HANNAHS POV
Was it more wrong to be enjoying this kiss? Or was it more wrong when I wrapped my arm around Jacobs neck, to help deepen it?
Either way, neither of us seemed to mind how bad this really was. With my other hand, I rested it on his chest, moving it up and down, feeling the tight muscles he had on him.
It wasn't until Jacob breathe out my mothers name in between a kiss, that I pulled away.
... awkward...
I wiped my lips and nodded my head not knowing what to really say. "So yeah." was all I managed to say.
"Sorry"
"Its okay." I said smiling, but not meeting his eyes.
"Thank you, I really do appreciate what you did for me." he said.
I looked at him finally, and couldn't help but wonder why my mom hadn't picked him. I knew that before my real father, and my mom did what they did, Jacob and
Edward had been fighting for her.
"What?" he asked smiling. He moved some of the hair I had in my face away.
"Nothing. Just.. thinking about how things are." I said
"You can't be a teen without having any problems in your life, its all part of growing up. You'll see, in a few years when you actually have real problems, the ones you have right now, will seem childish." he said.
"I just found out Edward isn't my father, I pretty much called my mother a whore, I'm in love with my natural born enemy, and I just kissed another one." I said.
"Well.. when you put it that way. I really don't know what to say then." he said laughing.
I looked down and shook my head. "I don't know what to do Jacob. I really don't.. I don't want to hurt either of them." I said, quickly changing the conversation to Seth and Paul.
I felt his heavy arm wrap around me. "Look theres no really nice way to do this. In the end one of them will get hurt, and believe me, it hurts like hell, it really does. But in the end one of them will have to accept your choice."
"Did you accept my moms?" I asked.
He moved his arm away from me and looked down.
"Not entirely. I still love your mother, I really do. I'm afraid to lose your mother even more. This feeling I have for her, is all I really have left of her. I never imprinted on her Hannah... just like Paul didn't imprint on you."
"So what are you saying? I shouldn't pick Paul then?" I asked.
"I never said that. I'm just trying to make you aware that, Paul did not imprint on you, Seth did. What if Paul imprints on someone one day? Then not only will you have hurt Seth, but Paul will hurt you. When you imprint on someone, you can't help yourself. You can't control it. Its not easy to explain, you just feel it. And no matter how much Paul wants to keep loving you, no matter how much history you two would have created, nothing will be able to stop the feelings he will have." Jacob said.
"I know that, I've brought myself to think about this too Jacob, but I can't help the way I feel. I can't help the way I feel here." I said patting the left side of my chest.
I looked over at him, just as he shuddered hard. It seemed as if he had just had the chills, or had an ice cube dropped down his back.
"What was that?" I asked.
"Paul wants me." he said standing up.
"What?"
"If either of us needs the other, as leaders of the pack, we can summon one another if needed. I'll be back later. You should get some sleep." he said walking out his room.
I stared after him, wanting him to stay, but he had already closed the front door behind him.
BELLAS POV
"Bella can we please talk about Hannah, before Jake gets here?" Paul begged.
I raised my hand to him yet another time.
"The only thing that concerns me, is if my daughter is well." I said.
"She is, she's sleeping." Paul said.
"Then thats all I have to speak to you regarding my daughter." I said, my eyes still on the dark woods behind him.
"Bella please." he said.
"Thats Isabella to you." I said.
He sighed.
"Its sorta creepy how still she stays." I heard one of the new wolves say to the other.
"I think its more creepy that the blood suckers sparkle. Especially the guys, Queens." said the other.
The first one tried not to laugh.
I smiled to myself, knowing they weren't aware that I could hear them.
"Isabella I love your daughter, and I promise she's is good hands-" I cut Paul off quickly with a glare.
"She's been in more then good hands." one of the wolves said to the other. They bought started laughing among theme selves
"All these fucking women, especially this blood sucker are-" the second wolf said to the other, but before he could finish his sentence I already had him in the air. I was holding him by the neck, and had him off his feet above me.
"This fucking woman can hear every single word you, and your little friend have been saying. Now before I'm a blood sucker, I'm a mother. And I will not allow you to disrespect me or my daughter." I said hissing at him.
He began to shake, as I let go of him, he phased.
"BRADY!" Embry said to them.
"Brady huh? What sort of Native American family names their kid Brady." I said to the mutt before me. I crouched down, ready for him.
