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Chapter 1: Emergency

"I can't fall in love with a man who's in love with someone else, that much i know. I can't do that again. So please, if you're still in love with the Grey girl than go back to Seattle. But if you're not... if you're serious... and you want me... then ask again." she said full of hope, hoping not to lose another guy to a looked deep into his eyes while he was lying in bed with her. He wanted to say something like" I love you Addison, you, not Lexie." so badly but when he opened his mouth to speak, he heard himself say something else."I'm so sorry... I'm sorry Red" He saw in her eyes that he'd broken her heart. He wanted to scream and shout out loud that he loved her but his mouth refused to move and didn't let him say a single word.

When he woke up a single tear rolled down his cheek. Yet again, he'd dreamed of his night in LA, of the conversation, of what turned out to be the biggest mistake he'd ever made. It wasn't the first time he woke up from this dream. Since the day Lexie had told him about her night with Karev (almost a week had past since then), he'd relived the evening in LA over and over again in his dreams, every single night.

What a fool had he been back then, he'd known that there were still these strong feelings for Addison but he'd really thought that he and Lexie would last, in the end she had been the one to change him, not a certain red haired. And now his life was broken into fragments. Addison would never take him back, and that was his own fault, he'd broken her heart. Lexie on the other hand would love to get back together with him but he was way too hurt, he just couldn't forgive her. How could he even think of giving her a second chance? She'd broken up because of his pregnant daughter and after that she'd screwed Karev while he was worried about his new found daughter and his unborn grandchild.

But thinking about it made him feel guilty, who was he to not give her a second chance? He was Mark Sloan, the man who probably slept with every nurse in Seattle and New York, the man who begged Addison for a second, a third and even a fourth chance, and she'd given him these chances because she'd really loved him. So didn't that mean he was supposed to give the relationship with Lexie another try? If he was really in love with her he would do the same thing Addison had done, then he would go back to little Grey and tell her that he forgives her, but he couldn't.

The last week had been a nightmare, he felt as if he'd lost his entire life within a single week. Addison was gone and so was Lexie, the two women he'd truly loved were gone and both women had chosen the same guy to break him, Alex Karev. The only difference was that he had been willing to forgive the one, Addison, because she had always been the women of his dreams. Aware of his loss it had been incredibly hard to get up in the mornings the previous seven days, and today wasn't easier either. He groaned when he got up and walked into the shower. He went through the surgeries he would have to perform later that day, the first one would start in about three hours. The time he spend in the OR was the only time he didn't feel the pain of loosing his life. So he agreed to do as many surgeries as possible to just to distract himself from reality, since he'd returned from LA.

When he was about to make breakfast he heard a knock at the door. Opening the door, he saw Callie and Arizona standing there.

"Didn't you hear your pager?Callie asked.

"Mhmm... no, I was in the shower..."

"Well what ever, we have to go. There was an accident and the ER will be full of victims within minutes! Grab your jacket and come, We've to hurry up! Arizona explained quickly, looking on her watch every now and then. This came just at the right time, a good distraction as Mark thought. So he didn't think long about it and drove together with Callie and Arizona to Seattle Grace Hospital.

Arizona had been right, when they arrived the ER was already full of patients, some with only a few bruises but others were really badly injured.

"Sloan, there you are! We need you in here!" Owen Hunt shouted as soon as he'd spotted his colleague. Mark hurried into the room asking Hunt to tell him about the patient.

"It's a young woman, maybe 19 or already 20, she was in the car accident and has head injuries. I already paged Shepherd but I need to scrub in to a emergency surgery and need an attending in here until Shepherd comes." and with that Hunt was gone. Mark wanted to examine the patient and turned around prepared for everything to see but when he saw her, the girl lying there in all her blood, his heart stopped for a moment.

The first thing that caught his attention was her hair, hair in a red he'd only seen one person with, Addison. Even through all the blood he could see her perfect face, at first he really thought Addison lay there, unconscious, but looking closely at the patient he noticed that it couldn't be her. Hunt had been right the girl, the young woman really seemed to be around the age of 19, but she looked so much like Addison had looked in med school.

How was that possible? He'd known Addison for more than 20 years and he would know if she had a daughter, right? He thought 'how could this girl look so much like her if she wasn't even her daughter'Maybe he only imagined that this girl bore so much resemblance to his best friend's ex-wife. Maybe he was slowly going insane. He pushed away the thought of this girl being in some kind relation to the woman he loved and started to examine her.

She had a big dirty wound at her left temple that was bleeding heavily. It was not until now that he noticed the other doctors, residents and interns, in the room. He gave them some instructions to swab the wound and hoped Derek would come soon because it wasn't a good sign that she was unconscious. Well he knew Derek would be already there if Hunt thought the injuries to her head were bad enough, so he actually had no reason to worry that much. Thinking about it he'd never cared that much about a patient before, perhaps the resemblance to Addison was the reason he did now.

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