Title: It's Always You
Chapter 10: Emotional Confusion
Summary: Japan transfers to a new school~! But is he aware that China actually has feeling for him~? And Korea is trying to get them together~? O:
Genre: Romance/Humor
Rating: T for some reason XD (Maybe because it's shounen-ai~?)
Disclaimer: I don't own Hetalia! Himaruya-sama does~
"Wow."
Yao stared at the huge park with awe. It was said to have more than 40 different rides, having the very long drive to be actually worth it.
"Holy mother of-" Arthur was in shock, almost dropping Alfred. "See, I told you it was worth it!" Alfred grinned.
Arthur argued. "I never said any of that!"
"Wow…i-it's so huge…!" Kiku stared at the place, the rides are full of people screaming and laughing, and the whole park was surrounded by a gigantic roller coaster. "Look, Iggy! If you take that entire roller coaster and folded it, I'm sure it'll look like your eyebrows!" Punch. "You bloody git! I'll have you know that these eyebrows are brilliant!"
"H-hah, brilliant? Let's say that to your imaginary friends."
Arthur gasped. "They are not imaginary! They're real! You just can't see them with that tiny brain of yours!"
"Hey, you two, stop arguing already, aru!" He went in between them, and separated them. "Anyway, why are you two so close together? You won't separate-it's like you're glued or something, aru!" Yao crossed his arms, and Arthur reddened. "H-he asked me to carry him because of his foot. But I can't stand it because he's so overweight of all those silly junk food he eats everyday. Hmph. I'm glad he can walk now."
"Then why did you still continue on carrying him, aru…?"
Arthur flinched and his face flushed more. "S-shut up! Fine, I'm done. See?" He pointed at him accusingly, and tsked.
"…what? It wasn't my fault that we're going to the theme park!" He pouted.
"It was your idea, Alfred, aru." Yao retorted.
Alfred opened his mouth to say something, but closed it again, and smiled. "Touche."
Arthur looked over at the rides again. "So, are we just going to stand here like idiots or are we going to ride those things?" The blonde teen said, looking unimpressed. Alfred grinned at him. "Hah, so did want to come with us?" The other turned around, flushing slightly. "I did not. Now shut the hell up or we're going home." He glared. Alfred pouted. He acted like such a kid.
"So what do we go on first, aru?" Yao asked, still seeming uninterested.
"Hmm…what about we find the others and join them?" Arthur suggested. Everyone agreed.
They all went through rides to find the group, until Kiku spotted Feliciano eating ice cream alone on a table.
"Feliciano-kun!" Kiku called out, running towards him. Feliciano turned, and gave a huge, beaming grin.
"Kiku! Ciao~!" He stood, and glomped Kiku.
"I-it's good to see you t-too, Feliciano-kun. Um c-could you please let go n-now? I'm choking…" He managed to say, while Feliciano let go, Kiku gasping for air. "Oops! Mi dispiace!" He chuckled.
"Ahem. Um, Feliciao-kun, have you seen the others? We seemed yo have...um...lost them." He sweat-dropped.
"Ah, the others? Oh, we all split up. We figured it would be faster if one of us goes on one awesome ride, and when we get back together by the end of the day, we can share our experiences~!" He beamed.
"S-split up...? But it would take time to find each of them...they brought their cellphones, right?"
"I think so~"
Kiku sighed in relief. "That's good. But do you have their numbers?"
"Yup~!"
"Great! Now could you call Alfred-kun or Arthur-kun, please?"
"Sure! Just hold on while I get it..." Feliciano searched his pockets, and found his cellphone in his back pocket. He pressed the button, but the screen was still black. He pressed again, still the same result. He kept on pressing, but nothing still happened.
"Feliciano-kun? Is something wrong?" Kiku asked.
'Eh...heheh...whoops. It seems the battery's dead." He laughed falsely. Kiku began to panic a little.
"No batteries? Oh, no...how are we going to find them? This place is huge..."
"Ve~ Maybe we can check all the rides?" Feliciano shrugged.
"B-but that would take forever! But I think it would be effective...maybe if we can try, we can find one of them. Let's meet back her in 30 minutes, okay?" Kiku said commandingly. Feliciano nodded and took off.
