"as I lay there on my bed unmotionless with my sobs being the only thing I could hear. I let the darkness of what was happening finally envelope me it was all happening to fast. I remember a week ago when I though I had no more love to give away and then I meet the one guy who was perfect for me… Alec. Before that bastard my life was normal and I had at least one person that I loved with me. And now I have none and I wish not to live anymore. What about Anna said a voice in the back of my mind. I couldn't let that happen to her. Because then she would be alone in the world. I sobbed more into my pillow. I was stuck no matter what I was never going to see her again anyway but just the thought that she was still there for me gave me comfort… I was alone right now I wanted to dance so bad right now,ever since I was about five dancing was my life it was the way I delt with bad things like when I learned that my grandfather had died I went ointo my room and danced. I laughed at the picture from my memory. I got up from the bed and went over to my computer they had given me. I went strait to itunes. I could vent to ways now, one was buying tons of music so that they could pay for all of it although I was smart enough to know that money was not a problem for the volturi. I went on and bought all of my favorite dancing music. There was at least 100 songs on there and more then have of them were techno the other half was I had the music taken care of I dug into my suitcase for my old daceing cloths,they were not like perceptional dancing cloths but they held up over about four years time. Once I was dressed I looked in the mirror and almost did not recognize my self I had not worn these cloths in years. I almost cried at that point again my parents always loved It when I danced. I was wearing a pair of black leggings and a skirt that was flowy and easy to move in and a simple tank top but it was all very flexible for dancing so it worked.

Once I had all my music packed up I took it to the room that aro earlier introduced to me as the training room. I didn't think anyone would be training at this time. Once I got there I found that I was right it empty I placed the little stareo down and turned the volume up first on the CD was porcelain heart I loved this song but it was a little to appropriate for this occasion. It brought tears to my eyes… I went to go change it but as the lyrics drifted into my ears I couldn't help but move my whole body to the I was dancing again and it felt as though I never stopped. I felt tears rolling down my eyes and I tasted the saltiness of them in my mouth. I went to do a spin and I landed on the floor I tried to get up again but I couldn't my body would not let me I was just lying there balling my eyes out now I should have felt disgraceful. Week letting a little boy like alec get to me but I didn't feel that way I felt comfort sitting there. The music started to fade in the back round I was going to get up to go to my room but I couldn't there was arms holding me I

Maybe it was alec the though made me smile.

"alec" I questioned

"no not at all" I looked up to the mystery man it was Demetri.

"OH GOD how embarrassing" I said trying to wipe up my tears.

" no not him either but a lot of people say we look a lot alike" he said with a laugh.

"not what I meant I said trying to get up but his arms were like rock. I could not move them I looked at his he was staring deeply at me I looked into his eyes although they were bright crimson, like blood they were comforting in a way. I looked away and so did Demetri he quickly got up and did a akward cough.

"do you want me to help you into your room." he said I looked at him with questioning eyes.

He looked embarrassed when he found out how that sounded "I didn't mean it that way I swear".

I laughed at him. He looked so human at that point it was refreshing. "don't worry I know what you meant" I said giving him a half smile.

"so do you need help carring your stuff?" he asked

"yes I would love some help" I said wiping the last of my tears away

"so do you like the castle so far" Demetri asked I looked at him with unbelieving eyes. He looked over at me well I mean aside from everything

"well I can honestly say that from here on out I don't think my life will ever be boring" we both laugh at my statement untill he came to a compleate holt

"well madam I believe we are here." he said in a really good French accent. I looked at him with a look of surprise he opened the door and pointed towards it

"after you my lady" he said I laughed at him

"don't try and be all cool I like it when you act your self." i said he looked at me with astonishment

"hey how do you know that the real me is not the cool version" he asked while puffing out his chest.

"good night Demetri" I said as I looked at him I could just see what was coming up he was slowly coming closer with his lips at ready. I panicked and turned my head to the side so his lips touched my cheek not my own lips after that I could tell that was not how Demetri planed that but before he got a chance to do it again I slipped in to my room

"thank you for everything really I appreciate it, good night." I said while slaming the door on my last word so he couldn't have a chance to reply

Once in my room I set my things down and laid down on my bed exhausted and not even from the dancing. I got up and when over to my suitcase looked around for my pj's I had on earlier. I found them and quickly changed.

