"I just can't" I said snapping my hand back and walked out of the room. The one thing that came into my head was the poem 10 things I hate about you with some acceptations of a few words.

(I hate the way you talk to me
And the way you cut your hair
I hate the way you drive your car
I hate it when you stare

I hate your big dumb Volvo
And the way you read my mind
I hate you so much that it makes me sick
It even makes me rhyme

I hate the way you're always right
I hate it when you lie
I hate it when you make me laugh
Even worse when you make me cry

I hate the way you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all) I thought wiping away the tear that managed to escape my eye.

I shook my head to get all of the shit out of it and carried on walking I went into the woods and came across a clearing. I sat down on a large rock in the middle of the clearing to think things through. I can't like him I just can't. I hate him for making me think this. I sighed frustrated with Edward and myself. I needed to get away and fast, I thought back to the film and remembered that the stupid sparkly shit couldn't go down to LaPush, but then there was Jacob the psycho wolf.

(Being in love with Edward, who is being patient or Jacob the psycho wolf that is hell bend on me being his and is impatient… hmm… home it is) I thought with a sigh getting off of the rock and heading home. I walked up to my room to see that it was all clear. Thank god.

The next morning I did my daily morning routine get up, shower, dressed, makeup, put in piercings, have Tasha shout that Edwards here, shimmy down a tree and then run to school. I reached school dripping wet to face an angry and hurt Carmen. I gulped looking at her fire blazing eyes; I really didn't want to hurt her. I felt eyes on me as I walked over and as soon as I got over to her a loud slapping noise echoed everywhere followed by furious growling that I guessed came from Edward and his family. I looked at the floor trying to keep my anger down as Carmen started to shout and scream in my face. I balled up my fist as she was getting on my last nerve.

She raised her hand again to slap me, in mid swing I caught her wrist squeezing it until she whimpered then punched her in the stomach making her bend over grasping her stomach with her other hand out of breath. I looked at her with emotionless eyes letting her wrist go.

"I did nothing to you" I said in an emotionless voice that made everyone that heard it flinch. I walked past her to my first lesson; I sat down in my seat next to the window when my phone bleeped signalling that I had a text. I looked at the screen to see Jacob flash, I growled at the phone my emotionless shell came back. I flipped my phone open and read it.

Hey Abby

I'll pick you up after school so we can talk about us. Xxx

Love you babe xx

I flipped my phone shut not replying to it. The classroom started to fill up with whispering students; I knew they were whispering about me, you would have to be dense if you didn't know what they were whispering about. I just looked out of the window when a chair scraping along the floor caught my attention I turned my head to see a sad looking Alice. I just turned my head back to the window, not wanting to hear how Edward want shut up about me or how 'hurt' he is. I just didn't give a crap or so I kept telling myself. I wasn't weak; I wasn't going to let him get to me. It was only a crush and you can kill crushes.

The bell finally rang for lunch, I was walking to the canteen when Rosalie stopped me in my tracks, I really wasn't in the mood for acting.

"What?" I asked bluntly still in my emotionless shell that I had been in all day. She looked a little shocked to be spoken to like that but brushed it off.

"Look I know that you 'don't like' Edward but he has spoken to me and I can see how much he loves you and you are slowly killing him. So go move away, do something like staying away from him and stop making him jealous with that mutt" she said in a disgusted voice.

I was on my last nerve again, my fists balled in tightly my hands started to shake, I was that angry with the plastic blond in front of me telling me how to live my life and for a split second I thought about being nice to Edward, just to piss her off but the second the thought came I pushed it out.

I took a step towards her and she didn't seem to notice, she was too busy telling me about how to live my life and I guess she didn't notice and pull my arm back. But she sure as hell noticed me when she was on the fucking floor with a red mark on her eye. My hand stung a little but it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, she looked at me in shock from the floor. People started to gather around and whisper to each other I also heard some people shout fight. I grabbed her piss looking hair and slammed her into a wall, almost knocking it completely down. Looking down at her with a glare of my own that could scare the meanest of vampires for example Rosalie, who was shaking a little getting up off of the ground as her family rushed over to her hissing and growling at me, making me roll my eyes at them.

I walked out of school still angry when I got a phone call, I looked at the screen to see a number I didn't know flashing.

"What?" I said rudely flipping open my phone.

"Hello, I'm officer Stanley is this Abby Starr?"

"Yes why?"

"I'm sorry to say this but… your foster mother was killed so a care worker will pick you up from school in a few minutes" the officer said in a sad voice.

I froze in place, my throat tightened and my eyes started to water a little. After getting over the shock I flipped my phone shut not saying anything. I walked back into school to be greeted by sad and sympathetic faces, ignoring them I walked over to my locker. I leaned my back against it and slid down, looking at the floor I saw a pair of trainers in front of me. I looked up to see Carmen and three other people that were dressed like her, standing around her.

"Aw does the orphan want to cry?" she said in a baby voice making the other girls laugh.

"I don't blame her killing herself I mean I would I you were my daughter"

"But like didn't she like adopt like her" said the blond on Carmen's right.

"Why did she do that in the first place? I would have left her to rot!" the girl with brown hair said as if I wasn't right in front of her.

"I bet the only reason why was up for adoption was because her mum didn't want her"

"Ha-ha nobody loves you"

I just tried to ignore then as I stared at the floor waiting for this stupid care worker to come.

"Aw is baby going to cry because no one loves you"

"You will just die alone; no one will want a family with you"

"You're going to die alone"

"Why don't you just kill your self now?"

"Not like anyone would miss you"

"Or care" they all started to laugh together and it was just adding fuel to my anger. I stood up and walked right in front of Carmen when I heard a loud growling I turned my head to see Edward and Alice they were glaring at the girl.

"Leave her alone" Edward said wrapping arm around my waist.

Will he not give up? First I turned his sister against him did that work no! Then I beat up his sister did that work NO!

They all ran off leaving the three of us alone, when they were out of sight I pulled Edwards arm off of me.

"We know about your mum and we're all sorry and we all forgive you about what you did to Rosalie" Alice started smiling at me.

"And we talked to our parents and they are more then willing to adopt you" Edward finished excitedly not giving me the chance to say anything after Alice had spoken.

"Thanks but no thanks" I said coldly before walking into the rain and waited in the car park.

Before Edward could walk over to me a snot green car pulled up next to me, the window screen went down to reveal a woman who looked to be in her late 40's.

She had brown greying hair with dull blue eyes, she had a chubby face and when she opened the passenger's door from the inside I saw that she was indeed fat. I just looked at her strangely.

"Well get in dear, you'll get a cold if you stay out" she said in a sickly sweet voice.

I felt yet again a cold arm around my waist and I felt like screaming.

"Dear. Is this you're boyfriend?" she asked looking Edward up and down.

"No" I said coldly pushing his arm away.