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Chapter 10- Bins, mushy peas and the start of a plan.
Righto, another chapter! :) I know it's been quite a while since I updated, A.) because no one reviewed! I was curious, did you not like it or something?
And B.) School is on top of my head; I have drama and maths revision classes at the same time on the same day and also bit of boy situation as well… I'm sorry! Just one thing you should know about this chapter- it is not set out in just one day, if you read it knowing that each bit is about a few days apart then you will probably get it more :D.
I cannot ruddy believe it. He just walked past me, not saying anything! I felt like I was some stupid fan-girl who always embarrasses herself in front of her crush. Ouch. I officially hate James Potter.
"What was that about eh?!" Leane asks smirking. Leane is in my year, Gryffindor. She's one of my bestest friendsies, but she's also one hell of a gossiper.
"Err, nothing Leane." I sniff, pretending not to care.
"Come on, I saw all of it. He ignored you and he had heard you loud and clear-"
"THANK YOU for you for your observation detective."
Leane smirked and bowed mockingly. "Your very welcome Lily flower, come on, let's make our way to Muggle Studies."
I reluctantly let her pull me towards the castle, Mari, Izz and Alice had already made their way which, to be honest, only made me even more depressed. They noticed my sad face and ushered over Leane and I.
"What's up Lil?" Izz asked, her eyebrows were raised, like she couldn't care less that I was hurting on the inside.
I didn't say anything for a moment and focused on my surroundings, this was the first Muggle Studies lesson I had been to this year, Potter isn't here thank Merlin. Seems like he took Extra History of Magic, why I have no idea. That strange kid…
There were about 15 sixth year Gryffindors along with 9 Ravenclaws, 11 Hufflepuffs and 7 Slytherins, each house at the different angles of the room.
The lesson was stupid. Pointless. Boring. All we did was just analyse how Muggles build. What's the point of learning that when I was brought up a Muggle? Shheessh.
All the way through the lesson I just doodled on my piece of parchment, first it was a flower, then sky, rain, field of grass, a castle – it kind of looked like Hogwarts, and a Hippogriff.
*End of Class*
"Complete. Utter. Arse. I. Think. He's. An. Arse." I seethed whilst ripping up my parchment which I had previously drew on.
"Hey, Lil. Look who it is!" Leane winked at me as I turned my face, my face hardened. James Potter. I raised my eyebrows as he and the marauders walked along the corridor with a very high status. They're so ruddy tall that it feels like I'm on the floor, grovelling at their feet, which I'm not.
I turn purposefully away, not wanting to meet those hazel eyes, and I can feel Mari nudging me and trying to make me look forward.
"Stop it!" I hiss, but Mari continues, she actually goes as far as pinching me on my side.
"OUCH! WHAT THE HELL?!"
We're silent for a moment and then Mari lets out a giggle.
"What?!" I ask her again bluntly.
"He looked at you."
Maybe I didn't hear her right, because from where I was standing it looked like he couldn't care less about me.
"Well maybe that's because you pinched me so hard." I said it sarcastically, I think…., rolling my eyes to add 'effect'. But Mari just shrugged.
Nothing was said for a moment, and you know, and I know this is selfish and just so vain…, but you hate it when the limelight comes off you…? It's a natural human thing to do…!
"I doubt he likes me anyways…" I drawl, as I expected they all gave me sympathetic looks and started going off in a tantrum about how I need to focus on the positive points blah blah blah. I know it's really selfish! But I just wanted to see what my friends thought without actually asking them.
Ok, this week has been pretty hectic diary :(
First off James walks past me and ignores me when I am obviously talking to him. Secondly Maria is adamant that he likes me! I mean, he blatantly walked past me, HE DOESN'T LIKE ME! But then she went off onto some rampage about how he catches my gaze and looks 'deep into my eyes, like he's trying to figure me out…' yeah right. Don't get me wrong, it would be amazing if he did do that, and ok, I guess I have seen him look at me a few times, but that could mean anything right?!
Thirdly us 6th years are applying for head boy and girl roles, I know for a fact James will get either Head Boy or deputy, it's just that I know I'll probably not get head girl, I'll probably be Senior Prefect, BUT what if he becomes so head in his head duties that he actually comes to liking the girl he is working with… ?
We have actually started talking again sort of, yesterday when we found out about the roles of head boy and girl he was asking me if I was going to do it and I was like 'Errr NO.' So yeah, I guess it's a start.
Love, Lily Evans x
"James!" I sighed with admiration as he turned I came face to face with him yet again, I could never get bored staring into those hazel eyes of his. But that's when I noticed the person standing next to him.