Kiku was looking for them for quite a while, now. It had been five minutes already. He went to find a washroom, and spotted one in the distance. He ran to it, and pushed the door open. He was surprised to see Arthur washing his hands in the sink.
"Arthur-kun!" Kiku called, walking over to him.
"Oh, Kiku. Glad I ran into you. So, did you find the others?"
"No...I only found Feliciano-kun, and we split up to find the rest of us..."
"Feliciano? He'll just be spending most of the time eating instead of finding, Kiku."
"O-oh. I see."
One of the bathroom stalls swung open, and Arthur and Kiku turned to look. They were both surprised to see Yao come out from it.
"Yao-san!"
"Hm? Hey, Kiku, aru."
"...were you listening to us?" Arthur asked.
"Yeah, aru."
"Good. Then we don't have to explain it.
Kiku chuckled, "You both don't get along very well, don't you?"
Yao turned to Kiku. 'Hm. At least I made him laugh, aru.'
Alfred was just eating yet the fifth cheeseburger that time. He wandered aimlessly through the large theme park, looking at the rides. "Aw man, those must be really fun..." He mumbled to himself. He walked some more, buying fries and sodas on the way. And it had only been ten minutes. He saw the tunnel of love, and spotted Francis sitting there alone on one of the small boats.
"Hm. Figured that would be Francis...and Mattie." He facepalmed, and watch them go in the tunnel. A few minutes later, they came out, but Francis was naked; probably molesting Matthew again. He sighed, and went off again. He walked and walked until his legs were tired. Luckily, he spotted a small round table with two seats. On one seat, Ivan was sitting alone. Alfred went over to Ivan.
"Hey, Ivan!" He beamed. Ivan can only let out an uncomfortable sigh and a small "Hello.".
Alfred frowned. "Aww. Ivan, how can you be depressed when we're in the most awesome place on earth?" He grinned, trying to cheer him up.
"...my sister." He whispered, more to himself than to Alfred. He quieted down, his grin slowly changing into a frown again.
"Oh, yeah...that's right." He felt sorry for Ivan since the first time he saw him, and can't let him miss out on all the fun of the theme park.
He thought for a moment, and looked around. He saw a small flower stand. Ding. The idea came in thought. Alfred ran to the stand when Ivan wasn't looking, and bought a bunch of sunflowers. He ran to Ivan again, and shoved the bouquet before him. "Here! Are you happy now?" He exclaimed, not feeling awkward about it at all. "Think about it, Ivan. How could Natalia come after you all the way here? I mean, I didn't see her follow us or something. Besides, it was a really long way!"
The wind rustled through their hair. Ivan thought about what Alfred had said. He was actually right for once. Right now, he wasn't the energetic yet idiotic Alfred we all know and love. He was the nicer Alfred, probably his counterpart. But he showed it, showed it to Ivan. Ivan. Someone he barely knew. Sure, he might be part of their group, but they never really talked that much. Alfred didn't bother talking to him because he thought that it could make him uncomfortable around him; not because he was scared of his sister. He was only pretending to be afraid of her. Only because he doesn't show his other side. But now, he thought that Ivan could actually make a pretty good friend, if he could face his sister. But he was the hero anyway, he can handle her! ...But that's just a 'maybe', not a 'for sure'.
He smiled and took the bouquet, accompanied by a soft "Thank you.". Alfred grinned. "It's no problem at all! I do that to Iggy a lot, and he always gets pissed at me, anyway!"
Ivan chuckled. Alfred asked, "So, we're friends now?"
The other gazed at the bouquet.
"Yes."
It was sunset already. The end of the day. Yong Soo was the first one to arrive at the parking lot, depressed of what just happened.
"Man, I can't believe I didn't get to ride anything! This really sucks...I shouldn't have accepted that random guy's offer in having a kimchi eating contest..." He frowned. "That's it. I'm calling everyone..." He pulled out his phone from his jacket's pocket and dialed all the group members' numbers and told them to come back to the parking lot. Arthur arrived next, and seemed to be waiting for someone.
"Waiting for Alfred?" Yong Soo asked, making conversation. Arthur flinched and blushed slightly.