"did you have fun" I turned sharply around to see who was talking to me, but after searching the room I saw nothing untill I got to the taris out side my window there he was smug as ever sittting there on the edge. None other than alec.

"what do you want" I asked almost letting my tears get the best of me but I didn't.

"I came because I was going to appoligize to you" he said with a hint of anger in his voice.

"excuse me,was?" I questioned

"yes was. Untill I saw you with Demetri. No matter where you are your always going to be a slut." alec shot the words at me like som kind of weapon or that what they felt like atleast.

"you don't even know me" I shot at him with a eaqual amount of force

"well that didn't stop you when you were acting so desperate in the car." he looked at me and when I had nothing to say he went on "and I know you a lot more than you and felix were sent months in adavce to spy on you we saw everything you did and who you did it with" he said I looked at him appauled

"that is my personal buissness. Plus I am a different." I was cut off before I could finish

"no don't even say you're a different person now because your pulling the same old tricks." he said

"get out" I said between clenched teeth

"hmm you know the worst part when we first started spying on you I told my self that I would never fall for a girl like you then you got here and I did. I should have known better.I guess you're my only exception" he said and he left with his words lingering in the air.

I pressed my hand to my head and just sat on my bed I regret so much right now how could he bring that up he knew what that guy did to me and he is calling me a slut… I suddenly looked up right into the mirror I dint recognize who I was right now it was like I was a new person the old me would never cry this much in a lifetime. And especially over a guy. I stood up with a look of pure hatred I didn't even know who it was for maybe for me the person I was portraying or alec or everyone. But right now I didn't want to think about that I wanted to take my anger out and now. I got dressed in some jeans and a black tank top with my black leather coat over it all and a pair of stilettos. I was going out tonight and I didn't care where they had to have some kind of clubs in Italy. And I was going to take alec's car I believe.

I ran out side trying not to make a sound. Once I got outside I spotted the car and ran towords it untill jane appeared out of nowhere.

"late isn't it" she asked with a quirky eyebrow raised

"jane please let me go, you have no ideal what I have been through today." she stared off into space for a moment after I was done talking it felt like a million years passed by although it was only a minute.

"I think I can emagine, and I cant let you go" she said crossing her arms over her chest. I gave a disbelieving look. "….unless you have someone go with you" she said smiling at me.

"oh jane do you want to go clubbing with me" I asked her with puppy dog eyes.

"well I guess if I have to" she tossed me a set of keys

I looked at her with curiosity

"what car" I asked she smiled at me. A cheeky smug grin. She pointed behind me I turned around and imitatly put my hand to my mouth. "this car" I asked. It was a Mazda rx-7 in blood red.

"you look like a girl who likes the color red" jane said I ran over to the car

"so do you want to drive or am I driving" I asked, jane looked at me and laughed.

"I'm not getting in a car with you I am driving my own car." she said getting in to a nice Nissan 350z it was purple I loved it but I loved the one she gave me to drive more.

I got in the car and the seats were so cool they had seatbelts that were like racecars I couldn't help but wonder if the volturi actually had a fun side.

Jane had already started her car and was at the end of the garage I started the engine and it purred to life there was a sound system like no other it could I hooked up my ipod and took off tot catch up to jane. I was right next to her when she roled down her window. I did the same

"hey do you like that car?" she asked I looked at her like she was crazy of course I loved it

"well let me think about that jane?" I said with a very sarcastic voice "why?" I asked

"well because if you want that car it's yours" she said I felt like my heart was going to stop. "you do have your license, right?" she eyed me I felt my face drop a little.

"well I know how to drive if that is what your asking" I said looking down trying not to look to guilty

"we will work on that later," said jane rolling her eyes " follow me and try to keep up." she said with a smile I knew from driving recently with Alec vampires don't really like going the speed limit. Thinking of Alec made me want to cry and kick someone's ass. As I was thinking I didn't even realize Jane had taken off with a worried expression I looked over my shoulder and there was Felix with a very pissed off look. I quickly stepped on the gas although it was not needed in this car, because I took off a little to fast It took a second to get control of the wheel again but once I did I caught sight of Jane, and tried to follow her but it was so hard I finally gave up trying to get in front of her so I just satyed where I could see her and made sure no cops could see jane turned a sharp corner it cought me off guard but I made the turn as I saw her purple Nissan pull up into a ally I wondered what she was doing, but I followed anyway. Once we got into the ally jane parked next to a garbage can. I went ahead of her and parked a little bit further because I didn't want to have to smell the stink. Once I parked jane was already waiting for me by my door.