Taylor smiled at me friendly and grabbed James' hand quickly, he turned looking at Taylor, for a moment I thought he was going to tell her to leave, but what he did was the complete opposite. He looked into her eyes, the way I want him to look at me; he smiled softly before kissing her romantically.
My head was screaming as they both forgot I was there, walking off hand-in-hand to the sunset. I called after him, but every step made me less further away, no matter how much I ran, they seemed to be miles away and yet I could see them closely, smiling and talking like a couple.
I woke up quickly and calmed down as I realised it was a dream, sweat was dripping down my body and I felt all hot and clammy. It was only three in the morning which meant in 4 hours I would be waking up to get ready for lessons anyways! I groaned and moved from my bed to the common room, making sure I grabbed my dressing gown on the way.
"Lily?" I raised my head to see him. My heart started to beat so fast that I was sure he could hear it, he was smiling. Him too in pyjama's, I flushed as I realised he was wearing just pyjama bottoms and a very tight vest top which made his muscles even more noticeable… and even more darn hotter!
"J..James," I croaked, "What you doing up so early?"
He looked at me for a moment before turning to sit on the couch, "I couldn't sleep." He muttered before looking at me curiously, I nodded.
"Same."
There was a silence between us for a moment.
"Good luck on Head Boy, I know you'll do great no matter what."
He smiled and chuckled, looking back at me. "Thanks, but I know I'll probably be crap, I think Kaniz will probably get it." I nodded my head like I understood. James thinking he won't get head boy? And Kaniz???!!! Ooohhhh, he's the new boy that enrolled last year, he has actually done quite a lot for the school in the short amount of time he has been here for.
I realise then that I'm still standing. James is already sat down on the couch. Yikes, I can either sit next to him or sit opposite him in the armchair.
If I sit next to him he might think I'm a bit creepy and want to sit next to him. But if I don't sit next to him and sit in the armchair he'll think I don't like him…
"Aren't you going to sit down?" He asked, OH MY MERLIN! He even patted the space next to him and everything, he noticed my apprehensive face and smirked before saying, quite sexily if I may add,- 'I don't bite.' EEPPPPSSS!
I blushed furiously as I sat down next to him. What to say? What to say? What to say?
"Sooooo Lily!" Is that even a sentence? I didn't want to act all boring so-
"So James…?"
"Actually I have many names, you could call me Jamie, Jim-Jam or even Jamie Baby. My sister calls me that." OH MY FLIPPING MERLIN!!! JAMIE BABY!!!!?????
I forced a laugh and tried not to giggle uncontrollably or shake with happiness, because then he might have thought me weird or be a bit freaked out by me.
"So.."
"Yeah." I replied monotonously.
He didn't look like he was going to say something soon, so I moved from ym seat and went to the little bookshelf right by the fire, I could feel his gaze and I 'tried' not to trip on the way back with my favourite book 'Lord Of The Rings' lodged in my hand. I gave him a quick smile before sitting back down next to him, but before I could open the page and collapse into the Middle Wold..
"Woahhh, you like Lord Of The Rings?" He asked, raising his eyebrows and staring at the scared book which I was now holding protectively to my chest. I nodded.
"Uuuhh, why?" I asked uncertainly.
He was silent for a moment, like he was totally disgusted with the idea that I liked Lord of the Rings.
"BECAUSE I AM RUDDY IN LOVE WITH IT!" He screamed, and then gulped, probably remembering that everyone else was still asleep AND also that by screaming like an obsessed girl about his favourite book his status had suddenly reached ground level, which it hadn't in my opinion :).
"You like Lord of the Rings?" I yelled giddily, he nodded his head.
We seemed to talk for ages about… everything to be perfectly honest, but then… damn clocks. It was time for everyone else to wake up and me to go get breakfast.
"Lily."
I looked up to see my 4 friends in front of me, they all bore serious faces, well.. apart from Leane who was jumping up and down with excitement, a grin on her face.
I grunted, not saying anything, and then resumed back to eating my porridge.
"Did something happen between you and James by any chance."
I almost choked on my porridge, but once I had taken a large sip of orange juice I turned back to Mari.
"No… why?" I asked suspiciously.
She sighed, "He's been looking at you almost all through breakfast."
"He has?!" Maria nodded her head and so I 'discreetly' looked at him. He wasn't looking my way at all, he actually seemed to be in a rather in-depth conversation with Taylor.
Grunt.
"Lily, you sound like a pig."
"Leane!"
"What? I'm sorry Alice but she did!"
My giggle interrupted them, the 4 of them staring at me bizarrely.
"Are you alright Lil?" Izz asked me kindly.
I giggled and nodded my head again. "I don't care about him." They gave me another weird look. "I don't! I don't care if he talks to Taylor or.. looks my way. Or.. talks to me about Lord Of The Rings! I don't ruddy care!"