"N-no. How can I be waiting for that idiot? He'll never actually have a brain, won't he?" Arthur argued.
Yong Soo chuckled. "Sure you're not." Arthur just glared.
Slowly, each of them came together. When all of them were there, they took off to where they came from. They were seated at the same places. But instead of Alfred and Arthur arguing, the Brit fell asleep. They figured he was tired from trying to find them. Alfred drove everyone to their homes. And of course, since Kiku and Yao are 'brothers' now, he dropped Kiku off at Yao's place. Since he didn't want to disturb Arthur's sleep, he drove to his house last. When they was at the entrance, it was already around midnight. Obviously everyone was asleep. Alfred sighed and shook Arthur.
"Hey, Arthur. Get up. You can go home, now."
A small groan was his response. "Mnnh...five more minutes..." He added, just like anyone would say when they're being awoken.
"Arthur. Get up. Don't make me carry you." He continued, shaking him a little harder, becoming a bit irritated.
Arthur just jerked his hand away, mumbling in his sleep. Alfred became impatient. He shook him violently, and shouted, "Wake up, Arthur!"
And with that, he awoke. He sat up, mumbling. "God. Just let me sleep."
"Arthur. You can't sleep in my car." He became serious.
Arthur was surprised. He'd never seen a serious Alfred before. Usually, he takes everything as a joke and makes a laugh out of it. He never really stopped smiling until someone scolds him. But that was frowning; and his smile just comes instantly back. And he usually begs him to stay in his car...not shoo him away from it. Arthur wasn't used to this attitude of his right now.
"Arthur." Alfred started again.
Arthur felt the urge to cry, but fought it back. He never used his name. Ever. Since they separated...he was never the same. That warm smile came to be an idiotic one. And just when they met at the parking lot hours ago, he greeted a 'Yo, Iggy. What's up?' instead of a 'Yo, Iggy! What's up?" but with a huge grin and waving his arm like crazy. 'This isn't Alfred.' He thought. Arthur never responded, just staring into space, the memories of the old days were returning to him. His greeting then sounded like the younger Alfred...before the time he became...absent-minded. Yeah, that's the term. Arthur always did love it when he greets him like that, whenever he visited his house when they were kids, he would always receive the same greeting and a warm smile to accompany it. But what happened to him? What made him act like this? ...Then it hit him. 'Wait. Could it be because of Ivan...? He was with him in the parking lot when he said that...and Ivan was suspiciously happy...yes. That must be it. It has to be!' Arthur shook his head. No. This can't possibly be the real Alfred. On a certain day that he'd never forget, Arthur's tears had a meaning...one meaning alone. Alfred never actually saw how Arthur cared for him...how much he loved him. He was never actually nice to him ever since that day...but Alfred was too blind to see that. But why? Why did he leave him? What did this cruel world do to him? Arthur loved him too much to stop him from his desires...and yet this still happened to him.
Alfred grew impatient. "Arthur!" He shouted. But he suddenly calmed down, surprised to see tears escape the other blonde's eyes. He was just staring in front. He was well aware that he was already crying, but he was used to it...since almost every night he cried because of this lone reason. "Arthur...?" Alfred said, more softer than the previous one.
"...are you alright?"
~()()*()()~
...No. Don't talk to me with that tone...you never actually cared for me since the beginning...even from we first met...I just scraped my knee, and you came up to me...you said the same thing...in the same tone...you git, you had me fooled the whole time...you bastard...why did I even meet you in the first place?
How come this is my fate?
My destiny?
You were the first real friend I ever had...and there you are, letting me go...separating from me...you never knew how I actually felt, did you?
You're just a backstabbing bastard...
I hate you...
I thought you said 'best friends forever'?
But I was naive...as I was four years older than you...I was still a child.
I'd actually believe what someone like you had said...
God, those memories...
They're still haunting me...
Everyday...
And they'll never stop...
...ever...
~()()*()()~
"Arthur? Answer me...I'm worried, you know? I won't know what to do when I don't know how you feel...so please, just answer me?"
~()()*()()~
Shut up! Just shut up! I can't take it anymore!
You act like you actually care for me...yet you don't feel a thing!
I'm sick of it! Just sick of it!
