To acquiesce
the word escape your mouth before you could stop it, drifting towards her like a plume of black smoke. her face, her face was something you will never forget. it flickered with disbelief as though the ground had fallen from under her but quickly resolved into a grim determination of hatred, her eyes, those incredible, sparkling green eyes that drew you in like a forest you wished to explore, hardening. her eyes are now a forest that is shut off to you forever, a tangle of tall trees, cold bushes and noises you could not wish to understand. it is not a forest for you anymore.
and that's it. she walks away. your heart, your heart – how does it feel? it doesn't, she is your heart. and now she's gone and you can't feel anything. there's nothing. just a darkness, an infinite darkness that has no beginning or end or anything. her long, red hair dancing from side to side as she goes, not even turning back to look at you, is now the fire that has burnt you out.
why aren't you running after her? you want her, you need her. ever since the first time you saw her, playing on that swing, it's been her. always her. I CAN'T OKAY. ITS HER DECISION. I ACQUIESCE. but you could change it. grab her arm, shake her, kiss her, anything to make her realise. NO. no…