I tied the ribbon foolishly. It was foolish of me to do it- because it simply had to be redone. There are times when I feel like I am a puppet, but perhaps I am a doll. A porcelain doll for a demon's delight. When I lay myself bare, when there is nothing left, I feel like a broken doll.
As though this particular demon enjoys watching the cracks lengthen upon my very skin as he traces them with a black lacquered nail, watching me quiver in response.
Listening to my heart pound.
And yet the delicious fragility of this tragedy is far too sweet to ignore.
Sebastian is the night, the deepest, most intoxicating night.
In the strangest way I love him. Like I've been swept away by some hurricane force wind or a tempest at sea. It's as unavoidable as the moon's effect on the tide. And it hurts so terribly as I try and keep myself from drowning in it, this masochistic love.
And I'll end up just dragging on, in my world of lace and sweets, pulled under at night into another realm entirely, the underworld and fight on.
I will continue to live in the dark.
I may not have the dreams of others, knowing that my life will be cut short—how much longer do I have?
I have never asked him if I will live once my soul is taken.
Will I truly become a doll, lifeless but still remaining? Will he carefully dress me in pretty clothes of velvet and lace, put flowers in my hair and sit me lovingly upon a shelf?
Will I be lost in dreams?
Will I die?
No, I won't be lost in dreams- those left me long ago. Those sweet escapes where we can still wish and love—no. Dreams are not a place that I dwell.
I will continue in this place where I tie foolish ribbons around my neck in a tragedy where it's pulled too tight, and wishes and love all end in vain.
A/N: Fwa! Another one of these spewed out of nowhere. I suppose it was sort of inspired by the new season of the Kuro anime (of which I dissapprove... I still like the manga better D: ) and the manga updating, and how I drank way too much coffee this morning. Anywaaaaay... Hope you enjoyed this little tidbit! And thank you for reading, and thank you very much for the reviews that I have been getting! I appreciate them so much! Let me know what you guys would like to see in these little bits, they're fun to write, and I'm totally open to taking prompts from people! I think that would be a great amount of fun. If anyone has any, just let me know!