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Finn Hudson was not a smart boy, in fact he was quite dimwitted. He didn't understand a lot of things that Rachel said, her vocabulary was enormous, but he did know one thing he loved her. As he sat in the waiting room however, he seriously started to contemplate his relationship with Rachel. He loved her, there was no denying that. She was a beautiful girl not only on the outside, but on the inside as well. She cared for people deeply, even if they did not car for her, but most importantly she loved him. He knew that he loved her, but they always made each other hurt. He had played with her heart over and over again.
It started one year ago when he had first joined Glee, he was attracted to her voice. That voice was so beautiful, almost like a siren luring in unsuspecting men. He had fallen for her, but he loved Quinn, or so he thought and they were going to have a baby. He had royally screwed up.
Finn sat in his chair and looked up towards the ceiling and thought, maybe its possible to love someone but not be that persons soul mate. He loved Rachel and he always would, but maybe there was someone else out there who would fit him.
Sarah Stelles had been a surgeon for only five years, she had seen a lot in these past few years. She had seen people die on the table, she had witnessed people going into comas. This was the case for Rachel Berry. Sixteen years old, with a collapsed lung, three broken ribs, a broken arm and had suffered from a hematoma. And worst of all she remained in a deep coma. Sarah had learned the procedures of telling the family about a loved one's condition, that doesn't mean it made it any easier.
She saw Hiram and Leroy Berry sitting in the waiting room holding hands and she silently walked over to them. They had been her mentors and she had to tell them their daughters fate.
"Hiram, Leroy why don't you come with me."
The men looked at the young red head "These are friends, please just tell us here."
She sighed and looked down "She's suffered from a lot of injuries, and I am so sorry but as of this time she is in a coma." She didn't feel the need to explain all the details, for Hiram and Leroy already knew them.
"What?" A young Mohawked boy screamed "That's …it's not…"
"I killed her!" A young very tall young man shrilled falling forward and sobbing so deeply she thought her heart might actually crack.
"Sarah, can we see her?"
She felt so hopeless "Of course you can."
"Rachel, can I ask you a question?" Greg asked the small girl as they continued to travel to their next destination.
She wasn't as upbeat as she had been before so she just shrugged her shoulders.
"Why do you think we're here?"
"If you mean here as in our purpose, I am clearly the wrong person to ask."
He stopped the girl and put his hands on her shoulders, looking into the chocolate eyes.
"What do you mean?"
She shook her head and let a tear escape "How can I die and let Kurt wish for me everyday-"
"So you want to go back then?"
She shook her head "I cannot go back, because Beth needs Noah in her life and Noah needs his little girl in his."
He frowned deeply, never in all of his years had he felt this connected to a human being. He knows he was a mortal once, and only ten years ago, that was a long time however. He hasn't felt human for more than ten years. When you died, he learned that you needed to break all ties to humanity; looking down at those you left behind hurt too much. It is hard to move on, that much his experiences had taught him, and it takes even longer to move on once your gone.
"Rachel…do you love Noah?"
She played with the hem of her white dress " Yes, since I was in kindergarten."
"Then take it from someone who knows, he'll hurt with you gone from his life too."
She nodded and wiped her eyes "I just… Noah doesn't love me."
The young man quirked an eyebrow "You know he does."
"Like a brother, nothing more…we're friends, best friends."
"Babe I hate to break this to you but if he was like your brother he'd be committing a sin."
"Stop it!" She warned shoving him lightly.
He gave the girl a brilliant smile "So, I think it's safe to say you've made your choice."
"I think I have."
"Please let me see her!" Puck begged Rachel's fathers getting ready to fall on his knees and fucking beg.
"We wouldn't keep you from her Noah, stop being ridiculous." Leroy told him placing a strong hand on his shoulder.
"Don't be afraid son. The ventilator is just to help her breath with the collapsed lung."
Puck gulped and nodded vaguely aware of the men telling him they were going to get coffee.
When he walked into the ICU room Puck's heart nearly stopped. Rachel was lying there with a tube stuck down her throat, breathing for her. She was covered in wires and surrounded by machines. He slowly walked towards the bed and let a tear fall from his eye.
"Hey Rachel," He greeted softly taking her uninjured hand and sitting down next to her bedside. "Are you going to make me hold a vigil at you bedside Berry?"
He took in her complexion she was so pale, her face covered in dark blue bruises and angry red cuts. "Come on babe, I need you."
It was true he needed her. He wanted her. He loved her. He wanted to have Jewish badass-annoying-singing-acting-overly dramatizing babies with her.