Ooops. Shouldn't have said that…
"WHAT?! When did you talk about that crappy book?"
"Oi! LOTR is not crappy-"
"What the hell is LOTR?"
I sighed at Isobel's lack of knowledge. "Lord Of The Rings…" I wearily told her.
"Back to the discussion." Mari whispered sternly at Izz.
"James likes you."
ARGH. "No. He does not. He likes Taylor. Taylor likes him."
They were silent. "He hates me…"
"I'll even show you." Mari winked at me. How the ruddy hell is she going to do that?
Dear Diary-
So Mari is still adamant that James likes me… I mean, it would be great if he did. But he doesn't. As much as I wish he did… Who would like someone like me?
"Lily." I jumped, but noticing it was Alice I relaxed.
"Your much more beautiful than some of the girls in our year."
I snorted, "Yeah? Like who?"
"Like Taylor, Anna, Stacey... they're pretty with make-up. You don't need makeup.. you have your own beauty Lil."
"No I don't." SULK
Alice sighed and then pulled me to my feet.
"One way to see if James does like you…" I raised my head, interested… "is through basic jealously and everyday moves…."
I was silent, then Alice sighed. "Meaning in classes..."
"But he's hardly in any of my classes..."
"Then do you know what we do?" She asked, expecting me to answer. Uuuuhhh.
I shook my head. And she sighed AGAIN, jjeeezz so much sighing in one day!!!
"You need to ignore him-"
"But ignoring is mean.." I said, but then stopped as Alice glared at me, apologising meekly she went on.
"Ignore him, show no feelings towards him at all. Don't talk, speak loudly when around him. You know..."
She stopped as she saw the look on my face, it was kind of like 'I can't jurt him like that' and 'But he's mine!' "You will want to... soon." And with that she left, leaving me with that diary entry and my thoughts. What to do? What to do?
I'll only go with Alice's plan when I know it's the right thing to do....
"Hey Lily-"
"SSSHHH!"
"What the hell are you... oh my merlin. Please tell me you are not spying on them!"
OUTRAGE! I WAS NOT SPYING! Well... it looks that way. I am hiding behind a big plant right near the Charms coridoor, James and Stacey- uuhh I so ^%$^* hate her- are talking just around the corner. I just happened to be walking past when I heard her do her annoying twittery laugh that just makes me want to throw knives at her.. I then heard James laughing to so I kind of spied...
"That is spying Lil.." Leane whispered after I told her what I had done. I stuck out my tongue but then was stopped as I heard an intresting part to 'their' conversation-
"So.. James heard you were going for Head Boy-" Ugh she is such a *&%^ "I know you will do really really well."
He laughed kind of half-heartedly... "Aahaha. Erm yeahs thanks. Quite a load of people have told me that now actually, but personally I think Kaniz will get it. I'll be deputy.." Ugh modest much?
She did her twittery laugh again. "Well I don't think Kaniz has what it takes to be Head Boy... oohhh did I tell you?" *Silence- well obviously she didn't..* "I'm going for head girl!" Oh. My. God. Stacey is going for Head Girl? You cannot be effin' serious!!! She probably wouldn't even get Prefect!!
"Are you now?" He sounded amused, and I could almost imagine his gorgeous smirk... "Well all the best for you. Ah, I actually need to go now, told Sirius I'd meet him by the lake for 10 past..."
That's when I realised he would have tp pass by Leane and me! Shoooot! Leane must have realised as well because she widened her eyes and without a moments hesitation grabbed my hand and ran out of Charms to the History of Magic.
"NO RUNNING!" Yelled Professor Moore, but it was safe by that time. James was probably at the other end of school and now me and Leane were safe. (For this bit it might be easier if I put the lines in italics or underlined for each person. Eg- Lily will be NORMAL. Leane will be BOLD. Sirius is ITALICS. And James.)
"Wassup guys?" Sirius. Leane sighed and started to shout at the boy about how annoying he was, he just rolled his eyes and then turned to me. I raised my eyebrows.
"Hello Evans." He whispered. Eyebrows raised again...
"Uh.. hi Black?"
"And how are you this fine morgen?" For people who don't know that means morning..
"Padfoot?" We all turned our heads.
"Prongs!"
"Evans?"
"Yes?"
"McNar.." (Leane McNar..)
"What?"
"What?"
"What?"
"What. The. Hell"
"Come on Padfoot, I think you are confusing them, hell even I'm confused!"
"Shuddup."
James pulled on Sirius' arm, 'Padfoot' made sure he winked at me before he allowed James to pull him down the coridoor.
