The morning came around all too soon. Galinda woke still holding onto her friend. Sighing Elphaba woke as the light hit her eyes. She sat up slowly.
"Oh dear...Galinda...something's not right...I ...I feel rather dizzy" slurred Elphaba.
"You're probably just still tied"
"Probably"
"Eww there's something sticky on my stomach" groaned Galinda as she wiped her hands under the blanket. She looked down noticing it was red.
"Uh Elphie...?"
"Hmm?"
"Are...are you bleeding?"
Elphaba looked down at her own stomach to see a rather large bloodstain on her pajama top.
"I-uh I think i know why I'm dizzy Galinda"
"Ohhh Elphie, quick lie down i need to check your stomach"
Elphaba did as asked and carefully laid herself back down. Galinda then very gently lifted up the green woman's top. Her green skin was covered in blood and the bandages were soaked red.
"Does this hurt Elphie?" stressed Galinda
"it starting to now Galinda, it stings"
"Ok...um I'm going to remove these bandages first ok"
Elphaba nodded. After carefully pulling off the bandages Galinda looked more closely at her friend's stomach. "I didn't know you had stiches here Elphie, i think they have broken"
"Neither did i" mumbled Elphaba as the pain started to hit her again.
"I'll get Fiyero...he can help"
"No Galinda don't...don't leave me...please" pleaded Elphaba
"I...I have to Elphie, just for a second i have to get Fiyero"
"Galinda...no...Please"
"Elphie, i have to, i have to get Fiyero" she reluctantly pulled her hand out of Elphaba's grip and ran down the corridor.
Not more than a minute later Galinda appeared with Fiyero at the door. "Fiyero...I'm so sorry i stained your sheets" whispered Elphaba rather embarrassed.
"Hey its alright Elphaba, we'll clean it up don't you worry. But right now you are my first priority".
With Elphaba's stomach newly bandaged Galinda took Elphaba down the street to the psychologist's office. "Don't be scared ok Elphie, she's not going to hurt you or make you do something you don't want to do" said Galinda while she pushed Elphaba's wheel chair.
"Will you come in with me Galinda?"
"I think this is something you need to do alone, but i'll be right outside waiting for you" smiled Galinda.
"Ok Galinda, I trust you" whispered Elphaba as they entered the waiting room. Galinda signed Elphaba in then sat down next to her. Elphaba took told of Galinda's hand while she nervously waited.
"Elphaba Thropp" came a soft voice from behind where Galinda and Elphaba were sitting. "That's you Elphie" smiled Galinda as she wheeled her friend over to the Psychologist.
"I'll be right out side ok Elphie"
The Psychologist smiled then took Elphaba's wheelchair and pushed her inside her office.
Elphaba looked at the Psychologist she looked young probably not much older than 28, she had blonde hair like Galinda's and she had a soft comforting voice. She then sat herself opposite Elphaba then began to talk.
"Hi Elphaba im Dr Kate Luks, you can call me Kate if you like". She extended her hand to Elphaba who smiled then shook it.
Kate asked Elphaba a few basic questions while she examined Elphaba's emotional state. She could tell she was tried and lethargic. She appeared jumpy and frightened. And behind the green girls smile she could tell she was scared and not happy at all.
"Have you been sleeping much Elphaba?"
"I um...not much I wake up from nightmares once or twice every night"
"And do you manage to get back to sleep after these nightmares?"
"Sometimes"
"Ok, Elphaba can you tell me what was the original instigator of these nightmares"
"Yes, it uh...they are from when, from when I was attacked" Elphaba tensed as she recalled her attack.
"Do you want to tell me about it Elphaba?"
"No...no i cant...I um I don't much like thinking about it let alone talk about it...sorry I can't"
"Elphaba sometimes the only way to move on from any past ghosts is to confront them, talk about it to someone. I would really like it if you could tell me as best as you could." Smiled Kate.
Elphaba looked down at her hands as she fidgeted. "it, it happened about two months ago when I was still at school".
"Ok good, that's good Elphaba see if you can keep going"
"I was working back late in the library...it was dark outside and raining, im allergic to water you see but i had to go, I was supposed to be meeting Fiyero"
" And Who's Fiyero Elphaba?"
"Fiyero...he he's my boyfriend"
"Oh congratulations" beamed Kate.
"Thankyou" Elphaba stopped for a minute then continued. " When i ran through the rain it burnt me i collapsed...I called for Fiyero but someone else came...he grabbed me...he...he hurt and...and raped me. I, I couldn't get away. He left me there alone in the dark in the rain. For the first time in my life i cried. I cried because of the pain, because i stood Fiyero up and because i felt like i wanted to die." A tear ran down Elphaba's cheek.
"Elphaba, it's ok you did good. Have you ever told anyone about your attack?"
"No..just Fiyero and Galinda...the girl who brought me here"
"How did you cope after your attack?"
"Not to well...I had a panic attack later in the night"
"Can you think why this happened?"
"I...I think because Fiyero left to get supplies for me...I felt scared again...i just wanted him with me"
"Do you find yourself attached to Fiyero?"
"Yes, If it wasn't for him I don't think i'd be here"
"Why do you say that?"
"he was the one who found me after i was uh...raped. He has been by my side every step of the way"
"What Else happened Elphaba?"
"Galinda found out I had some broken ribs and they had pierced my lung, then next thing i remember was waking up in a hospital bed."
"Do you remember anything else in that time period?"
"No just waking up in hospital...It was when Fiyero first told me that he loves me". Elphaba smiled as she recalled the happy memory.