"what are we doing here I thought we were going to go tot a hot club" I said with a grin.

"just follow me" she said already walking away towords a nasty looking building that looked run down,there was even a sign that said condemned, I looked around there was nobody around so I followed her once we gont in the building it was completely empty. I gave jane a questioningly look, where were we. She paid me no mind though and kept on walking to the back of the building. Soon we reached a flight of stairs

"the club is called underworld, keep close to me" was all jane said before she started climbing down the stairs once we reached the bottom I heard a loud bumping sound coming from behind a door.

"this is a club right?" I asked

"yes, why?" Jane replied

"well don't you think the music would be a little louder" jane just laughed at me. She opend the door but behing it was not a ton of dancing drunk people it was a safe like door but it didn't look likr there was a way in untill a scaner popped out of the wall jane just put a little card up to it then the doors started to open that is when it felt like a real club there was bumping music and people galor. Jane grabbed my hand ang lead me through the crowd.

"this place is so cool" I yelled to jane

"I know-" jane was cut off before she could finish her sentence. There was a girl standing in front of her. She looked asian and she had red eyes like jane she was beautiful like jane also I asumed she was a vampire.

"well hello Jane did you bring a snack?" she said eyeing me. I felt awkward under her gaze.

"well Kayla, because of club rules I cant stop you if you want to eat her. But let me tell you she is aro's personal guest and my brother and demitri's mate I don't think you want to do that." by the look on her face she really didn't want to eat me. I kinda laughed at her, in my mind of course. Jane pushed past the girl with her shoulder. Once we got to a table I looked at jane and noticed she was avoiding my gaze.

"so I am guessing these are all vampires?" I gave me a cheeky smile

"vampire clubs are so much better then humans we have eternity to party." she said

"jane whats a mate?" I questioned

"it is a topic that will be saved for a later time." she said

"jane" I said giving her a look of disaproval

"I will tell you when we arent having a good time."she said grabbing my hand again and lead me on the dance floor. At first we were getting used to the music swaying our hips then a techno song came on and every one got on the dance floor at first I didn't know how safe I was surrounded by vampires who were free to eat me but soon the though just left my mind when we really got into the music,soon swaying turned into grinding things were getting pretty hot and heavy as we danced I put my arms around janes neck and went low swinging my hips all the way down. As I came up we both laughed. Then a guy came up to us. He had blond hair that was cut neatly around his face and he had brown eyes that were almond shaped

"well well ladies your looking good" he said in a deep Italian accent.

"and you wont be if you don't leave" Jane threatened

"come on jane I am just interested in your new friend" he said eyeing me but not like something to eat so it didn't feel that awkward.

"well that's to bad she is mine tonight" she said sliding her arms around my neck then she leaned down

"just go with it" she whispered in my ear . Rigtht after that she looked between me and the boy then finally she stuck her tounge out and licked my lips with the tip of her tounge I smiled. I had,had enough drinks to blame it on the alcohol. After she was done with that she kissed down my neck I looked up and smiled at the boy he was just sitting there with a stunned loo on his face. I though I would make this even more fun I grabbed janes face and connected our lips I started making out with her as sexy as I could. I looked up again and the boy was adjusting him self I smiled to my self and got more into it grinding and kissing finally he left. I stopped and me and jane looked at each other and laughed some more

"well that was fun" I said

"haha yeah, my brother has no ideal what he is missing out on your really good at that." she said smiling although my smile faltered a little she noticed it to.

"do you want to go back to the castle" I nodded

"yes I think I have had a little to much to drink anyway I am getting a headache.

"ok I will drive us home "

"ok" I said leaning on Jane for help walking the next thing I remember iwas waking up with a spliting headache I sat up then got a funny feeling in my stomach

ok songs for this chap...

the only the only exception by paramore because of what alec said to sapphira

if i had you by adam lambert because it reminds me of the club scene and well the title says it all

the fast and the furius by the teriyaki boy haha because of the cars in my story are from tokyo drift so yeah

and dum dum dum

i kissed a girl by katy perry for obvious resons

ok i am soory for waiting for ever tio update again but i promise i will never make you all wait that long ever again