A/N Before I even start I want to say thank you for all the reviews!

It was harder than I thought it would be tracking down Nick. I just thought that I'd follow the nearest group of screaming girls. But apparently all the girls in the area had taken a vow or silence or maybe it was just that Nick really didn't want to be found. I checked all the normal places I thought he would hang out. Cafes, Malls ect. Nada. A quick phone call told me he wasn't at home. Hmm Nick Lucas was flying Under the radar. Where would I go if I was a teenage boy looking to blow off some steam. Thats when it hit me . Aha. Nick Lucas you are no match for my quick mind..

Taking a beaten track off the main road I headed up into the hills leaving the built up surroundings behind me. Pulling my car over into a little bay I could see the most beautiful place in all of New Jersey in my opinion. It was a large lake, with trees encircling it and a few streams running into it. In the distance I could see a small figure throwing pebbles, making them skip across the water front. Bingo. Taking a few moments to collect my thoughts and take in the view I set off along the stoney beach towards the big bad wolf.

He didn't hear me coming seemingly lost to the world in his own bubble. He was throwing the stones with such forces that they were travelling great distances before sinking. "Something on your mind?" I asked. If he was shocked that I was there he didn't show it . Or at least his back didn't. "Lots" he replied. He turned to face me. His face all scrunched up. "How did you find me?". I smiled "You've been coming here since you were little. I've been here with you before. With you and Macy" At Macy's name he whinced a little. Good. He deserved to feel some pain. "So why are you here?' he asked. It didn't seem like he really wanted an answer. I took my time. Why was I really here? "I think.. I'm here to clear the air and to make things move forwards instead of how they are at the moment. I need you to make me understand what was and is going through your head. Then I can make my mind up". He stared at me "About what?". I shrugged my shoulders. I didn't really know.

"Talk to me Nick. Make me understand why you left. Why you came back and why you did what you did last night. Cause seriously if you still like Macy which I think you do, you are going totally the wrong way about you jerk and if you don't like her then there is no need for me to be here"

His head shot up. "I don't like her.. I love her" My eyebrows raised themself. "I know it doesn't seem like it.. but I always have." I frowned "You're right. It doesn't seem like it. Talk Lucas..." I sat down on a rock, patting the ground and he joined me.. "How do you know you still love her? A lot has changed?"

He closed his eyes and smiled. I wanted to wipe that smile right off his face. "The world just loses colour without her. The tour. Coming home. It wasn't complete without her. I wasn't complete. I thought I would distract myself with the tour. But my love for Music doesnt seem to come close to my love for Macy" I tried to reason with him "But she isn't the orginal girl you fell in love with. She's changed thanks to you in part. She's harder." Nick thought " I want to protect her. I want to break down those walls. I want to be in her life again just even for sparks of the old Macy. I still love her. Nothing has changed" He finished. But he was wrong. Everything had changed..

"So leaving was a bad idea. Really bad idea" I said. Nick hung his head in shame. " I know.. I..I just thought that Macy should have a chance at a normal life and not have to be waiting around all the time for me to finish tours or going to other cities. A chance to be with someone who can be a rock. Stay with her always" It made sense in a way. "And you didn't think to explain this to Macy?" He shook his head. "I thought it was for the best. Making her hate me so she wouldn't have to feel the heartbreak that I did" I snorted "She felt it alright" Nick shuddered. "What happened Cat.. When I left?"

I took a deep breath "Macy wasn't herself for a very long time. Not just because of you . Because of other stuff going on. You had the worst possible timing. She felt like everyone was leaving her and that it was her fault and that she wasn't good enough. At first she didn't hate you but I sure did. Do you know what it is like to have to pick your friend up when she is crying so much that she can't walk? Cause I do?. Do you know how hard it was for her to hear you be associated with all these other girls?" He interrupted "But none of them were true!" "And how was Macy supposed to know that. No-one called to say don't worry Macy. Everyone will be ok. Because if you didn't notice none of your brothers or Stella bother to call. It was just me and Brad" Nick's fist clenched a little at the sound of Brad's name. "So how did that happen?" he asked. "Brad was here Nick , When you weren't and he cared . He really did. So don't hate him . He is the reason Macy is slighlty more whole than when you left her." The fist uncurled.

"So what about this other stuff going on" he asked sighing loud out of annoyance. "I'm not going to tell you. That's up to Macy" He nodded.

We sat in silence mulling things over. But then me being me . I couldn't help but ask "What the fuck Nick? Seren?" He shrank under my heavy words. "That was a bad idea" Nick whispered. "You're telling me? I thought outloud. "Why then Nick?" He paused and threw the stone as far as he could. " I wanted to know she still cared. She kept talking to me in that darn whisper voice and I hated it. I wanted her to rant and scream at me cause I deserved it. So I thought I needed to do something to get her mad. Seren just happened to be the only girl there. I didn't realise the significance" He said quietly

"That was the most stupidest thing I have ever heard!" I said getting up. I was mad. "You delibratly upset her just so YOU could feel better." I started walking away. "The old Nick would have never done that" I stomped off and I could here him trying catch up in the distance. I was getting madder and madder until I just turn round and blew up in his face. "I really can't beilive you Nick. I really can't. Why would you do that to someone you supposedly love. You make me sick. This has been one of the worst years of her life. Then you came back wanting things to be normal again , play with her feelings and then cause her and her boyfriend to break up. For Goodness sake Nick . Do you not think of anyone but yourself" I hurried to my car and as I heard Nick shout into the winds "ARGHH"

Nick P.O.V

She was right. So right. I had to . I had to . I don't know what I had to do? Make things right? How? Apologising? My head was a mess. What to do . Catriona had layed it out bare. I messed up. Bad. But she didn't know how much I hurt. Last night after getting home Macy's crying haunted my nightmares and I ended up sobbing myself to sleep after reliving everything I had done to Macy. I started to sprint to my car. I needed Macy.

Driving over to Macy's I worked over what I would say to her. I would demand entrance. I would make her understand how sorry I was. Walking up the path I thought about how I would plead for her forgivness again and even if she spoke in the whisper voice I would endure it. I knocked on the door and waited. A tall shadow appeared behind the glass. The door opened..

It was Macy's brother. And he didn't look best pleased to see me ..

A/N You don't understand the stress I have been under to try and get you this chapter ! My own laptop died so I couldn't use that so I had to use my sisters but the internet wasn't working.. But I felt I had to make the effort to update for you as you have been so generous with your reviews especially Snoupy who wrote me pratically an essay! I will reply soon when I get internet properly ! Also cause you guys have been so nice I thought I drop in some hints about what will come next!

a Boy called Josh

A beach party

A midnight swim

Macy/Stella showdown

Hehehhe :) mlj xx