So it's been a long time since my last update, there had been just too less time to write but now I finally got it and so I hope the people who still read this review so I know that there is a bunch of you who want me to end this story. But now enjoy reading :D

Chapter 12:

He knew what he had to do, how he could tell Addison what he felt inside but still he was a little scared about how she would react. Just about an hour ago he and Addison had finally talked about their feelings. He wasn't sure if it was too soon to prove his love on the highest level one can imagine. But regarding their very long history he wouldn't say that it was too soon to propose. The only problem was that his shift had yet to end and that meant that he did not have a ring on him. He had to have a ring, a proposal without a ring was unimaginable, he just had to have a ring even if it was only a cheap one from the souvenir shop. After an internal debate for a matter of minutes he decided that the ring had to wait until after the proposal. He came to the conclusion that life was too short to delay his question over the matter of a ring. After all, this was Seattle Grace and anything was possible. For all he knew, another patient with a bomb embedded in his chest could come strolling in.

So he walked through the hallways trying to think of what he would say to Addison, after all he wanted this moment to be perfect even if it was more or less a spontaneous decision. He looked everywhere for her and finally he found her in the cafeteria with Alyssa sitting at a table eating a cup cake.

"Oh Mark hey... is everything alright? You just left..." Addison asked when she saw Mark standing beside her.

"Yeah... everything's alright... ehhr..." he seemed very nervous.

"Mark what is it? You're so..." she started but was interrupted by him.

"Wait, I have to tell you something..." he say and took a deep breath and went down on his knee.

"Addison... I don't know how to say this now, but we know each other for more that 20 years now and we've already undergone a lot of things, some of them were sad, some of them were full of joy, but the most important thing is we've always stayed through it, no matter how bad it was.
Since the very first day I've seen you I know that you're something special and I don't know why so many people don't see it. I love you since the first time we met, I don't know if you remember but before you and Derek met in Med school and before he introduced me to you we already met. It was half a year before med school started, it was the day the future students could visit the school to look around the campus. I was flirting with some girls at the bar when you came in and immediately draw my gaze on you. You looked stunningly beautiful and there was no way I could keep my eyes off of you. The girl I'd been flirting with was out of my mind although she still stood right beside me. When you came over to get a drink it didn't took me longer that 10 seconds to stand next to you. I knew I wanted to get to know you and usually I always got what I wanted because the girls always felt attracted to me. But then came you, and you were so different than every girl I've met before, you didn't cared about my tries to flirt with you... in fact you rebuffed me. I still know the exact words you've told me when I asked you to have a drink with me, you said: 'I know guys like you, first we're having a drink together, then comes the flirting until you suggest we could go to your place, where we finally end up in bed together. So no I don't want to have a drink with you.' And well what can I say... actually you were right, we would have end up in bed together that day if we had the drink. But we didn't and you obviously forgot about me and our... well I would say it was a little embarrassing meeting at the bar. I don't know what would have happened if you had reacted different that day, but I think then we wouldn't be here right now, I guess you wouldn't be something special for me today, you certainly only would be one of many women I used to get laid. So I consider this rebuff as one of the best things that have ever happened to me, particularly if you remember the fact that I however get you laid, though it happened some years later. You are the woman who's always on my mind no matter if you're here or in LA, you are something special and I'm honestly sorry for every time I've hurt you, I didn't meant to do so. I've been a moron to think someone else could replace you, there's no one out there that could ever compete with you Addison. You are so out of my league that it's some kind of miracle that you're again and again falling for me. I've always been the bad guy in this story, the man whore, and you... you've been the girl with class and elegance, the girl that only the smart, ambitious and good looking guy can get, the perfect opposite of me. The only thing that we've got in common is that we both are brilliant surgeons. Thinking about all of it I don't know why you should forgive me, you could only walk away and never see me again, I would understand it. I put you through so much pain, first when I didn't stop you from throwing away your marriage and then every time I've cheated on on you with some random nurse, even when you were pregnant with our child I couldn't keep my hands off of them, actually you deserve some one so much better than me but in some strange way we're made for each other, both of our lives are screwed up, the only time we're not screwed up is when we're together. I know how frightening it can be to truly love someone who truly love you, you've never felt like you mean anything to anyone and I guess that's what makes us so perfect for each other, we both have commitment issues that only the other can understand so I think you'll never find someone else like me just like I'll never find another you... and this seems to be my reason for you to not leave me. There are no word that can explain ho much you mean to me, you're my life and I never want to lose you, because loosing you would mean loosing my life and honestly I like my life, so please do me the favor and don't die. Seeing Alyssa loosing her boyfriend scared the shit out of me, all I can think of is what it would be like to loose you and if you even know what you mean to me. I know I've told you so many times that you are the only one for me, that you are the most important thing in my life and every single time I disappointed you because I slept with another nurse, but this time it's different... I know maybe it's hard to believe me but I'm saying the truth I'm a different man now, I love you, I don't ever want to hurt you again and I'll proof it to you, I want to spent the rest of my life with you and I hope you feel the same way about me so please Addison, marry me?" Mark, exclaimed with excitement and slight concern as he waited for an answer.

