Chapter 4: Seduction and Heartache

I couldn't believe it. Tomorrow will be L's and I's two month anniversary! I honestly couldn't control my happiness. It's been almost two months of pure bliss. Well, almost.

I've still been getting threats from my Kira side but he has yet to gain all my self control. L's also been constantly worried about me; watching what I do, making sure the food I eat is well prepared and even making me take freaking vitamins! But I really can't complain. My relationship with him is just so beautiful. I truly do love him.

I played with my pencil, bored out of my mind as usual in head quarters. My dad, Soichiro, was just going on and on about random shit. Probably Kira related. I can't really say since, as usual, I was in my L fantasy land.

"Light! Get your head out of the gutter and pay attention!" yelled my father, making me jump from my chair.

"S-sorry, dad." I said my face red from embarrassment.

"If my talking is boring you, Light, You may leave." said my dad. Gosh, he's been acting like such a prick lately! He usually never raises his voice at me and now that I have gained back my memories, which he doesn't know about, he's been acting like a total ass! I was really getting pissed and, without thinking, yelled back at him.

"Fine! I will leave!" I said and ran out of headquarters. I ran until I finally made it to my room. Watari was there, decorating a three tier cake, probably for L.

"Well hello there, Yagami-san. Would you like some cake?" said L's caretaker. He was always so nice and humble to us but L never exactly told me how they met or even his history. I mean, I talk about my family all the time and I can't help but feel like maybe he didn't have one. Maybe he doesn't keep contact with them and Watari is all he has left.

I smiled back to the nice old man "No thanks, Watari. I'm good."

He smiled back and kept on decorating the cake. I walked to my room and closed the door behind me. I hopped onto bed and stared at the ceiling. Not before long, sleep greeted me.

***

"Light? Light are you going to wake up yet?" said the voice I knew all too well. My angel's voice; an angel only known to the world as L.

"Yup…I am now, L. What's up, love?" I said, sitting up so I can get a better look at my angel. He smiled at me and it melted my heart.

"I just wanted to kiss you" said L, looking like an innocent child with his knees up and his thumb on his lips.

I pecked his soft, warm lips once and then that one kiss turn to one, long passionate one. L's back hit our soft bed and I was on top of him, feeling his erection against mine. We moaned into our heated kisses. I couldn't help myself. He was my drug. My obsession.

I slipped my hand under his shirt, rubbing his nipples and still not breaking our kiss.

"Light…Light" he panted. I finally broke our kiss and took my hand from under his shirt. I then took my shirt off, then loosened my belt and took it off, as well as my jeans. L gawked at my body, making feel like something beautiful. I blushed.

"It's your turn, L" I said. L blushed and slowly took off his shirt, and then his jeans and boxers soon followed. We both laid there, naked, exchanging each other's body heat. L snuggled against my neck, making me giggle.

"I love you, L"

"I love you, too."

My heart fluttered. I knew he loved me but hearing him say it just made me feel like it was the first time he did.

But this moment turned bittersweet once I saw L's body; like I really saw it (Since we usually make love in the dark). I noticed he had markings and cuts all over his torso making me gasp. Who could've done such a ghastly thing to my angel!? He was that, an angel! He would never fight or hurt someone. But why did he have these strange cuts? Who did this?

Without even thinking I brushed my fingers along the scars. L instinctively grabbed my wrist, making me startled. I also noticed some scars on L's wrist. No. My angel would never even think about cutting himself! And I was right. The scars looked nothing like cuts, more like burn marks. Damn, that's even worse!

"L," I croaked. I was disgusted at what I saw. Not because it clashed with my L's beauty, oh no I love him either way. I was disgusted most at the person who caused this to my L.

"H-How?"

"What do you mean 'how', Light-kun?" replied L in a monotone voice.

"You know perfectly well what I mean, L! The scars! The markings! How?" I said with my voice cracking. I was ready to cry at any moment.

L just looked at me and sighed.

"I-I can't tell you, Light. Not now." He kissed my head. "May we please continue?"

I sighed as well. I still really did want him.

"Sure, love" I said to him.

L laid on his back while I was still on top of him. I kissed him all over his neck, his chest and back up to his lips all the while he kept whimpering. It made me more aroused.

"L, turn over." I said. L nodded and did as I told him. His cute bum in the air made me blush.

"Gosh L, why do you have to be so damn cute?!" I said, chuckling

"You think I'm cute?" L said, chuckling.