"Don't do anything stupid, don't forget what side of the line your on!" The other new pack member said to me.
Embry snorted. "And you have just met John."
"Brady! John! Don't you forget who gives orders on this side of the line!"
We all turned towards the dark woods, to find Jacob walking towards us.
I stepped away from the guys and smiled to Jake.
"Jake." I said.
He walked towards me. With his gaze focused on me, he took my hands into his.
"Paul, don't you and the boys have work to do?" he asked out loud.
"Move it out guys." Paul said. "And Isabella... I'm sorry."
I didn't bother looking at him. But I did turn to Embry when he said goodbye. Brady and John followed behind Paul and Embry, without another word.
"I never thought I would see you again." Jake finally spoke.
He brought me into a tight hug. I inhaled and got a strong smell of him.
"Oh god, you smell worse up close." I said pulling away from him.
"And your walking on sunshine." he said laughing.
If I was ever planning on being friends, his smell was going to get some getting used to.
He grabbed my hands agian into his, but didn't pull me towards him this time.
"Why are you here? Is it about Hannah?" he asked.
I shook my head. Now that I was actually here, I really didn't know what to say. I hadn't really thought this far along.
The easiest part was saying I wanted to come, the easy part was getting here, and now the hard part, is explaining why I was.
I shrugged. "I don't know.. I guess I just wanted to see you again."
"Really?" he grinned.
"I miss you. I really do Jake. I've always missed you. I just choose to distance myself because I thought you hated me." I said.
"What? Bella I could never hate you. Never. That one night years ago, I was angry Bella. I was really angry, and I really hope you understand why. But the truth is, even though your a leech now. I could never change my feelings for you." he said.
I sighed. "Can we start all over? Can it be like old times?"
"Even though you smell?" he asked chucking.
"And your walking on sunshine? Yeah. Why not?"
"I'd like that." he said.
"We have so much catching up to do." I said happily.
"Yeah, we do."
HANNAHS POV
"Are you still awake?" Paul asked.
I had my back to the door way of Jacobs room.
"Yes." I said not turning to look at him.
I heard him walk over to me, and felt the blankets move when he sat on the floor where I was laying at.
I finally turned to look at him. He was smiling down at me.
"What are you doing back so soon? Where Jacob?" I asked.
"Nice to see your so thrilled so have me back. Jakes busy, someone came to see him. ANd I just wanted to check up on you."
"What old friend?" I sat up.
"An old friend."
I sighed and shook my head. "How did things get to this point?"
"Do you regret it?" he asked.
"No.. yes.. maybe.. somethings I do."
He looked down. "Do you regret the first time we kissed?"
"No."
"Do you regret telling me how you feel for me?"
"No." I swollowed.
"Do you regret sleeping with me?"
".. no.. but I do regret hurting Seth. My mom... dad.. my family." I said.
"Look Hannah, your mother and Edward both love you. You think she didn't have her own love story? her own love triangle? Of course she did, and so do plenty of other girls your age."
"But this is different." I said.
"How is it different? Because Seth and I are shifters? Your father and Edward were brothers. And I'm sorry if that just sounded wrong, but at least your not breaking something up here. Seth and this pack have been broken up long ago." he said.
"No. Because you tried killing me when I was still a baby. You tried killing my mother, and you killed my father. Seth only tried protecting me from the big bad wolf. Yet here I am, in love with him." I said.
He groaned. "Hannah I already tried telling you I was sorry for that."
"I know, but its just frustrating to want to know everything. I know everyone has told me what happened. But I want to know every single detail as if it were a movie. I want to hear every single detail that everyone might find unimportant, but is to me."
-Silence-
"You know... I was wondering, you know how your aunt can see the future?" he asked.
I shook my head. "She was able to, now its all screwball. She predicts somethings correctly, but most of the time wrong. Why do you ask?"
"Well-" He sat up straight and turned to face me. "-I was thinking. Although she can't see into the future very well anymore, who said anything about her not being able to see into the past. Like stored memories. She can tell answer your questions in a sort of play by play. I mean its just a thought."
I smiled. I didn't know why I had never thought of that.
"Thats sounds brilliant. That means I'm going to go home soon, I need to know." I said happily.
He stopped smiling. "Not to soon though, right?"
"Why?" I asked.
He crawled over me, making me lay back down, he got on top of me.
"Because if you do, then the big bad wolf won't be able to play." he said.
