail from Edward on Monday; I thought it was sweet of him. He took the time to E-mail me to see how my first day on my new job went. I E-mailed him back letting him know I had a great first day and thanked him for thinking of me.

My first week on my new job was good; a lot of new paper work to learn, and a new routine to learn, and new nurses to learn to work with; but I got to work with the patients when they were a wake. I had lunch with Alice and Rose a few days this week. Alice was happy Edward and I were on our way to being friends again. I didn't tell them about our dance. I just felt it was something private. Alice wanted all six of us to go out this weekend for dinner and then to a club, Alice had to remind me that Emmett wanted to go out to celebrate my new job, how could I say no to that.

As the week went on I fall into a comfortable routine at work and home. Every day when I got home I would change for my run and workout, and then checked my E-mails, followed by making dinner. Every day I would find a E-mail from Edward. Then I sent him one back. Thursday's E-mail from Edward told me when his flight got in and when he would be home. He also he said he was looking forward to going out on Saturday. So when Friday rolled around, I got home I went for my run then showered and started dinner. I had it planned out perfectly. As I put our plates on the table Edward walked in the door. He found me in the dinning room.

"What is all this for?" He asked looking surprised.

"I just thought you would like a nice home cooked meal when you got home."

"Wow. That is really nice of you."

"It is the least I could do for you being so nice to let me stay here."

We ate our dinner with small talk. Edward told me about his week and I told him about mine. Edward helped me clean up after dinner, and then he got a bottle of wine and two glasses.

"Let's go out to the patio and sit for a while." He asked with a crooked smile. I think my knee went weak. All I could mumble was "Sure".

How did he do that to me? With one smile he turned me into a mumbling, love sick teenage girl. The effect this man had on me was unbelievable. How could he send electricity through me and turn me to mush? We went out to the patio. It was a nice night out, but there was a bit of a chill in the air. Edward had Tiki torches around the patio; he took the time to light them. Edward moved two chairs over to the fire pit and started a fire. He poured me a glass of wine as I took a seat.

"I know we learned a lot about each other the other night. I want to know more. Can I ask you a few questions?" Edward asked with a smile.

"Okay. You ask one. Then I will ask you one." I thought this get to know you better thing would be fun.

"Good, what is your favorite book?"

"Stephen King's Rose madder."

"Really, I figure you for the classics." He said with surprise.

"I do love the classics, Pride and Prejudice, Jane Eyre, Mansfield Park, Wuthering heights. Right now I'm on a Stephen King kick. Alright you, what is your favorite color?"

"Brown; what is your favorite color?" Edward rush his answer so fast in to a question I almost miss is it.

"Green." I cannot believe I just said that. I just admitted to him I like the same color his eyes right. Now I also said like a love sick teenager. "Okay, your favorite song?"

"That would have to be George Strait's you look so good in love. But Strangers in the night is in the running." I think my face turned red when he work our dance into this.

"I love George Strait. One of my favorites by him is Clear Blue Sky, and I also love Run."

"What would be your favorite movie?"

"I have many, but all time favorite would be the haunting. What is your favorite book?"

"Easy; Of Mice and Men. What's your favorite song?"

"That a hard one. I'll have to say Rascal Flatt's I'm moving on. Okay your favorite movie?" There were so many things I wanted to know about him I had a hard time just pick out a few to ask.

"I think that would be that one with Brad Pitt, Seven. Your favorite place to vacation?"

"I always love to go to Hawaii. Your idea of a romantic date?"

"I would plan a nice quiet dinner at home with candle light and wine."

After about hour of asking each other questions, we just started talking. I found out about his choose of careers, and a little about his college days and a lot about growing up with Alice and Emmett. He also told me about how much he put his life on hold after high school through collage even now to achieve what he wants from his career. We said our good nights and went to our rooms. I slept in that morning. I got up around 9. Edward had bagels and coffee ready and waiting for me. He also went on a run with me, following that we went to the gym. We had a lite lunch together, and then headed home. Edward took a shower then headed out to see his parents. He said he would meet me at the house at 6 so we could meet up with Rose, Emmett, Jasper and Alice for dinner.

After my shower I grabbed my book and stretched out on the couch. I gave up trying to read after about 20 minutes. All I could think about was Edward. I could not get him off my mind. All I learned about him last night. I wanted to learn more. I want to know every little thing about him. The few touches we had, I wanted more. All the time I spent with him, I had to stop myself from grabbing his hand to hold it. I had to stop myself from grabbing him and kissing him. I wanted to feel his lips on mine. I wanted to feel his hands on my body. How am I going to make it through tonight with him? Edward and I met up with everyone at a nice restaurant for dinner. We all talked Alice out of going to a club. Instead we decided to go to a bar down the street.