"Duh! I mean, look at you! You're adorable!" I said as I pinched his bum and he gasped in pleasure. I giggled.

I positioned myself, ready to enter his tight, warm body. My erection brushed lightly on his entrance, making both of us moan.

"Ready, angel?" I asked.

"Hah…yes…oh yes, Light!" he whimpered. He really did get impatient when it came to making love. I just loved teasing him.

I then slowly made my way inside of him. He whimpered and panted as my tip slowly entered his tight entrance.

"It's okay, L. Just relax, okay?" I said, as I held his hips.

I then proceeded to make my way fully into Ryuuzaki. He screamed as he felt me inside. I really didn't want to hurt him but he knew it was going to hurt a little, especially since he was so tight.

"Light-kun…hah…please!" I knew exactly what he wanted me to do. I smiled and kissed his back. I then proceeded to thrust in and out, slowly and cautiously, as if my L would break and shatter if I went too fast and harsh.

"Liiight! More…nng…more, please!" he moaned loudly. I nodded and started to pick up speed, making L and I both moan.

I kept slamming into him, hoping that I could hit that spot. The spot that will make my angel cry out in ecstasy. Only a couple thrusts more and I found it.

"Hah! Liight…Liight…Oh Light-kun!" he moaned (more like screamed) in pleasure. I kept hitting that particular spot, hoping I could make him come. No, I didn't want him to come…yet. I need to make love to him just a little longer.

I knew he must be close. I slid my hand to where his hard-as-a-rock erection was and grabbed it, holding onto it gently, making L gasp. I then slid my thumb on top of his moist tip, making him unable to release.

"Nng! Liight…I…I want to-"

"Not yet, love. Not yet." I said, breathless. He whimpered. I knew he really wanted to but I couldn't let him. Not now.

I kept thrusting in and out of him; L's sweet moans intoxicated me so much I moaned.

"L…L…L!" I moaned.

Not before long, I was at the peak of reaching my own climax.

"L, want to have the best orgasm ever?" I asked, breathless. I thrust once in that special spot and L cried out.

"Yes, Light! I want it! I want it! Nng!" he moaned. I smiled sinisterly and let go of L's erection. At the same time, we both released, both of us screaming each other's name. L's knees shook violently and then he collapsed on the bed. I soon followed, collapsing on top of his frail body.

When I finally rode out my high, I unsteadily sat up and waited for L. He was still on the bed, his face dug onto the sheets and his hands balled up into fists. Did I do something wrong? Was I too rough? Oh god, I hope he isn't mad or anything.

"L?" I said, as I tapped his shoulder. No response. Damn, I'm in trouble.

"L, baby? Are you okay? Do you feel sick?" I asked, softly. L finally rose from his position, though he made no eye contact with me. Tears fell from his obsidian eyes and I grew more concerned.

"L what's wrong? Did I-" I was cut short with his head hitting my shoulder.

"No, Light. It isn't you. It has to do with…" he looked at the burn mark that graced his wrist. He closed his eyes and silently let the tears flow down and hit my bare chest.

I wrapped my arms around him, resting my chin on his head. I knew, for a fact that I did not cause my angel this pain, and I'm glad. But who did? Who caused him this physical and emotional pain? If I knew who it was, I would surely turn into Kira again with no second thoughts about it.

***

After L's little episode, we both just cuddled until we fell asleep. I held him until he fell asleep then I slept soundly as well. I really needed to sleep; it relaxed me and kept my mind off of my angel's scars, though it was hard not to think about it. I mean, he is my boyfriend I have all the right in the world to be angry at the person who caused him this awful pain.

I was sleeping soundly before I heard retching from the bathroom. I shot up from my bed, looking to see if L was right beside me. He wasn't. I tossed the sheets and ran to the bathroom. There I saw L, throwing up the contents of his stomach into the toilet.

"L!" I practically yelled as I ran towards him. I rubbed his back as he kept on vomiting.

"Oh, L" I said, still rubbing his back gently. He then spit into the toilet then looked up at me, vomit all over his mouth. I helped L up and brought him to the sink. L then proceeded his teeth and gargle on some mouthwash. I held his hand and led him back to our bedroom, where I laid him on our soft bed.

"L, are you feeling okay? Do you want to see a doctor tomorrow?"

"Of course not, Light-kun! Tomorrow is our anniversary and other than that, I see no reason why I should be taken to the doctors." L said in his usual tone.

I rolled my eyes.

"L you just puked your guts out back there! You're probably sick with something." I replied, my arms around his slender figure. L sighed and snuggled into my chest.

