A/N: This is just a short chapter but the next one will be up tomorrow. Enjoy...

Chapter 12

Marissa woke up and felt Ryan's strong arms wrapped around her, holding her tight. She looked at him and smiled when she remembered the last night. He was still sleeping, she gave him a quick kiss on the cheek and let herself out of his grip, then stood up and walked downstairs to the kitchen. She made some coffee, toasted 2 Bagels and smeared some cream cheese on them. She put the bagels and two cups with coffee on a tray and returned upstairs.She put the tray down on a little table and went across the bed.

Marissa: Hey, sleepy head.

She softly kissed him and suddenly felt his hands reaching for her waist and pulling her down onto him. She laughed.

Marissa: I thought you're still asleep.

Ryan: I woke up and was all alone in the bed. ...He looked at Marissa, who hadn't put any clothes on and was naked... What a nice way to wake up.

Marissa:smiling I made us some breakfast.

She tried to stand up, but Ryan held her back.

Ryan:seductively Later, right now I'm not that hungry...

She giggled.

Two hours later, they laid side by side, panting.

Marissa: smirking If you don't stop this, you'll never get rid of me.

Ryan: I don't want to. I love you.

Marissa: I love you, too. And I never stopped loving you.

Ryan:now serious Then why did you leave six years ago?

Marissa bit on her bottom lip. She knew that this question would come some day, but nevertheless wasn't prepared for it. She sighed and looked down.

Marissa: quietly How could I've stayed? I killed your brother. And I saw that you were not able to look at me anymore. So I moved to New York, because I knew that it would make it easier for you, if you didn't have to see me every day.

Ryan:sad You thought, I did blame you for the death of Trey? Listen to me, ...he lifted up her chin, so she couldn't look away... if somebody's to blame about Trey's death, it's me. ... She gave him a surprised look... Yeah, it's me, because I asked you to spend some time with Trey, when I was in Miami with Sandy and Seth and later, I assumed that you hooked up with him. And after I heard the truth, I didn't went to talk to you but instead went to Trey. And you had to shoot him to save me. I certainly didn't blame you at any time, but I hadn't been able to look at you anymore, because I knew that your life turned into hell because of me. And when you moved to NY, I thought you couldn't bear being near me anymore...

Marissa: I should've told you what had happened, but I didn't know how. I was afraid that you would freak out and I hadn't wanted to destroy your relationship with Trey. But if I would've told you the truth, none of it would've happened and your brother would still be alive.

Ryan: It hasn't been your fault, it was his. And I'm still grateful, that you shot Trey, because by killing him you saved MY life. The last six years I've been sure that you would hate me forever for everything what happened.

Marissa: I could never hate you, I love you and I always did. I often thought of you and wondered if you're married, having kids and being happy, leaving me only as a remembrance of the past and it made me sad, because I would never be able to get over you...

Ryan: I felt the same way about you. The thought of you being married with children nearly killed me. We should've talked about everything back then, we could have saved us a lot of time and pain...

Marissa: Yes, that would've been better. If I think about that we wasted six years because we were not able to talk to each other... But that has always been a problem, hasn't it? Even at the beginning of our relationship, things would've been easier if we would've been sincere.

Ryan: We could've avoided many problems for sure.

Marissa: So let's don't make the same mistake again and let's be sincere from now on. Because I couldn't stand loosing you again...

Ryan: Believe me, that's never going to happen, I won't let you leave again. By the way, if we want to be sincere from now on: Do you want to know what I want to do right now?

He smiled and kissed her. Marissa couldn't help but laugh.

Marissa: I like being sincere with each other...