"I love you." He whispered quietly leaning over to brush the hair out of her eyes. "I love you."
She was alive, at least that much was certain. Kurt had cried and held onto Blaine while wiping his eyes, he needed to see her. Somehow he had convinced Puck to leave the room and had finally gotten the opportunity to see the girl who he become so close to.
"Hey Diva, you look terrible." He told her taking her small hand and holding it up to his inspection "You need a manicure, your cuticles are disturbing."
He felt tears forming in his eyes Rachel was strong, Rachel wasn't supposed to look this…defeated.
"Do you want me to sing "Don't cry for me Argentina, because if you want me to I will."
He couldn't take the silence, he felt as if he were going mad.
"Rachel please wake up, please…please…please. I don't think I can do this without you, you've helped me so much and... I think I was so mean to you because I was jealous Rach. I was jealous of your talent, and the way you radiate self confidence. I know we could've been best friends long ago, but it's not to late, it's not over yet. I love you and if you die I will never forgive you."
Hiram looked down at his beautiful little girl and sighed she was going to be somebody someday, something great. He blamed himself for his little girl being in this hospital bed. He should have told her no when she asked to go the Christmas tree lot. The roads were slippery…it was cold, and he was too busy. He had always tried to be a balanced father, give a lot of time to delivering babies, but also giving a lot of attention to his baby. Ultimately he felt like a failure.
"Hey baby girl you need to wake up for Daddy." He urged as he held the small hand and stroked the knuckles gently with his thumb.
"Do you remember when you broke your arm when you were seven?" He asked his unresponsive daughter? "I was terrified, I thought they were hurting you. Rachel you were so small, you are still so small…" He took a shaky breath and got up to kiss his daughters forehead. "We can't go on with you sweetie, we need you."
"This is my Dads' house." Rachel said looking across the street at the large brick colonial.
"You're very observant my dear."
"I know, oh no! I do not want to see my fathers."
"Rachel, you have to see everything remember." He said slowly enunciating each word as if he were talking to a small child.
Rachel looked at him with tears in her eyes "They're…they love me."
Greg smiled softly taking the small girls' hand and leading her inside "They do love you babe."
Rachel was shocked when they stepped inside the house and saw many of her old friends and teammates.
"Rachel has been gone fifteen years today." An older version of Leroy Berry spoke "Fifteen years since we've had to put our little girl in the ground and say goodbye." The man stopped and wiped at his eyes.
"We've decided that this is the last year we will mourn our lose." Hiram added looking sad beyond words and making her heart clench. "She would've wanted us to move on."
Noah nodded eyes wet "The Rachel Berry we knew would've given us a good fifteen minute lecture about moving on."
Tina let out a mall chuckle "She probably would have made a power point titled "Moving on ...the process."
Everyone laughed at that including Rachel, she probably would have done that, she still might.
Kurt suddenly spoke from his place next to his husband Blaine "She would've screamed at us for losing Regional's again."
An older looking Mercedes frowned deeply "We'll always remember."
"She'll never be gone guys, she'll always be in our hearts and we'll always hear her singing when faithfully comes on the radio, but I think the Berrys' are right it's been fifteen years and Rachel's home." Will Schuester spoke.
"It feels wrong though, saying goodbye." Artie said from his wheelchair.
"I know what you mean, its like I still expect to wake up and see her." Finn added.
The people in the room looked down at their feet and scuffed their shoes against the wood floors, cleared their throats and wiped their eyes.
"It's not goodbye, it's I'll see you again someday." The ever quiet Mike Chang spoke up giving a half smile "She's waiting up there to boss us all around.
Everyone in the room let out a watery laugh, along with Rachel.
"I propose a toast," Puck smiled holding up his wine glass "To the girl we will never forget and who we realized was important too late. To Rachel."
"To Rachel." The room echoed clanging their glasses together and taking a sip of the red wine.
Greg turned to Rachel and pulled her into a hug "That's the thing about goodbyes Rachel they're never easy."
Rachel held on to him like he was a lifeline "I think I want to go home, please just take me home."
Finn shuffled into his Ex girlfriends room, this girl would always be his first love, and for that he would always love her.
"Hey Rach," He half smiled walking up to the hospital bed and sitting down next to the small diva. "I really miss you, I need you… I want you to know that I'll always need you to be in my life, in some way or another."
Beep Beep Beep Beep Beep Beep Beep Beep Beep Beep
Finn looked over to the heart monitor and saw the flat line that indicated that she was dying, his Rachel was dying.
"Somebody Help!" He screamed jumping from his chair and grabbing the girls hand "Rachel stay with me, He screamed please just stay with me!"