I know it's been some time since I updated this story, but I had to rewrite it like 3 times because I didn't like it and when I wrote this I thought it was the best I could write. I think it's a little bit too much conversation but I didn't know what else to write. After finisching it I always forgot to send it to my Beta.. but well I hope there are still some people reading this story... :D
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Chapter 11:

The whole situation was just perfect. Jake was as good as dead and Alyssa had no clue what was going on with him. Her heart would be broken as soon as she found out about her boyfriend's condition and Addison didn't want to be the one who told her. She understood that Mark hadn't had the heart to tell her sister that she wouldn't see her lover again. Maybe it was because he knew how it was to be separated from the person you love with all your heart, but someone would have to tell her. And there was no easy way to admit the truth especially since everything had been sugarcoated for her sicne her arrival. The girl wouldn't be able to understand that they'd only tried to protect her from the bitter truth because all she would feel was the pain of loosing a beloved person.

"So Alyssa's estatic right now. She survived a fatal car accident, she just got someone who cares and now we tell her that her boyfriend is dead?" Addison asked.

"Well we wouldn't have this problem if Mark didn't lie to her. I would have told her the truth, it would have been hard for her to loose him in this accident but imagine the pain she'll feel now after you told her he was okay." Derek set clear.

"Reproaching Mark doesn't help, Derek. We're in this situation now and unless you've got some sort of a time machine we won't get out of it. It's certain that we have to tell her now, well apparently you've been sneaky doctors who don't have the courage to tell a girl that her boyfriend has died, so I have to tell her, right?" she already knew the answer.

"I wouldn't say we've been sneaky..." Mark started.

"Shut up and come with me, I'll certainly won't do this alone!" Addison took his arm and pulled him behind her into Alyssa's room.

Mark could see the joy in the girl's eyes, she was more than happy about getting to know her sister and now they would destroy a huge part of her life. She looked from her sister to Mark with big eyes not knowing what had happened. Mark immediately felt again the need to protect her, to tell her everything will be okay, but Derek and Addison were right, Alyssa needed to know the truth.

"What is it? Can I visit him now or not until tomorrow?" she had no clue.

Addison sat down on the end of the bed.

"Well Alyssa..." Mark started and looked over to Addison who gave him a warning look to tell him not to lie again.

"You know I would love to tell you you could see him and everything's going to be alright... but it isn't..." he continued.

"What does that mean?"she was confused.

"That means all the people here have sugarcoated you for too long. They've lied to you about Jake because they didn't want to hurt you." Addison explained.

"What are you trying to tell me?" the girl seemed to have an idea of what they wanted to tell her, in her eyes already appeared some tears but she didn't want to believe what had happened.

"Jake's not okay, his injuries were bad, really bad. And the surgery was too much for his body..." Addison said softly.

"So... so... does that mean... he... he... he's..." Alyssa started sobbing and crying.

"Yeah, that does it mean... I'm sorry..." she took hold of her sister who was now feeling what no one wanted her to have to feel.

"I... I... I still want to see him..." the girl sad between her sobbing. Addison looked questioningly to Mark who wasn't sure what to say.

"Please, just one last time..." Alyssa begged.

"Okay..."Mark couldn't refuse her wish.

"But before we go, you should calm down a little bit..." Addison started.

"No, I want to see him now, not when I've calmed down, because that won't be anytime soon."

"Okay... then come with me." Mark said and guided the two sisters through the hallways until they were standing in front of Jake's room. From the inside you could hear the low beeping of the monitors.

"I'll wait here..." Mark said looking through the window .

Addison went with her sister, who'd stopped crying, into the room. Jake had a tube in his throat and was surrounded by beeping monitors and machines, but still, he looked really peacefully. Alyssa took a step to the bed, tears in her eyes.

"His heart... it's still beating..." she looked over to her sister.

"Yeah... the machine's keeping him alive, they pump the blood through his body and they are breathing for him..." Addiosn explained as she watched Alyssa gently touching Jake's hand.

"He's not dead, he's alive... he has a heartbeat... his skin is still warm... No, you must be wrong he can't be dead." tears were rolling down her cheek.

"Sweetheart... He is dead, without all these machines he wouldn't live..." she said softly and took some steps till she was next to Alyssa.

"But... he's still warm... he could awake any minute..." Alyssa was full of hope.

"No Alyssa... Jake's gone..." it was hard for Addison to tell her sister this.

"No, I can still see him, I can touch him... I feel that he's here." she was desperate after all it seemed completely unreal that Jake, her Jake, who lay right in front of her, was gone forever.

"Sweetheart, everything that made Jake Jake is gone, this here is only his body..."

"But... that's not fair..." again Alyssa started sobbing and it broke Addison's heart. Maybe it hadn't been a good decision to let her see Jake one last time. Maybe it would have been better for her not to see him.

"I know... I know..." she took her little sister in an embrace.

"I don't even know if he knew what he meant to me, that he was the most important person in my whole life..."

"I'm sure he knew..." she tried to make her feel better.

"I can' even remember when I told him the last time that I love him..." she was slightly panicking.

"You've got a shock, that's normal... at some point you certainly will remember." Addison tried to calm her.

The view of Alyssa crying and sobbing because of her loss was more than Mark could bear, he needed to get away from the room. He almost ran through the doors and down the hallway to escape the view, until he stepped into an empty elevator. As soon as the doors had closed he pushed the Stop button. He walked up and down to calm himself but it didn't work. Suddenly his hand beat the wall. He sank down to the floor overwhelmed by his had lost the man she loved overnight, one moment everything had been okay and the next her life was in ruins. She wasn't sure if Jake had known what he meant to her... would Addison know how much he loved her and that he couldn't live without her?

So often he'd told her that he loved her but would she believe him if he died now? He realized how short-lived the life is and that from one minute to the other everything can be over, that everybody could die, not only old people who had a satisfied long life, even teenagers could die, so what if he died? Would Addison really know that she was the reason for everything he'd done, that his whole life was all about her? He needed her to know that what they had was more than just love, love was too cliche for them. He needed to know there was something more between them. Something bigger had come...

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