"Ok Elphaba what i want you to do for me is whenever you feel scared think back to that moment when Fiyero told you he loves you. Good memories can help push out the bad ones".
"Ok Dr, i'll try"
"Do you think you could continue?"
" Over the summer break Fiyero took me back to his house, All i could do was sleep, I was so tired all the time. Then...then i was diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder"
"How did you feel about that?"
"I felt embarrassed that I had this PTSD thing I thought Fiyero would look down on me but he didn't. That night was the first time i started having nightmares. After that i couldn't sleep for ages, i was tired all the time and i still am now and that was more than a month ago. I was also scared because i had to go back to Shiz soon". Elphaba put her head in her hands as she started to cry softly. "I'm sorry, it's just I haven't talked or thought about this in a while".
"Thats ok Elphaba is normal to cry about past events, crying helps. I think we will call it a day. I don't want to put to much stress on you" smiled Kate.
"Thankyou Dr" smiled Elphaba through tears.
"Come back in a few weeks" replied Kate as she helped Elphaba through the door and back into the waiting room with Galinda. Once Kate was alone in her office she cried.
"Elphie!" squealed Galinda " Oh Elphie are you ok you're crying?"
"Yes Galinda I'm ok. Talking about the past is not all happy memories."
Once the two arrived home, Galinda Helped Elphaba sit on the couch. "Where, where's Yero?" questioned Elphaba.
"Oh I think he went to get some food, thats what he told me before we left".
"Oh okay than" mumbled Elphaba as she nodded off"
Fiyero came home 15 minutes later to see Elphaba asleep on the couch. "Fae" he stroked her cheek gently.
"Yero..you...you're home"
"How was the Psychologists?"
"She was nice, but i don't much like talking about the past"
"How's your pain?"
"It's still there"
"Is there anything i can do to help Fae?" Asked Fiyero has he sat beside Elphaba. She shook her head.
"I love you Fiyero..." Elphaba slowly sat up then kissed Fiyero softly and gently on the mouth. "I love you so, so much, I never want to lose you".
Over the next few weeks Galinda had returned home after making up with her parents again and Elphaba never let Fiyero leave her sight. Everytime he got up to go do something she would take a hold of his hand and question where he was going.
They were eating lunch one particular day in the garden when Fiyero stood up. Elphaba instantly grabbed onto his hand. "Yero..where are you going?"
"Elphaba! Must you question everything I do?" yelled Fiyero has he yanked his hand out of Elphaba's grip. The force caused her char to topple over, she landed on her stomach in the grass.
She cringed and held back tears as the pain shot around her broken body.
"Elphaba, Fae I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to yell" said Fiyero as he knelt down beside her.
She tried to get away but her hip protested. So she turned her head away from him.
"Fae, what has gotten into you lately?"
"I can't lose you Fiyero...You are all that I have...If something happens to you I'll never live it down. You're my world Yero and I'm scared and frightened and i don't know what's going to happen in the future, I don't know if Fathers...Guard..Is going to find me...and...and I just want you beside me to help me feel safe and to love me". Cried Elphaba.
"Oh Fae im sorry" whispered Fiyero as he gathered her up in his arms. "Im sorry i didn't mean to snap at you. And i love you to and I don't want to see you get hurt."
"Yero I..."
"It;s ok Fae. And in answer to your question was i just getting your things ready to go to the physio, you have an appointment in an hour".
"Oh darn..."
"come on" he extended his hand. "They are the ones who are going to help you heal".
"I guess so"
"Ok Master Fiyero I'll get you to lie her down here on this mattress please" said the Physio. Fiyero complied and laid Elphaba down gently on the mattress on the floor.
"Yero, can you please stay with me?"
"Okay Fae I'll stay for you".
"Alright Elphaba today we are going to help get you walking again, we are going to start with some simple leg movements then get you standing ok"
"Sounds hard" stressed Elphaba
"You will be fine" smiled Fiyero as he held her hand.
"How did you find yourself once you arrived back at Shiz?" asked Kate
"I was scared, I couldn't sleep and other students were picking on me"
"What were they saying?"
"That...that was get myself raped on purpose so...Fiyero would like me"
"And Elphaba what was your response to this?"
"I ran...into the forest. It was raining but i didn't care i just had to get away. It was Galinda who found me. That was the first time i told anyone what had actually happened"
"How did you feel after you told Galinda?"
"I don't know really. Maybe a bit lighter i didnt have to carry all my bad memories around. I went to Fiyero's house after school finished. I was actually happy, i hadn't thought about the attack for a while and i was healing physically."
"And is that were you are now? Happy?"
"um...no, well i was happy until i was abducted from Fiyero's house by...by the same man who, who raped me."
"So you mean this didn't only happen once? The attack that is?"
"No" sniffed Elphaba. "I was locked up in my father basement for a month"
"You're Father?"
"Yes...it was him...he organised his guard to...to-" Elphaba started to cry, her body shook with sobs. "What does...why does it still hurt so much to, to talk about this?" cried Elphaba.
"Because it was only recent in time you will think about it les and it wont hurt you as much to talk about it dear. Please try and continue".
"He raped me...more times that i can remember. Fiyero found me though. I spent a while in hospital again...I suffered a broken hip, thats why im in a wheelchair now." Said Elphaba through tears.
Kate reached over and took a hold of Elphaba's hand. "You have to be strong Elphaba, I can see you already are strong though, you have come this far. You should be proud of yourself."
"Thankyou".