You never ever knew how I felt!
All these years...
Even when I'm already usually really honest, you never figured me out!
...Heh...heheh...stupid me.
Very, very stupid me.
I fell for your kindness...
You were never worried about me.
Just face it, admit it. You knew about it, too.
I can't take it anymore.
I can't take you anymore.
The first friend I ever had, and you end up breaking my heart.
Into very, very tiny pieces.
And I can't get them back together again...
...and I never will.
...Never.
~()()*()()~
"Arthur! Come on, please! Don't make me think that you're going to die or something! I don't want you to!" He shook Arthur once more, but more gently this time. Arthur kept his gaze straight.
"I know you want me to." The other replied quietly, more like a whisper than a saying. Alfred flinched.
"What? That's not true! You're my friend! My best friend! And best friends care for each other! I care for you...you just don't see it! I-" He started, until Arthur grabbed him by the shoulders and shook him very violently. He was in rage, in anger, and in tears meaning complete depression. He looked like he was insane, had a mental problem, whatever. He just shouted. Really loud.
"Best friends? Best friends?! You don't even know the meaning of 'friend' alone! You abandoned me! Because of you, you alone, I have mental distress! I cry too much because of you! It's all because of you that I'm who I am today! How could I consider you my friend, after all these years that you've kept us apart? You sick, lying bastard!" He stopped suddenly, and panted, his grip on Alfred's shoulders loosening. Alfred just gazed at him, guilt completely dominated his mind and eyes, he felt total pity over his friend.
"All that I've ever done for you...they really weren't enough...?" He paused, then with all his strength left, punched Alfred right across the face. Emerald eyes flaring with anger and depression, watched the blonde fall back to his seat.
Panting, Arthur managed to choke out again, very, very softly, "...didn't you ever see how much I've cared for you...? How much I...loved you?"
Alfred quickly turned his gaze to Arthur, whose face was completely red and stained with tears.
"...say that again?" Alfred asked, his very question was answered by a mere whisper.
"...I loved you. From the very beginning. I loved you more than anything."
Alfred could say nothing more. Did he really say that...? Or was it just hallucinations from his deranged mind? He shook his head. That was reality.
He quickly pulled Arthur close to him, his voice being soft and gentle.
"Arthur…I'm so sorry…I…I didn't know you felt that way…I'm...really sorry…"
Arthur tsked. "Hmph. Of course you didn't."
"No, really…I'm…very sorry…well, it's part your fault anyway…"
Arthur pulled away. "Excuse me? I don't recall why it had to be my fault." He argued.
"You don't remember? You're the one who encouraged me in the first place…who told me I could do anything if I try…you were the one who filled my head with ambitions and dreams in the first place..."
Arthur thought for a moment. Then it hit him. He remembered. Everything. Everything about their good times together…it was all stuck in his head the whole time.
And then he spoke, "...I knew it…I…always had a feeling that it was all my fault…"
He embraced Alfred again, and continued sobbing. Now he blamed himself, for everything.
"Hey, it not all that bad. You made me happy too, you know." He smiled, and stroked the other blonde's hair.
His voice was very soft, so soothing. It made Arthur's tears' speed pick up. He was crying so much right now. He buried his face into Alfred's chest, hugging him very tightly, pulling him closer every time. And once again, he said, "…I love you."
Alfred gave a sight chuckle. He gently lifted Arthur's chin with his finger, bringing his head up. Still smiling, he softly pressed his lips against Arthur's. Arthur's eyes, wide open, and blushing a very bright shade of scarlet. Within seconds, he gave in the kiss and slowly closed his eyes, relaxing in the other male's embrace.
They stayed like that for a while, until they broke for air. Alfred, gasping, rested his chin on Arthur's head, and smiled. Then, as softly as ever, said the words Arthur wanted to hear from him most.
"…I love you too, Arthur."
A/N: Whew, I thought I'd never finish this. XDD
Last night I got scolded for writing fanfics at 3am. XDDD
So, my dad took the monitor away. ;-;
Anyway, wow. It started up as cracky and stuff, but it ended up all sad and angsty...and cheesy XDD
I hope you guys like it, I just inserted some USUK in it. I love USUK~