"Did he just wink..." Leane stopped in mid sentence. Ugh he did and all. That sick pervert. Who knows what goes on in that dirty mind of his. We suddenly hear a scream not far away... and a lot of bangs and crashings. Walking hurriedly we find Isobel on the floor, a kind of red mark on her forehead, James holding a bin, Kaniz with his mouth wide open, Sirius with his shirt ripped, a 4th year Slytherin glaring daggers at James and Alice who is just stood in the middle of the whole commotion.
"Woah, did we miss something?" I ask, they all turn to me and then suddenly start talking at once. Gahhh, I don't have that greater hearing, the parts that I did pick up however... jjuiiiccyyyy. Ok, so apparently James and Sirius were walking to near the lake, but then saw Kaniz chasing the 4th year who had apparently done some graffiti in the boys toilets. The 4th year boy had some stink bombs ( what is it with Muggle technology? and didn't this boy have a wand?!) So, James took cover with the bin... Isobel and Alice were just passing at the time, James kind of slipped on some water that was on the floor, I expect he couldn't really see where he was going, these stink bombs kind of create a fog.. and so he hit Isobel with the bin, who fell over hence the mark on her forehead and Alice just standing there. The stink bombs also have kind of like little spikes, hence the ripped Sirius shirt...
"Oh. That reminds me," Kaniz said after a moments silence, he turned to the 4th year. "Graffiti is not tolerated, your having detention with McGonnagal tonight at 7. Be there or have an extra 3 detentions." The 4th year groaned, stuck his tongue out at Kaniz and then walked away, throwing another stink bomb near us.
"Everyone, quick! Out before that mist comes again!" Alice yelled, we all ran. Breathing heavily as we all sat exhausted against the wall of Potions.
"Woah, Izz I think you should check with Pompfery about your head." I winced, ouch it must hurt. I made sure to glare at James.
"Evans! I didn't mean to hit her with the bin-"
"Whatever.. save it for the rabbit." I mutter, no one can hear me though, as Kaniz suddenly goes on about how James is talented when it comes to bins...
"Oh yes, Prongs. You're like the sexy beast of bins!" Black cackles.
Ew. Boys are just sooo. Eugh. I can't even describe them.
I ofcially (sp?) HATE James Potter. Binns had asked Izz, Alice, Leane and Me to prefect down near the Main doors, we told younger years to get out, so no wandering in the coridoors. Isobel thought it was funny to lock me outside, so then I had to go round to the other doors, right near where James, Sirius, Remus, Kaniz ect were. I had knocked on the door, seeing Adain (Kaniz's cousin) poke his head through the window. I motioned for him to open the door.
"Where you going Evans?" Sirius asked in a bored tone.
"I've been locked out, can you let me in please?" I thought that was polite, do you?!
"That's the 2nd time someone has come from over where you are claiming to be locked out." Yeah, that was kind of Izz's fault again, we locked out Leane :) But anyways-
"WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE EVANS? I THINK YOU SHOULD ^&*(# LEAVE EVANS!" No it wasn't James.. but Remus. Seriosuly! I bit my lip, trying not to burst out angrily, turned on my heel and moved back to the main doors.
"Ey! Evans! Evans! Yeah, yeah, you can come in!" Kaniz said, I smiled at him gratefully and followed him back. I noticed James was there, he hadn't spoken out or said anything. He had only laughed. I can't believe just how differently boys act on their own from when they are in a group of friends. They are such cowards and this is my reason for now hating James Potter.
Lily x
Where is she when you need her? I see a flash of brown, finally!
"Aaaaalliicee!" The girl turns and it is indeed Alice!
"Yes?" She asks suspiciously. (sp?)
"I want to hear what you have to say about me ignoring James." She smirks and begins to blurt out all the things I need to do. Oooh Merlin, this is going to be a LONG week.
Monday- Succesful. Well 'ish'. I made him look at me though :)-
Me and Charlie were walking to Charms (Charlie is a boy fyi) and we were talking and walking, James was behind us. When he was going to part one way and me the other I said (quite loudly) 'Sexy hair Charlie.' Charlie turned and smirked and winked at me before laughing and turning. James turned to look at me. HAH!
Tuesday- Successful. Again ish. I made him look at me. He and Alice were just talking and when she waved me over and we were talking I went 'chips, chips... MUSHY MUSHY PEAS' James turned to look at me.
The only problem is, I don't want him to just look at me, I want him to know that I am ignoring him and hate, h-a-t-e him! I have no idea what to do tomorrow... :/
Wish me luck!
OK, I AM SO SORRY THAT IT IS SO LATE! It's just school school boy school school boy yada yada yada.
So yeahs, pllllleaassee review, the next chapter should be interesting, since I am a bit muddled with ideas I kind of used my own experience :) Ahhaha, so also wish me luck, because the result in what will happen with me will be 'sort of' like what happens to Lily. ISH.
Frog Bin x