Changing For The Better

Frightening Little Monster

12/08/09

BPOV

The rain was settling into a cool and breezy mist as we unloaded our packed bodies from the car and trudged into the hotel lobby. I had really worked up quite the appetite dancing. As we were stepping on the elevator, my stomach started to churn and grumble.

"Hungry, my love?" Edward asked me with a smirk.

"Yeah, dancing really makes me hungry," I replied with a blush. Alice coughed, trying to hide a giggle while Emmett full-on belted out in chuckles. "Oh please Bella, when have you ever danced a day in your life besides tonight?" He laughed.

By this time I was as red as a beet. "I used to take ballet, remember?" I asked, trying to remind him. "Well it certainly didn't seem to make you any more graceful!" Alice teased. Edward came to my rescue, "She is graceful when she wants to be." This time Alice didn't try to cover her giggles, "Oh, I'm sure she is." Alice sarcastically smiled.

The elevator dinged, marking that we were at our floor. I stepped out, but caught my toe on the door jamb. I stumbled but never fell, for Edward's strong hands caught me. "I guess the song was right. Your defiantly clumsy because your falling in love with me." I felt the blood rush to my face as I tried to quickly recover and stand up. I managed to make it to the suit without any more incidents.

Once Edward unlocked the door, I fled into the bedroom to change from my evening outfit into something more comfy. Pawing through the suitcase, I came upon a pair of bed shorts and a basic white t-shirt. Quickly changing, I opened the door and went to sit in the living room on the couch. Edward was there waiting there for me.

I curled up into a ball and nestled into his sweet smelling body. Alice came dancing in carrying a bowl of popcorn and a bottle of water. Exactly the two things I was craving, funny that she would know those were the things I was going to ask for to eat. . . well not really that ironic. Alice handed them to me with a wink.

"Aquafina and extra butter, just the way you like it," Alice said, smiling to me.

"Thanks Alice. Where are Rose and Em?"

I asked looking around. "Hunting," Edward suddenly. I looked over at him. He seemed tight-lipped about something. I wondered what was going on. I looked back to Alice, she too had the same look as Edward. Across the room I saw Jasper. He just shrugged and returned to reading whatever book he had been reading before.

"Really guys, what's going on?" I asked, getting frustrated.

"Bella, everything is fine. Rose just needed to get out so Emmett offered to go hunting with her. She had such a good time tonight, but it brought back a lot of old memories, not all of them good and happy ones." Edward said.

I looked down at my bottled water and unscrewed the top. I felt bad the Rosalie was upset. I wanted to say something but I couldn't find a voice to say anything. So instead I nestled deeper into Edward's side and tried to shut my eyes so that sleep had the chance to overtake me.

"Goodnight my love. Thank you for dancing with me tonight." Edward sweetly whispered into my ear right before sleep took me completely over.

RPOV

I glided through the trees with Emmett beside me. After a few miles or so we reached a rocky and steep peak. Thats where I decided to stop.

I went over to a large rock perched beside the rock ledge and sat there. Emmett followed behind me and quietly sat down. Sometimes Emmett knew just what to say in order to make me feel better, but tonight not even him had anything to say.

"It reminded you of your dad, didn't it Rose?" Emmett asked peering into the dark forest.

I sat there for a moment trying to think of the right answer but all that I could seem to think about was my father. Older in age, with graying hair and a slight limp in his right leg. I still remembered the Tuesday nights when he would come home early from work to take me out dancing. In those excited and early days of my engagement, my father had insisted on getting him and I dance lessons to help get ready for the wedding. We had only gone a few times before that dreadful night when I no longer would see him again. Dancing with my father was one of the only happy memories I had left of him.

"I never got the chance to say goodbye." I whispered. Emmett turned his face to look at me. I could see the sparkle in his honey colored eyes probably staring into my dull and sad ones. He opened his mouth to say something but nothing ever came.

I turned away and back to facing the forest.

"If you had one wish what would you wish for?" Emmett softly asked me.

I turned to look at my husband, the one who had been my loyal and loving companion for as long as I could remember.

The same man who took the pieces of my shattered heart and had sewn them back together and made me whole again. With every fiber of my body, I loved him. . . but I couldn't answer his question. I knew that if I was being honest with myself, I would wish to be human again. That would also mean that I wouldn't be able to have Emmett. I would not choose to live like Bella and seek love in a monster. If I were human again then I would find happiness in another human. I would just have to, I don't think I could do it any other way.

Ashamed, I turned away.

"I'm actually not sure why I would ask that, I already know the answer." Emmett sadly said.

"Emmett, I love you, but right now thats all I have to give to you." I whispered slightly chocking on my words. As soon as the words left my mouth I regretted them.

Emmett gasped as though he had just been punched in the gut. A pained expression washed over his features.

"Rosalie, baby, I love you. I'm sorry but thats all I have to give to you. My love and support. I will never be able to grow old with you or see you bear a child with I the father.. . and I will never be human. I am sorry for that, but that doesn't mean I will love you any less." He said. I touched his hand to mine. I stared into his eyes and answered, "I guess love will have to be enough for both of us then. That's good enough for me at least."

Emmett smiled and leaned into kiss me. Unlike other times, this time he was gentle and sweet. He groaned and deepened the kiss. I loved him, and even though I regretted the life I had to live, I wouldn't trade it for the world. Because in the end, even though I was a monster, I still had Emmett.

REVIEW!!!!I am so sorry that I took this long to update. As usual, life has been very crazy and busy! Some nights I find myself having to crawl into bed because I am so tired! I promise I will never keep you waiting like this again! I SWEAR!!! My birthday is this Saturday so I will probably have the next chapter out sometime next week if not before. Thanks to all the faithful reviewers, you people are amazing and I love you. See you soon, enjoy the chapter.

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