"I think it's time I told you my secret, Light. The one regarding all my…scars." He spat out that word. I knew it was hard for him but I love that trusts me with such a secret. I smiled.

"Only if you want to tell me, L. I don't want you to feel obligated." I replied.

L looked up at me for a split second and then went back down to snuggling in my chest.

"No, I do want to tell you. I'm just scared of how you will take it."

"Don't worry, L. I love you and nothing is ever going to change that." I said, stroking his soft hair. L sighed.

"Okay, Light. First off I want to tell you that I love you as well.' He took a deep breath. 'I know you weren't expecting to hear this but…I didn't lose my virginity to you, Light."

That felt like I've been kicked in the stomach. I couldn't believe it. My angel was someone else's' before I came into the picture. I wanted to believe that he is and always will be mine. He belongs to me and no one else. But here he is telling me that someone else has his innocence while I have…well what do I have? His heart? His love? God I don't even know.

"So…the reason you have the scars because you were in an abusive relationship?" I said, trying to hide the pain I felt.

"No. It does sound like it, though. But this goes a lot deeper than that." He said.

I didn't understand where he was going with this but I knew it couldn't be good.

He took another deep breath and looked directly into my eyes and said those words that I wish I never heard.

"I-I was raped, Light"

I didn't want to believe what I had just heard. No. It couldn't be real. My poor angel had been raped, his innocence plucked like a flower. He didn't deserve this horrible pain. I hope whoever did this is rotting in the ground somewhere.

L then proceeded to tell me what had happened.

***

Flashback

"Look like the innocent flower, but be the serpent under't…" I read out loud as I read my favorite works of literature of all time, William Shakespeare's Macbeth. As I kept on reading, there was a knock at my door, forcing me to look up from my worn-out copy of the play.

"Come in!" I yelled from where I lay on my bed.

There walked in my caretaker, Watari with a cup of tea and a piece of strawberry shortcake. My favorite.

"Watari!" I exclaimed as I saw him. He smiled and set my snack down on my side table and proceeded to give me a tight hug. I felt so warm inside every time I saw him. He was like the mother and father I never got a chance to meet.

"How are you, Lawliet?" he asked. I didn't really mind that he called me by my real name though I would much rather be called what the world knows me as, 'L'.

"I'm fine. Just reading." I said, smiling at the old man. He looked at me then at the book I held close to me. Then he smiled again.

"Macbeth again, L?" he said. I grinned. He knew that I've already read it about 100 times and have every line memorized but I still can't seem to stop reading it.

Watari sighed and ruffled my hair then left me to my reading. When he left, I continued to read but I was interrupted once more with another knock. I sighed.

"Come in!"I yelled again and set my book under my pillow. Then walked in my best friend and the person I was highly infatuated with, BB.

BB walked in and smiled that smile that seemed to scare everyone but I found utterly wonderful.

"BB!" I exclaimed as I hopped out of bed and hugged him. He pushed me away gently then pecked me gently on the lips. This wasn't the first time he's done this to me but every time he does I just can't help but blush. BB smiled again then we went and sat on my bed. He put his arms around me while I just blabbed about random things that probably didn't interest BB.

"Hey L, want to know a secret?" he asked childishly and interrupted my blabbering.

"Sure, BB." I replied. BB then smiled and kissed me again. This time it was rough and hard. He even slipped his tongue in my mouth, exploring it. I wasn't really used to this but since I wanted him to like me, I'll let him do it.

He stopped kissing me, saliva running down both corners of his mouth. His red eyes looking at me intently.

"I like you a lot, L. I think I might even be falling for you." He said. My heart skipped as he said this. Could he be telling the truth? I-I want to believe him. I'll just go with my gut with this than listen to my head.

"I like you, too. I have for awhile, BB." I said blushing immensely.

"Now, L there's no need to be embarrassed." He then stroked my hair and smiled again "Want to have some fun, L?" he asked. I really didn't know what his sense of 'fun' was. But it couldn't hurt to try, right?

I nodded. He smiled and pushed me down on the bed. He got on top of me and started to kiss me roughly again. I moaned into the kiss. I felt a strange feeling over me and I didn't like it. It made me feel…uncomfortable.

"BB…Stop." I said. But B wouldn't listen. He started to undress me and I squirmed and whimpered and he seemed to get some sick pleasure at seeing me like this. I was now naked and BB with only his shirt on. I felt tears filling my eyes and BB wiped them away.

