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Chapter 6 This kiss
You can kiss me in the moonlight on a rooftop under the sky.
Oh, you can kiss me with the windows open while the rain comes pouring inside.
Oh, kiss me in sweet slow motion,
let's let everything slide.
You've got me floating, you've got me flying.
It's the way you love me,
it's a feelin' like this.
It's centrifugal motion,
it's perpetual bliss.
It's that pivotal moment.
It's 'Ah, subliminal.'
This kiss, this kiss.
It's criminal.
This kiss, this kiss.
This Kiss, Faith Hill
I sat on the couch after Edward left, I tried to read my book, but couldn't stop thinking about all that happened last in the last 24 hours. I know it wasn't under the best circumstances, but oh my goodness, a shirtless Edward sitting on the ground holding me on his lap was unbelievable. I would have never thought Edward was so built. Of course he was not Emmett big, but Edward muscles were well defined. I could just lay with him and run my figures over his abs all day.
When Edward came into my room last night I really didn't want him there. After what happened with James, I really didn't need to be reminded of Edward's rejection. As soon as he came into my room, I felt safe. When he started to rub my back, I started to calm down, somehow I knew Edward would never hurt me or let anything or anyone hurt me. I really wanted him here with me now. I wanted him to hold me and make everything better. I didn't want him to feel obligated to be there, but when he held my face in his hands and looked deep in my eyes I knew he wanted to be there. When he told me he wanted me, I could barely think. I nearly lost it all together when he all so tenderly pressed his lips to mine. It was just like in all those sappy love song. It was a simple, gentle kiss, but it was full of heat and intensity. I swear I saw fireworks behind my eyelids. However no matter how special, wanted and cared for Edward made me feel I could not get the words James said out of my head. Not the time Edward drew me a bath, then made a nice breakfast, kept his arms around me as I slept and simply holding my hand as we walked, could totally erase the feeling of worthlessness James made me feel. I knew without a doubt that Edward cared for me. The question was how deeply he did and was I worthily enough for him. I had a few hours before Edward would be calling. I knew who could help me with this. I knew they would give it to me straight. She would not hold back. She would say just what I need to hear. I pick my cell phone and dialed the number I needed.
"Hey, I need some help. Can you and your other half come over?" I said into the phone.
"No, no, Just you 2 please."
20 minutes later there was a knock at the door. I disarmed the alarm and opened the door. There just like, I asked stood Rose and Emmett. I kept it together long enough to lead them to the living room. Then I just went to Rose and hugged her as I cried. Neither Rose nor Emmett said a word. They just let me cry it out. When I was done crying I told them everything. Starting with Edward coming in my room last night, to when he left tonight. When I had everything said, from everything Edward and I did and every word we said today, I looked up at Rose and Emmett to see them smiling at me.
"Bella, you know Edward really does care a great deal for you." Emmett said to me. "I have never known Edward to care for someone besides family the way he does for you." Emmett could not stop smiling.
"It sounds like you and Edward had a great time together today. So why all the tears?" Rose knew there had to more to this.
"I don't doubt Edward's feeling for me, not really." I knew what I wanted to say, but I could not seem to put it in to words. So I told them the things James said to me and the doubt I had about myself. Rose and Emmett looked disappointed at me.
"You know better than that, Bella." Rose said to me in her know it all tone.
"Do I, Rose. The only man I thought loved me, kicked me out of my house, took all my money. Then called me a worthless whore and throw me against a car. James at one time said he loved me and wanted to marry me and start a family. He said he would love me forever. Apparently I wasn't good enough for him and at one time I knew he loved me. So how can I be good enough for Edward?"
Rose looked pissed off at me but Emmett looked like he was going to cry. My big strong Emmett was just a big Teddy bear under it all.
"Bella, I can't speak for James or Edward, but I can tell you as a guy what I think." Emmett said to me before looking at Rose. She nodded at him. "You are a beautiful woman, who is loving and caring. You are sexier then hell. You work hard to keep your body in shape and it shows. You are smart. You have a job that a lot of people can't do. It takes someone special to be a nurse and you do it better then a lot of nurses I have met. With Carlisle as my dad, I have met a lot of nurses. You are what a lot of women would kill to be. A beautiful, strong, sexy and a caring woman. You are the total package. You are just lucky Rose here is truly my better half, my soul mate, or I would be all over you. Edward would have to fight for you. He would have to go through me to get you." He was so sincere as he told me all this. There was no way I could doubt him.