Rose, Alice and I got a table in the back of the bar. The guys went to the bar to get our drinks.

"How are things going with Edward?" Alice finally asked. I think she had been waiting all night to ask.

"Good. We E-mailed each other all week. I had dinner ready last night when he got home. We spent all night just talking. It was nice."

"I think Bella likes Edward." Rose teased. My face turned bright red, but the teasing stop as the guys came back with our drinks.

We just sat around talking, but I was all too aware of Edward's every move. He was sitting beside me in the booth. I noticed when he moved just a little closer to me. I knew when he rested his arm on the booth behind me. I could feel him next to me without him even touching me. When his arm went to rest on my shoulder the shocks were sent through my body from his touch. I got lost in my own dream world. Dreaming of what else his touch could do to me. I was brought out of my dream from a shake on my shoulder.

"Bella!" Alice was almost yelling. I did not realize I was leaning into Edward's side.

"Bella, let's go dance." Rose said standing from the table.

"Sure, let's go." I side as I shook myself from my daydream. Rose grabbed my hand and pulled me out on the dance floor.

I like going to a bars to dance more than clubs because the difference is the music. Clubs are more hip hop, were bars are more rock. The D J at the bar tonight was playing more old rock then new stuff, Rose, Alice and I were rocking out to old Bon Jovi's Poison and groups like that. The D J slowed it down when Emmett and Jasper came out on the dance floor followed be Edward. Edward grabbed my hand.

"Dance with me." Edward said as he pulled me closer to him.

Edward wrapped his arms around me as we dance to the music. I was so lost in the moment I'm not sure what song was playing. All I could think about was Edward's hands and arms around and on me. As we moved to the music I moved my hands from Edward's shoulder to his neck pulling me closer to him. The feel of his body pressed to mine to was amazing. I looked up at him and got lost in his piercing green eyes. As I stared into his eyes I pressed my lips to his. I have no idea what came over me. I just had to feel his lips on mine. He lips were soft against mine. I'm sure he was surprised by me. After a few seconds he still had not responded to me. I thought he was just shocked, I knew I was by my forwardness. Still after another few seconds I felt his arms loosen from around me. Okay not quite what I expected, but when he still did not responded I knew I made a mistake. So I removed my lips from his and pushed myself away from him.

"Sorry, I don't know what I was thinking." I mumbled as I ran from him.

I think I heard him say my name, but I was not really listening. I ran out the back door and leaned against the outside wall of the bar. I ended up with my arms wrapped around my knees as they were pressed against my chest. How stupid can I get to think someone like Edward would want anything to do with someone like me. I just made a total fool out of myself. How can I look him in the eyes again? How do I make this right? I'm not beautiful, I'm not sexy. I know what I am. I'm just plain, with my boring brown hair and flat brown eyes. I'm nothing special at all. I don't have curve and beauty like Rose. She was so beautiful she could stop traffic. I don't have Alice's pixie good looks, short and petite. She turned heads just by walking into a room. There is one word to describe me average. Average height, average weight, and average looks. I'm just average. I was brought out of my little pity party by someone standing over me. I thought it was Alice or Rose, but when I look up I was surprised and scared to see James standing over me. I found the courage to stand.

"James, what in the hell do you want?" I spat harshly at him. I was not in the mood to deal with him tonight.

"YOU!" Is all he said as he grabbed my arm hard and started to pull me away.

He pulled me to his car and pushed me up against it. He grabbed both my hand in one of his as he put them over my head and pinned them to the roof of the car. Then he grabbed my face in the other hand. Just the way he did last time. He pinched my cheeks together. Then he forced his lips onto mine. I tried to fight him off, but he had me pinned to the car with his body.

"Come on Bella, I know you want me." He said with his lips still close to mine.

"Let me go. James, you're hurting me." Then he crushed his lips back on mine.

"James, let me go." I mumbled through our lips. He just pinched my cheeks harder.

"Come on Bella. No one else will want you. So just come back to me. I'm the only one who would want you."

I wanted to kick and scream and fight my way out of this, but he was just too strong. I could not help the tears that were running down my face. I found the will to try and fight him. I tried to kick. I tried to push myself off the car. The harder I tried, the harder he pushed me against the car. Then he kicked my legs apart and pressed his leg against my crouch very hard. It shot pain through my pelvis. I started to become more scared. I have never seen James this way. I was not sure what he would do to me. How far would he take this to get what he wanted? The thought made me start crying uncontrollably.

"LET HER GO." A voice yelled from behind James.