"Don't cry, L. We haven't even done anything yet!" he said. I continued to let the tears fall down my face freely.

He then proceeded to flip me over so my backside was facing him. I knew what he was going to do but I couldn't yell it felt like my throat was dry.

"BB," I pleaded "Please stop." BB didn't listen. Instead he grabbed my sheets and used them to tie my hands to the head board of my bed and tie my feet together. Now I really was worried. I needed to do something. The only thing I could think of was to scream, so that's what I did. Big mistake.

"Don't you dare scream! Not until I'm done with you!" He said. I tried to plead him to let me go but he then punched my back and I felt the coolness of his blade.

"Don't." he merely said. He then proceeded to ram himself into me, just like that. I screamed at the pain seeping through me and was greeted with more pain. The more I screamed or did something the more rough he went or the more punches and slits I got.

I felt like I was going to throw up. I was so disgusted of what my supposed friend was doing to me. I've been in this position for an hour and I it still hurts. I was now facing BB, his red eyes gleaming. The bastard. He enjoyed this. He enjoyed me suffering. He didn't like me. This is what I get for being so naïve.

"What's…wrong…L?" he panted. I didn't know what to say. I just came clean. I wasn't afraid of death so if he wants to kill me, I hope he gets what's coming to him. I have no ounce of pity for him.

"I-I…hate you." I said, through gritted teeth and sobs trying to escape me. BB stopped fucking me for a split second before scolding and grabbing his blade again. He made a bunch of marks on my chest, I screamed in agony as I felt the blood trickle down my chest. He slapped me, spit at me, cut me, punched me and kept fucking me and what could I do? Nothing. I was disappointed at myself for not doing anything. I was here, helpless and getting fucked in the ass.

And as if by some miracle, as if God heard me, there came another knock at the door. BB just ignored it and told me to keep quiet. I whimpered. Then the door slowly opened. It was Watari, carrying another tray with tea and shortcake.

"Lawliet, I thought you might have-"he then witnessed BB and I's 'intimate' moment. He dropped the tray full of my favorite things on the floor, making a loud thud as it hit the wooden floor.

"BB, p-please go to Roger's office. I-I need to have a word with L. I'll deal with you later." he said. BB hissed and then took himself out of my body and I winced. He grabbed his pants from the floor and walked out the door. Good riddance.

Watari came over to where I was and untied my hands and feet. I tried to hug him but my bottom hurt tremendously so Watari wrapped my white blood soaked sheets around my body and held me. I felt safe now.

"Oh, L." he said as he stroked my head. "I'll never let you out of my sight again." He vowed as he kissed my forehead. Tears of joy now fell from my eyes.

End of flashback

***

I was in utter shock of what L has told me. I felt tears run down my face and L wiped them. I'm supposed to be comforting him! He's my angel after all. I pecked his lips and held him tightly.

"How long was that?" I asked as I rested my chin on his head.

"I was about 13 when that happened so about 8 years ago." He said, calmly. I gritted my teeth.

"Is-is that guy still alive" I asked, still grinding my teeth together.

He sighed.

"No."

Thank goodness! I would hunt him down myself if he were still around.

"Light, If I could go back in time and prevent that from happening, I would've wanted you to have my innocence." He said, sincerely.

I blushed and smiled.

"I know, angel. I know." I replied.

I looked at the clock that was resting on the end table next to our bed. It's red numbers reading 12:00 am. I smiled.

"Hey, L?"

"Yes, my love? What is it?" He said facing me.

I kissed his lips tenderly then looked directly into those obsidian beauties.

"Happy anniversary, L."

***

Wow this was such a hard chapter for me to write since I've never been in L's position. I think it turned out fine though. What do you guys think? Did Kelly (cherry) do good? I hope so! Anyway, like I said in my journal, please don't hate me. I worked really hard on this chapter and if it sucked well next chapter will be a lot more cute and fluffy, I promise. By the way, if you guys have any questions, I'll be more than happy to answer them. But I think there's at least one thing I must clarify okay two. Light is 17 in this story (almost 18) and L is 21 (I wanted them to be closer in age though it's not a drastic change) and BB is a year older in the flashback. Also, when BB grabbed his pants and left the room, he didn't go off showing his 'family jewels' to anyone, his shirt was long and went up to his knees (I thought it was cute). Um what else…Oh! L puked in that scene because he got that flashback in his dream and it disgusted him so he vomited. Anyways, thank you all for your love and support and I'll see you all next chapter.

~Love Kelly J.T. (Cherryfreezie777)