Rose came to sit in front of me. Then took my hands.
"I'm so lucky to have you in my life. We all are. I can't image our group without you. You have also brought Edward back into our lives. You know how long it has been since he spend more the 2 hours with any of us. He has been so focused on his career, he has not took the time to live his life. I saw the change in him the first weekend he came home after you moved in here. The Edward I saw last night was a totally different man then I'm use to seeing. It is all because of you, Bella. You deserve him and he deserves you. I laughed at Alice when she told me you two were made for each other, but now I see it. You were made for Edward and he was made for you."
"I don't know where this is going. I'm not even sure exactly how I feel for Edward. I do know I want to find out." I just really need to think this out.
Emmett got up and walked out of the living room. Rose came over to sit beside me on the couch.
"Just take your time, Bella. Don't rush into anything too fast. I know Edward wouldn't do anything to hurt you, but you need to be ready. You and James were together for long time. So give yourself some time. Get yourself together. Then you and Edward will fall into place." Rose was right I needed to get myself straightened out.
Emmett came back into the living room with 3 glasses and a bottle of wine We sat and talked until we finished off the bottle of wine. They reassured me more before we said our goodnight and they went on their way. I knew everything they said was right. I just lived too long with James bull shit in my head. I sat on the couch thinking everything over. I needed to start working on me state of mind as hard as I work on my body. I can do this. It had been about a hour after Rose and Emmett left that my cell phone rang.
"Hello how was your flight?" I asked Edward.
"It was good. I'm doing better now that I can hear your voice. How has your night been?"
"It most definitely just got better."
"Really?"
"Really!"
"So what did you do since I left?"
"I called and asked Rose and Emmett over." I decided not to hide anything from Edward. "I needed a pep talk. I thought they would be the best to do it."
"Did they help?"
"Yes they did. Let's just hope Rose never decides to leave Emmett or you might have a fight on your hands." I told him with a laugh.
"A fight with Emmett? What would we be fighting about?"
"It is more like fighting over?"
"So if Rose leaves Emmett, he and I are going to fight over something. What would that be?"
"I just let the stuff James said get the best of me tonight. So I called Rose and Emmett over to talk it out. Emmett said if he didn't love Rose so much, he would be all over me. He said he would fight you for me."
"It is a good thing he has Rose, I think Emmett could take me in a fight." He laughed.
"Who said I wanted Emmett. Maybe I would choose you."
"I would be honored to have such a beautiful woman as you, choose me." I was glad Edward couldn't see through the phone. I had to be as red as a tomato.
"You surely know how to make a girl feel special."
"You are the only girl I want to make feel special, love." Hearing him call me love made my heart feel like it had wings.
"I wish you were here."
"Me, too. So Emmett and Rose helped tonight?"
"I think so."
"You can call me anytime and I'll tell you what a beautiful and truly amazing woman you are, anytime."
"As long as you think so. That is all I need."
"I'll remind you all the time. I should let you get to bed. You have to get up before I do."
"It is getting late and you need to get settled into you room. Sleep well and I'll talk to you tomorrow."
"I will not sleep half as well as last night."
"I know, me either."
"Good night my lovely Bella."
"Good night Edward." I really didn't want to let him go, but I did. He did bring a smile to my face. He called me his lovely Bella. It warmed my heart.
The rest of the week went faster than I thought it would. Edward would call every morning on my way to work. We talked all the way to work. I always hated to let him go. I would call him on my lunch. Then he would call me at night. Then we would talk for hours. Our talks at night meant the most to me. All our calls were great and meant a lot, but the ones in the morning and at lunch seemed hurried. At night we had all the time we needed. I almost fall asleep talking to Edward. Just talking to him helped me relax. I had a really bad day on Thursday, but all it took to make everything better was to talk to Edward.