"What?" I asked. Knowing all to well where he was going with this. "But your on duty with the guys tonight. Jacob or the guys might come around anytime."
"I shouldn't waste anytime then." he said lowering his lips to my neck.
EDWARDS POV
I should have known that Bella was never mean't for me. I was her little trial. I've heard that every person always has to break the ice in a relationship, before they move on to a better thing. And I guess I was her tester. But what about me? I always sacrafice my own happiness for her.
I sighed.
"Whats wrong son?"
I turned to Carlisle. He actually looked drained.
"Bella wen't to see Jacob." I said.
"About Hannah?"
I shook my head.
"Oh." he said. "But he's a wolf. And shes a vampire now."
"Yeah, and once again I'm going to be replaced. She rather go with a mutt then be with me." I ran my hand through my hair.
"You know son, your not the only one hurting in this house right now. I can take care of myself, just as I am taking care of your sister. But considering you went through the same thing, I think Seth might need your support right now."
"Where is he?" I had completly forgotten about him. Being around him all the time, made me become used to his scent. That it wasn't foul anymore.
"In Hannahs room."
"Seth?" I asked walking in.
Stepping into Hannahs room, I tried my best not to laugh as I found wolf form Seth, trying to hid under Hannahs bed.
Now that he was able to phase, he phased into the same size, maybe even a bit more, as Jacob and his pack did.
With the size of him, and the space under the bed. He had caused the bed to float off the floor and into the air, only moving up and down, with his breathing.
I closed the door behind me and stepped inside.
"Oh Seth? Where are you?"
From the corner of my eye, I saw him roll his big eye. He whined.
"I hear you, but I can't see you. You know, your really good at this hiding thing. I guess I'll just have to wait until you come out!" I jumped up on to the bed, letting my body weight fall on to the bed.
I heard his howl turn into a scream, as the bed collapsed back to the floor.
I smiled to myself, trying not to laugh.
He crawled out from under the bed, and stretched his back. "Ow."
I looked away, wondering if the man was going to put pants on or not.
He must have noticed because he apologized, and shortly after said okay. When I turned he was already changed. He sat down on the floor in front of me.
"How are you feeling?" I asked.
"Like hell."
"I know what you mean."
"Oh do you?" he asked doubtfully.
"Yes I do, if you don't re call, Bella became pregnant with my brother." I said.
"Oh yeah.. Sorry."
"You know, just because Hannah choose to stay over there, doesn't really mean she might stay with Paul forever." I said.
"Please don't give me false hope." he said.
"But its true, she might just change her mind. No one really knows her feelings, but herself." I said.
"Do you want her to be with him?" he asked sadly.
"No. I really don't."
"Then why are you letting her? Why don't you tell her she can't see him?" he was almost pleading to me.
"I can't tell her how she can feel. She has her own heart, if Bellas dad had forbid her from seeing me, I would have never been able to be where I am now."
"But your not happy. I can feel it." he said.
"I am not happyily in a relationship. But I would have never been able to know the feeling of having a family of my own. Of being able to call Hannah and Emmett my children. I would rather live loveless, then have never been able to see those two kids grow up. I love them, I don't care if they are a product of Bella's infedelity. Its not there fault." I said.
"All I really know, is that no matter what, I want to be there for Hannah. I want to take care of her till the end of me." Seth said.
HANNAHS POV
As both Paul and I both laid naked on the floor, I couldn't help but laugh.
"What?" he asked me.
"Last time we didn't actually have sex, and Jacob burned his bed. And now that we actually did, he might just burn the house down." I said.
He started to laugh. But our laughter quickly died down, when we heard laughter from outside.
I groaned. "Oh my god they know?" I asked.
"Well your not exactly quiet you know." Paul said smiling.
I buried my face into the sheets. "Oh my god, this is so embarassing! Why didn't you tell me?"
"I did." he said. "I kept sshing you, and told you someone might hear."
"Its true you know?" Someone said from outside. It sounded like Johns voice. And then there was laughter again.
I got up and dragged the blanket I had with me. Wrapping it around me, like I usually did with a towel after a shower.
"Where are you going?" I heard Paul ask.
I didn't answer him, but instead kicked the front door open. And walked around the house, to find both John laughing on the ground, Brady was making spanking motions on himself.
Embry was sitting with his legs crossed, by a tree, he was playing on some sort of gameboy.
"You little perverts!" I screamed at John and Brady.
