Neela's Decision

(A few weeks later)

Ray had starting spending every day and every night at the hospital, he was feeling beyond guilty and it was starting to eat him up inside. He was at the hospital when he was working and when he wasn't working. Ryan and Lily were still around, but for the most part they were at the apartment when Lily wasn't at the hospital with Lexi.

"Lexi," Ray said quietly from her bedside." This is all my fault. I…somehow sorry doesn't really seem to be appropriate, but its all I can come up with at the moment. I don't want to loose you, and our baby. I wouldn't be able to handle that Lex, you have to come back." He buried his face in his hands, as much as he willed the tears not to come they did. Why had he done this? How could he have done this?

He couldn't watch her like this lying like a rag doll hooked up to all these machines; even though he probably deserved to suffer more then he was right now. He got up leaving her room, and going to get ready for his shift.

(Neela & Ray)

Neela was just getting off a shift and ran into Ray, she had been avoiding him and had changed all her shifts. She knew that he would find out soon enough as she had told Abby already." Hi," she said hesitantly after a moment.

"Neela," Ray said surprised, it seemed as though it had been forever since he had seen her.

"Um…how have you been?" she asked.

"Okay, you?"

"There's actually something I needed to tell you," she said not sure how she was going to say this.

"What is it?"

"I-I found out why I've been so sick."

He looked at her waiting for her to speak, this was obviously more then the flu. "It wasn't the flu?" he asked after awhile.

"N-no not exactly."

"Alright. So what was it?"

"I'm pregnant," she said quietly.

"You're what?" he choked out.

"Pregnant."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes."

He ran a hand through his hair," Well don't worry you won't be alone," he finally said.

"Ray, you have a pregnant wife. I can't do this anymore, we never should have started. If I had known she was pregnant I never would have allowed things to go so far."

"I never meant for things to get so complicated," he said quietly.

"I think it would be best if we went our separate ways," Neela said.

"You're just going to cut me out of my child's life? Neela that's not fair."

"Life isn't fair Ray, though I can't justify cutting you out of his or her life, so I will allow you to see him or her and spend time with him or her."

What could he say to that? She had pretty much already decided and he was just supposed to go along with it.