I couldn't wait for Edward to get home. I got Alice to give me a ride to the airport. I know what time his flight was coming in but not the flight number or gate number. So we found his car in long term parking and I waited for him. I didn't have to wait long. I planned to just wait by his car. However when I saw Edward walking to his car I couldn't stop myself. I ran to him and jumped into his arms and wrapped my legs around him. I pressed my lips to his. I didn't hesitate one bit to deepen our kiss. When I rubbed Edwards's lower lip with my tongue he eagerly welcomed it. My hands moved from his face to his hair. I wanted so bad to run my figures through his hair, so I did. When my hands came to the back of his head I pulled him closer to me. He just wrapped his arms around me to holding me closer. When we finally broke for air, I looked at Edward, who had a huge smile on his face.
"Wow that is a nice welcome home. Not that I'm complaining, but why are you here?"
"I couldn't wait another 30 minutes for you to get home."
"I know how you feel. Now I'm glad I didn't take that earlier flight I thought about taking."He pressed his lips to mine for another long kiss before I could say anything. When we broke for air I had something to say.
"You could have been home earlier." I said with a playful slap to the back of the head. Edward still had yet to put me down.
"What, you came here straight from work, right. So right now I would have been sitting at home waiting for you. You would be here searching for my car. I like this way better." This time I pressed my lips to his. He pulled back after our kissed ended.
"Let's take this home." We stop to rent some movies. Then grabbed some take out and headed home. When we got home we put our dinner on the coffee table and sat on the floor to eat.
"You want to talk about yesterday?" Edward asked with hesitation.
"I got too close to a patient. John was a 45 year old man that came to our floor a month and a half ago, recovering from a stroke. He couldn't walk or talk or feed himself. He did a lot of hard work. He could do everything himself now. He was planning on going home next week. Early yesterday morning about a hour after I got to work, he had another stroke. We did CPR but we lost him." I was in tears by now. "John was a good man. He had a wonderful wife and 3 beautiful kids. Sue, his wife was there every day while the kids were at school. Then she would pick them up and they all would stay to have dinner together. I really feel for them." Edward pulled me up on his lap and let me cry.
"This is why you are so good at your job. You truly care about your patients. There are not enough nurses out there that truly care." Edward said comforting me. Then he kissed my forehead. I dried my eyes after I stopped crying. "Let's watched movie."
We laid on the couch together. Edward pulled me close to him and held me. Half way through the movie I couldn't take it anymore. I carefully rolled over to face Edward and pulled his lips to mine. He didn't wait to deepen our kiss. My hand went to his hair and I ran my figures through it. His hand found the small of my back and pulled me closer to him. When I had to brake for air his lips moved down my jaw line and down to my neck. I knew we had to stop this. I was not ready for this to go that far yet. We made out like teenagers home alone for about 30 minutes. Edward hands on me felt fantastic. I really need to stop this before it went to far.
"Edward." I said breathlessly as I pulled his face away from my neck. "We need to stop before I can't."
"I know, I have wanted you for so long."
I gave him one more kiss. Then turned back to the movie.
The last thing I remember was Edward hitting the button on the remote to change it to the next movie. Then I woke as Edward laid me down in my bed. He kissed my forehead then turn to leave.
"Where are you going?" I asked half asleep.
"To bed." He said with a smile. I sat up on the side of the bed.
"We only have a few day together. So sleep in here with me."
"If you want me to."
"Please."
"I'll go to my room to change. I'll be right back." He told me, and then left my room.
I got up and got my night clothed. I went through my nightly routine. I washed my face, brushed my teeth and brushed my hair. I put on my boy short and tank top I wear to bed. Then walked out to my bed to find Edward in it. I loved the sight of a shirtless Edward in my bed. The moonlight coming in through my window shown across his bare chest was memorizing. Looking at him laying there I had to remind myself to breath.
"Are you coming to bed or are you going to just stand there and stare?" Edward said with a smile.
"I'm most definitely enjoying the view." I said a little too loudly to myself.
I don't know where the courage came from. Maybe it was just him being in my bed. I don't know, but crawled into bed and pressed my lips to his.
Edward flipped us over. His body lightly pressed to mine. I could feel every inch of him against me. I so badly wanted more. I wanted his hands all over me.
I felt his hand slowly rub down my side to my hip. As his mouth traveled down to my neck. He lightly squeezed my hip and a moan slipped through my lips. With light open mouth kisses, Edward worked his way to my ear.
"Bella, I want you so bad, but we need to slow this down. If we don't, I won't be able to stop." He whispered in my ear.
"I know, but your hands on my feels so good." I said as I grabbed his hand off my hip and put it on my breast.