Addison looked shocked, overwhelmed and happy at the same time, she'd definitely hadn't thought that this was what had been on his mind.

"I don't really have a ring right now, I'm sorry. I just got this idea and I didn't have time to get a ring but as soon as my shift is over I'll buy a ring with a huge diamond on it, a ring you deserve. A ring that is as gorgeous as you are." Mark explained scared Addison would say no because of the ring.

"Mark... that's so... wonderful... what this ring looks like doesn't matter... I still don't know what to say..." Addison managed to say.

"Well, I suggest you say yes..." Alyssa said, who had watched the scene with tears in her eyes. That had been the best proposal she'd ever heard and she was happy for her sister.

"Oh... of course yes... yes I want to marry you Mark. Yes, yes, a thousand times yes!" Addison fling her arms around his neck and kissed him.

"Oh Addison you've just made me to the happiest man on earth." Mark looked deep in her eyes when suddenly his pager went off.

"Dammit... ehhr... I've got to go, one of my patients needs surgery... how about we meet for dinner tonight? I could pick you up at your hotel..." he asked her.

"Yes I would love to have dinner with you... I'm not sure if I'll make it to the hotel but maybe you could check if I'm still with Alyssa when you come out of surgery..." she told him with her gorgeous smile.

"Okay... well I've got to go now..." and then her disappeared leaving a still surprised but also overjoyed Addison back sitting with her sister in the cafeteria.

"That was so cute of him..." Alyssa said after Mark was out of Addison's sight.

"I... I don't know what to say... did he really just asked me to marry him?" she asked irritated.

"Ehhr... yes?" the girl didn't know why she'd been asked this.

"And did I really just said yes?" Addison seemed not to believe what just had happened.

"Yeah... I think so..." Alyssa definitely didn't know what the point of all this was.

"Oh my god... I'm going to be a bride... again!" now Addison seemed to finally get what had happened.

"Yes, but this time it'll work out better, this time it's Mark who you're going to spend the rest of your life with." her sister made clear.

"Do you really think?" apparently Addison wasn't really sure about that.

"Of course, you and Mark belong together, the two of you are made for each other. Certainly it'll be different than your marriage with Derek, I'm sure that you and Mark will work out, believe me." Alyssa tried to reassured her sister.

"Okay... maybe I'm just freaking out a little bit..." Addison calmed down.

After about an hour Addison and her sister went back into Alyssa's room where the girl soon fell asleep. Addison just sat there watching her sleep and thought about the proposal. Actually she was more than sure that she wanted to marry Mark, but there was still this fear to get hurt or to hurt him, again. Was it really he right thing to marry him? Didn't he deserve someone better than her, someone who would never cheat on her husband? How could she be sure that after some years she wouldn't cheat on him like she'd done on Derek, or would he be able to change forever, to never sleep with a random nurse again? Her eyes were brimming with tears the more she though about all of it.

"Are you still doubting your decision? I've told you there is nothing to be unsure about." Alyssa apparently had woken up.

"Oh... I thought you were asleep..." Addison was irritated.

"Yeah, I was..." her sister said.

"I'm sorry, did I wake you up?"she asked.

"No... it's not your fault." Alyssa told her.

"Okay..."

"Please don't be like that." the girl rolled her eyes.

"Like what?" her sister asked.

"Like you just did the biggest mistake of your whole life! You and Mark belong together, believe me that's as sure as 1+1=2!" she explained.

"Yeah, maybe... but here's the thing, why should it be different this time, why shouldn't we hurt each other? Maybe I'll cheat on him and put him trough pain no one should be put through. Maybe he and I only belong together in fantasy." Addison told her what was on her mind.

"Addison, you're freaking out... I won't hurt you and I'm sure you'll never hurt me. We've learned from our mistakes and I don't see any reason to not try it." Mark had stood outside the room and had heard every single word of Addison's speech.

"Mark what are you doing here... did you just hear that all?" She hadn't wanted him to hear about her doubts.

"Yes... but as I've said, you are the woman of my dreams, I love you more than everything else and I would die for you. Everyday without you is a lost day, it's a torture not to be with you and a future without you everyday by my side is unimaginable" Mark told her again.

"I... I also want you to be my future and honestly I really don't know why I'm doubting it. This was what I've dreamed of for so long and now I'm a stupid hysterically old woman doubting everything I've ever dreamed of..." Addison tried to explain.

"First of all, you forgot 'gorgeous' and then I have to say you are not old, and even if you were old, I would still love you." after a very long time he was now willing to fight for her.

"Oh Mark, I love you so much. Please don't leave me ever!" she fling her arms around his neck.

"So I suggest we go now? I know there is this little restaurant where we could have dinner." Mark wrapped his arms around her waist.

"Okay... so let's go. Bye Alyssa." Addison turned around to her sister a last time before the two of them went out of the room to have dinner.