The both stared at me, then busted out laughing again.
"Says you!" Brady asked.
If I hadn't gotten a chance to kick his ass last time, I was going to do it this time. I charged at him.
Both John and he stopped laughing, and stared bug eyed at me.
I was about to jump at him, when I felt someone grab me around the waist. It was Paul. He set me on his shoulder, fireman style.
"Let me go Paul. I'm going to kick his ass this time!" I said trying to get away from Paul.
I heard more laughter from John and Brady.
"Your not going to do such thing." Paul said carrying me back to the house.
He set me down back in Jacobs room.
"At least not without clothes, he said handing me back my clothes.
I grinned and quickly got dressed. Paul winked at me.
I ran back outside, and found Brady and John in the same spot. As soon as they say me, they both said "Oh oh." in a sychronized motion, before running away. I quickly chased after.
HANNAHS POV CONTINUED
Jacob had never came back, so Paul had decided to stay with me.
I was never able to catch up to John or Brady, but we all winded up having a fun game of hide and seek. Not that anyone was really seeking, we'd just hide and try and scare one another.
It wasn't until four in the morning when we all decided to call it quits and head to sleep.
I wasn't sure what time it was, but it still have to be early, because the sky was light, but the sun still wasn't blazing.
I made sure Paul was asleep after I had showered, before I snuck out the house. I wanted to go see my aunt. I wanted to ask her if she could retell me everything, I couldn't wait any longer. I was still planing on coming back.
I borrowed one of Jacobs white shirts. Which was so big on me, it looked like a dress.
By the time I had reached the house, I wondered what everyone would say. I looked for any of the cars, but didn't find any.
"Good." said to myself. That mean't that everyone was gone, but my aunt had to be alone.
I opened the door and got inside. I went straight to my aunts room, but didnt find her there.
"Hello?" I asked out loud.
I walked up the stairs and looked into Emmetts room. He must have gone to practice or something.
I looked into my room next and found Seth sleeping on my bed.
I walked over to the bed and stood before it. Seeing Seth gave me those confused feelings again. I smiled, at just how handsome my little wolf had become.
I patted Seth on the shoulder, and he half awake responded.
"Wheres everyone?" I asked.
He yawned, "Am I dreaming?"
I smiled. "Wheres everyone?" I repeated.
"I'm dreaming." he said smiling. "Edward took Emmett to school. He took Alice along with him, something about hunting. Carlisle is at work, and Bella went out."
He closed his eyes and started snoring again.
I giggled. What the hell? He had sounded like a robot when he spoke, and went back to sleep in seconds.
I walked over to my curtains, and spread them open, just so enough of the sun that was starting to pour in showed.
"Seth wake up." I said shaking him.
He lazily opened his eyes again. I bet he hadn't really slept at all, he looked so tired.
I could feel the sunshine warming up my back, as I had my back to it. I could see my shadow on the bed.
"Wow.. your beautiful. I'm dreaming, you look like an angel... your my angel." he said dazed.
I smiled. He was really out of it huh.
He grabbed my hand and pulled me towards him on to the bed. And he kissed me.
I really should have stopped what was going on, especially after everything on the reservation. But between the contonous "I'm dreaming and I love you's" his hands began to explore around my body over Jacobs shirt, quickly turning me on.
And I couldn't help but wonder if Seth had ever had dreams of me like this before, or else why was was he so quick, in doing what he was doing now.
"Seth, your not dreaming this is real." I tried saying. But with his constant kissing, I could only able to say. "Seth, your.. dreaming this... real"
"I know. It does feel real." he said. He trailed his kisses down my neck, letting his hand under the shirt until he cupped my breast.
He messaged it with his hand. "I love you so much Hannah." he said.
"Seth wait." I said.
His hand lifted my shirt and he brought his mouth to my chest.
His hand moved down, and into my panties. He began to rub me, only making me moan.
"Wait Seth." I breathe out.
He slipped his fingers into me. Making me moan again.
"I can't believe how real this feels." he said.
"It is." I moaned out.
But he ignored me, and contiued to finger me, kissing me.
I had to stop this. I pulled at his hand to stop it, but that urge I had with Paul the first time was wanting to consume me.
That "vampire" frenzy Paul had told me.
"Seth no." I weakily said.
A/N
Reason of lack of update. Two laptops got viruses, leaving me with no internet access. Sorry!