"Bella." He said in a half warning and half moaned.
What was I thinking earlier. I wanted Edward so bad. I wanted his hands on me. I wanted his lip on me. I wanted him in, but knew this was moving to fast.
"Your right. It is so easy for me to get carried away with you."
"Let's go to sleep." Edward said as he laid on his side and pulled me closer to him.
"Okay, good night." I giving him a kiss, I pushed him down until he was lying on his back. I laid my head down on his chest and with the wonderful feeling of his arms around me I fell into a peaceful sleep.
The next day Edward and I met Carlisle and Esme for lunch. We met them at a restaurant down town. We walked in hand and hand. I saw huge smiles on Carlisle and Esme as they stood to greet us.
"It is so good to see you, Bella. It has been awhile." Esme said before wrapping me in a big hug.
"I knew you two would make a cute couple." Esme whispered in my ear.
"Thank you. It is great to see, too." I commented as I hugged her back.
We exchanged greetings. Then sat and looked over the menus. Edward and Carlisle talked about work. Esme and I just chit chatted about a little bit of everything. Our meals came and Carlisle looked at me with a proud fatherly look.
"Bella, Esme and I want you to know how proud of you we are. I have heard from people at the hospital what at great job you are doing." Carlisle said with a smile.
"Thank you, that means a lot coming from you." That was all I could say with a smile on my face. Carlisle was the best doctor in town and chief of staff at the hospital. I really looked up at him.
We had a nice lunch. Then said our goodbye's and went our different ways.
Edward and I went to see Alice and Jasper. We had a nice visit. Then went on to see Emmett and Rose. Then we headed home.
"So what are we doing for the rest of the day?" I asked in the car on the way home.
"I was thinking about taking my beautiful girlfriend out on a date." Edward said with his crooked smile. Did he just call me his girlfriend? That thought sent me heart pounding 200 hundred miles a minute.
"I would like that very much." I took his hand in my and held it the rest of the way home.
At 7:00 I was dressed and ready to go. I wore a dress Alice got me that I have never worn. It was a tight off the shoulder dress that came down to mid thigh. It was a beautiful blue. I wore me hair up with a few loose strands.
I walked into the living room to find Edward waiting for me. He looked gorgeous as always. He had on a black suit with a white dress shirt and black tie. He was looking as good as any living god should.
"Bella, you are breath taking." Edward said looking at me.
"You are handsome as always." I told him as I gave him a kiss.
EPOV
This week was so long. All I wanted was to be home with Bella. Talking to Bella on the phone 3 times a day surely helped make the days go a little faster. Our talks were wonderful. I knew from our talks everything between us would be different. Things would be better, things would be amazing. Our nightly talks got a little hot. I couldn't wait to get my hands on her, my lips on her, to make everyone of my dreams I have been having all week to come true.
I did some serious thinking this week. I wanted something with Bella. I wanted something more than friendship with Bella, something real with her. I knew my work schedule was hell. It was hell on me, what would it do to a relationship? I really don't think I have a chose in this matter. The half of me that wanted Bella was just too strong to fight. I saw the most amazing sight when I was walking to my car after my flight home. Bella waiting for me by my car. She looked up to see me and she got a huge smile on her beautiful face. She ran to me and jumped into my arms. We shared the most mind blow kiss ever. There was nothing in the world to compared to Bella's lips on mine.
We grabbed some movies, dinner and headed home. Bella cried and I held her as she told me about me about a patient of hers that passed away. Just one more thing about her that made her amazing. Her heart. She cared so much about her patients. As we watched movies, I held he in my arms. Her body so soft and firm pressed to mine was a feeling I longed for all week. Even better was when she rolled over to face me and pressed her lips to mine. It took everything in my power to keep myself from stripping her of her clothes and having my way with her.
Oh, it got worse when she asked me to sleep in her room with her. I just about lost it when she walked out of the bathroom in just her boy shorts and tank top. I really had to get a hold of myself when Bella crawled across the bed and kissed me. I did lose it for a moment as soon as her lips met mine. I was in heaven as we fall asleep with Bella's head on my chest.
Today Bella and I had lunch with my parents. I don't think I have seen my parents smile so happily at me in years as they did when they saw Bella and I walk in hand and hand. After spending time with both Alice and Emmett I decided to take Bella on a date. I made a few calls and had everything ready. Bella was breathtaking when she walked into living room. She was wearing a tight fitting blue dress. It was off the shoulder and fall about mid-thigh. With her hair pulled up she was looking gorgeous. In the car on our way, I took Bella's hand in mine. I place a soft kiss on the back of her hand. It put a smile on her face.
"Where are you taking me?" Bella asked with a smile.
"It is a surprise." I had to laugh at the pout that Bella's lips made.
"I don't like surprises."
"You will love it, I promise."
We drove the rest of the way in a comfortable quiet. I parked the car then walked over to open her door and helped her out.
"The park!" Bella said with a smile.
"Yes, the park."
All I could look at was the smile on Bella's face. One of the parks in town was beautiful. It had a few streams running through it. It had a few bridges crossing over the streams. They had paths to walk through the park. The paths were lit with beautiful old fashion street lights. It gave the park a soft glow at night.
"Let's take a walk." I said putting my arm around Bella.
We took a walk on the first path just inside the park. We walked a long the stream until we reached the bridge. We started to cross the bridge but Bella stop about half way across the bridge and turn toward the rail to look out over the stream. I wrapped my arms around her waist and rested my chin on her shoulder.
"What are you thinking?" I whispered in her ear. She had a far off look on the face.
"I was just thinking how different things were for us just a few weeks ago."
"I never forgive myself for treating you the way I did."
"Don't Edward. I forgave you. So you need to, too." Bella turned and kissed his cheek. "I was thinking how I never thought you and I would be like this. It feels so right. Like this here, in your arms is right where I'm supposed to be."
"I know what you mean." I said as I took her face in my hand and gave her a soft kiss. "Lets finish our walk."
We finished crossing the bridge. Then took the path to the right around a turn.
"Oh my, Edward." Bella whispered in surprise.
I had called a friend to set up a picnic. The picnic table was covered with a table cloth. Two plate set one on each side, (across from each other) cover with silver dorms. A candle sat in between the plates. Everything was perfect. There was also a cd player playing some soft music.
"You like this, I take it." I stated with a soft, small laugh as I waved my hand to show the tabled.
"It is wonderful." Bella said as she kissed my cheek.
We sat and ate with comfortable conversation. We just talked for hours. That was the thing with Bella, being with her felt effortless. I didn't need to try with her. I could be comfortable and myself with her.
As the music played we just sat looking at each other, talking. I decided to reach across the table to take her hand.
"Bella, I do love spending time with you. I was thinking we need to talk about this."
I really need to find how to word my thoughts, but I saw worry in Bella's face. "I thought a lot about us this week. I really want there to be a us, but I think you need to know how hard it might be with my work taking me away so much." I was going to go on but Bella cut me off.
"Edward, I want there to be a us. Let's not over think this. Lets just see where it goes. I know it won't be easy with you gone all week. Lets just make the most of the days we do have together and go from there." With that said Bella walked around the table to me and took my face in her hands. "I don't know how deep my feeling for you goes, but I do have feeling for you. I want to see where this goes." Then she pressed her soft lips to mine for a tender kiss.
"I know, I feel the same. I can't believe I have met someone who has captured me like you have. I was a fool to fight this like I did. I wanted to run to you when you first started to stay at my house. It took me so long to get my head straight. I'm just thrilled to be here with you now." I moved my lips to hers. They were heavenly on mine. The things her kisses did to me were unbelievable. If we never did anything else but kiss, I would die a happy man. The song changed to a Brad Paisley song I loved "We danced". I took Bella's hand and lead her to a patch of grass. I pulled close and we danced.
Bella rested her head on my chest. Her scent surrounded me, it was intoxicating. Everything about her was intoxicating. The more time I spent with her, the more I wanted her. Just holding her as we danced, made me want her more. As we moved to the music. I leaned my head down and kissed her on the head.
Again this morning I woke to the best thing ever, my arms holding Bella as she slept with her head on my chest. I wish I could wake every morning like this. I made us breakfast and after we went for a run. We went to the gym, then lunch. We decided to just hang around the house for the rest of the day.
Bella made an early dinner. We watched a movie after dinner. We didn't really watch much of the movie. We packed my bag again and it took me 20 minutes to get out the door. I hated leaving Bella. The thought that she would be there when I got home on Friday will get me through the week.